Crisis of Faith
Where is my faith? Even deep down ... there is nothing but emptiness and darkness ... If there be God—please forgive me. When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven, there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives and hurt my very soul ... How painful is this unknown pain—I have no Faith. Repulsed, empty, no faith, no love, no zeal, ... What do I labor for? If there be no God, there can be no soul. If there be no soul then, Jesus, You also are not true.A character with a religious belief, whether it be fervent, casual, or never mentioned before or since, loses it and spends a Story Arc as an unbeliever until learning a valuable lesson about faith. More Anviliciously, a Hollywood Atheist Long-Lost Uncle Aesop may be introduced, just to be enlightened and then never heard from again. The Reset Button will often be in full effect - after all, in mainstream American media (where this trope is most common) God Is the Status Quo and the Moral Guardians might kick up a fuss if the option of losing ones faith for good were presented as a valid decision. Naturally, Values Dissonance abounds for viewers who consider atheism a valid outlook to live by. Of course, suffering a period of painful doubt is completely Truth in Television for people with a strong faith in any cause. Sometimes it's a painful transition that ultimately leads into a new outlook, and sometimes it's a period of existential angst leading to developing a deeper and more nuanced faith because of the experience. This is not the place to debate these issues. A more angry reaction may include Smite Me, O Mighty Smiter! or Rage Against the Heavens. The character will most likely become either a Hollywood Atheist, losing all will to live or respect for morality, or a Nay-Theist, accepting that God exists but refusing to worship him. When the conversion comes complete with a readjustment of the moral compass, see Heel-Faith Turn and Faith Heel Turn. Songs on this subject often sound like Breakup Songs, the flipside of God-Is-Love Songs. Not to be confused with Have You Seen My God?, where the divinity in question really is MIA. Compare Religious Russian Roulette, where the character lets their belief in God ride on their request for a miracle. Sub-Trope of Break the Believer
— Mother Teresa
- In the Forgotten Realms comics, the elven cleric Vartan refuses to worship his god Labelas—even to access desperately-needed healing powers—after an arc in which Labelas possesses Vartan's body and torments his friends. Labelas shows up later and tries to make amends; Vartan accepts the gesture, and a later short story shows him returning to Labelas' service.
- After spending the first half of Angel of the Bat discovering and eventually embracing Christianity, Cassandra Cain's faith is nearly destroyed after a Trauma Conga Line that includes admitting her has romantic feelings for her best friend Stephanie and learning that homosexuality is sinful, being cornered and beaten in battle by The Seraphim and subsequently tortured for just shy of two weeks to try and force her to surrender to his Religion of Evil. It takes confronting Christ (or maybe just a dream of him) and getting some heavy philosophy to convince her her faith shouldn't be given up yet.
- The protagonist of Priest (1994) spends practically the whole movie in a Crisis of Faith.
- In Signs, Mel Gibson's character is a former Anglican priest who lost his faith when his wife died. The Twist Ending makes him reconsider.
- The protagonist of the Diablo Cody dramedy Paradise is a devout Christian who goes through a crisis of faith when she's involved in a plane crash and gets horrific burns on most of her body (but conveniently not the face)
- In X-Men: Days of Future Past, 1970s Xavier begins with one, because of all the things he lost. He eventually gets better.
- A Prayer for Owen Meany: Both Johnny and Rev. Merrill have this. The former cites the entire story as being his reason why he got over the crisis. Merrill does only because of a ruse Johnny stages with a dummy, tricking Merrill into thinking that Johnny's mother reached out to him from the grave.
- The Book of Job is probably the Trope Maker, being the origin of the "if your life sucks, God is testing your faith" Aesop.
- Arthur C. Clarke's short story "The Star" is about a Jesuit priest who has a crisis of faith when he learns that the nova that destroyed a planet of morally good inhabitants was the star over Bethlehem.
- The short story isn't a full example, as it doesn't end with the priest getting his faith back. This was "fixed" for the television adaptation.
- In Warrior Cats, the whole of ShadowClan stops believing in StarClan after a loner named Sol predicted a solar eclipse and StarClan weren't able to. ShadowClan's leader Blackstar had already been having some doubts because life had been harder since the Great Journey, so it didn't take much for Sol to convince him that StarClan was powerless. They did start believing again, though, after some StarClan cats - ShadowClan's last leader and medicine cat - spoke to Blackstar and his medicine cat.
- Another example comes from Cloudstar, a cat from the distant past. His novella Cloudstar's Journey features him losing his faith entirely in StarClan. Unlike most examples of this trope he never regains his faith until after his death.
- In The Final Trumpet, an adventure for the In Nomine RPG, the Archangel of Faith himself actually reaches this point, risking Armageddon in the process. Depending on the actions of the player characters, he may come back stronger than ever, or Fall completely to become the Demon Prince of Fanaticism.
- Drives a lot of the plot in Dirge for Prester John. John tries hard to be a good Christian king of a kingdom of, in his view, heathen monsters. In the frame story, Hiob's faith is also shaken by John's account of Pentexore.
- In Courtship Rite, on the Lost Colony of Geta, repeated cycles of famine have, after many centuries, made cannibalism an accepted part of the culture. The "Gentle Heretic" Oelita, in addition to believing that cannibalism should be avoided, is convinced that humans are native to Geta, despite their obvious biological and genetic differences. When conclusive evidence appears that this is not the case, she begins to question her whole belief system.
- Happens to at least one cleric on Zendikar when the true nature of the plane's "gods" is revealed.
I believed in a beautiful god. But this is the true face of the divine.
- Due to events at the climax of the second Mistborn book, Sazed (who collects dead religions and considers himself a believer of every single one) spends much of his time in the third meticulously examining each one, looking for a faith that can provide an answer to his questions.
- This happens to Omman Knight Jon Ommandeer in Serial 5 in Spectral Shadows, or at least is supposed to according to the serial synopsis. How his faith is in crisis and the extent of it is as of now unknown.
- A recurring theme throughout Safehold, as the entire cast save Merlin were raised and taught to believe in a church that is, in fact, a Path of Inspiration perpetrated through a God Guise. While dedicated to the eventual revelation of this gigantic lie many characters, especially Archbishop Maikel Staynair, fear the large scale Crisis of Faith that many will suffer since it's hardly a leap to decide God is a lie after learning your entire Church is.
- Even without this knowledge, Father Paityr Wylsynn experienced a Crisis of Faith in the wake of everything that has happened across the first four books. In the fifth book, How Firm a Foundation, Staynair recommends him to the monastery that helped him with similar troubles in his youth and eventually votes to induct him into the Inner Circle of those in the know.
- Knowledge Of Angels: Beneditx has one after talking with Palinor, and becoming convinced by Palinor's atheist retorts.
- While House himself gets a pass for being a misanthropic Jerkass, a wayward priest patient finds his faith again after seeing the fantastic series of coincidences that line up to save his life.
- In the Scrubs episode "My Own Personal Jesus", Turk loses his faith in a just God after a hopeless Christmas Eve in the emergency room, but regains it after he finds a missing pregnant woman by intuition and helps her give birth. (Interestingly, Turk is the only character in the episode who professes strong religious beliefs in the first place, and the other major characters seem to look down on him for this.)
- In the Quantum Leap episode "Leap of Faith", Sam leaps into a priest, and Al is uncomfortable with the whole thing. He reveals that he left the church as a child, after prayer failed to save his father from dying of cancer, and swore never to have anything to do with God again. However, he resorts to praying to God again when it looks like Sam's life is in danger.
- An episode of Dead Like Me included a drunken priest whose faith is restored by Daisy revealing herself to be a Reaper.
- This is an ongoing issue for Scully of The X-Files. She was raised as a devout Catholic and already had a few issues reconciling her work as a scientist with her faith. When she joins the X-Files and paranormal events and aliens get thrown in, she struggles to strike a balance.
- Combat Hospital explores this one pretty thoroughly through an army chaplain who undergoes a crisis of faith as she serves in Afghanistan and sees the brutality of war up close and personal.
- An All in the Family episode has Edith undergo one of these after Mike and a family friend are mugged on Christmas Eve, with the friend subsequently dying. Ironically, it's Mike who convinces her to reconsider.
- A recurring problem for Adam Smallbone on Rev. According to his wife, it happens at least once a year. One particularly bad crisis sends him into a deep depression, lashing out at several people around him.
- On one episode of Star Trek: Voyager, Neelix experiences a deep crisis of faith after dying, and being revived 18 hours later, without having experienced the afterlife his faith promised. After trying to come to terms with it, he tries teleporting himself into space to die, convinced that there really is nothing after death, but Chakotay manages to talk him out of it. The episode ends without giving a firm answer about his beliefs one way or another.
- Drop the Dead Donkey has it both ways. In order to impress Japanese investors and Sir Royston, a debate between an atheist sociologist and a Catholic bishop is planned. Unfortunately, before it can go ahead, the TV news screens a piece of footage from the Middle East. The bishop is distressed in the inhumanity of it all, particularly when focusing on civilians caught up in the middle of violence, and loses his faith. However, the sociologist sees the same woman and same child and gains faith from seeing human survival against the odds and concludes the world must be in the hands of a divine being. The debate is, naturally enough, cancelled.
- You, Me and the Apocalypse: Besides many people heading this way once news of the comet is announced, Father Jude and Sister Celine must fight their growing feelings for each other. Celine later has a proper crisis of faith after Jude dies.
- Brutaka from BIONICLE performed a brief but notable Face-Heel Turn when he lost his faith in the Great Spirit Mata Nui. Little did he know that Mata Nui's actually a very Physical God, who hasn't shown any sign of himself due to being in a coma. He later realizes that being a villain stands against all the other things he believed in, and the rest of the story portrays him as a mostly positive character.
- The Ocean has a few songs like this. It's prominent in "She Was the Universe".
- In the play Doubt, Sister Aloysis experiences a crisis of faith after seeing the abuses of trust and privilege in the church. It's not a major plot arc but is significant because the character is a nun.
- The lead villain of Resonance of Fate Cardinal Rowen goes through one over the course of the story. He used to believe fervently in Zenith, the clockwork tower that the people live in, and believed in it's plan. However, Sullivan shows the way to control Zenith, and since it regulates the lifespan of a person through quartz, controlling life and death. Rowen goes from worshipping God to being God
- Dragon Age: Inquisition has this for three of the major characters: Cassandra, Leliana and Cullen. Cullen falters slightly due to using faith to try and overcome his addiction to lyrium, which he can fail at if encouraged to take it again. Leliana and Cassandra worked with Divine Justinia to make the Conclave, only for it to fall apart in the beginning of the game. Leliana sees the whole thing as a cruel joke by a Jerkass God, while Cassandra begins looking for any sign of faith that would extinguish her doubts.
Leliana: I was with the Hero of Ferelden when he killed the Archdemon. The Maker brought us together, and then... I watched him die. In that instant, I felt the Maker's presence grow cold. One moment, a cherished child. The next... abandoned.
- Inquisition also reveals that Leliana, if in love with a Warden who died killing the Archdemon, has been dealing with a crisis of faith since the end of 'Origins'.
- In the webcomic It's Walky!, a distraught Joyce, unable to reconcile her Fundamentalist beliefs with the events of her life shouts out at the heavens, then in a fit of inspiration (or insanity, or both) takes up the Power Booster Rod and goes out to seek out God for answers... or rather, the nearest equivalent, the immortal being known as The Traveler (AKA The Cheese), who is completely dumbfounded that she would think he could give her an answer.
- The Simpsons has had a couple. For example, in "Homer The Heretic", Homer decides going to church is too much effort, and starts his own religion. Then his house catches fire, and he's rescued by Ned Flanders and a multi-faith volunteer fire brigade.
Reverend Lovejoy: Homer, God didn't burn your house down. But he was working in the hearts of your friends and neighbours, be they Christian [gestures to Flanders], Jew [gestures to Krusty], or [pauses] ...miscellaneous!Apu: Hindu! There are seven hundred million of us!Reverend Lovejoy: Aw, that's super!
- Ned Flanders himself has a brief crisis of faith when his house is destroyed by a tornado (in a clear homage to the Book of Job, mentioned above) and then again with the death of his wife Maude.
- South Park: Kyle loses his belief in God after Cartman gets a million dollar inheritance and buys his own theme park, while Kyle gets diagnosed with hemorrhoids. His faith is restored when he sees Cartman lose all his money, which Stan interprets was The Plan by God to punish Cartman the whole time.
- Another episode has all the Catholics in South Park (which is pretty much everybody) declare themselves Hollywood Atheists due to the Pedophile Priest controversy. They wind up reverting back after Father Maxi makes a televised speech to the church hierarchy about not letting unnecessary bureaucracy and corrupt rules get in the way of religion's core message.
- Inverted in Justice League, "The Terror Beyond", with Hawkgirl questioning her own Naytheism. She's genuinely surprised to learn that Wonder Woman gets stronger by asking the gods for aid, and admits at the end that she doesn't understand why a teammate (who believed in an afterlife) was able to Go Out with a Smile. The episode ends with this subplot deliberately left hanging.
- One episode of Daria has Quinn take a sudden interest in stories of angels, and she becomes convinced she has her own guardian angel when she happens to move just in time to avoid a dangerous accident. The problem is she comes to believe her angel will help her with everything, and becomes convinced that he's "abandoned" her when she embarrasses herself at a party. Daria puts aside her own feelings about the matter and helps Quinn decide she should only trust her angel for "big" issues.