Your Old Shames.

Hmmm… how about… everything I did from 2012, up until start of August 2020. It was in a time that I had loathed myself for… reasons. I won't elaborate on the why, but by February 2017 (when I lost Internet access) I had like 70 sock-puppets on one forum (that I was the founder of).

I've only recently overcome that issue, at least. Being true to myself, that sort of thing.

… and to top everything off, this just had to top the page. Figures. -_-"

Edited by Cibryll on Feb 12th 2022 at 3:52:45 PM

Seth in the Pokécity. Ick.

When I was a teen, I laughed at gay jokes and people using the r-word. >_<

In my (sort of) defense, I wasn't homophobic, I just didn't understand the idea of being gay and didn't think stuff like that would hurt people.

I used to watch No Bullshit unironically and took the shit he said seriously.

When I was younger, I used to watch a lot of The Mysterious Mr. Enter and get disproportionately angry at kids shows (Thunderbirds Are Go was a particular hatred of mine). Let’s just say, thank god I didn’t have an online presence at the time.

Edited by HoloMew151 on Feb 20th 2022 at 7:53:11 PM

I should get this off my chest.

When I was in my early 20s, I was a homophobe for a while. Although in my defense, it was only because of a broken heart. My first girlfriend said this to me during what turned into our final breakup, along the lines of: "Hi there. I'm the person who broke your heart as horribly as possible, tossed you out of my life like yesterday's garbage, and called you a sacrifice I'm willing to make. And I became a stereotypical man-hating lesbian while I was at it. Can we be friends?! " *cue the Chirping Crickets*

Anyway, I can't quite remember what happened that snapped me out of it, but I'm very glad I did overcome it. :)

Edited by Demetrios on Feb 23rd 2022 at 11:28:01 AM

Everything I've ever done up until about 2021. Boy was I clueless.

I own two copies of the Diary of a Wimpy Kid Do it Yourself book. I'm terrified of the idea of opening either of them.

I had made terrible rap song lyrics when I was younger. They were homophobic and somewhat racist. The thought process was "If popular hip hop music is homophobic, my lyrics will be homophobic as well!" And the lyrics were full of boasts that didn't make sense and they didn't rhyme...although not all songs do. I left that in the past and the only thing that came out of it was that my rap name is my troper name as a way to say that the name had a...controversial past...but now it's easier to accept just the name. There is also the fact that the lyrics were made when I was in elementary school (13 years old). When I made lyrics in high school, they were more "emo" and "introspective ". The lyrics weren't great, to the point where I read some of them wondering where my head was at but, at least, even when I wrote them, I had the self awareness about the lyrics I was writing and knew they weren't that deep. Also, the difference between what I wrote in elementary school and high school is night and day. As emo as the high school lyrics were, they were at least mature.

Also, another old shame, similar to Marston, was my postings on the forums from 2014-19. I tried so hard to be funny that it came across as annoying. To this day, I still blame myself for getting the Trash Heap thread locked, despite people saying that it wasn't my fault and I wasn't there when it was locked. I still will blame myself because I was an immature try hard. The only instance of maturity was when I gave advice on the Romance thread but, even then, sometimes I think I give not so great advice.

I'll think of more Old Shames when I get to them.

What kind of 'homophobic' rap song did you write about? Did you remember the verses and chorus you wrote?

Also, I'd like to see the emo thing you wrote during high school. I kinda want to read it myself.

like a good chunk of others here, I also was a victim of what i can only describe as the “edgy anti-sjw” pipeline. late middle school/early high school me was a big fan of the “dank meme” compilations, complete with every mean spirited, bad-faith ‘dunk’ on feminists and trans activists and whatnot. kinda ironic how I later on started questioning my identity (and later on personally coming out as nonbinary)…

also honestly my whole tenure on deviantart is an Old Shame in and of itself. for starters, i was the one who wrote A Sick Day. i didn’t make the page for it, but i wrote it.

Edited by worldwidewoomy on Apr 20th 2022 at 4:52:07 AM

I dont remember the verses...but I STILL have the lyrics book. And trust me, you dont wanna know those lyrics. Maybe some day I'll share some of my emo poetry.

This one is a bit of a funny Old Shame. Several odd years ago, when I was writing my books for the first time, before I seriously decided to get them published, I included the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles in my fourth book. ^_^;;

The state of my troper page circa 2013 was catastrophically embarrassing.

I used to be way too unfairly picky with music, not letting myself like anything modern (for the time) and mainstream.

Funny enough, there are even specific songs from that time that I think positively of, so I guess I made a pretty sucky hipster.

Though I did always like "Fireflies", even though it otherwise met the definition of what I wouldn't let myself like.

when i was younger i didn't know what the word "orgasm" meant and used it occasionally to describe loud noises

learn in my footsteps and always remember to know the definition of a word before use

Similar thing with the word "Fetish". Little me knew it had something to do with obsession and at one point in middle school, I told someone that I had a pig "fetish" since I like pigs a lot. Then I googled the word shortly after that and... yeah, instant embarrassment

In a couple of long-gone digital camera videos, young me mentioned putting things “up in pussin”. I was talking about filming objects from various angles, and I thought I could name this action after Puss in Boots for some reason.

After staying away from these forums for a couple of years out of cringe at how I would ramble at length about weeb shit nobody cared about... yeah. My activity here from 2018-2019.

I've destroyed rare items I cared about just to please people online who don't know me. The items made me feel guilty, like I was carrying a burden. Without them, I don't need to feel guilty. I wasted so much money on signatures from celebrities as a result.

Edited by ChicoTheParakeet on Jul 5th 2022 at 11:52:35 AM

I once said there wasn’t much scary about Kirby. Ha.

The series, or the character?

Back in the years between 2019-2021, I used to post a lot of embarrassing, awful posts on the Forums, to the point of somebody worrying about me. I was still new and starting to mature from adolescent preconceptions of life. I regret those times and wish to condemn said posts to damnatio memoriae.

More or less everything I've done on a Wikia/Fandom Wiki. From category/edit spamming on the Nitrome Fan Fiction Wiki, to mildly transphobic edits on The Return to Freddy's Wiki (the fact that I was there at all could be an old shame by itself given how controversial the series is), and the less said about my experiences on Villains Wiki, the better.

These are times of my life that are hard to go back to thinking about.....

Edited by KingofNightmares on Oct 27th 2022 at 12:00:44 PM

The series.

I used to think the so-called “CM/MB crossovers” were inherently good, thus contributing to the Badge of Honor mentality. Then I thought they were inherently bad, and even tried to get a character cut for bullshit reasons. Now, I realize they just occur naturally and aren’t worth mentioning at all. Also, I contributed heavily to the pointless sandboxes.

My entire past self had many unaddressed mental health issues that stemmed into my behavior on this site and others.

Edited by PurpleEyedGuma on Mar 22nd 2023 at 4:50:52 AM