History Fanfic / Regrets

** [[spoiler: It goes as far in the next chapter when it's revealed that she hope that in the event Nick kills her (which is later revealed to be something he's seriously considering), she hopes the worst that happens to him is that he gets rehabilitated.]]

''[[https://m.fanfiction.net/s/13086818/1/Regret Regrets]]'' (link to rewritten version) is a romantic drama fanfic of ''WesternAnimation/TheLoudHouse'', written by [[https://m.fanfiction.net/u/6943226/ Uncle G]].

The story itself is on hiatus because the author took the current story down due to rewrites. They recently reposted the original as a seperate work which can be read [[https://m.fanfiction.net/s/13079680/1/Regrets-Original here]].

* NeverMyFault: Nick has this air about him, [[spoiler: while he goes into VictimBlaming Leni for what he did to her]], is also shown that he doesn't consider himself a sociopath due to having friends, nor does he consider himself obsessive, ''as he's obsessing over Leni'' [[spoiler: and eventually decides to kill her so she can't ruin his reputation by telling Lori and Carol about the rape]]!

* UsefulNotes/VictimBlaming: Leni does this ''to herself''. Even when she grows to resent Lori, she still doesn't blame her for her anxiety and depression, placing everything on her own shoulders. Leni even goes as far as to [[spoiler: not to blame Nick ''for raping her'', going as far as to try to rationalize the incident into being her own fault, much to Dr. Hudson's concern.]]

''[[https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12682548/1/Regrets Regrets]]'' is a romantic drama fanfic of ''WesternAnimation/TheLoudHouse'', written by [[https://m.fanfiction.net/u/6943226/ Uncle G]].

* AdaptationalSexuality: Leni is a lesbian and in love with Carol.(As opposed to her crushing on a boy named Chaz in canon.)

On hiatus than the author took the story down.

On temporary hiatus.

* VictimBlaming: Leni does this ''to herself''. Even when she grows to resent Lori, she still doesn't blame her for her anxiety and depression, placing everything on her own shoulders. Leni even goes as far as to [[spoiler: not to blame Nick ''for raping her'', going as far as to try to rationalize the incident into being her own fault, much to Dr. Hudson's concern.]]

** Karen Tauscher was a frequent tormentor of Leni's, whose actions range from tuning her dress and makeup during picture day to locking her in a janitor's closet until well into the evening.

Leni Loud is in a deep depression, finding herself a victim of constant bullying and constantly living in her sister Lori's shadow, while feeling neglected by said sister. On the night before her birthday, Leni decides to end it all but is stopped and rescued by one Carol Pingrey, a popular student at Leni's school, whom Leni barley interacted with in the past, but quickly a friendship between them blooms. Things don't get any easier when they discover a mutual romantic attraction for one another, especially when they don't stay on the down low for long; the main problem being that Carol is a longstanding rival of Lori's. Besides all that, despite Carol's attempts to put Leni's emotional pieces back together, Leni can't seem to permanently escape her depression, be it bullies, family drama or a terrible secret that Leni is keeping both from Carol and her family.

* AmicableExes: After Leni's makes her relationship with Carol public, she, Carol and Bryan are still on good terms, and Bryan asks Leni if she could help find a girlfriend.

** Inverted with Leni's younger sisters. Luna is supportive of Leni's relationship with Carol being bisexual herself. When the family is split over Leni and Carol's relationship, Lynn takes it upon herself to maintain order in the house, noticing Leni is going through something and punishing Lola for having a spaz attack on Leni.

* BrokenPedestal: It's explained that Leni used to look up to Lori and see her as a protective big sister, but grew to resent her for everyone expecting her to live up to Lori. The straw that broke the camels back is when [[spoiler: Leni tried to explain what Nick did to her but Lori wouldn't hear her out.]]

** Karen Tauscher was a frequent tormentor of Leni's, whose actions range from tuning her dress and makeup during picture day to locking her in a janitors closet until well into the evening.
** Nick Lambert is ''much worse''. Not only does he start things off by [[spoiler: raping Leni at a party while filming the incident]], this guy is seemingly singlemindedly determined to ruin Leni's life and keep her miserable.

* ComingOutStory: One of this story's main focuses was Leni realizing she is a lesbian as she grew closer to Carol. Carol herself already knew she was gay, but was uncomfortable about it and kept it private. When they come out to their families, Carol's are supportive (in fact, they already knew she was gay); but Leni's family is split about it, not so much because of her sexuality but because her girlfriend is her sister's rival.
* DanceOfRomance: [[spoiler:How Leni makes her relationship with Carol public at the school. She walks up to her during the Valentines Dance, makes a public LoveConfession to Carol (breaking up the relationship with Bryan in the process) and the two spend the rest of the dance slowdancing together.]]

* EvilCannotComprehendGood: Inverted. Nick completely understands the positive aspects of Leni's life and wants to use them against her. It's more along the lines of "Evil Cannot Comprehend It's Own Evil" since he doesn't consider himself a sociopath despite being diagnosed as one on the grounds that he was able to have and maintain close relationships, even if they are superficial.

* GayGuySeeksPopularJock: A genderbent version. Leni, upon realizing she has a crush on Carol, who is the acting AlphaBitch of her high school.

* NeverMyFault: Nick has this air about him, [[spoiler:while he goes into VictimBlaming Leni for what he did to her]], is also shown that he doesn't consider himself a sociopath due to having friends, nor does he consider himself obsessive, ''as he's obsessing over Leni''!

** Despite Carol saving Leni from suicide and trying to keep her happy in their relationship, Leni still has a lot of baggage on her plate and goes back and fourth between her anxiety and depression. She describes her emotions as a constant "grey area" and eventually decided to seek professional help. Carol's public reputation as an AlphaBitch does ''not'' help.

* {{Sadist}}: Pretty much every time Nick interacts with Leni, most of his dialogue revolves around how he likes chaos and especially loves seeing Leni miserable. [[spoiler: He also filmed his rape of Leni, sent an unedited copy to her and created an edited copy that he threatens to post online to hold the incident over her head. To force her to give a consenting statement he threatens to do the same to Lori in front of her.]]

* TheSociopath: Nick of course. It turns out he was diagnosed as one as a kid, but he never believes it on the mere grounds that he was able to have friends and maintain relationships, even if they do come off as façade. [[spoiler:It turns out that in addition to raping Leni, he actively wants her to kill herself to cover up and the only reason he doesn't kill her himself is because he doesn't think that he can get away with it. We further get an idea of his thought process that he is an aspiring author and likes dark tragic stories, and thus considers his "relationship" with Leni as such a story, that he's eager to give a heartbreaking ending.]]

* StalkerWithACrush: Nick is this to Leni and admits to being so to her. [[spoiler: He tells her as he prepares to rape her that she should have responded to his advances]]. Now he is ''obsessed'' with keeping her miserable and watches her like a hawk, continuously harassing her in private whenever she starts to feel the most happy.

* VictimBlaming: Leni does this ''to herself''. Even when she grows to resent Lori, she still doesn't blame her for her anxiety and depression, placing everything on her own shoulders. Leni even goes as far as to [[spoiler:not to blame Nick ''for raping her'', going as far as to try to rationalize the incident into being her own fault, much to Dr. Hudson's concern.]]

** [[spoiler:It goes as far in the next chapter when it's revealed that she hope that in the event Nick kills her, she hopes the worst that happens to him is that he gets rehabilitated.]]

* BigBad: Nick Lambert, a popular student at Leni and Lori's school functions as the main antagonist as a close friend of Lori's [[spoiler: who sexually assaulted Leni AND got her to agree by threatening to do the same to Lori (in front of her no less)]] and played an major factor in her depression. In the story present, he's constantly tormenting Leni over it.

* WideEyedIdealist: Leni tries to be this and see the best of everyone, including Nick. This is not seen as a good thing as Dr. Hudson notes.
-->''In all his years, he had never known anyone so fiercely addicted to kindness that they'd sacrifice their well-being even for [[spoiler: their rapist]].''

** [[spoiler: Also inverted with Leni as one of the reason she complied with Nick is because he threatened to go after Lori.]]

* DramaticIrony: [[spoiler: Lori tries to look out for Leni, and specifically thinks that Carol is a bad influence on her and will try to hurt her. What Lori doesn't know is that she is a crucial source in Leni's depression, and doesn't know that Leni was raped by one of her friends, which sent Lenin down a deeper spiral and Lori's subsequent neglect pushed her further in her suicide attempt.]]

''[[https://m.fanfiction.net/s/12682548/1/Regrets Regrets]]'' is a romantic drama fanfic of ''WesternAnimation/TheLoudHouse'', written by [[https://m.fanfiction.net/u/6943226/ Uncle G]].

* AHouseDivided: When news get to the Loud Family that Leni and Carol are dating, with the fact that Carol is Lori's rival, the family can be split into three groups in supporting the relationship. There's Leni's team; Luna, Lincoln, and Lucy. Lori's team; Lola, Luan and their parents. And the neutral team; Lynn, Lana, Lisa and Lilly (albeit by default due to being a baby). [[spoiler: Lori gets over it eventually and has a double date with Leni, Carol and Bobby, where she learns of Leni's suicide attempt.]]

* EvilGloating: Nick Lambert ''lives and breathes'' this trope as he constantly holds the fact he not only [[spoiler :sexually assaulted Leni over her head, but also the fact that he made a tape of it.]]

''[[https://m.fanfiction.net/s/12682548/1/Regrets Regrets]]'' is a romantic drama fanfic of ''WesternAnimation/TheLoudHouse'',written by [[https://m.fanfiction.net/u/6943226/ Uncle G]].

* BigBad: Nick Lambert, a popular student at Leni and Lori's school functions as the main antagonist as a close friend of Lori's [[spoiler: who sexually assaulted Leni AND got her to agree by threatening to do the same to Lori]] and played an major factor in her depression. In the story present, he's constantly tormenting Leni over it.

Due to the nature of this fic, it is rated M for a reason, namely for depictions of depression, anxiety, self loathing, paranoia, self harm and attempted suicide, as well as sexual elements [[spoiler:including sexual assault.]]

* AlphaBitch: Karen Tauscher is a fairly popular girl in Leni's class, and frequent bully of Leni's. Unlike most examples is lower on the high school foodchain than Carol and is quickly put in her place when the two meet.

* BigBad: Nick Lambert, a popular student at Leni and Lori's school functions as the main antagonist as a close friend of Lori's [[spoiler:who sexually assaulted Leni]] and played an major factor in her depression. In the story present, he's constantly tormenting Leni over it.

** From Lori's perspective she genuinely thinks she's protecting Leni from a toxic influence who would hurt her when given the chance. She also helps watch over her when she's feeling sick and is willing to give Carol a chance if she meant that much to Leni. When she learns that Leni was contemplating suicide, she's absolutely heartbroken.
** Inverted with Leni's younger sisters. Luna is supportive of Leni's relationship with Carol being bisexual herself. When the family is split over Leni and Carol's relationship, Lynn takes it upon herself to maintain order in the house, noticing Leni is going through something and punishing Lola for having a spaz attack on Leni.
* BrokenPedestal: It's explained that Leni used to look up to Lori and see her as a protective big sister, but grew to resent her for everyone expecting her to live up to Lori. The straw that broke the camels back is when [[spoiler:Leni tried to explain what Nick did to her but Lori wouldn't hear her out.]]

** Nick Lambert is ''much worse''. Not only does he start things off by [[spoiler:raping Leni at a party while filming the incident]], this guy is seemingly single mindedly determined to ruin Leni's life and keep her miserable.

* BrokenBird: Leni is already this at the time of the first chapter. She has to be talked out of suicide by Carol. We later find out its due to a combination of bullying, Lori being the AloofBigSister, and [[spoiler:a sexual assault that left her with a PregnancyScare.]]
* ChildhoodFriendRomance: A Zigzagged example. Carol reveals that she had feelings to Leni ever since she was a kid, back when she was friends with Lori. [[spoiler:This she also had a crush on Lori back then as well, leaving Leni worried that she is a ReplacementGoldfish.]]

** Lori thinks of herself as this towards Leni, despite her few KickTheDog moments. Luckily she gets better and [[spoiler:puts her rivalry with Carol aside for Leni's sake and has a major HeelRealization when she learns Leni attempted to kill herself.]]

* ComingOutStory: One of this stories main focuses was Leni realizing she is a lesbian as she grew closer to Carol. Carol herself already knew she was gay, but uncomfortable about it and kept it private. When they come out to their families, Carol's are supportive (in fact they already knew she was gay); but Leni's family is split about it, not so much because of her sexuality but because her girlfriend is her sister's rival.
* DespairEventHorizon: Leni has crossed it by the time the story begins but it takes Carol to pull her out of it. It turns out not to be an easy task, especially since most of her family don't really approve of her relationship with her sisters rival, which caused a falling out between her and Lori, [[spoiler:albeit a brief one]]. It turns out Leni keeps going back and fourth between feeling happy and depressed and [[spoiler:describes to Doctor Hudson about her feeling in a constant grey area thanks to her anxiety.]] It's not made any easier when Nick Lambert enters the picture.

* DramaticIrony: [[spoiler:Lori tries to look out for Leni, and specifically thinks that Carol is a bad influence on her and will try to hurt her. What Lori doesn't know is that she is a crucial source in Leni's depression, and doesn't know that Leni was raped by one of her friends, which sent Lenin down a deeper spiral and Lori's subsequent neglect pushed her further in her suicide attempt.]]

* EvilGloating: Nick Lambert ''lives and breathes'' this trope as he constantly holds the fact he not only [[spoiler:sexually assaulted Leni over her head, but also the fact that he made a tape of it.]]

* ForTheEvulz: Nick chalks up his entire motivation for everything he does to Leni. He simply states a guy who likes chaos and doesn't like seeing Leni happy.
* ForbiddenFriendship: Leni's relationship with Carol has to be kept on the down low considering the latters rivalry with Lori. Things get a little more hectic when the Loud's family learn Leni is in a romantic relationship with Carol.
* FormerFriendOfAlphaBitch: Lori thinks of herself as this due to Carol's status a designated AlphaBitch at their high school. It's established the two where childhood friends before they had a falling out. As such, Lori thinks that she's doesn't care for Leni and will end up hurting her.

** Leni tries to give Nick one as she tries to see the best in everyone and is willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. Particularly the fact his dad left him. This rationalization seen as very unhealthy by Leni's therapist.
* {{Gayngst}}: Carol has this, knowing she was a lesbian since childhood but agonized about keeping it a secret from her friends and family for years. [[spoiler:It turns out she came out to Lori as kids, and the two had a falling out over Carol crushing on her.]]

** In a similar notion, in order to coverup being a lesbian, Carol initially pretends to date a boy named Bryan.

* AHouseDivided: When news get to the Loud Family that Leni and Carol are dating, with the fact that Carol is Lori's rival, the family can be split into three groups in supporting the relationship. There's Leni's team; Luna, Lincoln, and Lucy. Lori's team; Lola, Luan and their parents. And the neutral team; Lynn, Lana, Lisa and Lilly (albeit by default due to being a baby). [[spoiler:Lori gets over it eventually and has a double date with Leni, Carol and Bobby, where she learns of Leni's suicide attempt.]]

* [[ICantBelieveAGuyLikeYouWouldNoticeMe I Can't Believe A Girl Like You Would Notice Me]]: Leni is shown as a girl constantly in her older sisters shadow at best and a target of bullying at worst. Carol is one of the richest, most popular and influential students in school and is the one to save her from suicide.

* JerkassFacade: Carol as part of her AlphaBitch routine acts accordingly in public. In actuality it's all a front and she's a nice girl whose got Leni's best interests at heart. It works to her advantage when she pretends to befriend one of Leni's bullies, only to lure said bully into being expelled.

** Lori gets her moments, namely pretending to be Leni as a joke to her siblings, telling Leni she doesn't consider her her sister for dating Carol (although she immediately takes it back) and when it's discovered [[spoiler:she wouldn't hear Leni out when she was raped by one of her friends seemingly thinking Leni was irresponsibly sleeping with him.]]

* ObfuscatingStupidity: Leni is still a ditzy and naive girl but shows a deep level of thought and insite, and reveals that she pretends to be dumber than she actually is because she thinks it'll make others feel better about themselves.

* PedoHunt: Invoked. [[spoiler:Dr. Hudson mentions that since Nick filmed his rape of Leni, who was underage while Nick was a legal adult, he could potentially be charged with child pornography, especially if he went through with his threat and uploaded the video online.]]
* PetTheDog: Lori, for coming off as a AloofBigSister and few KickTheDog moments does show she genuinely cares about Leni's well being and has her best interests at heart. She shows this earlier by offering to look after her when she thinks she's sick and later reveals she's concerned that Carol is gonna try to hurt Leni. [[spoiler:She eventually learns to come around and give Carol a chance.]]
* PregnancyScare: [[spoiler:Following Leni's rape, she checked a pregnancy test that turned out postive. When she took two other tests they turned out negative, much to her relief.]]
* RapeAsDrama: [[spoiler:It's revealed that Leni was sexually assaulted by Nick Lambert prior to the story and felt to ashamed to tell anyone about is and further emotionally scarred by Lori seemingly not caring. This is a major factor in her depression. The fact that not only the incident still lingers over Leni's head but Nick himself holds it against her.]]
** RapeIsASpecialKindOfEvil: [[spoiler:The rape is also used to demonstrate just how much worse than any of the other bullies Leni dealt with.]]

** Carol starts an Anti Bullyiing Campaign at her school, which seems to take the place by storm but there are students that aren't as up for it as they would appear, seeing it as an image deal (Carol uses this during her JerkassFacade against Karen, who admits to not caring about the campaign). Many of the students are secretly outright against it!
** [[spoiler:Leni's sexual assault was her first and only experience in sex at the time she started dating Carol. It took such a toll on her she is described as being subconsciously aggressive about sex which comes up during TheirFirstTime. Not that either seem to mind.]]

** Despite Carol saving Leni from suicide and trying to keep her happy in their relationship, Leni still has a lot of baggage on her plate and goes back and fourth between her anxiety and depression. She describes her emotions as a constant "grey area" and eventually decided to seek professional help.

* ReplacementGoldfish: Leni worries she is this when [[spoiler:Carol is revealed to have had a a childhood crush on Lori. Luckily Carol convinces her otherwise.]]
* {{Sadist}}: Pretty much everytime Nick interacts with Leni, most of his dialogue revolves around how he likes chaos and especially loves seeing Leni miserable. [[spoiler:He also filmed his rape of Leni, sent an unedited copy to her and created an edited copy that he threatens to post online to hold the incident over her head. To force her to give a consenting statement he threatens to do the same to Lori in front of her.]]

* SlutShaming: Invoked and PlayedForDrama. [[spoiler:When Nick raped Leni, he filmed it and forced Leni to say she consented to it on camera and created an edited version of the video with the threat of posting it online to humiliate her further. While he hasn't yet, Lori is unaware of the incident beyond Leni being late for home and thinks she was being irresponsible at Nick's party, but doesn't engage in any SlutShaming herself as opposed to not hearing her out.]]
* StalkerWithACrush: Nick is this to Leni and admits to being so to her. [[spoiler:He tells her as he prepares to rape her that she should have responded to his advances]].Now he is ''obsessed'' with keeping her miserable and watches her like a hawk, continuously harassing her in private whenever she starts to feel the most happy.

* TheirFirstTime: Leni and Carol first have sex in chapter 10, however that same chapter reveals that [[spoiler:Leni is not a virgin due to Nick assaulting her prior to the story.]]

-->''In all his years he had never known anyone so fiercely addicted to kindness that they'd sacrifice their wellbeing even for [[spoiler:their rapist]].''

* KnightTemplarBigSister: Lori explains that her basis of her rivalry with Carol stems from seeing her as the AplhaBitch and legitimately thinks she's out to hurt Leni. She gets over this though.

'''Warning:''' Due to the nature of this fic, it is rated M for a reason, namely for depictions of depression, anxiety, self loathing, paranoia, self harm and attempted suicide, as well as sexual elements [[spoiler:including sexual assault.]]

* SlutShamming: Invoked and PlayedForDrama. [[spoiler:When Nick raped Leni, he filmed it and forced Leni to say she consented to it on camera and created an edited version of the video with the threat of posting it online to humiliate her further. While he hasn't yet, Lori is unaware of the incident beyond Leni being late for home and thinks she was being irresponsible at Nick's party, but doesn't engage in any SlutShaming herself as opposed to not hearing her out.]]

-->''In all his years he had never known anyone so fiercely addicted to kindness that they'd sacrifice their wellbeing even for [[spoiler:their rapist]].''
* YoureDeadToMe: Subverted. Lori tells Leni that she doesn't consider her her sister and wouldn't mind not seeing her again when she learns that Leni trusts Carol more than her, only to immediately take it back and swap it out for being simply disappointed in her.

* AGirlfriendInCanada: Gender inverted examples.
** In order to cover up her friendship with Carol, Leni initially makes up having a boyfriend named Carl.
** In a similar notion, in order to coverup being a lesbian, Carol initially pretends to date a boy named Bryan.

* FormerFriendOfTheAlphaBitch: Lori thinks of herself as this due to Carol's status a designated AlphaBitch at their high school. It's established the two where childhood friends before they had a falling out. As such, Lori thinks that she's doesn't care for Leni and will end up hurting her.

* YouAreDeadToMe: Lori tells this to Leni when she learns that Leni trusts Carol more than her, only to immediately take it back and swap it out for being simply disappointed in her.