I Hate Past Me / Fan Works

• It's sort of a thing with most Danny Phantom fanfics. Most of them are all about Danny wondering what the hell he was smoking when he had a crush on Paulina, who ends up becoming an Abhorrent Admirer. This is usually done after revealing his identity as he realized she's just a lunatic.
• In Chapter 49 of BlazBlue Alternative: Remnant, Makoto admits to Blake that in the past, she was incredibly bitter and violent towards humans for all the suffering they put her and other Faunus through, and there was a time when she actually considered taking part in the White Fang's crusade against humanity. She tends to look back on her past self with a lot of self-loathing and hates wondering what she could have become had she never met Tsubaki and Noel.
• This trope, combined with Future Me Scares Me, is present in Spirit Soldier's "Let's Watch Our Show" Plot of Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc, Class 78th Watches the Future, as the ones watching to the visual novel are, as in the title, Class 78. Since Makoto and Kyoko are able to figure that the class had lost their memories, they, minus Mukuro since she's playing as Junko experience how they behaved in the beginning. With them able to see their behavior from the more neutral view of Makoto, some experience frustration with the way they behave, such as Kyoko with her inability to trust or let go of grudges, Toko for her paranoia and distrust of others, Kiyotaka for his insensitivity towards Sayaka being murdered in Makoto's room and boisterous attitude to studying, and Byakuya with his arrogance and belief he will never lose.
• Cross Ange The Knight Of Hilda: Thanks to Rio's influence, Hilda admits to doing terrible, shameful, and disgusting past deeds in Arzenal just to survive long enough to escape and reunite with her mother, like being Zola's plaything for protection, secretly hating Chris and Roselie as she manipulates them by using sex then throwing them away and sabotage the Vilkiss that almost kill Ange.
• A Crown of Stars: In the first chapter, Shinji and Asuka met their six-months-older counterparts. Their older selves poked fun at them and Asuka criticized her younger self for refusing to open up to Shinji and admitting she felt lonely and afraid.
• Played for Drama in chapter 73 of ''Dinosaur King Retold when Brontikens finds out from Shi that back when he lived in the Jurassic Period, he rose up to dominance as the tyrannical Dinosaur King after his heart was harden by the death of his family. He enforced a survival of the fittest over every dinosaur, he and his children slaughtering everyone in their way and caused an extinction event that ended the Jurassic Period. While Brontikens is a Social Darwinist and was once one of the Dragon-in-Chief of the Alpha Squad, even he's horrified at how monstrous he used to be before his resurrection.
• While he doesn't hate him, Future Danny from the Facing the Future Series is visibly annoyed by teenage Danny's lack of rational thought.
• For the Glory of Irk has a bit of this as part of a major reveal: Zim created CB by using a human AI as a base... an AI that once went insane and tried to nuke humanity. CB despises this part of himself and hates being reminded about it.
• Bumblebee in A Girl and Her Bike isn't really fond of his past as a delinquent and thief. He's also not fond of how he supported Megatron given what became of that.
• Hope of the Shield Hero: Itsuki meets Otherworld's Cardinal Heroes...and realizes how stupid he was in the past when the other heroes behave exactly like he did back then. He wonders why Naofumi didn't pound him into the ground.
• How Friendship Accidentally Saved Magical Britain: The shard of Tom Riddle bound to the Diary Horcrux has had fifty years spent in complete isolation with nothing better to do than poring over and analyzing every single word of drivel the Original Tom Riddle wrote in the Diary and has come to several unfavorable conclusions about his other self. For the most part, he considers Voldemort a tosser and an idiot, especially for seriously insisting on using a moniker that they came up with when they were twelve, and also for being a blood supremacist, considering that Tom himself is a half-blood.
• Played for Laughs and mixed with Other Me Annoys Me in an intermission of Hawkmoth Gets A Reference, where Adrien as Aspix lands in a variant of the canon show and runs into Ladybug and Chat Noir. Adrien is very much annoyed with how much Oblivious to Love he used to be regarding his and Marinette's feelings toward each other. After getting it through to Chat's head that Marinette likes him and he likes her more than a friend, Aspix returns to his timeline with a promise to give his girlfriend twice as many hugs and gifts for all the trouble he put her through.
• I Think We'll Be Okay: Kosuke at the beginning of the story is horribly lazy and while she's not totally inconsiderate of her friends and family's feelings, she'd much rather carry on her poor habits than make an effort to change. Then her parents are unexpectedly killed in a car accident, leaving her to take care of her younger siblings. The experience makes her a much more mature Determinator, but she's swamped with guilt for her past actions and how she treated her loved ones.
• The Infinite Loops:
  • The universe sometimes resets wrong, resulting in the loopers meeting their nonlooping selves (an event referred to as a Mini-Me Loop). Since Loopers have had a lot of character development from their baseline selves, they tend to be annoyed by their non-looping counterparts displaying character flaws they grew out of literal eons ago (the non-loopers in turn tend to be scared of their looping selves). Sasuke, for example, has made up with Naruto and can't stand his teenage self's Wangst and refusal to better himself, while Naruto has matured a good deal and thinks his teenage self is a complete brat.
    Naruto: [drunk] Is it wrong to want to beat the shit out of your younger self?
    Sasuke: [also drunk] Seems pretty common to me.
  • Many villains who have since made a Heel–Face Turn hate their baseline versions and consider their looping selves to be their "true" self.
  • Inversely, there are rare but not unheard of cases where a heroic looper, after an "Expansion" (IE. a new season or entry into canon comes out, and the Loops extend to include its events) will find that their Baseline self has had a Face–Heel Turn, which manages to be both this and Future Me Scares Me. This was the case with James Ironwood who had a Heroic BSoD on seeing their canon self's actions during Volume 8.
• Jonathan Joestar, The First JoJo: Older Joseph clearly holds distaste for his younger self.
• In Kyon: Big Damn Hero, Kyon thinks that Future!Kyon is arrogant and condescending and that Past!Kyon is incompetent. This is played with, as Kyon tells Koizumi that he mostly annoys himself so that he'll remember things that he'll have to do later, but this was played straight during a later chapter when Future!Kyon sent a text to Kyon calling him an idiot for not seeking help from Yuki during an encounter with an enemy slider.
• Out Of Luck: After a nightmare over how badly she treated her brother because of her actions, Lynn Jr. is then treated to a recap of the disaster of a trial she made a mess of which landed her in prison. Seeing her ranting like a lunatic while being hauled away was enough to make her vomit. And it's not just her: both the sisters and their parents feel embarrassment over this as well.
• Harry Potter in Metagaming? casually refers to his past self as a "well-meaning idiot" over how he first tried to create a society ruled by intelligent and rational people only to then later foster as much hatred between various groups as he could when his first plan failed miserably.
  • In the spinoff For Love of Experimental Time Travel, Harry is initially rather confused as to why he had found Hermione annoying in his first life, especially as she's driven and intelligent, two traits he highly values. Harry quickly decides it was because he was "a prickly little shit" back when he was actually eleven.
• Mike's New Ghostly Family: Liz Schmidt, a.k.a. Elizabeth Afton, feels nothing but contempt for her past self and actions as Circus Baby, considering her to be a selfish, violent and psychopathic idiot for being willing to kill innocents just to wear one's body as a skinsuit (which was made even worse by her learning that her victim was her own brother Michael) and embraced her former father's goals of murdering children just to gain his attention even though he never cared for her or any of his children and would let them die whenever it would be convenient for him. This became one of the primary reasons why she abandoned her birth name and swore off her loyalty to William Afton, instead switching it over to Mike Schmidt. When she was playing through Funtime animatronic-related levels in "Freddy Fazbear Virtual Experience" and expressed annoyance at her own video game counterpart failing to find her, she outright described her as a perfect representation of her psychopathic and idiotic past self who deserved every single failure that happened to her.
• Miraculous Alliance: Queen Bee and Pipistrello are given painful reminders of their awful histories through their evil alternate counterparts in Season 2: Venom. Both of them have grown past such bitchiness and make sure their doppelgangers know it.
• Downplayed examples in the Charmed (1998) fanfic Once And Future Witches;
  • 2007-Phoebe doesn’t outright hate 1999-Phoebe, but the older version is often shown to be embarrassed at her more flighty younger self.
  • Likewise, 1999-Prue is embarrassed to see her bratty twelve-year-old self being so hostile towards her siblings, such as denying that she likes lasagne just to disagree with eight-year-old Phoebe.
• One step backwards and Three forwards: Felix utterly despises how he used to be as Adrien, back in the original reality. Hindsight makes it all too easy to berate himself for his past decisions, as he rarely took his responsibilities as a superhero seriously and rarely stood up against his father, Chloe, or Lila. In particular, he blames himself for not warning Ladybug about how he'd discovered Luka's corpse; had he done so, they might have been able to prevent Hawkmoth's triumph. It also doesn't help that he was split into two when reality was rewritten, with Felix getting all of the original Adrien's memories while his other half remains as one of Lila's prizes.
• Non-Time Travel example in Pokémon Reset Bloodlines with Misty's Gyarados. He's rather upset when Misty buys a Magikarp aboard the S.S. Anne (partly due to her goal of catching every single Water-type Pokémon) because it reminds him of the time he was a puny fish, and he doesn't like it.
• Pony POV Series: Shining Armor has a dream where he relives the day he met Princess Cadance. Shining yells at his past self because he only thought about how hot Cadance was and how he wanted to make her his bride. The present Shining says she is not a prize to be won and he should have focused on her incredible personality and kindness. Shining also gets upset because his past self was a Terrible Artist.
  Present Shining Armor: ...Sweet Celestia, was I really this corny?
• In Purple Days, Joff can't help but utterly loathe the stupid, sadistic asshole he used to be.
• RE-TAKE: Asuka feels somewhat vitriolic toward her past self, particularly when she enters into a romantic relationship with Shinji, whom future Asuka has much more reason to hate. There's also some self-loathing and jealousy involved.
• In Reconciliation, Asuka and Shinji travel back in time and find their somewhat younger, pre-Third Impact selves. Promptly Shinji punches his counterpart for never helping or consoling Asuka, not even after her Mind Rape, and Asuka slaps her younger self for never helping Shinji with his own issues.
• A Red Rose in the Blue Wind: Amy still has a crush on Sonic, but is shown to be embarrassed and ashamed of the Stalker with a Crush attitude she had towards him when she was younger.
• Rise of the Minisukas: Minisuka Shiki generally despises normal Asuka since she reminds her of the person that Shiki used to be.
• RWBY: Epic of Remnant: Just like the regular EMIYA, EMIYA Alter hates his past self Shirou Emiya. He's horrified when he becomes a teenager again. While his skin is still black, his eyes are still yellow, and his hair is still white, his face and body look like Shirou's again.
• The Second Try: Discussed. Asuka thinks her younger self would hate her since during her Character Development she forsook all that she had lived for during her childhood and became a very different person who does not mind showing her emotions, letting others close, and loves being a wife and a mother. Shinji disagrees, stating she is being too hard on herself. Straight after he states he thinks his deeply insecure, self-loathing, shy younger self would be shocked at seeing him... but he does not hate him since he knows why he was so full of insecurities and neurosis.
• In A Sticky Situation, this is fairly true for Impmon. And for goodreason and that's not even considering his canon actions.
• A Thing of Vikings: During her talk with Hiccup in Chapter 2, Astrid admits that she is not fond of how she treated him in the past
  Astrid: Sure, I didn't taunt you like Snotlout and the others did, but I never tried to stop them either. Not once. And then… I showed up to bully the secret of how you were doing so well out of you. Because I knew that that would work. That I could just scare and beat it out of you and then I'd be 'better' than you, that you were somehow cheating. And now… I'm really angry with myself about that.
• In Twisted Hilarity’s Uke, there is a point where Sesshomaru finds the well and goes through it to meet his future self, and his future self is... shall we say, less than pleased with how he remembers himself behaving toward his new mate, Inuyasha. Future Sesshomaru decides to teach himself a lesson. It is arguably the best damned scene in the story thus far.
• A variation occurs in Wednesday and the Shifter, where Adult Wednesday does not get along with teen Wednesday.
• In When She Smiles (Fresh C), Asuka loses her memories after the end of the world. No matter how hard she tries, she cannot get her memories back, but she has the feeling that she dislikes her past, pre-amnesia self.
  Asuka: "She's a selfish little girl who only looks out for herself. But the irony is that she doesn't even like herself! She's rude, she's mean, and she's unkind. And she would throw any one of us under a bus to get what she wants. But she doesn't even know what she wants! And the things that she thinks she wants... she's too afraid to get them. She's a weak, cowardly, disgusting bitch! I hate her! Why do I have to be her?"
• In White Devil of the Moon, Nanoha, who is the reincarnation of Princess Serenity, strongly disapproves of the Princess' actions during the era of the Moon Kingdom, (particularly running away and falling in love with Endymion despite the myriad risks, and killing herself after his death).
• A Is A has Bolin learn about who the Nazis were, and how similar Kuvira was shaping up to be like them. This haunts him for several stories, until a solid talk with Reinhardt, followed by some high-caliber "therapy" in Detour of Conflict, help him realize that he isn't that man anymore.

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