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* AbusiveParents: {{Subverted|Trope}}. During Nagata's research, she discovers that the ways her psychological problems manifest and her reactions to them are widely shared by abuse victims. Also, while Yuka is exploring Nagata's body, she discovers that Nagata's hymen is gone, which would seem to be unusual for a virgin in her late 20s who doesn't participate in any kind of activity that might cause it to break. However, aside from her parents being focused on Nagata becoming the typical "salaried employee" model of a Japanese citizen and not understanding her drives and motivations, no obvious abuse of any kind appears to have occurred.
** ''My Solo Exchange Diary'', however, does heavily hint that both of her parents are guilty of emotional abuse, especially her father.

Based off of the real experiences of mangaka Nagata Kabi, ''My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness'' provides candid insights of one woman's struggle with mental health, identity, and sexuality. Praised for recentering the YuriGenre, this manga was originally published on Website/{{Pixiv}} and has since gotten an official English release.

* [[spoiler: RapeAsBackstory: In ''My Wandering Warrior Existence'', Nagata reveals that she was sexually assaulted by an adult man when she was just six years old.]]

* YaoiFangirl: Nagata is shown to read Boys' Love comics in some panels. She used it as a sort of basis for what she thought was supposed to happen during sex. Despite being a lesbian, it's implied that she reads erotic BL instead of {{yuri|Genre}} to learn how sex works because she's uncomfortable with her own body, as well as not yet coming to terms with her sexuality.

A sequel of sorts, ''My Solo Exchange Diary'', was released in two parts from 2016-2017 in Japan, and 2018-2019 in English. A second follow-up, ''My Alcoholic Escape from Reality'' was published in Japan in 2019, and released in English in 2021.

A sequel of sorts, ''My Solo Exchange Diary'', was released in two parts from 2016-2017 in Japan, and 2018-2019 in English. A second followup, ''My Alcoholic Escape from Reality'' was published in Japan in 2019, and released in English in 2021.

* AbusiveParents: {{Subverted|Trope}}. During Nagata's research, she discovers that the ways her psychological problems manifest and her reactions to them are widely shared by abuse victims. Also, while Yuka is exploring Nagata's body, she discovers that Nagata's hymen is gone, which would seem to be unusual for a virgin in her late 20s who doesn't participate in any kind of activity that might cause it to break. However, aside from her parents being focused on Nagata becoming the typical "salaried employee" model of Japanese citizen and not understanding her drives and motivations, no obvious abuse of any kind appears to have occurred.

* FirstKiss: Nagata’s is with the first escort, and is one of ''many'' firsts that night.

* LessEmbarrassingTerm: In early pages, Nagata couldn't bear to mention sex by name. Early readers' comments on this were so prevalent that she not only replaced the euphemism but mentioned her terminology switch in the manga itself. The English translation approximates this euphemism to "thesex".

* OffscreenMomentOfAwesome: Nagata achieving her dream of becoming a published mangaka is depicted off panel.
* ParentalIncest: Nagata admits that her lesbian sexuality sometimes blends with her attachment issues to her parents, causing her to grope or spy on her mother. These attachment issues also influences how she's more interested in older, more motherly women.
* ProfessionalSexEd: Erotic {{doujinshi}} were Nagata's only prior knowledge of all things intimate, and with the additional monkey wrench of them only being ''{{yaoi|Genre}}'' works, which means the sex was idealized and unrealistic, and didn't teach her anything about women's bodies. The manga itself is mostly about the author's mentality surrounding adulthood, sex, and sexual identity before and after her first visit to a brothel. Mentally ill and isolated, she barely knew about her own anatomy prior.
* SelfHarm: Nagata cuts herself to relieve the emotional pain she's dealing with, and has a bald spot due to nervous hair pulling.

* YaoiFangirl: Nagata is shown to read Boys' Love comics in some panels. She used it as a sort of basis for what she thought was supposed to happen during sex. Despite being a lesbian, it's implied that she reads erotic BL instead of {{yuri|Genre}} to learn how sex works because she's uncomfortable with her own body.

* YaoiFan: Nagata is shown to read Boys' Love comics in some panels. She used it as a sort of basis for what she thought was supposed to happen during sex.

* RealityEnsues:
** Having sex with a woman is impactful, but it doesn't cure her depression, of course. Her experience as a cashier counts as well, idolizing jobs as a "home" of sorts, before being fired and fully realizing how she's expected to pull her weight, no matter what.
** There's also the sex itself, which massively differed from what she was expecting. In reality, her mental state at the time made her dissociate, leaving her disappointed by her own response and upset at being "rude" to the escort. She hadn't realised that in reality, even casual sex often requires high levels of communication and vulnerability.

Its sequel of sorts, ''My Solo Exchange Diary'', was released in English on June 5, 2018.

* {{Yaoi}}: Nagata is shown to read Boys' Love comics in some panels. She used it as a sort of basis for what she thought was supposed to happen during sex.

* ProfessionalSexEd: Erotic {{doujinshi}} were Nagata's only prior knowledge of all things intimate, and with the additional monkey wrench of them only being ''{{yaoi|Genre}}'' works, which means the sex was idealized and unrealistic, and didn't teach her anything about women's bodies.

** ''My Solo Exchange Diary'', however, does heavily hint that her father and (paternal) grandmother are emotionally abusive to her mother and a bit toward Nagata as well.