Changed the mecha from an unfeeling mechanoid with unlimited energy that is easily repaired to a biological entity that bleeds, feels pain, needs an extension cord for power, and may even have a personality.note The Jet Alone episode illustrates that said unfeeling mechanoid with unlimited energy wouldn't actually be as useful as it's typically portrayed as in most mecha shows since it can be easily sabotaged by rival factions, would be surrounded by bureaucracy that makes it next to impossible to get anything done in a crisis, and its vaunted unlimited energy source can be just as much of a danger as the enemy the mecha was created to fight. Plus a simple mechanoid has limits that would make it useless against creatures with powers that border on reality warping.
Most super robot shows have a teenage mecha pilot and a long-absent father who designed the mecha. So Evangelion shows how traumatizing it would be for a real teen to fight in a giant robot — and what kind of father would abandon his son to design the robot.
Half the cast is made up of what seem at first to be stereotypical anime characters. As the series progresses, however, they are revealed to be severely messed-up people with the same sort of problems that would be expected of real-life tsunderes, hard drinking party girls, and lovable sex maniacs.
Quite a few old super robot shows featured mysterious, alien villains with very lightly defined motivations; cue the relentless attacks of the Angels, alien (or not) assailants on whose motives, constituents or psychology we have a little idea of, simply malevolent MacGuffins to enable the story to play with 'giant robot' tropes. They also happen to get progressively creepier, and more unexplainably eldritch as the show progresses. Most importantly, there is an emphasis on showing the fear and uncertainty that comes with fighting an enemy that is just plain undefinable, thus showing how it just takes a little to turn an idealistic, formulaic Super Robot anime into a depressing Cosmic Horror Story. Various factions within the series vie for the opportunity to take down the Angels in the way they deem most appropriate, with the winner, of course, being the one that causes the most collateral damage.
Tokyo 3 is all but destroyed by the end of the series, and its populace is either dead or evacuated — a sharp contrast to the likes of most examples of the City of Adventure.
In some ways, Eva resembles the early days of the Real Robot Genre. Shinji Ikari has quite a few similarities with Amuro Ray, the most iconic mecha protagonist in anime history. While Amuro's relationship with his father is not nearly as bad as Shinji's, Amuro's father does go insane while building the RX-78 and due to his injuries in the first episode (which Amuro himself caused). Amuro is just as "whiny" as Shinji, but is forced to accept responsibilities in the military hierarchy and grows to maturity through that. Even his reaction to his accidental killing of Lalah resembles Shinji's after killing Kaworu.
Rurouni Kenshin can be seen as a deconstruction of the Jidai Geki genre. Being a samurai isn't just a thing of honor and swordfighting for either your master, your beliefs, or other causes, and it leaves huge mental and social scars on those who survive it. And then, all of a sudden, everything that made being a samurai "cool" disappears because society isn't feudal any more, owning a sword is illegal, and even if you could get your hands on one your enemy might decide to use guns instead...
The original Gundam series (parent of the Real Robot Genre) could count as a deconstruction of the Super Robot Genre too. To even begin to be able to pilot the Gundam, Amuro already had a strong background with electronics, and the Gundam's manual. His early fighting is clumsy and ends up blowing a hole in his home space colony that kills unknown numbers of civilians and leads to his father suffering brain damage that drives him to insanity. His early battles shook him greatly, and Char kicked his ass easily in their early fights, despite being in the less advanced Zaku 2. Amuro is also a whiny brat of a kid and is forced (through good use of the Bright Slap and a stay in the brig) to accept his responsibilities. Of course, in later Real Robot shows, the flavor of the Super Robot Genre would kick in...
And that Super Robot Genre flavor that kicked in the later episodes of the show is itself a bitter deconstruction of the "loser mechs", as Gundam Sousei would point out.
Now and Then, Here and There deconstructs the old anime stock plot of Trapped in Another World. It starts the typical basic premise of "Ordinary High-School Student meets Mysterious Waif and gets whisked off to a world locked in a great crisis." it got worse from there. And then shows how relevant an Ordinary High-School Student would be in such a situation (not at all), how traumatizing it would be for someone from a peaceful society like late twentieth/early twenty first century Japan to be suddenly trapped in the middle of a war zone (extremely) and how likely it would be for anyone from that world including the waif that brought him there in the first place to even lift a finger for a naive and clueless outsider, much less form True Companions or a harem around him (not very).
Yu-Gi-Oh! ARC-V takes the deconstruction from GX to new levels, with many franchise-specific and franchise-non-specific examples.
The magic that helped other Yugioh protagonists kick ass either hinders the protagonist or is beyond his understanding, traumatizes him, and indirectly gets him into trouble.
Instead of being a consistently effective Warrior Therapist, the main character can only help his opponents reach a Heel–Face Turn when: their core values align with his own (but they have poor methods of implementing them), or they used to be just like him until their Despair Event Horizon (in which case what he's actually doing is helping them return to who they used to be). Thus far only three people have fit either category, and two of them were entered in a competition for up-and-coming duelists, making them much more likely to have some similarities with the protagonist.
The protagonists side is also recruiting child soldiers and uses war propaganda to convince their dimension to join the war, not to mention the Laser-Guided Amnesia they use when convenient and general slimy business practices.
Actually, it's more than that. The series includes other characters who are or have been in similar situations, like another king (Shoryuu), two kirins or "sacred beasts" (Enki and Taiki), a peasant girl (Suzu) and, in the anime, two of Youko's classmates (Asano and Yuuka). All of them have huge problems with the premise and have to deal in different ways.
Premise: being kidnapped to a strange magical world as the chosen one is wonderful! Decon: no it's not. But per the above comment, that deconstruction isn't allowed to stand as a universal statement. Youko represents the normal reaction, especially when the benevolent kidnapper is himself waylaid and Youko herself subjected to abnormal stress. Yuuka is the one who wants to live the Changeling Fantasy and might have adapted well save for not being the chosen one at all. Suzu and Asano don't even get the illusion of being chosen, and deal poorly, though Suzu's pretty lucky. OTOH, Shouryuu and the two kirin really are Chosen Changelings, don't get waylaid on their way back, and do as well as the original trope would have it. (Taiki's later tragedy is independent.)
Premise: a bunch of arbitrary rules and gods. Decon: a bunch of the main characters eventually wonder about the rules, doubt the gods, and try to ask the gods for rules clarifications. Storming the Heavens isn't a practical option, so they don't.
Premise: fantasy monarchy is wonderful! Decon: except when it isn't. A filtering system gets rid of the worst cases, leaving the best ones as immortal enlightened despots, avoiding the succession problem. A kirin with contact with modern Japan snarks about possible democratic alternatives anyway.
Premise: polite strangers help the bewildered, inexperienced main character/s out at critical moments in their adventure. Decon: if it serves the strangers' interests, especially regarding material gain. When it doesn't, the main character eventually has to actively choose to not let the subsequent behavior of most peasants turn her to The Dark Side.
The visual novel School Days (and its anime adaptation) is a Deconstruction of the harem genre and the Slice of Life romance genre. The lead, after finally dating the sweet girl he's been lusting after for ages, finds that dating her feels more like work and less fun, so he pursues and has sex with one of the other girls who wanted him. Shortly after, he decides to sleep around, with no regard for the consequences and no desire to devote to a serious relationship. When the girl he first began cheating with discovers she's almost sure to be pregnant and confronts him, he wants nothing more to do with her, and after everyone finds out not only did he knock her up, but refuses to take responsibility, the other girls refuse to have anything to do with him.
In the meantime, he's broken up with the first girl, but only after cheating on her for a long time. Said girl sinks into insanity and denial, especially since she knew he was cheating all along. Desperate after finding all his girls left him, he gets back together with the first girl, and tells the pregnant girl to get an abortion after making out with the other girl in front of her. Said girl later comes to his apartment and brutally murders him, the first girl sees the body, brutally murders her, and then leaves in a boat, cradling the guy's severed head in her arms, with a creepy smile on her face.
Many harem shows tend to take the route of the Unwanted Harem, with the male lead being an average guywho despite his bad luck, ends up gaining the affection of multiple girls due to being a Nice Guy, yet either remains oblivious to their advances or is unable to reciprocate, usually because he is already in love with one specific girl and doesn’t want to hurt the feelings of the other girls. Makoto seems like the average protagonist of this kind of stories at first, but as mentioned above he is NOT one. The plot shows how in reality not every male teen is as noble as the average harem series protagonist. Some hormone driven young men in such position might actually take advantage of the situation as is shown in the series, sometimes even acting cruelly and misleadingly towards the girls in order to satisfy their own pleasure.
Also showed what kind of girls would be in an Unwanted Harem. At best needy, at worst psychotic. Kotonoha and Sekai particularly deconstruct Satellite Love Interest: they both lose what's left of their personalities to chase after Makoto... but this is done deliberately to show the terrible consequences.
The story also shows what could happen if someone really did treat a group of young women that all had feelings for him like your typical h-game player treats the female characters of a game, if some of those women happened to be extremely unstable. Most real people wouldn't react like that, some would. It also makes it clear that someone pursuing solely his or her own pleasure with everyone in sight while paying no attention to the effects that's having on others is an immature, maladjusted jerkass, and that such behavior can have terrible consequences.
Also brings up the true implications of the Lovable Sex Maniac / Bromantic Foil. Makoto's best friend Taisuke is a spirited yet hopeless romantic, and his perverted antics and subsequent rejections are portrayed as zany comic relief for most of the show. But then after being turned down once again on the day of the school festival, he resorts to actually raping a girl via taking advantage of her when she's at her lowest point; this not only throws the victim through the Despair Event Horizon, but it shows the character archetype to be much less harmless than commonly assumed.
Patlabor may be the ultimate deconstruction of the Mecha-genre: It has no superheroes nor supervillains and the mechas are plain and simply tools; the majority of them are used at construction sites and storages. They're anything but cool and if there's something even uncooler, that would be being a member of the Patlabor unit.
Mai-HiME functions as a fairly solid deconstruction of the Magical Girl genre, too, with the first half of the series being almost entirely fluffy, silly character-building and harmless Monster of the Week fighting (to further the point: the heroines battle a monster that steals lingerie), until around the halfway point when it decides to Get Serious.
Despite being the go-to "silly school comedy," School Rumble messes with the genre and deconstructs a surprising number of its tropes. Not only is the ditzy female protagonist we so often see replaced with a badass male delinquent, many situations are gender-flipped (such as when Eri walks in on Harima naked). Then, of course, there's the deconstructions of Clingy Jealous Girl (Eri nearly ruins her friendships when she thinks her friends are interested in Harima), Tsundere (Eri again, most people can't relate to her because she flips between extremes so much), and Yamato Nadeshiko (Yakumo's inability to confront people turns her into an Extreme Doormat who can't make friends).
Narutaru (Shadow Star) deconstructs the pet monster genre in a very disturbing and bloody way. To control their companions, the children have a psychic link with them which can take a heavy toll on both their body and mind, and some become very aware of the power they have and abuse it - even to the point of mass murder. The manga also looks at how the government and military might actually respond to Mons being involved in all manner of strange and violent circumstances, which leads to a lot of cover-ups and extreme measures.
Furthermore, the show deconstructs the "magical tournament/There Can Be Only One" type of anime as well: It's later revealed that the creatures the kids have been fighting are actually human pilots from parallel universes, specifically the battles are contests to determine which of the selected universes would be erased from existence. (Who is doing this and why has yet to be explained.) So the pilots have to choose between either winning the battles and dying or losing the battles and dooming their universes.
The author manages to one-up himself by explaining that even if the characters manages to make it through the requisite 14 battles and earn their universe's right to live (killing all of said characters in the process), it's not really over: the "system" that picks universes to fight might wrap around and choose the protagonists' again.
Originally, Super Dimension Fortress Macross was meant to be a Deconstructive Parody of shows like Mobile Suit Gundam. While it veered off that course eventually and played a fair number of tropes completely straight (never mind inventing a few along the way), pretty much every major entry into the franchise has featured at least one major, often scathing, deconstruction of the science fiction, adventure and anime genres.
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle starts out as a light-hearted True CompanionsGotta Catch 'Em All adventure story with some darkness around the edges and interesting sexual subtext. One-third of the way through, everything you thought you knew turns inside out and the most light-hearted elements become harbingers of the ugliest secrets. From there on out, the series proceeds to do everything it can to make your mind boggle, including introducing major unexpected Squick into what had once been CLAMP's most popular and innocent pairing.
The "Perfect GT-R" arc of Wangan Midnight has a beautiful deconstruction of street racing. Jun Kitami, who at this point has been portrayed as a reckless, heartless daredevil tuner, says point-blank that there are no winners or losers and that Koichi did exactly the right thing in giving up this senseless hobby so he could return to his wife. Given that the whole manga is about street racing, plainly admitting a truth like this took guts. Even better, this happens in the very first arc after the Devil Z and Blackbird are introduced.
Archer: There is nothing at the end of saving people.
Halo Legends is a deconstruction of the whole Halo series. The themes it presents are all present in the canon of the games, to a lesser extent, and the other supplemental material, to a greater extent, but Legends takes it to a different level.
In The Babysitter, it's showed that not all UNSC personnel are fond of the Spartans — some are actually jealous of them for their awesomeness, and they use it as an excuse to treat the Spartans as freaks, which has a bad effect on their cooperation. In the end, even a Super Soldier is a human being who can die just like that.
The Duel reveals that not all the Covenant believe in the "Great Journey"; some are to afraid to admit to it, some rebel against it and others just use the religion as a means for their own selfish needs.
Origins is a story about the Forerunners and their war against Flood. The message: no matter how powerful your empire is, it will sooner or later fall, especially if you fight against an enemy you don't have a single clue about.
Prototype deconstructs The Stoic. In this episode, the other marines believes that the main character's stoic personality is evidence that he's literally emotionless and that he doesn't give a damn about his fellow men, but contrary to their belief, he has as many emotions as they have, the stoicism just a facade to hide the pain that came from seeing his entire company being wiped out and having his last recruit bleed to death in his arms.
Toradora! deconstructs many of the character archetypes seen in typical Harem Anime. Most notably, Taiga basically answers the question of what kind of experiences could give a person a childish tsundere personality in real life: HUGE personal issues of the familiar kind, which also don't mesh well with the girl's own self-esteem problems.
Digimon Tamers deconstructs a number of things that were barely or not touched upon in the Digimon Adventure canon, such as the involvement of adults, how the government would react to programs emerging into the real world as monsters, how those programs came about in the first place, what a world governed only by the doctrine of "survival of the fittest" would be like (namely, harsh and unforgiving), how frustrating it is to be the Ineffectual Sympathetic Villain, and what would happen to a Tamer if their partner Digimon died. Later, the first arc of Digimon Savers could be seen as a deconstruction of part of the ending of Digimon Adventure 02, specifically the part where everyone in the world got a partner Digimon - it deals with the idea of those of dishonest intent using their Digimon for crimes, something Adventure 02 never even considered.
Probably the most telling part of Tamers being a deconstruction is the ending of the first episode. After Guilmon Bio-Emerges into the Real World, Takato is ecstatic to finally have his own real Digimon. And then Guilmon shoots fire out of his mouth, causing a huge explosion. It's at this point that Takato realizes that what's in front of him isn't just a virtual pet; it's a digital MONSTER, now allowed to roam reality. Production notes for the series show that one of the goals of Tamers was to (re)establish the fact that Digimon are, in the end, feral beasts who live to battle, and Guilmon's introduction nails it.
Puella Magi Madoka Magica is, for the majority of the series, a pretty thorough deconstruction of the Magical Girl genre. The premise starts simple. Young Naïve Everygirl Madoka and her Wide-Eyed Idealist friend Sayaka, are approached by Mentor Mascot Kyubey, and the relative Cool Big Sis Mami, where they are given the opportunity to become Magical Girls. In exchange, they are granted one wish, that can be anything they want, but they will have to fight demonic entities called witches for the rest of their lives. In addition, a Dark Magical Girl, Homura, is opposed to this, and is constantly trying to prevent the two from making a contract. Sounds reasonable enough. Then the show demonstrates exactly what happens to those young girls who are forced into fighting Eldritch Abominations with no chance at a normal life.
Mami is ultimately an extremely lonely Stepford Smiler who is broken on the inside due to losing her parents, and being forced to fight with no real friends. When Madoka does become her friend, her subsequent joy leads to her death, and also reminds us that these encounters are far more dangerous when removed from the sweet and innocent flavor that permeates most Magical Girl shows.
Sayaka decides to use a Selfless Wish to heal her crush, Kyousuke, much like any typical superhero but as the other characters demonstrate, there is no such thing as a Selfless Wish, as they all have a selfish intention. In Sayaka's case, it was so that she could get together with Kyousuke, and when he doesn't return her affections, she breaks down.
Homura is a time traveler who became close friends with Madoka in a previous timeline. After Madoka's death during the battle against Walpurgisnacht, she wished for the power to save her life and has been stuck in a "Groundhog Day" Loop ever since. This lead to her transforming from a Shrinking Violet into a cold and distant Dark Magical Girl obsessed with saving her best friend.
Several chapters of Franken Fran deconstruct the Toku genre, what with some of the Sentinels using their fame to become rich with merchandising, blackmailing influential people to get more funds, one becoming addicted to fighting to the point that he can't have an erection otherwise (leading him to set up people to get killed just so he can avenge their death), the families of the faceless minions killed by the Sentinels teaming up to avenge their deaths, and the evil organisation's Evil Plan being to cure all illnesses, stop famine, and create hospitals for everybody.
While the series itself isn't entirely a deconstruction, Mahou Sensei Negima! does deconstruct a few individual plot points common to shounen:
Negi's Training from Hell, while played straight at first, is shown to be extremely emotionally and physically draining on him, and it takes a toll on his relationship with his students.
Negi's father is basically one long Deconstruction of the Boring Invincible Hero / Idiot Hero archetype. He's an extremely powerful fighter, yes, but his tendency to never use his brain results in his plan ultimately failing. Basically, because Nagi just charged in to punch bad guys before figuring out what was actually going on, he wasn't able to actually fix the real problem. Ultimately, Negi, who's not an Idiot Hero and actually takes the time to analyze the situation and work out a workable solution, is the one who really fixes things as opposed to just delaying them a bit.
Bokura no Hentai deconstructs the Otokonoko Genre. At first glance it seems to be a standard tale about three Wholesome Crossdresser tweens but it gets Darker and Edgier after the first chapter, makes fun of tropes associated with the genre, and delves into the psychological issues of the main cast. The series goes on to show how Growing Up Sucks and subverts many tropes, such as cruelly averting It's Okay If It's You by having Shuu's reason for crossdressing being that he's in love with a straight boy. Said boy is homophobic and will only sleep with Shuu if he's dressed as a girl. He's abusive towards Shuu and he helps awaken sex-related issues in Shuu.
Martian Successor Nadesico somewhat lightheartly deconstructs Mecha and especially Yamato. As shown in the first arc alone just because you have an advance state of the art ship with the latest in hardware and the best, yet quirky crew, doesn't mean you can One-Man Army an army that's nearly limitless and Genre Savvy about the flaws of said ship, the young Captain isn't emotionally prepared to handle Sadistic Choice, the Fanboy Hot Shot Pilot gets killed in a mutiny in an non-heroic manner, the other Hot Shot Pilot is an emotional wreck who wants to be a cook AND has made a very unhealthy Love Triangle. Oh and a colony blew up, so nearly two weeks of nothing to do but handling the funerals of the THOUSANDS of people on board, and the crew nearly mutiny because their contracts don't allow them to pork. And to top it all off they failed in their mission and are only alive by SHEER LUCK. It only gets worse from there, Especially when the true nature of the Jovians is revealed.
It's also subtle but Gekiganger 3 when used In-Universe is a deconstruction of both Anime fandom as well as using Anime as propaganda for war.
Heist shows like Lupin III or Cat's Eye often have random employees (guards, maids, servants, ec.) who end up drugged, Bound and Gagged, or just knocked out by the antiheroes or antivillains during their robberies, and Episode 5 examines the notion of these crimes supposedly being "victimless". Here, Chiko befriends a young girl whose father is the head of security at the museum Twenty plans on robbing, and the girl states in no uncertain terms that her family will likely end up on the streets if the heist goes off as planned. Chiko is conflicted about carrying out the plan, and for the first time in the series, actually begins to question the morality of what she's doing.
Along those lines, the heroes in these heist shows usually escape and don't really have to worry about reprisal from their victims or rivals. In Episode 6, an enemy from one of the earlier episodes returns and VIOLENTLY MURDERS most of the thieves, with Chiko, Twenty Faces, and Ken left as the only survivors.
Zambot 3 is one of the first deconstructions of the Super Robot genre, made in 1977; just 5-6 years after Mazinger Z came out. You know all of those buildings and cities that tend to get the crap beaten out of them in your average Super Robot show? Yeah, the townsfolk aren't too happy about that. The massive collateral is not fixed up the next day, and the poor citizens who've now found themselves without a house or any kind of home have to try and find a new place to live, and to hide out from the war going on between Zambot and the Gaizok. Because, really, in a more realistic setting, giant robots fighting against killer aliens is a war, with all of the baggage that comes with it. Zambot was one of the first series to realize this, and with a generally dark tone, it would have been a trendsetter for its genre... Had it caught on. It didn't, but Yoshiyuki Tomino went on to do Mobile Suit Gundam two years later.
The World God Only Knows is a deconstruction of dating sims in a big way. Keima swiftly finds out that real life girls are nothing like the completely one-dimensional heroines in his precious dating games, usually to his downfall.
Strange Dawn for trapped-in-another-world stories. The people of the other world are cute Super-Deformed creatures but they are still as flawed as us humans. One of the girls transported to this world is so bent on going home that she is willing to take questionable actions (like siding with the bad guys). The other girl wants to help the natives but is too weakhearted to be of any use. Things get so messed up that it takes a Deus ex Machina to resolve everything.
And it's shown that without boys to have sex with, Miki and Mayumi simply lay around getting drunk in a dive bar.
The series also takes a look at All Men Are Perverts and Hot for Teacher, seeing as how several of the boys Miki and Mayumi have gone after are visibly disturbed at having women who are both authority figures and older than them by at least a decade come onto them. Miki and Mayumi have shown that they are willing to coerce a boy into sex (namely, Masaki), which is something that sexual predators actually do. Masaki himself is never ecstatic at getting to have sex with Miki and Mayumi, with him being coerced into sex at least once, and his family problems being used by Mayumi towards sex with her.
Bondage Game OVA is a deconstruction of extreme fetish hentai, even though it's only two episodes long. The sex slaves shown in it have personalities, and aren't just flat characters like most women in hentai are. Also, the reactions of the girls when experiencing their torture make it clear that you're not supposed to be getting off to it. The anime ends when the man who owns the sex slaves gets arrested, and the girls that survived are freed. If it was meant for fetish fulfilment, then the ending would be much worse.
Geiger Counter deconstructs rape hentai by showing the consequences it has on the victim. Most doujin of the same genre simply ends after the act itself, but Geiger Counter actually shows the consequences of the rape: the victim girl is traumatized, even the sound of door bell terrifies her, and her family is forced to move. That empty look in her eyes makes it very clear that this is NOT supposed to be masturbation material.
Grimgar of Fantasy and Ash deconstructs the Trapped in Another World or "Isekai" genre. Grimgar's spin is if people who are NOT gamers get sent to such a planet, and fail to grasp mechanics quickly enough to avoid unnecessary death, they do not become ace combatants or charismatic figureheads. It frames heroes like Kirito, Momonga, and Shiroe having it significantly easier because they know what they're getting into, as opposed to people who never played (or remember playing) these sort of games.
Re:Zero, if anything, goes even further than Grimgar of Fantasy and Ash, by showing how being sent to another world could actually truly suck. The main character, Subaru, thinks that because he was sent to another world, he automatically gained awesome powers. He did, but not what he thinks, when he is killed in the first episode, he realizes that he was merely sent back to a "checkpoint" of sorts, and feels the pain of every death, and it slowly starts to wear away on his mind. It's taken further later on, starting in arc 3, where his lack of social skills as a NEET from our world screws him over big time, as he ruins Emilia's chance at succeeding the throne, almost gets killed by one of the knights of the other princess candidates, and then shows what he really thinks, thinking that just like the main protagonists of light novels, he is entitled to protect her because of what he has gone through, only for her to rebuke him.
What may very well be the biggest, most unsubtlebut most important example of this comes with Subaru's massively tear inducing self induced "The Reason You Suck" Speech, where he comes to the conclusion that no matter how hard he tries, he's not be the hero that he thought he was due to being trapped in another world, in how all his goofy moments where he comes across as a complete moron and a self serving jerk are the only way to mask how empty he feels inside, how he has, and I quote, "no character", essentially becoming a massive Take That! at the idea that being a NEET in another world and having gained some sort of power doesn't make your life automatically awesome as a result. The speech in question:
Subaru: Before I got into the situation that led me to all of you, do you have any idea what I did? I did nothing. I've never done a single thing. I had all that time, all that freedom... I could have done anything, but I never did a thing! And this is the result! What I am now is the result! All of my powerlessness, all of my incompetence, is the product of my rotten character. That's right. I have no character. Even when I thought I could live here, nothing changed. At heart, I'm just a small, cowardly, filthy piece of trash, who's always worried about how others see me. And nothing... Nothing about me has changed! ...I absolutely hate myself...