there's a dog in your heart
and it tells you to tear everything apart.
My body's covered in teeth marks.
Your bite's worse than your bark.
You ruin everything you touch and
destroy anyone you love..."
Nicole Dollanganger (real name Nicole Bell, born September 8, 1991) is a Canadian, lo-fi musician known for her haunting vocals and eerie lyrics. She began posting her music to the internet in 2011, releasing several albums over the years. Her songs have common themes of Domestic Abuse, Destructive Romance, sex, BDSM, and occasional sweet dates.
- Curdled Milk (2012)
- Flowers of Flesh and Blood (2012)
- Ode to Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs (2013)
- Observatory Mansions (2014)
- Natural Born Losers (2015)
- Heart Shaped Bed (2018)
- Hillbilly Noir (TBA)
- ''Columbine'' (2013)
- Unreleased (2014)
- Baby Land (2014)
- Greta Gibson Forever (2015)
- Covers (2016)
Her music contains examples of:
- Abusive Parents: "Swan" and "Freaks Forever".
- It's implied that "Alligator Blood" is written about a parental figure as well, at least if the fatherly-sounding motto ("grow up weak or grow up tough") is anything to go by.
- Adult Fear: Heaps, in spite of Nicole's girlish and innocent voice. Notable examples include:
- "Choking Games", about the rape and consecutive murder of fifteen-year-old Tammy Homolka at the hands of her older sister.
- "Executioner" and "Rampage" make various references to mass violence and murder, both songs at one point addressing the criminal directly.
- "Dog Teeth", "Alligator Blood", and "Mean", about domestic and emotional abuse.
- "Please Eat", "Ugly" and "Angels of Porn" center around the topics of hospitalization and eating disorders.
- "Flowers of Flesh and Blood" and "Angels of Porn" both prominently implying that the speaker has been raped.
- It's implied that "Uncle" is about incest, though no evidence other than the title and a few scattered Flowers in the Attic references suggest this.
- All Girls Want Bad Boys: The male Love Interests in most of her works are this. "You're So Cool" being a notable example, since the song was written for Nicole's (now) ex-boyfriend because he was in jail and she was hoping that he would hear this song on the radio and it would brighten his day.
- An aversion of this is "Sweet Girl", in which Nicole falls in love with a nameless Nice Girl as opposed to a dangerous man.
- Ambiguously Bi: Frequently writes about straight relationships, but has also penned "Sweet Girl", about a lesbian one. As of yet, Nicole has made no comments pertaining to her sexuality.
- Animal Motifs: Best seen in "Dog Teeth", where the abuser is compared to vicious dog.
- "Swan" and "Alligator Blood" also use animals (of course, a swan and an alligator respectively) as metaphors for the abuse that the speaker has endured.
- Anti-Love Song: "Flowers of Flesh and Blood". Whole song, but a single line says it all."Why didn't anyone tell me love was like being fucked with a knife?"
- Axes at School: "Rampage" seems to be about a school shooting from the point of view of the shooter's girlfriend.
- Creepy Souvenir: "Hair Lockets"."I've been collecting pieces of your hair
To tuck away in the locket that I wear
Pretty strands that grew in your youth
Pieces that I'll always hold on to."
- Blood Brothers: The overreaching theme of (what else) "Blood Brothers".
- Body Horror: An overarching theme in most of her songs, notably "Dog Teeth" and "Alligator Blood".
- Breather Episode: Generally, anything off of Ode to Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs.
- "Sweet Girl" qualifies, as the relationship appears to be a lot healthier than the majority of what Dollanganger sings about.
- Canine Companion: "My Pug"."cuddling in bed, i kiss and rub your belly
listen to you snort and wheeze whine in your sleep
greeted with wet kisses in the early morning
always fall asleep to the song of your snoring."
- Contemptible Cover: Of the Columbine EP. Three guesses what it is.
- Creepy Uncle: "Uncle" is possibly this, especially since it was formerly titled as "I Slept With my Uncle on my Wedding Night". Overlaps with Incest Subtext.
- Destructive Romance: Many of her music have this theme, e.g. "Mean" and "My Baby".
- Domestic Abuse: This is implied or outright stated in numerous songs, most notably "Dog Teeth", "Mean" and "American Tradition".
- Ill Girl: The protagonist of "Adam II (Infirmary)".
- Also implied in "Angels of Porn", in which the speaker is suffering from a relapse of her anorexia nervosa.
- Intentionally Awkward Title: "Angels of Porn".
- "Uncle", given the obsessive implications and sexual imagery of the song.
- Ironic Nursery Tune: "Choking Games" have some of the lyrics ("criss-cross applesauce") being sung like this, considering those lines are sung from the perspective of child murder victim Tammy Homolka.
- Lyrical Dissonance: Sings in a sweet, almost childlike voice with a calm guitar background; covers everything from eating disorders to domestic abuse.
- Non-Appearing Title: Quite a few of her songs are this, like "Sweet Girl".
- Obligatory Bondage Song: Inverted, as many of her song have this theme. But "He Hit Me (And It Felt Like a Kiss)" is a notable one.
- Rape as Drama: Many of her songs imply this, such as "Flowers of Flesh and Blood" and "Angels of Porn". That being said, her work tends to treat it more sensitively than many other examples of this Trope.
- Rape and Revenge: Several, although "Flowers of Flesh and Blood" is a prominent example.
- Self-Harm: "My Funeral Boy"."Every time he cuts himself an angel gets their wings
(My funeral boy)
Every time he burns himself my skin begins to sting
My funeral boy."
- Shout-Out: Several throughout her discography:
- Her stage name itself is a reference to the central family of the Flowers in the Attic book series.
- The song "Beverly Marsh".
- Her album titles Ode To Dawn Wiener: Embarassing Love Songs and Greta Gibson Forever mention characters from Welcome to the Dollhouse and A Nightmare on Elm Street 5: The Dream Child respectively.
- "Blue Moon Motel" contains the lines:
- Softer and Slower Cover: Most of Nicole Dollanganger's covers fall under this category.
- Queer Romance: "Sweet Girl" serves as both this and a Breather Episode.
- Questionable Consent: "Angels of Porn" implies an unpleasant sexual encounter, though if it's rape, it's never explicitly stated in the song:"Your fingers up inside of me feel like fingers down my throat."
- Weight Woe: "Please Eat" is about dating someone with anorexia, and "Angels of Porn" implies the speaker is suffering from the condition herself.
- "Angels of Porn" is also sung from the point of view of a bulimia sufferer.
- Write What You Know: "Angels of Porn" is about a young woman struggling with anorexia. Nicole Dollanganger penned her first songs when hospitalized for the same disease.
- You Are Better Than You Think You Are: The primary message of "Ugly" and "Please Eat".