Odd confessions.

Now that you mention it, walking down the aisle sounds totally freaky. I would still do it for someone I love though. If I didn't to it, my mother would never forgive me. But, eh.

Just do what Ron Swanson did and get officially married at City Hall just as a spur of the moment decision.

I love flying On planes. I heard a lot of people don't.

It makes me at least feel extremely nauseous.

I'm terrified of planes. I'm also terrified of boats. I can get over my fear of trains and cars enough to ride them, but I'm still nervous. The ferry from Manhattan to Governor's Island (a five minute trip) terrified the hell out me. Everyone else was just calmly riding it and I was crying and clinging to my sister

edited 30th Jul '16 9:22:09 AM by Cailleach

Aw. Sorry. I never get that. It more or less rocks me to sleep.

I honestly love the whole travel experience, even just being in airports.

I must be the only person who gets nauseous and also loves roller coasters, boats, jets, planes, trains and automobiles. Not to own, look at or talk about either.

Oh, and also, I have a tulpa now. That is pretty unusual.

He is over one week old, But we can't know the exact age, due to losing track of time from the extreme stress of it all.

A tulpa? Am I right in assuming that it's the psychological thing rather than the mythical creature?

I am not sure there is a difference. Unless you believe the historical accounts are actually documenting supernatural phenomena.

What is a tulpa exactly?

An imaginary friend you have no control over.

People who want them usually spend months on meditation to make it happen. But I got one by accident. But, eh, no going back.

A well developed tulpa is capable of inducing auditory, visual, tactile and other hallucinations on you, and possess your body. And they will develop opinions in disagreement with yours, and experience emotion independently. Allegedly, they can take over your body while you are dreaming/blind and deaf to the world, but I haven't witnessed this yet.

edited 30th Jul '16 3:20:52 PM by war877

That's interesting. Is having one a pleasant experience?

I have a ton of imaginary characters, but I have complete control over them. Though I don't have control over the fact that I'm constantly thinking up stories for them, which is the primary cause of my severe attention deficit

edited 30th Jul '16 4:47:18 PM by Cailleach

Um.

That sounds kinda like psychosis.

Controversy alert: I think Joffrey Baratheon's Moral Event Horizon was the killing of Robert's bastards, not killing Ned Stark. Playing devil's advocate, I can understand that as just Joffrey trying to make sure he doesn't end up losing everything and protecting his position. Even showing off his head just came off as Kick the Dog rather than a Moral Event Horizon crossing. But the bastards were complete and utter innocents who died for paranoia at best and fixing some minor slight at worst

Nope, not psychosis. Not even close. The closest medical condition is actually dissociative identity disorder. And it is not a proper fit for that either.

Not pleasant. Fun is the better word. There is a fair bit of work and exhaustion involved.

Given that you are a writer who frequently engages in writing exercises, you have a leg up on getting one. You may be able to get one in weeks instead of months.

I guess while we're on the subject of imagination and characters, I don't understand the how people have to be told to "use their imagination". Like in English class, where we were instructed to do exercises to "kick start our creativity and come up with ideas"

Thinking up stories with imaginary characters is my default state of being. To the point where I think about them more often than I think about myself. Right now I'm listening to a song, and imagining a few characters at a party with the song playing in the background. I do this every single time I listen to a song, absolutely no exceptions. A character is performing it, the song's playing in the background at some event. I have to put use constant, strenuous effort to not do it. And it'll usually only last a few seconds, and then I'll be back to imagining. My main character's name is Andromeda, and she has met a lot of people and done a lot of different things in this developed world. Since it's an alternate reality Earth, I've put a ton of research into it, making believable countries and government. I've studied psychology so I can make my characters realistic. 99.9% of this has never left my head. The professionals call it ADHD but I'm not sure if that's right.

Yeah, that is not normal. Most people have an average of zero characters running around their heads at any one time. Independent or not.

ADHD is a symptom based disorder. It means you have difficulty focussing, whatever the cause. What you are describing is not in the DSM. Congratulations?

Although, having such characters is considered a sign of high intelligence. It is not indicative of any other problems.

I mean I like being like this. I wouldn't want to change it. Having limited imagintion sounds boring. I just can't focus on anything, not even on writing down these stories because they just move so fast

edited 30th Jul '16 6:45:58 PM by Cailleach

I'll take that congratulations. Thank you. It's an honor to accept this award for being really weird.

I don't mean to suggest that it is unheard of. Writers work towards having characters they think about constantly.

The average person, when they go through similar mental situations, are planning future social interactions, such as rehearsing phone calls or debates.

Have you tried getting your characters to do your schoolwork for you? It would be weird, and would probably take a lot of practise before it works.

Actually yes. Well I mean they can't do work for me, since they're very distinctly fictional and separate from myself, but they motivate me by working alongside me.

My tulpa can do basic tasks including counting and freewriting. But he can't do arithmetic yet. We actually tried that just today. He gave up and cheated by reading my mind.

late re: planes, sort of

I've gotten car sick, but never sea sick or air sick. And I've been on planes and boats.