At the end of the Silent Hill Dead/Alive review, we learn the origins of the Magic Gun. It is made of the soul of a tortured little girl. A girl tortured by her parents to revive an ancient god. Upon learning of this, and how he has been using the Gun for so long, an already weakened Linkara is mind-raped to the point of believing that he was the girl's father and tries to shoot himself with the Gun. He only survives because the girl's spirit in the Gun sees he's worth saving, and doesn't shoot.
"They didn't love me." After Linkara goes through an ominous book full of scrawled angry text that sets up some ominous foreshadowing, of all things it's that one little line, written plaintively in the corner of the page that packs the biggest emotional gut punch.
What really sold this scene was Mr. Lovhaug's delivery. The man chews the scenery every chance he gets, and now suddenly he sounds like he's about to cry. And who says he can't act?
Action GirlIron Liz seems unbreakable, doesn't she? Not according to her livestream discussion with JewWario. She grew up horribly depressed, and tried to kill herself on her eighteenth birthday. Even worse, Justin admitted (almost casually) that he'd tried this, too.
The discussion prompted a number of people in the chat to come forward with their own stories of depression and suicide attempts. It's a lot more common than you'd think for such a small group of people.
The entire discussion became muchHarsher in Hindsight following Justin's suicide in January of 2014.
Seeing Linkara depressed in the beginning of his Care Bears review is off-putting to say the least. The guy seemed to have only two emotions until this point: anger and joy. This was neither. This was pure and true sadness.
Hell, that was just kicking us after we were already down! As mentioned below, you could tell that Justice League: Cry for Justice actually broke him down, and not in the planned way the Dead/Alive breakdown was.
In Linkara's Cry For Justice Review, the moment where he unleashes his fury at Lian Harper's death wasn't funny in the slightest. Whereas normally, Linkara adds a bit of a dorky whine to his angry voice in order to convey a bit of comedy, even when he reviewed Countdown, there was NONE of that in Linkara's voice during that scene. Instead, there was nothing but pure, unmitigated fury toward James Robinson for killing off one of his favorite characters for nothing more than an unforeshadowed Shock Death that ALSO ruined the comic series that got him into comics, the Titans, because Lian Harper's presence in the book helped humanize Arsenal, her father.
This rant is also the only time he's said fuck without it being bleeped or cut off in some way or being part of a blooper. It makes it clear the rant wasn't coming from Linkara, but Lewis himself.
Becomes even worse when the DC relaunch happened, where Lian Harper very existence was retconed along with Linkara's favorite Titans team. Even though his anger in The New Teen Titans Anti-Drug PSA about this was funny, you can tell that this whole thing has really upset him. Especially since in his Rise of Arsenal review, he stated that if they did not retcon Lian's death, he would lose more respect for DC than from the act itself. Be Careful What You Wish For indeed.
In Linkara's NBComics #1 review, when the magic kid tries to use a glove to wish for super powers, Linkara says "Don't waste your time with magic gloves kid, you'll only end up with a dead Planeteer."
In "The Grinning Man" Linkara really seems depressed that he doesn't even know the name of the girl who was killed to make the Magic Gun.
In "Planet of the Symbiotes", the look on Linkara's face when he realizes Liz was taken by the Entity is absolutely heartbreaking.
Oh, hell, even right before that, when he cries out "LIZ!" and rushes forward to save her, only to be blocked by the Entity... Lips will tremble and eyes will water.
After reviewing Electric Tale of Pikachu, he gives up as he sees no way to defeat the Entity, stands up, and a sadder rendition of his theme song plays as he slowly takes off the Ash-esque outfit he wore all episode and replaces it with his own outfit- even replicating camera angles of putting on his coat and hat seen in his opening credits. He just looks so...defeated. The worst part, however, is what he says to Nimue:
Linkara: Well, Nimue, it was nice knowing you... although brief.
Nimue: The emotion... is shared.
The magic gun is absorbed by the Entity.
However, if you stay for the credits, it says that the Magic Gun also came back after the Entity's death.
Linkara's desperate, hopeless reaction to losing her. That isn't the look of a man who lost his best weapon, he treats her taking with the same gravity as Liz being taken.
The duplication of Spock's death with Pollo. Particularly Iron Liz calling Linkara "Lewis" to snap him out of suicidally running in.
Note that no one has ever referred to Linkara by his real name before this.
Allow me to make this worse: let's say you watched "The Wrath of Khan". Now, let's say you remember seeing it while watching Linkara's reviews of the comic adaptation. The second Pollo said "I have been, and always shall be, your friend.", just like Spock before him, you could tell right away how this would end. The worst thing? It changes nothing; whether you saw it or not, Pollo's death is still a sad moment.
Even worse; suppose you watched Wrath of Khan right before the third part of Linkara's review to get the full impact, as some people probably did.
This exchange between Pollo and Linkara as the former slowly dies from radiation after saving Comicron-1 from Mechakara.
Pollo: I knew what I had to do. I stopped the other me.
Linkara: He's not you.
Pollo: You said you were afraid that I might become like him. I hope this proves otherwise.
Linkara: You didn't have to prove anything. You're nothing like him, Pollo. You're my friend.
Pollo never backed himself up, because he said he it wouldn't be "him"; it would be like a clone, a different person. You ever wonder why Linkara never tried to resurrect anyone via cloning after attempting it with Spoony (and why he didn't offer it as an option when Ma-ti died?)That was Pollo's influence.
The spirit of the girl inside the Magic Gun is unable to do anything due to some anti-magic field affecting most of his equipment. Of course, the Girl In The Gun is probably stuck in a probable And I Must Scream scenario.
Later reviews reveal that she voluntarily blocked Linkara's magic herself and that she was just fine. Still doesn't affect the fear and sorrow felt on her behalf up until then, though.
Linkara telling Harvey and Pollo that whenever he uses the Magic Gun, he can hear her whispering in his ear... and now he can't.
Linkara has decided to go on a quest to travel across the U.S. to find a sorcerer to help fix his magic- and he's going alone. He has no true clue of where to start looking (the best lead he has are some magic hotspots to the north that Nimue picked up on her scanner) and no backup or weapons except for a single Mark 2 Cybermat and a wrist communicator to call for help. To top it all off, Harvey's pleading with him not to go and Holokara is to do the show in the real Linkara's absence. Linkara's family's breaking up over this, and even when he gets his magic back eventually (or at all) nothing will ever be the same again.
Also, he has left without saying good-bye to anyone but Pollo, because he knows they'll just try to talk him out of it.
When he reviewed One More Day for his 200th episode he took time to talk about how Spider-Man, despite being in his mid-to-late 20s, still acts like he's a teenager and stated that maybe Marvel should just reboot Spider-Man and said in a pretty sad tone "If the creative teams are unwilling to get him out of his high school life...then why the hell isn't he still there?"
The review in general, which goes a long way in justifying why he hates that particular title so much. Which is not helped at all by how genuine the bouts of anger and frustration turn out to be; one gets the feeling that Lewis wasn't fully scripting just how pissed he was in reviewing it.
When he meets Margeret and starts pressing Margeret for answers, trying to figure out how to make things better, thinking it means he has to be a "goody two shoes" and thinking Margaret should kill him so he can't get any worse. He really doesn't know what else to do.
Holokara's rant about superheroes in the end of Batman: Jazz #1 was surprisingly tearjerking.
Holokara: They'll never change unless we make them change.
The Thing from Another World #2- Harvey, Linkara, 90's Kid, and Linksano have turned on each other out of paranoia and fear. It's utterly heartbreaking to see their close friendship devolve into an explosion of bickering and unfounded accusations against one another, not one of them taking the time to stop and think rationally, or listen- and the viewer's left watching this, knowing that if they don't trust each other again soon, they're all screwed.
The fact that Harvey's the first one to snap makes it even worse. Both times Linkara went missing, Harvey was always there to keep everyone on track, looking out for the others, and yet here he's clearly losing it and being the most suspicious of all of them, accusing everyone of being either an imposter.
Bart Simpson's Treehouse of Horror #2 - The situation has been resolved, and everyone's fine. Everyone except Harvey. He's clearly torn up about what he said, what he was willing to do. Even though Linkara reassures him that it's okay, Harvey still says he needs some time and distance, so he's going on a concert tour across the US. Lewis hasn't turned in a performance so heartbreaking since the origin story of the Magic Gun.
Harvey Finevoice gets his long-awaited backstory at the end of Archie Giant Series Magazine #452 ...and it's depressing as hell. After his son Charlie died (he even says he doesn't remember what age he was—"It's always too young"), he became a drunken wreck, stopped singing, and drove his wife away. After his latest failed attempt to visit his son's grave, Linkara (who was filming his training montage for the Amazons Attack review) saw him pass out right next to him on the sidewalk and got him help- which Harvey credits with saving his life.
Harvey's rant at the Ghost of Christmas Future deserves its own mention.
Harvey: Now we have you, the future. And what is the future? I'm gonna die. Of course I am. I'm gonna die. Nineties Kid is gonna die. The Ninja-Style Dancer is gonna die. The little blue robot is gonna die! WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE! We're all gonna die...and leave when we shouldn't...
One more Harvey line: "You have no goddamn idea what it's like!"
A few times Harvey has talked about watching Linkara's back, notably when he mistakenly called Linkara by his dead son's name ("That's why I'll always have Charlie's back"). It's a figure of speech, but it still makes it all the worse that when The Gunslinger finally steals Linkara's gun, he does it by literally shooting him in the back, when he's apparently alone in the apartment.
The Gunslinger getting drunk and watching The Great Dictator as he becomes permanently bonded to our universe.
How broken he looked when he was talking about all the people he gathered from other worlds dying when they came over to his. He even starts the segment of the log with a soft "They're all dead."
Even if he was pissed at the time his absolute change in body language and tone when he confronts Linkara, shouting "I can never go home because of you! I can never see my wife, my family, my friends!" while looking on the verge of tears.
Though it only becomes so on a second viewing, as it doesn't sink in the first time due to spoilers, his desperate pleading with Linkara not to destroy his watch are heart wrenching afterwards.
Adding to that is the horrified My God, What Have I Done? look on Linkara's face as he watches the video. Made even worse by the fact that only a few months ago he had been shown how close he was to turning evil. after this, he was probably starting to see himself as a DesignatedFailure Hero.
A non-storyline one was his final video of his Titans month reviews, where he expresses his admiration for the series but at the same time disappointment that it'll never be the same one that he read from his childhood ever again.
At the end of ASBAR #6, Nimue uses a moment of stability in her slipping mental state to inform Linkara that she suspects she's losing it. While she is a computerized voice, there is just enough emotion in her lines to give one a sense that she's absolutely, Bring Me My Brown Pants levels of terrified.
Lewis in the Man of Steel vlog is pretty notably depressed at how he views the movie.
We finally see Jaeris again in The Culling, Part 1. He's let himself go, drinking away his sorrows, and he still blames Linkara for cutting him off from his homeworld. Pollo gives him a lecture on how what's happened to him is his own fault, comparing him to the likes of Lord Vyce and The Entity. After Pollo leaves, Sierra reassures Jaeris that it still believes in him. Jaeris is silent for a moment, before simply saying 'thanks'. It's clear that Jaeris is hurting badly, and time will not heal his wounds on its own.
His general disappointment that the Brute Force series only had 4 issues in his final review of the series. In spite of how stupid it was, he wishes that it would be re-launched for the sake of it being Crazy Awesome.
The October 2013 trailer."Help me."
When Linkara is finally forced to shut Nimue down, the real her breaks through to tell him she understands, in what is by far the most emotion she's ever shown.
And when he finally does her last words are "Help me", and just in case that wasn't sad enough a sad reprise of her insanity leitmotif plays over completely heartbroken Linkara restoring the ship's environmental controls.
The Gameboy #3 review, dedicated to the memory of Justin "Jew Wario" Carmical.
He implies that the reason he didn't do this kind of tribute as soon as Doug or Angry Joe is because it took him this long to even be able to talk about it at all.
In Nova Girls: Kissing Canvas he reveals that he has finally quit reading his once-favorite comic series Teen Titans, thanks to its writer sexually harassing a woman at a panel.
In a way, Lewis' reflection on why he hates Holy Terror most of all the comics he's reviewed on ATFW. The book's message of hatred, paranoia and intolerance is the exact opposite of his own personal philosophy, and his admission that he himself is afraid of terrorism in his speech about the book's twisted moral message is genuinely tearjerking.
Notice the way Lewis sighs and takes a deep breath as he puts the comic down, with sadness and loathing in his eyes (and again when he picks it back up), as if to say "I can't believe we live in a world where I should ever have to talk about this".
The Stinger for Cosmic Slam #1: Jaeris and Pollo are looking for Jaeris's home dimension, but the lack of results is testing his patience, causing him to wonder if it's really worth the effort to get home. And then Sierra is infected by the King of Worms, knocks Jaeris out, and forces Pollo into an older body.