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- The title character of Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha in The Movie manga continuity. Fans gave this version of Nanoha the Fan Nickname of "Emoha". This is especially noticeable in the part after the movie's events where, in contrast to the anime where she's pleased with the outcome but somewhat worried about Fate, she believes in the movie manga that she failed to help anyone. At the beginning of their mock battle in the manga, Fate believes that since she caused Nanoha trouble, she doesn't deserve to be friends with her.
- The first Fullmetal Alchemist anime had this happen on a few occasions:
- Ed had a 10-Minute Retirement from being a State Alchemist after hearing about Nina's death and Tucker's execution which actually turned out to be a cover-up.
- There's also the scene from the manga, when Al thinks that Ed may have fabricated his entire personality when binding his soul to the armor. Originally, it only takes Winry telling him that the question Ed was scared to ask was whether Al hated him to bring him to his senses (that and hitting him on the head with a wrench). In the first anime, he parts ways with Ed, but realizes the truth when helping a pair of Ishvalan refugee brothers.
- In the first anime, Ed and Al both tend to angst about their struggles a lot more overall. Edward has PTSD symptoms he mostly lacks in the manga.
- Roy has significant more guilt and trauma in the first anime, and it's portrayed much more explicitly. This could be partly due to him being the one who killed the Rockbell's in this version, but he has PTSD flashbacks to other parts of his actions in Ishval throughout the series (see: "Fullmetal vs. Flame").
- There's also Rose, who was little more than an extra in the manga. Who wound up raped, kidnapped and traumatized to the point of becoming mute.
- Inverted in the Slayers franchise in regards to Zelgadis's chimeric state; despite being used as a Butt Monkey ploy several times in the anime, he's actually less prudish in regards to his appearance, and embraces the awe and nicknames that he receives from strangers (i.e "The Heartless, Mystical Swordsman); if for nothing else, he gets upset when he's being used for a silly ploy (such as being used as an anchor.). In the original novels, he is far more sensitive about his appearance and not frivolous at all; a side-story featuring him emphasizes this angst in which he broods over the fact that he made friends who see beyond his appearance in the first place.
- The Vision of Escaflowne's Darker and Edgier movie adaptation begins with Hitomi attempting suicide, and a huge part of her Character Development involves overcoming her depression. In the series she was fairly more balanced, with most of her issues stemming from her romantic conflicts and lack of confidence.
- In Trigun, after Vash is forced to kill Legato he immediately falls into a state of shock after being horrified at his actions. In the manga, he is able to get over this fairly quickly after remembering that he still needs to stop Knives who is threatening everyone on the planet Gunsmoke. On the other hand, in the anime Vash remains in this depressed state for over a month, even growing suicidal before Meryl and Milly are finally able to snap him back to normal. It's also notable that the anime actually did this scene first long before the manga one was published, but it is based on what the creator was planning to do for the manga.
- In the Duelist Kingdom arc in Yu-Gi-Oh!, after he winds up essentially forfeiting to Kaiba, feeling he's let his weakness take over him causes Yugi to turn into a sobbing wreck. While in the manga Mai is able to snap him out of this after about 2 or 3 pages, in the anime it took a whole filler episode with Anzu challenging Mai to a duel to get him back to normal.
- In the dub, Yugi was still too afraid to let Yami duel. It took 4½ more episodes and an almost one-sided duel with Mai to overcome it.
- The Kotoura-san anime does this by shifting the focus from Manabe to Haruka and adding in the very angsty Downer Beginning.
- The anime adaption of Devil Survivor 2 does this to the protagonist (here called Hibiki Kuze) removing much of his literal Bunny-Ears Lawyer attitude in the game and replacing it with this trope.
- Shauna in Pokémon X and Y is a Cheerful Child who's always smiling and happy. In Pokémon Adventures she's very sarcastic and bitter, likely because in this canon she watched a dear friend fall into depression and was unable to do anything for him.
- In the original game Sands of Destruction, Morte was a gleeful Mad Bomber Genki Girl who was incredibly upbeat about the prospect of ending the world - in addition to solving the problem of Fantastic Racism, it would be just plain awesome to watch (never mind the fact that even she wouldn't survive). The Anime of the Game removed almost all of her excitability and replaced it with a grim determination, which, while perhaps more fitting with her goal, makes quite a jarring start to her character; it also added the death of her parents and younger brother as an explanation for her desire to see the world ended. The manga, which was released about a year later, attempts to blend the two, with Morte being gung-ho at the start of the story but revealed to be steadily sadder as it progresses, but changes the source of her angst: she's now The Planner, the incarnation of the celestial being responsible for deciding the parameters of the world each time it was reincarnated. Because she was mentally exhausted at the last incarnation, she wished for a world filled with talking animals but forgot to wish they would be friends with humanity, resulting in the deep-seated racism of the series. Yes, in the manga, Morte was the entire reason for the sorry state of the world. She was roughly aware of it when she was a child, claiming someone like herself wasn't supposed to be happy, but repressed it during her teen years, resulting in the bouncy character we met at the start; when she recovered all her memories, she was suitably shocked.
- The .hack//Legend of the Twilight anime is a Darker and Edgier adaptation of the manga, and changed pretty much the entire storyline to make everything become more dramatic. For example, in the manga, the twin protagonists Shugo and Rena are just a pair of siblings playing games together. In the anime, their parents are divorced, and they're playing The World because it's the only way they can meet each other. In the manga, the characters embark on a light-hearted journey to reunite a friendly, though mischievous, A.I. to her mother. The anime somehow involves a hostile A.I.s that threatens to destroy The World, and several people fell into a coma along the way.
- Comic books in general are this trope in its truest form. Over the years, the lighthearted stories of yester-year have become Darker and Edgier more and more in later years.
- One of the most notable examples of this is the case of Barry Allen, The Flash. Originally a humble do-gooder who was motivated to become a superhero mostly because he liked comics and had just gained superpowers, meaning superheroics was the next logical step (he was already a police forensic scientist, so he already had a sense of right-and-wrong and desire to help justice), but later retcons when he was brought into the present era included giving him a new backstory of a murdered mother with his father being falsely accused and convicted of her murder. Notable is the fact that this was both unneeded (Barry, while a Nice Guy, wasn't exactly without his angst as it was, what with the death of his first love Iris, and him killing his arch enemy Professor Zoom (Iris' killer) in order to save his second love), and justified at the same time (the retcon was explained away as Zoom going back in time to mess with Barry's life, killing his mother to give him more misery).
- Afterlife with Archie plays a lot of its tropes more seriously than the source and thus there's a lot more of this, along with any obligatory trauma from being set in a Zombie Apocalypse. For example Betty and Veronica aren't their normal Vitriolic Best Buds and instead have a rocky relationship.
- Noob: Due to the more advanced timeline on the live action and text versions of the story, it's a Foregone Conclusion that Arthéon will eventually reach a Rage Breaking Point. The comic version makes the stress under which Arthéon puts himself by being the Only Sane Man Reluctant Ruler of a Ragtag Bunch of Misfits more visible than the two other versions.
- Happens quite a lot in Pokémon Reset Bloodlines.
- Misty's backstory is considerably sadder than it was in the anime. She was the least favorite child, is confirmed to be an orphan, got kicked out by her sisters as soon as they were able to do so, and she has to deal with anti-bloodliner prejudice. Really, it's no wonder she's falling for Ash, he was the best thing to happen to her in years.
- While Brock's not as badly off as Misty, both of his parents are dead.
- Not much is known about Red yet, but if his dreams are any indication, his past is full of anguish, moreso than his counterpart in either the games or Pokémon Adventures.
- As detailed in a side story to Reset, Johanna also had a rougher life than her canon counterpart.
Films — Animated
- Mrs. Brisby in The Secret Of NIMH is shown as a much more timid character on her quest to save her son than in the book which focused more on the rats' escape from NIMH. The film places much more emphasis on the values of courage, which is justifiable since Mrs. Brisby is a mouse.
- Moses in The Prince of Egypt, compared to other films such as The Ten Commandments. In the original source however he's arguably even more angsty. Aside from not realizing he was adopted, this version also emphasizes the fact that he and Rameses were raised as brothers and friends, giving them a tragic Cain and Abel dynamic not present in the Bible or other versions. But since Tropes Are Not Bad many people prefer this because it humanizes both of them.
- Treasure Planet ages up Jim Hawkins and gives him single-parent/teen-rebel angst.
- In The Frog Prince, the female lead is a princess whose worst worries are getting her ball out of a pond and having to deal with her promise to a frog. In The Princess and the Frog, Tiana is a workaholic bordering on a nervous collapse because she feels that if she doesn't achieve her dream of owning her own restaurant, she will let down her dead father (who shared the same dream and, in fact, inspired her). She also seems aware of what her friends, family, and the town in general thinks of her devotion to her dream and it gets to her.
- In Rapunzel, while Rapunzel being kicked out of the tower isn't very pleasant, it still isn't emphasized as being the worst thing ever. In Tangled, Rapunzel has to deal with discovering that her "mother" actually kidnapped her in infancy and intends to imprison her for as long as she lives. And when Rapunzel fights back, it ends with watching Mother Gothel die in front of her and Flynn nearly dying. She doesn't react nearly as much as expected but still has more trauma than in the fairy tale.
- In the fairy tale of Beauty and the Beast, the Beast is certainly not happy with being cursed, but still is stable enough to be kind and gentlemanly towards Beauty. In the Disney adaptation, being cursed has caused the Beast to fall into a spiral of self-loathing and depression and has all but given up on everything by the time Belle shows up (Word of God has said that if Belle hadn't come, the Beast would have lost his mind and turned into an animal entirely). Much emphasis is also put on his despair when Belle leaves for her father and he is mortally wounded by Gaston instead of his more quiet Death by Despair in the story.
Films — Live-Action
- In The Lord of the Rings films:
- Aragorn reveals his inner conflict more often than in the books, and is not convinced that he should return as king until the last movie. The DVD commentary for the film outright admits this was done as a way to give him a character-building arc, although it is easier to rationalize considering the opinion the film's Elves hold about the will of Men in general during the story... which also wasn't so prominent in the books.
- Faramir in the books was able to refuse the ring when Frodo offered it to him without a second thought. In the movie, Faramir being tempted to take the ring like his brother was, but ultimately realizing that he had to let Frodo go, was the driving force behind his entire arc in the second movie.
- In the film, Gollum turns Frodo against Sam before ditching him at Shelob's lair, and Sam is left walking back home in tears after pleading with Frodo not to believe him. In the books they merely get lost in Shelob's lair after Gollum abandons them.
- Thorin's background in The Hobbit. He seems reasonably content in the book and his reason for returning to Erebor mainly seems to be to regain the treasure. In the film, it's a source of great pain to him that his people lack their rightful home, and he also wants revenge for the deaths of his kin.
- In the second film, Beorn's scenes are not a funny and lighthearted break from a desperate ordeal with goblins because Beorn isn't a cranky but reasonable force-of-nature-like person who has to be conned into sheltering the company for a couple of nights. Instead he's the Last of His Kind escapee from Azog's gladiator pits who only helps the Dwarves because he hates Goblins more.
- Peter in The Chronicles of Narnia films, especially Prince Caspian, is far less confident and kingly than his book counterpart. The Voyage of the Dawn Treader also adds sub-plots where Lucy worries a lot about her looks and the consequences of worrying about it, Edmund angsts about his time as a traitor to the White Witch, and Caspian has daddy issues. The first movie also gives Edmund the psychological excuse of being the sibling most affected by their father being off fighting in World War II; in the books, the war is pretty much just a device to get them all to a big strange house in the countryside and is barely if at all mentioned after the first page.
- King Leonidas from 300. Turns his wife into a major character and makes her the voice of reason and confidence.
- Stuart Little was changed (understandably) so that Stuart was adopted instead of Mrs. Little actually giving birth to him, leaving George with disappointment about getting a mouse instead of the "real" brother he'd wanted and a bit of a complex about being overshadowed by the novelty of Stuart. In the book George was a fairly minor character whose defining characteristic was being kind of a know-it-all.
- Hook, a movie sequel to Peter Pan, makes the grown-up Peter into a distant workaholic dad who has to learn that his kids are more important.
- Likewise PJ Hogan's Peter Pan greatly expands upon Wendy's reasons for running away to Neverland. Not simply just afraid of growing up, Wendy is afraid of what growing up will actually mean - becoming an Old Maid or Stepford Smiler and being unable to have her adventures. This is all for the sake of undergoing Character Development as Wendy realises that she was only afraid of growing up because she was not ready for it. Meanwhile Peter gets plenty of angst as well, not being able to understand the nature of his feelings for Wendy, as falling in love is a part of growing up which Peter refuses to do. The film even ends on a bittersweet note with the narrator describing Wendy's happy family as "the world he could never be a part of".
- The Last Temptation of Christ.
- Film adaptations of Bible stories will typically add this - for example, the book of Exodus never says that Moses had no idea of his Hebrew heritage. In fact, it implies the opposite, but most versions have his true heritage be a surprise, to up the angst. Other such examples are:
- A film version of the Book/Life of the prophet Joel gives Joel a love interest who is killed (in front of him) by the oppressors, spurring Joel onto his passionate, even frenzied preaching.
- The story of Ruth, already an impressive one in and of itself, is given an extra punch by making Ruth a priestess of the Moab religion, rather than just a Moabitess, and therefore her conversion to Judaism is much more meaningful.
- The Last Airbender: Movie!Aang spends most of his time angsting over his job as the Avatar and being the last airbender. While Cartoon!Aang isn't a stranger to angst, he's The Pollyanna. Also people are quick to notice that Movie!Sokka never cracks a single joke when he was known as the funny guy in the series.
- The difference is jarring to fans, as one of the trademarks of Aang's character in the original series is his apparently-eternal optimism, and the few times he truly fell into depression were: after realizing he really is the last Airbender (by discovering the remains of Monk Gyatso); had his oldest and closest friend stolen by sand-raiders; and effectively lost the war by allowing the Fire Nation to finally seize control of the Earth Kingdom (leaving only a small band of rebels, amounting to little more than a single battalion of soldiers). While Aang always has a subtle sense of melancholy and quiet moments in the original series, Movie! Aang is basically morose throughout the entire film, with nary a sign of the cartoon's positivism.
- Spider-Man in the movies is a lot more somber. Peter Parker was always as angsty as he was in the films, but usually he puts that angst aside when in his Spider-Man persona; not so here.
- The Amazing Spider-Man is much more angsty than the preceding films, adding the baggage of missing parents on top of Peter's responsibility and love interest woes. However, it also turns Peter's snarkiness when fighting as Spidey.
- Master and Commander: The Far Side Of The World, the only film so far of the Aubrey-Maturin novels, has a plot condensed from several of the books plus some stuff that's just made up. A few characters suffer Death by Adaptation; in particular, one midshipman is Driven to Suicide by a major sub-plot expanded from a minor and suicideless one in one of the books. Presumably due to Values Dissonance, the decision to have a sailor flogged is also played as a rare event and significant moral dilemma for Aubrey, while in the books it's treated as a routine if sometimes distasteful part of his job.
- Goku in Dragonball Evolution suffered this trope. In the movie, he has zero self-confidence and feels that he "can't get the girl", a far cry from his actual personality, where he had no worries in the world at all, and initially had trouble identifying what a girl was.
- Most of the angst in the Harry Potter films comes directly from the books, but there are still some film-specific examples of this trope. In the book version of Deathly Hallows, the fact that Hermione bewitched her parents to forget about her is something which is briefly mentioned in passing. The movie actually shows it, creating a heart-breaking scene. In the sixth film, Slughorn is seen to harbor much guilt and sadness over the death of Lily Potter via an anecdote about a gift she once gave him. The films actually avert it more often than not:
- In the first book, the time our heroes lose one hundred and fifty house points makes them despondent and hated by their classmates, but the movie just skips directly from them losing the points to their detention.
- The second movie greatly downplays Harry's angst about potentially being the Heir of Slytherin, although it gets a little more play in the film's Deleted Scenes. The fourth movie doesn't explain Barty Crouch, Jr.'s angsty backstory and portrays him as a straightforward villain.
- In the fifth movie, Harry doesn't fly into frequent ALL CAPS rants of rage at his friends nor does he Rage Against the Mentor with Dumbledore during the final scenes as in the book; the movie instead portrays his inner struggle throughout the plot as one of bleak isolation because of his tribulations rather than angry frustration from feeling like he's treated with kid gloves too often.
- In Star Trek: First Contact, Captain Picard deeply hates the Borg, due to having been assimilated by them once, and has to overcome the urge to go Captain Ahab on them. In the series, he never showed any sign of irrational hatred for the Borg, even in episodes which dealt with the Borg and took place after his assimilation.
- In Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney, Maya pretty quickly recovers from Mia's death, or at least is able to act as if she has. In the movie, she is more upset and, at the end of her trial, screams at Red White and demands to know why he hurt her family so much. Also, while the backstory of Yanni Yogi was plenty tragic in the game, the movie actually shows him having to suffer through being accused of murder, having Robert Hammond say to his face that he doesn't care if Yogi is innocent or not, being harassed by his neighbors, and coming home to find that his wife has committed suicide.
- Played with Aurora in Maleficent. In Sleeping Beauty, Aurora becomes heartbroken when she learns her identity as the daughter of King Stefan and Queen Leah, meaning that she'll have to leave her simple life in the woods with her aunts and marry a prince, never able to meet up with the nice guy she met in the woods (of course, said guy turns out to be Phillip, her betrothed all along). In Maleficent, Aurora is told by her aunts about her curse (to fall into eternal sleep) and even about Maleficent, who cursed her. However, in this continuity, Aurora has grown to know Maleficent as her Fairy Godmother, and even planned on moving into the Faerie Moors with her when she turned sixteen. As a result, this film places more emphasis on how Aurora feels betrayed by the people she grew up seeing as her family, while adding on the angst that any teenage girl would get when they learn they're essentially doomed to die.
- Though her hiding from others is not shown as much in The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1, Katniss' concern for Gale, Prim, and especially Peeta is played way up in comparison to the book. For example, when she gives her demands to Coin in exchange for being the Mockingjay, she does not include her demand that she be allowed to kill Snow personally, only concentrating on saving the victors (and keeping Buttercup). This is especially shown in the mission to save the victors. While in the book, she was concentrated wholly on Finnick's revelations about Snow and therefore developing an increasingly complex relation with him as a result in their friendship, the revelations are more or less in the background, including the fact that Finnick was a Sex Slave not even having him on screen at the time of the comment, with her focused entirely on the screens involving the secondary purpose of the reveals.
- A rather minor case with Jack in the film version of Into the Woods, who develops a bit of angst due to his mother's treatment.
- Cinderella (2015):
- Somewhat; Cinderella in the original film took her step-family's abuse as stoically as possible, only breaking down when she's denied a chance to go to the ball. In this film, Ella is shown to be clearly affected by her mistreatment, well before the dress-tearing scene. Nonetheless, she tries to make the best with what she's got.
- Tremaine is given a more sympathetic, deeper personality, as opposed to her flat portrayal in earlier adaptations. Of course, she can hardly be considered anything but the villain, just one with a better argument. In something the original Lady Tremaine would never do, this Wicked Stepmother is perfectly willing to let Cinderella marry her beloved prince... however, even then she has ulterior motives for doing so.
- The Wiz, in comparison to the play and The Wonderful Wizard of Oz, depicts Dorothy as having a stronger fear of leaving the safety of her Aunt Em's house to venture into the outside world.
- Inverted in the first adaptation of The Children's Hour, These Three. While still a somber tale about infidelity and power-dynamics, the climax is considerably less depressing. Martha's love confession is quiet and calm instead of the Anguished Declaration of Love from the play and she wasn't Driven to Suicide. The inversion is in large part due to The Hays Code forcing the film-makers to make the film about a straight love triangle instead of a gay one, and censorship over the suicidal themes.
- Both played straight and inverted in John Carter. One the one hand, the movie version of Carter is somewhat more bitter over the outcome of the Civil War. On the other hand, the film skips over much of the angst that plagues his courtship of Dejah Thoris in the novel, there's no mention of his profound fear of the dark, and because the ending differs dramatically from the novel, Carter is not teleported back to Earth in the middle of a Suicide Mission to restore Barsoom's atmosphere, and so he is not left to spend the rest of his years wondering if his wife and unborn child are still alive.
- In Smallville, Clark and Lana's relationship is nothing like the lighthearted high school romance - more like a troubled, twisted, angst-filled...something. Both of them angst a lot more than their usual selves.
- The eponymous Merlin.
- Arthur has his moments as well, as well as having to get over prejudices against magic and class not usually touched on in other adaptations.
- The original Little House on the Prairie books notably ran on Angst? What Angst? The seventies TV show, which wound up well into They Just Didn't Care territory, derived plenty of its drama from things that didn't remotely happen in the books/in Real Life. The 2005 miniseries stuck closer to the letter of events but sometimes added emotional overtones where none had been, including mining angst from the books' characteristically restrained hints at the "Well Done, Son!" Guy element in Laura's relationship with her father.
- Moist von Lipwig in the TV adaptation of Going Postal broods much more on his past crimes and their consequences than he does in the book. Also, Adora Belle Dearheart has lost more than just her brother.
- In the Poirot adaptation of Murder on the Orient Express, Hercule Poirot agonizes a lot more over whether to turn in the person or persons responsible for the murder than he does in the novel.
- The original series of Kolchak: The Night Stalker had Kolchak investigating strange stories of the supernatural solely because he kept running into them on his beat. The short-lived remake The Night Stalker had it so that he was driven to investigate the strange after the mysterious death of his wife, for which he was still considered a suspect.
- The Granada Sherlock Holmes series flip-flops on inverting this or playing it straight for different incidents, the decisions usually hinging on the absence of Watson's narration from the books. Holmes's cocaine addiction, at any rate, is given a good bit more active screentime.
- The Wiz Live! shows more of Dorothy's grieving over her parents' death than did the original play, or even The Wonderful Wizard of Oz. Aunt Em, the sister of Dorothy's mama, also mourns the loss.
- Inverted in Life. Ayumu in the j-drama is presented as ever so slightly less depressed and troubled than in the manga, mostly due to them removing her Self-Harm habits. The live action adaptation focuses more on her overcoming her hardships and dealing with her bullies.
- Riverdale seems made with the intention of deconstructing and darkening Archie Comics as much as possible. There is traditionally no angst in Archie's whatsoever, and even the more contemporary Archie Comics (2015) isn't nearly as dramatic:
- Archie is described as dealing with multiple issues and harboring a dark secret. He's also been Mistaken for Murderer.
- Betty is a Stepford Smiler with self-esteem issues who is tired of seeming "perfect".
- Summaries outright call Jughead emo. He is no longer friends with Archie due to an argument.
- Archie's father Fred is described as having skeletons in his closet.
- In the comics Kevin's father is fine with him being gay. In Riverdale he has to deal with his dad's homophobia.
- The Flash (2014) has the Reverse Flash. In the show, he's been Trapped in the Past for 15 years (originally being from a over a century in the future) and is desperate to get home, and his scheme to do so is the driving force behind Season 1. In the comics he doesn't care about getting back to his time at all and is mostly just focused on screwing over The Flash in any way possible.
- One could argue that this trope was the basis for the musical Jesus Christ Superstar. In fact, it was precisely this reason that many people initially protested the film — because the all-powerful Christ isn't supposed to show feelings like the rest of the mortals, dammit (never mind that the Bible does have several entries in which he does just that).
- In the Vlog Series Lovely Little Losers, loosely based on Shakespeare's Love's Labour's Lost, a significant amount of the plot hinges on an unhappy backstory that is entirely absent from the original play.
- In The Hero of Time, Talon is a lot more serious about things than his carefree self and Malon is considerably more shy and nervous when she first meets Link, although both are explained as a result of them recently moving to Hyrule Castle Town and being unused to living in a populated area (which obviously never happened in the game). Five years in the future, Talon has become even more depressed and bitter, due to the fact that Malon died.
- The Spectacular Spider-Man is quite similar to the original stories. In the original comics Peter spent at least half the time moping about how he was essentially life's punching bag, especially in Stan Lee's original run which the show was in part directly based on. In the cartoon itself Peter still spend at least half the time moping about how he was essentially life's punching bag, but kind of has a more of a positive outlook. Even as the comics and movies increasingly follow a rule that says "there's no such thing as enough Wangst," what is Peter's first scene? As he webslings his way through the city, he says "Tell me there's something better. Go ahead, try."
- Transformers Animated: Waspinator's odd speech and Butt Monkey mannerisms made him the comic relief in Beast Wars. Here his mannerisms are a result of being locked in a penitentiary for a long time which gradually eroded his sanity to make him into a gibbering mess, and when bad things happen to him they also get played for drama as well as laughs. His lamentations at his lot in life are no longer odd fourth wall breaking moments, but the insane depressed ramblings of a broken bot.