Auties, Aspies, and other CloudCuckooLanders!

hello fellow autistics

might you know me by another?

Sometimes I get angry whenever I listen to the way someone speaks (for example, MVPerry and Saberspark). Is it some sort of audiosensory processing thing? I think it's a neurotypical thing too but I feel like it happens more to people on the spectrum.

EDIT: Neurotypical not neurodivergent gdi

Edited by Wafer on Apr 20th 2022 at 7:01:33 AM

How do people with ADHD manage to read shit that isn't comics/manga? God, it made it near impossible for me to do it.

Victor of HGS S320 | "There's rosemary, that's for remembrance. Pray you, love, remember."

The power of autism and multitasking making me bored in the middle of doing something, so I do something else and completely forget about the other thing until I run out of new things to do!

Oh look, mentioned my ADHD for the first time on TVT.

And now, with that out of the way, I'll reveal that I'm Autistic as well here (haven't told anyone here outside of in Discord servers I'm in; for the TVT users that are in those Discord servers, they probably already knew). Yay I'm out of the Neurodivergent Closest now!

From the moment I became truly active in July 2021, I felt uncomfortable disclosing my neurodiversity as it felt like a private thing to me and that I might get discriminated against (despite the fact it seems that a good amount of TVT users are neurodivergent). Over time, as Discord became part of my social life, I guess I became more open with sharing my status from forming close friendships to explaining that I might not understand certain things. Hell, I got so comfortable with it that I casually mentioned my ADHD in a server I recently joined within a couple of days (although it was a mutual server between a few users that knew of my conditions but still).

So, when I was writing that post I talked about it at the beginning of this one, I figured (perhaps impulsively as always) "eh, why not mention the ADHD?" and so I did. Maybe I should update my Troper page to mention my ND, since I already came out here

Victor of HGS S320 | "There's rosemary, that's for remembrance. Pray you, love, remember."

At least you're dealing with it in a way you're comfortable with.

Why's this eggo angy all the time? | Current video game focus: Minecraft

I'm scaring myself a little bit. Whenever I see a political post - this was inspired by hearing "Bitch" on the radio (Brooks is a bit right-wing, if you follow OHW) - I think... well... if you read This Is Unforgivable! you can figure out not only what I think, but why I feel it's the inevitable conclusion of the rhetoric we see on this forum. And yet, the inevitable conclusion I feel I can't post, even though it's strictly implied a thousand times a day. Am I just better at compartmentalization?

(I almost posted a slightly deranged calculation here, but thought better of even that.)

My posts make considerably more sense read in the voice of John Ratzenberger.

So, I've been seeing a new psychologist to help me with my possible depression, and on my third visit, she brought up that I might be a high-functioning autistic based on things I said and some of my behavioral tics and that some of my depressive tendencies might stem from my needs not being fulfilled due to it. So she gave me a bunch of papers detailing some (but not all) symptoms of it... and a good amount of them was stuff that I did recognize, and some stuff that my Mom had noticed about me, as well.

Now, she mentioned that she's not qualified to do an official diagnosis, and here in Sweden, you can't actually get one unless it actively interferes with your life (I'm guessing that it's for he sake of reducing the risk of a wrongful diagnosis), but she said it was "highly likely" in her opinion.

She gave me another paper to fill in to get more of a confirmation, but I guess I'm on my way of getting an almost-diagnosis, I guess. It would certainly explain a lot of things. I know that my Dad was very interested in looking through those papers, as well, and I can see why, because I've suspected for quite a while now that he might be autistic, too.

My AO3 profile. Let sleeping cats lie and be cute and calming.

Well, I just hope it works out well fer ya - and, also, welcome to the club buddy!

Why's this eggo angy all the time? | Current video game focus: Minecraft

Does anyone else hate parties?

I ate fine food at a French restaurant with my family to celebrate my upcoming 20th birthday but I was not happy at all.

I found it stressful to dress up in unfamiliar clothing for an unfamiliar occasion at an unfamiliar place where I had to sit down listening to three people prattling at the same time. The waiter didn't bother to list all the types of food on paper, which frustrated me because I had no idea what kind of one of vegetables I ate.

I felt like dying.

Edited by IukaSylvie on Oct 31st 2022 at 4:43:51 AM

high functioning autistic here. hello everyone

Edited by Heyitsgalaxycreeper on Oct 30th 2022 at 11:05:13 AM

To answer your question: I'm fine with parties, which, considering I grew up in a large family, allowed me plenty of time to get used to crowds.

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Hello fellow Autistic person!

Why's this eggo angy all the time? | Current video game focus: Minecraft

After a long hiatus, I'm back. I have diagnosed ADHD, undiagnosed autism, and mild synesthesia. If you saw any of my posts a few pages back, ignore the part where I referred to myself as female. That is no longer true.

Also, hey Galaxy Creeper! I've seen you around the forum games but I didn't know you were neurodivergent.

Could you explain what you mean? I didn't follow.

Edited by V-Alighieri on Oct 31st 2022 at 7:41:52 AM

Full moon is on the sky and he's not a man anymore

Deleted to save face slightly. It was basically the same as my previous post on compartmentalization.

Edited by TwinBird on Nov 1st 2022 at 5:58:37 AM

My posts make considerably more sense read in the voice of John Ratzenberger.

I've got a confession, I feel like I've said it before but I'm not sure.

I don't really like the terms high functioning and low functioning. Low functioning dismisses a person's strengths and high functioning dismisses their struggles. Plus, they come from a misunderstanding of the spectrum. It's not a linear thing, with more autistic on one end and less autistic on the other, it's more like a coordinate plane or a pie chart or something else like that or what have ya. Because brains aren't linear, they're actually anything but. And there's no such thing as less autistic or more autistic; you're either autistic or you're not, and every autistic has the same "amount" of autism, they just experience it and are affected by it differently.

But that's just what I think. Y'all do whatever ya want.

I agree. I think people are starting to move away from functioning labels. It's more helpful to specify how much assistance a person needs in certain areas, because someone can be "high functioning" in one area and "low functioning" in another. Plus I think some "high functioning" people get quite elitist and superior over other autistics, but also "high functioning" people get overlooked because people think we don't struggle at all.

I do some cleanup and then I enjoy shows you probably think are cringe.

Yeah!! I'm "high functioning" sometimes and "low functioning" other times which often changes every day without warning. Being labeled as high functioning prevented me from getting a lot of the help I needed because I was seen as "basically neurotypical."

I think the explanation that the autism spectrum is more of a color wheel than a line is bang on. I spent so long thinking I couldn't be autistic because I didn't have "safe foods" and I could make eye contact and I could talk to people (As far as the last one goes it turns out that wanting to talk to people and being good at talking to people are not the same thing.)

Full moon is on the sky and he's not a man anymore

yeah i kinda agree tbh. i use "high-functioning" to describe myself but it just feels...wrong to me. not sure what word i'd use to replace it though...

So I found out just yesterday that "chew toys" for people exist. As somebody who chews a lot of gum (Probably more than I should) and has had a bit of a problem with chewing on things growing up, (I tended to bite my pencils to pieces and chewed a resealable bottle cap to uselessness once) these seem like a godsend to me - Like, seriously, I should've thought about this and looked it up sooner!

So, I bought two different sorts - A dog tag and a stick. Let's see which I find more appealing to bite on, though maybe I should've started with the soft ones and no the hard ones.

Edited by MagmaTeaMerry on Nov 12th 2022 at 6:15:00 PM

My AO3 profile. Let sleeping cats lie and be cute and calming.

I had a Mickey Mouse shaped chewy when I was in second grade cuz I'd chew up all my pencils otherwise.

I do some cleanup and then I enjoy shows you probably think are cringe.

HEEEEEEEE Elllllooooo

I have many mental illnesses.

Autistic, ADHD, SAD (Seasonal affective disorder), and UDD (unspecified dissociative disorder) which I believe is actually DID but the dotocrs in the area I live in are... yeah

Has bad enlish. Also DID. Current Fronter: Adzumi

ASD and gonna have a whinge.

Things about conversations that I hate and need to be thrown in a blender:

• People reading shit into things, things you never bloody said
• Rules of conversation apply to you only, other people can break them at will but if you break em you suck
• Pointing out when other people break the rules of conversation is wrong, somehow
• People not telling you when they don't like something, but still getting mad when you don't read their mind
• Not being allowed to explain yourself when apologising
• Whatever the hell Tone Policing is

Urgh. Conversations are walking across a minefield, blindfolded. And nobody tells you where the mines are. And every person's minefield is different. But if you step on a single mine, you're the bad guy. But if someone steps on one of your mines, you're still the bad guy.

...ok rant over I'm good now

Edited by Murataku on Dec 31st 2022 at 10:27:43 PM

Sure the show's stupid but it's bright, fun, and you see grown men get punched in the face multiple times an episode. What's not to like?

Honestly same.

Cosmic human watches over a certain Meme universe.

i'd comment on this too but i, for the life of me, can NOT get into a conversation (not by myself)

no like seriously though why does every method of introducing yourself to someone seem so unnatural??? especially to strangers/people you barely know.

the thought of approaching a stranger, even somewhere like school, feels so strange to me. though maybe that's because no one at my school interests me (except for the people i somewhat know i guess)

edit: sorry if i'm going a bit off-topic btw

Edited by Heyitsgalaxycreeper on Dec 31st 2022 at 11:46:08 AM