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Walking in the Shadow of Dreams is a Neon Genesis Evangelion What If? fanfiction by Gregg Landsman.

Using a snippet by the creator of The Second Try as a launching point, Landsman takes us to a world where Third Impact was rejected. The story opens with a Shinji and Gendo that actually have some common ground sparring as a lead-in to Gendo offering Shinji a job as NERV's Chief Inspector. His first assignment — go fetch the new head of Project E.

Gendo being Gendo, even now, he neglects to tell his son the recruit is a certain red-head...and that their new head scientist is bringing her daughter...

The fanfic can be found in FF.Net. Unfortunately Gregg only wrote sixteen chapters before killing the original story and starting a rewrite, which moves more slowly, expands the plot, and has incorporated Mari Makinami and other characters which weren't in the original.

The forum threads about the rewrite are here and here.


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  • Above the Influence: In a scene of the second version, a hammered Hikari tried to seduce Shinji. Shinji stopped her, arguing that it would be a terrible idea.
  • Action Dad: Shinji is this towards Ariel after becoming his foster father. He almost punched Gendo when he thought his father had designs on her, and he very pointedly warned Gendo against hurting Ariel or Asuka.
  • Arson, Murder, and Jaywalking: Following the Second Angel War, monsters named Kaiju started showing up. Theories about why go from being attracted to Ramiel's corpse to divine punishment for the fact that Commander Ikari remarried. Entirely understandable.
  • Artificial Human:
    • In the original fic Ariel was found in a subsection of the NERV-germany branch which was filled with unfinished dummy-plugs that were genetically based half on Asuka. Because she's biologically her daughter, Asuka decided to take her in and raise her as such.
    • In the rewrite, But I Can't Be Pregnant! / Surprise Pregnancy: Asuka actually gave birth to Ariel, but she has no idea how it happened. Apparently, she woke up one morning and found herself magically pregnant. For obvious reasons she suspects that NERV or AT Field tomfoolery had something to do with it, but because Ariel turned out to be a normal kid, she decided to raise her.
  • The Atoner: Gendo is making a genuine effort to be this — although his chosen avenues tend to be complex and questionable in nature.
    • Yui—and later Kyoko—also count.
    • In the rewrite, Asuka's father, Director Langley, is also trying to be this. He's having mixed success.
  • Attention Whore: Subverted. Asuka was one when she was teenager, but she no longer wants to be the center of attention.
  • Badass Boast: As she catfights Asuka, Rei has a pretty impressive-sounding boast.
    Rei: "I am Adam. I am Lilith. And you are screwed."
  • Birthday Episode: In the seventh chapter of the rewrite, Asuka throws a party to celebrate Ariel's birthday.
  • Break the Cutie: In hindsight, it probably wasn't the best idea to let Shinji guest lecture about his experiences as an Eva pilot. It's quite an accomplishment to make an entire room of trained pilots break into tears.
  • Break the Haughty: Kyoko Zeppelin Langley. She refused even consider she did anything wrong and shoulder her part of responsibility by her daughter's mental scarring. And she went on doing it until she got attacked by Arael. In that moment all of her self-deceiving vanished and she crumbled down.
  • Broken Ace: Asuka goes from certified genius and excellent mecha pilot and fighter to sheltered college teacher who regards herself as a broken mess with non-existent social life.
  • Broken Bird: Asuka. Hoo boy, where to start. The events of Instrumentality ripped her pride to shreds and left her an absolute wreck. While the rest of the cast began to pick up and move on with their lives, her bitterness, resentment, and sense of self worth steadily grew worse and worse, culminating in a violent meltdown 4 years later (see Freak Out). She fled back to Germany after the breakdown and spent the next few years rebuilding her life and recovering from her ordeals. She's mellowed out considerably since then, but is still rather bitter towards her old life, and convinced that everyone she knew back in Tokyo-3 hates her guts and/or sees her as a pitiful wreck of a human being.
  • Brother–Sister Incest: The Lilith part of Rei really wants Shinji to make her some babies.
  • Cannot Spit It Out: Asuka couldn't spit her feelings out because she thought that Shinji hated her for what she did to him.
  • Can't Hold His Liquor: Asuka has absolutely no endurance. Sometimes she wonders why a German woman has gone through college twice is such a light-weight.
  • The Chessmaster: Of course, Gendo is the most obvious example, but Shinji is becoming another. A humorous example was his developing a plan to score with Prof. Soryu. It was a good plan.
  • Children Raise You: After giving birth Ariel, Asuka tried to get over her issues and become a good mother.
  • Chosen Conception Partner: Rei has decided Kensuke will be her children's father -or at the very least, a sperm donor-. Kensuke has no complains whatsoever.
  • Cluster F-Bomb: Touji at the beginning of chapter 6 in the rewrite. Why? Because he's been left to deal with a really weird situation involving younger versions of Shinji and Asuka who have just appeared in Tokyo-3 while the rest of the cast have all decided to take unannounced trips to Berlin.
  • Conveniently an Orphan: Shinji and Asuka lost their mothers when they were little kids.
  • Cool Big Sis: Misato was a blend of this and Parental Substitute to Shinji in the original series. In the rewrite, her mother got married to Gendo, so she now IS Shinji's stepsister and treats him accordingly (or not accordingly, keeping in mind how her blood sister would want to be treating him).
  • Cool-Down Hug: After twelve years Shinji at least has managed to master the technique. He effectively uses it several times with Asuka and in the rewrite it got him laid with Hikari, but that is another history.
  • Cool Uncle: Rei to Ariel. She regards her as her niece. And she is very overprotective and very scary.
  • Covert Pervert: Asuka. As soon as she hooked up with Shinji, she tossed the "covert" part out of the window.
  • Crossover:
    • The changes in Instrumentality that form the backstory of Walking are a result of the butterfly effect of the interactions of the canon NGE cast with the characters from Nobody Dies that were dropped there by that fic's version of Leliel.
    • In the rewrite, younger versions of Asuka and Shinji from the end of End of Evangelion have wound up in this universe alongside their older counterparts, likely for the same reasons.


  • Death Equals Redemption: It took being Mind Raped by Arael for Kyoko finally stopping to blame everybody but her and admitting all her faults and wrongs (including her part on her daughter's mental scarring). Asuka finally forgave her and introduced her to Ariel, something she had previously refused to do before she left for the afterlife.
  • Defrosting Ice Queen: After Third Impact Asuka was a mess. After a while she freaked out and left. After meeting her again, she and Shinji got closer and he managed to go past her barriers to keep everyone away and they got together.
  • Did You Just Punch Out Cthulhu?: Since Rei is now the sum of Adam and Lilith merged with her, Asuka did just that during their Cat Fight. It is not known if it will happen again in the rewrite, though.
  • Disappeared Dad: Asuka raised Ariel by herself and refuses to explain who the father is. This is because she doesn't know either.
  • Drowning My Sorrows: Asuka uses to do this when she is depressed -which happens a lot-. Usually she drinks heavily and then she latches onto Shinji for comfort and reassurance.
  • Everyone Can See It: During a conversation, Shinji says nobody back in high school would have seen Asuka and him getting together. Touji replies EVERYONE saw it but the two of them.
  • Everyone Went to School Together:
    • Shinji, Toji, and Hikari not only shared the same classroom, they attended the same college.
    • In the rewrite, Touji went to a college in Kyoto rather than the one in Tokyo-3 that Shinji and Hikari attended.
  • Fiery Redhead: Even though she is calmer than before, Asuka still keeps her fiery temper.
  • First-Episode Twist: Asuka has a five-year old daughter named Ariel.
  • Freak Out: Asuka had a massive meltdown about 8 years prior to the start of the story, which destroyed Misato's living room and put Shinji in the ICU; She fled to Germany the same night. The reason for her fit? Shinji asked to take her on a date. It was an ugly mess to be sure; lots of bridges were burnt, her relationship with Misato was destroyed, and Rei developed a pretty serious grudge against her because of it. Shinji forgave her however.
  • Friend to All Children: Shinji is surprisingly good with children. He frequently babysits for Toji and Hikari, and to their kids he's known as "Uncle Shinji". He also knows magic tricks!


  • Guile Hero: Shinji has come to think that complex plans are just the way his dad works.
  • Go into the Light: Kyoko, at the sixteenth chapter of the first version, after earning her daughter's forgivenness.
  • Go Through Me: In the rewrite, to reassure Asuka's fears about the possibility of the Commander screwing up with her and her daughter much like NERV and SEELE screwed up with Kyoko and Asuka herself, Misato swears to Asuka that the Commander would have to go through her. It was a very heart-warming moment, especially given how Misato felt about Asuka early on the fic.
  • Heroes Want Redheads: It IS a Shinji/Asuka fic. Shinji bluntly states he had been waiting twelve years to fulfill his Asuka-related fantasies, and Gendo explained to Asuka all relationships his son had been on since college had failed because he kept comparing his girlfriends with Asuka and finding them wanting.
  • Hot-Blooded: Adult Asuka is more self-controlled that her teenager self but she's still fierce and spirited.
  • Humongous Mecha: NERV seized and modified the MP-Evas after the battle of Geofront.
  • I Miss Mom: Subverted. Shinji and Asuka used to miss their mothers... but after the Angel War, they decided Yui and Kyoko were crazy and they are better off without them.
  • Inferiority Superiority Complex: Asuka fabricated an arrogant façade to hide her huge self-esteem issues. After the War, though, she was so burn-out and humiliated that she couldn't keep up their façade anymore.
  • Interrupted Intimacy: Shinji and Asuka are about to have sex in the base's lockers when Rei walks in on them.


  • Karma Houdini: Gendo does not seem to have faced legal consequences for abetting to commit global genocide (although technically everybody were restored. But still...). Moreover, he still is supreme commander of NERV, and since all SEELE members are dead, he can now do anything he wants without them interfering or hindering him.
  • Kid Hero All Grown-Up: Shinji, Asuka, Rei, Touji, Hikari... are in their late twenties and they still work for Nerv.
  • Lighter and Softer: This story is lighter and more hopeful than canon.
  • Love Confession: In chapter 5 Asuka comes home drunk. She lunges at Shinji and kisses her. When he tries to stop her because he think they should not do this as she is plastered, Asuka cries out nobody wants her. Shinji tells he does.
  • Love Dodecahedron:
    • In the original, Gendo revealed to Shinji that he and and Kyoko dated for a while before he met Yui and she returned to Germany and met Asuka's father.
    • In Chapter 6 of the rewrite, a very drunk Hikari tries to put the moves on Shinji. This leads to the reveal that while they were in college, Hikari sought out Shinji for comfort after a break-up with Toji, and it turned into a torrid one night stand. As a result, it's a distinct possibility that Hikari's oldest child is Shinji's and not Toji's. Gregg's not saying one way or the other.
  • Love Hurts:
    • Shinji has been hurt by everyone whom he loves: his abusive father, his crazy mother, his neglectful surrogate mother, his life's love...
    • Shinji's inability to notice her hints, lack of parental and friend supports -and her own trust issues- led to Asuka having a massive breakdown and becoming a psychological mess.
    • Gendo loved Yui so much that he would kill everyone for her... until he realized that she was completely unhinged.
  • Love Interest: Shinji and Asuka are this to each other's.


  • Mad Scientist: Yui Ikari. She was on board with SEELE's "Let's liquefy the whole humankind and merge their souls into a single, divine being" plan the whole time. After the aborted Third Impact, Gendo and Shinji acknowledge she was not quite sane. However she eventually admitted this and felt genuinely remorseful.
  • Making Love in All the Wrong Places: After getting together, Shinji and Asuka have sex everywhere in the base, including lockers and closets. They're often caught.
  • Mama Bear:
    • According to Greg this is the reason behind Asuka's initial hostility towards Shinji; she fears that geting involved with NERV again will destroy her daughter's life (as it did to her.).
    • Word Of God also tells that "If anyone ever tried to put Ari in an Eva, that person would find that Yui was quite restrained in protecting her child compared to Asuka."
    • And then there's Rei, who, besides trying for a family of her own, has taken a shine to Asuka's daughter Ariel.
      "I am Auntie Rei," Rei Ayanami says, "And we must discuss your actions towards my niece."
      Two hours of quality time follows.
    • And even though Yui or Kyoko are disappointed with their offspring not following their wishes, they still can be scary when someone is threatening them:
      Yui (to Kyoko): "Get away from my son."
    • Misato's mother also can count in the rewrite. Misato told Shinji if Gendo ever slightly pisses her off, her mother will geld him with her bare hands.
  • Mandatory Motherhood: Asuka didn't know who Ariel’s father was, but she decided to raise her anyway.
  • Me's a Crowd: Apparently, instead of being dissolved by Ritsuko, the Dummy Plug Cores escaped into Tokyo-3 and dispersed; each with an uploaded copy of Terrifying!Rei's personality. One is Gendo's secretary, a few work in the Geofront, at least one is a neighbor to Shinji, one has a movie career in Europe. and at least four went to college with Shinji and Rei. These are just the ones that Greg has listed off; there are about three dozen of them out there. Oh, and only Gendo, Ritsuko, and Rei know about this.
  • Meet the In-Laws:
    • In the original story, Asuka's father and stepmother visited Nerv Japan and met Shinji. Asuka's father punched him accidentally, and Gendo fired him and pushed him in a LCL pool.
    • In the rewrite, Asuka's father punched Shinji upon meeting him. Then they talked and got along reasonably well.
  • Mind Rape: Asuka survived one in the original series... and then she met Arael again. Unfortunately she was able to resist it this time. However her mother also was attacked by Arael.
    • Arael also gets his metaphorical hands on another character: Gendo, who's raked over the coals so viciously that the first thing he does afterward is to stumble back to his office, take a revolver out of his desk drawer, and start playing Russian roulette with it. Rei telekinetically blows the gun out of his hand before he can shoot himself.
  • Mythology Gag: After his marathon sexual encounter with Rei, Kensuke asks for "orange juice and an IV drip". Kaji used the same line in a similar context in Nobody Dies.
  • Noodle Incident:
    • In the rewrite, Shinji tells Asuka his father got married again. He says he and Rei got him on the dating circuit and mentions it was somewhat awkward, but he does not provide more—or juicier—details.
    • He also frequently alludes to Rei's "Adventures" during college.
  • No Social Skills: Asuka's people skills got worse after the War. Twelve years later she's a very lonely person with non-existent social life.
  • Old Flame: Misato and Kaji. They broke up and got back together. However Ritsuko found Kaji after a Seele agent shot him, and she nursed him back to health. They fell in love and got married.
  • Only Sane Man:
    • Shinji has a tendency to be this.
    • Touji also has his moments, specially in the rewrite.
  • Orphan's Ordeal: Shinji and Asuka are in their late twenties and they haven't fully recovered from the psychological damage caused by their mothers' deaths when they were four.
  • Other Me Annoys Me: In the rewrite alternate, younger versions of Shinji and Asuka (from after the events of the End of Evangelion) have wound up in this universe alongside their older counterparts (see Crossover above). While they have yet to meet, some sample material the author has written has shown that Younger and Older Asuka are prone to bickering like a mother with her teenage daughter. The two Shinjis seem to get along pretty well, but the author has implied that they will have a little of this as well.


  • Papa Wolf:
    • Do NOT threaten anyone the Ikaris consider family. This trait, in fact, is why Third Impact didn't go off as it did in canon. Seeing his wife as the manipulator she is in this verse, Gendo gets around his idealized image of her somewhat — to the point he has his metaphysical fingers at her throat and is ROARING, "God damn you, get away from MY SON!"
    • Gendo lampshades it, blatantly stating it is embarrassing when he can be considered the best parent in the room.
    • In the rewrite, Pieter Langley is trying to make up for being a terrible father, and he has become a Papa Wolf in the process. He has gotten into a screaming match with Misato, punched Shinji and told Hikari off so far.
  • Parental Substitute: Misato was Shinji and Asuka's guardian... but she neglected them when they were going through their worst pains, and as a result Asuka got a break-down, hurt Shinji and ran away. Several years later she admitted that she failed both kids.
  • People Jars: In the first version, Ariel was floating in one of these when she was found.
  • Red Oni, Blue Oni: Asuka is the Red to Rei's Blue. She is emotional and temperamental, whereas Rei is cool and controlled, even when she is angry.
  • Reformed, but Rejected: Asuka has to deal with this in the rewrite. She's cleaned up her act since her rather spectacular meltdown 8 years prior, but the majority of the cast (sans Shinji) don't believe she has changed, particularly Rei who makes it abundantly clear that she detests Asuka.
  • Relationship Upgrade: Shinji and Asuka get together. Word of God is they'll get married eventually.
  • Robeast: The Angels and the Kaiju. The later ones are easier to deal with since they have no deflector shield.
  • Running Gag: Along with WHUMPA and BABIES, there's Asuka punching Shinji just about every time they meet, and Shinji flagrantly abusing his unlimited expense account.


  • Sadistic Choice: In episode 7 of the first iteration, it gets revealed Ariel is half-angel. It looks like they will be forced to kill her—something Asuka understandably is NOT in favor of, when Gendo orders to subdue her and retrieve her without harm.
  • Scars are Forever:
    • Asuka again, and once again Shinji finds her scars attractive.
      • Interestingly rather than actual scar tissue, she seems more to have had the wounds heal but take on the appearance similar to Rei's. Her destroyed eye is now red, and her many stab wounds were replaced with patches of albino colored skin.
    • Shinji has a scar on his chest from when the Lance entered Unit 01's core during Instrumentality.
  • Shell-Shocked Veteran: Asuka attempted to kill herself after the War. She got therapy but it didn't help, and she had another breakdown several years later. When they story starts out she is a mostly functional twenty-seven-year-old woman, but she's still a very insecure person with no social skills.
  • Shipper on Deck: Gendo. It's scary how easily he can manipulate events to get his son and Asuka back together despite of all what had happened in the series and in the next years. Then he reveals long before meeting Yui he had promised Kyoko he would make things worked for his and her children, but he had forgotten. Makes you wondering what might have happened if only he would have remembered about it during the series...
  • Ship Tease:
    • Shinji and Asuka have a lot of moments. They are still drawn to each other in spite of the past.
    • Rei and Kensuke. She decided that he was an acceptable choice to father her children. Then she fell for him.
  • Stealth Hi/Bye: Both Rei and Gendo seem to enjoy popping up out of nowhere, much to Shinji's annoyance.
  • Take That!: In the first iteration of the fic, to the first American Godzilla film. Identifying the Monster of the Week as an expy of said version of Godzilla, they didn't even bother to send up an EVA. Instead, they had it shot with the positron cannon mid-roar.
  • Talking in Bed: After getting drunk Asuka cries about her failures and her fears as Shinji holds her.
  • The Teetotaler: Shinji does not drink. Blame Rei for this.
    • Averted in the Rewrite.
  • That Didn't Happen:
    • Subverted in the rewrite. Shinji and Hikari both agreed (the next day) that their one night stand was a mistake, and Hikari and Toji got back together soon after and are happily married in the fic's present day. However, neither really regrets that it happened, Hikari basically throws herself at Shinji in ch. 6 when she's drunk, and Shinji has to make an effort to control himself enough to resist her.
    • Shinji and Misato do not talk about the kiss she gave him before TI. Not ever.
  • There Are No Therapists: Averted (surprisingly enough). Word Of God states that all the EVA pilots received therapy after the events of the Third Impact. It helped Shinji; Asuka, not so much.
  • This Is Wrong on So Many Levels!: Asuka says this word for word when Ariel is getting her first chess lesson... from Gendo. Shinji wholeheartedly agrees.
  • Title Drop: In chapter 9.
  • Took a Level in Cheerfulness: The three Children are a bit happier and more hopeful in their late twenties.
  • Took a Level in Kindness: Asuka really tries to be a good mother to Ariel and keep her temper in check.
  • Tsundere: After returning to Germany Asuka eventually got her act together and her temper under control (well, after a fashion). The first time saw Shinji she punched him. The second time she wanted to sleep with him.
  • Unfazed Everyman: Shinji. He's aware that he has very little control over events in his life and has learned to simply roll with the punch. He actually seems to revel in the chaos at times.
  • Unresolved Sexual Tension: Between Shinji and Asuka for twelve years until they finally "resolved" it (in the original version Asuka gets drunk and tries to sleep with Shinji barely one day after meeting him again—and punching him).


  • Workaholic: Gendo. He works hours and hours nonstop. NERV staff rumored in reality he is a vampire that feeds on coffee. In the rewrite, Misato had to blackmail him with calling his wife if he did not leave the premises and go home.