I am bereft.
Left without.
Deprived of.
emptied...
Stuck swimming around in a voidic ocean.
Life passes me by as I witness it.
What they truly see however, is me.
The me that has opposed themself.
who is empty.
There are only few words,
yet many elusive methods,
to feel the extreme power,
of a visceral and malignant,
emptiness.
To have felt depression..."
Hello there pal! I am Fredarica Maxima Strickland, better known as LeGurdah, an Autistic mostly chipper small-time non-binary trigender pixel artist slash small-time occasional Garry's Mod artist slash sole game mod developer who likes to play video games. I tend to get a kick out of coding mods for Left 4 Dead 2, SMBX 2.0, Terraria, and probably some more. Sometimes it'll even be a few other games I code mods and/or design unreleased custom levels for. I used to code my own unreleased small mods for Don't Starve Together.
Though, I don't just enjoy video games, pixel art, and programming. I also enjoy essays, movies like Jacob's Ladder and The Good, the Bad and the Ugly, animations like The Owl House and The Backwater Gospel, Garry's Mod and Source Filmmaker animations like those of STBlackST (for the former case) and Emesis Blue (for the latter case,) and music. And reading up on mythologies like those of Mesopotamia. (I also have a fondness of color theory, so there is that.)
Occasionally, I like to do writing as well. I have no idea if they can be thought-provoking, but I suppose if I think and write like a poet, or from my heart and mind, it could count as such, right?
You may see me editing here from time to time.
My pronouns are she/her, they/them, and zie/zir, and I have three genders, which are masculine, feminine, and androgynous.
You might recognize me as one of the former older users on Fantendo, Maxstricklandnote . I now use another Wikia account under the exact same username you see me having today, though I'm no longer as prominent there as I once was in 2013-15.
And in case you ask, my username is CamelCase, so it absolutely, positively has no spaces!
- Banjo-Kazooie and Banjo-Tooie
- The Binding of Isaac: Rebirth and its DLCs
- Bloodborne
- Bloons Tower Defense 5 and 6
- Battletoads
- The Castlevania franchise
- Cave Story (DÅkutsu Monogatari)
- Cuphead
- The Dark Souls trilogy
- Deus Ex
- The original Donkey Kong Country trilogy, plus Returns and Tropical Freeze
- Don't Starve and its multiplayer version, Together
- Elden Ring
- Hotline Miami and its sequel
- Killer Instinct (both the original and 2013 version)
- MADNESS: Project Nexus
- RuneScape
- The Thief seriesnote
- Pizza Tower
- The Wario Land series. These are what I played:
- Wario World
I provide examples of...
- Cloudcuckoolander
- Determinator: Once I've set up my goals, I will never give up on said goals. May even veer over into Moment of Awesome territory. Beware of bragging!
- Don't Starve's Adventure Mode was quite the case for me, as it took me half a month to complete it initially on the Play Station 4, trying to learn what I was supposed to do and what to know along the way. By a far more later comparison, completing Adventure Mode on the PC version only took me a couple of hours and a lot of luck to complete itnote .
- Pretty much my battles with most Bloodborne and Dark Souls III bosses play out like this, where I'm willing to spend hours trying to kill some of the hardest bosses there ever was in these two games (with only a few exceptions.) And even then, I'd only use summons as a last resort, and I have my patience when it comes to grinding.
- Years after not having played Bloodborne, I picked it back up in the middle of 2023, made my way back through the Hunter's Nightmare in the Old Hunters DLC, beat Lady Maria of the Astral Clocktower, made my way through the Fishing Hamlet, and, painstakingly eventually, beat The Orphan of Kos. I'm not going to deny using the... 'er, CUMMMFPK Chalice Dungeon that let me grind a fuck-ton of Blood Echoes. Even then, I still had to beat him with Ludwig's Holy Blade while I ended up tensed and centimeters away from death (in-game of course.) The grinding only made it slightly easier on me there.
- I struck again with Cuphead, this time I repeatedly replayed any boss battle I already finished in order for me to achieve the highest ranking possible. This meant I had to suffer through some of the game's most toughest bosses parrying at least three times, using my super meter attacks at least six times, not taking a single hit, and then having to do all of that under a strict set of time. Then I did it with Expert and (eventually) succeeded again.
- I fought through some of Hotline Miami 2: Wrong Number's most dreadful moments to suffer through, particularly Hard Mode, and I was able to clear it with all achievements.
- The Greatest Story Never Told: Due to the fact that I'm not one who's too interested in making videos to record my experiences while playing video games, this tends to happen as a result.
- Indy Ploy: I tend to pull this trope a lot in video games when something starts going south in my delicate plans, which is... 80% of the time.
- Innocently Insensitive: An unfortunate consequence because of my impaired social skills.
- Jack of All Trades
- Reclusive Artist: Downplayed. Sure, you may know my identity, sure, you may have seen my average pixel artwork, sure, I am indeed outgoing and social... but I have little interest in showing off important personal life details (and my face) online. I additionally have very little interest in being interviewed for my personal life. Very few people I know, like an ex, actually got to see my face. I highly take after Carpenter Brut in this regard. Another major reason I'm very private about myself is due to a bad combination of anxiety, depression, gender dysphoria, unusual methods of socializing and an overwhelming fear of hurting others.
