- The final minute of Coil's last ever concert consisted of an ethereal, droning, ambient five-note chord sequence, and Jhonn Balance repeating his last ever words on stage: "It just is." In multiple ways, and especially with how it was incorporated into the studio version of "Going Up", it's the biggest Tear Jerker the group ever had.
- Jhonn's last emails, all written to Current 93 founder David Tibet.
- At 2:34 pm +0100 20/10/04, Jhonn Balance wrote:
- The whoooosh shish of the scythe these days is eeeeirie.
- much love to you both
- BALANCE XXXX
- At 1:05 pm +0100 21/10/04, Jhonn Balance wrote:
- LOVEANDSONGBIRDIES. I JUST KEEP ON COMING.
- At 5:52 pm +0100 22/10/04, Jhonn Balance wrote:
- letters later. kiss kiss
- The overall bleak tone of The Ape of Naples, already employing the fact Jhonn was no longer with us, but the music makes it worse given the album's themes of death, especially with "Going Up", featuring the aforementioned ""It just is.".
Tear Jerker / Coil