Well that's great!

"There's not a girl alive who wouldn't be happy being called cute." ~Tamamo-no-Mae

day two—well, after midnight so day 3: I still feel like the world's been ripped out from under me. I've gotten lots of good support from people, lots of hugs and free hot chocolate. but.

I haven't been single in nearly 6 years, and I was only ever with him. and—gah, I swore I'd never be that girl who falls apart without her man, but I am falling apart.

Got a degree in Emotional trauma via fictional characters aka creative writing. hosting S'mores party in Hell for fellow (evil) writers

So a little birdy told me that The Girl failed her statistics final. God i hope she at least scraped a passing grade overall, and that she comes back next term.

That's the best turn of phrase I've heard in a while.

Insert witty 'n clever quip here.

So I just wrote a cheerful little ditty about being depressed and lonely

Really, it's mostly just taking the piss out of my moping. Sad thing is, though, it might be the best song I've written in a long time.

Insert witty 'n clever quip here.

I still feel like this isn't real, like the world's not real. It hasn't sunk in that I'm not getting married, that I'm single again, that...like, I honestly can't comprehend it.

Got a degree in Emotional trauma via fictional characters aka creative writing. hosting S'mores party in Hell for fellow (evil) writers

And you may never find out why. It's going to be hard, but don't hang up your life waiting for the why; he may not have reasons, or may not have reasons that make any sense to anyone but himself.

I can say this, though; someone capable of doing that to you had a side to him you didn't know of, and that side to him would have made marriage to him a likely disaster. You're lucky in that you found out before you married him, before you had children with him.

A brighter future for a darker age.

I've made up my mind.

I'm telling my parents this next week.

No matter what happens they can't stop me from keeping in contact, so there's nothing to lose.

Idea makes me nervous though....

edited 20th Dec '14 3:07:11 AM by ElectricNova

@0dd: That is good. Hope I'll get to hear it someday.

@Ello: What Morven said.

@Nova: Good luck.

Back a couple of pages ago - sorry to hear that Hopey.

Devypu's~ Big Pony :3

Sadly, my date has gotten sick and thus we have postponed our date.

On the bright side, she is definitely all about it. Which is good!

Christmas is coming up, and I have a great idea for a gift for her.. I just hope she doesn't get it as a gift before I give it to her

"There's not a girl alive who wouldn't be happy being called cute." ~Tamamo-no-Mae

Regardless of what happened, I'm still making the same New Year's Resolution I made two years ago to continue dating wherever things go.

It won't be until I return to school that I try, since long distance ain't something I'm exactly keen on, for justified reasons I believe...

edited 20th Dec '14 9:40:18 PM by terlwyth

@Quag: Heh, really, it's kind of a dumb little song. I like it, but not sure anyone else really would.

If you want a better song in a similar (albeit less humorous) vein, I'd recommend The White Stripes song "I'm Lonely (But I Ain't That Lonely Yet)", which is the song that kinda served as my inspiration here.

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On a more uplifting note, I might have a date on Monday evening.

edited 20th Dec '14 7:30:51 PM by Odd1

Insert witty 'n clever quip here.

Neato, I hope you have fun and stuff!

YUUGI WANTS YOU FOR DRINKING BUDDY

So internet memes can sum up life so well sometimes: "All I want for Christmas is you. And pizza, but you too"

My PM box is always open to anyone who wants to talk/vent.

Gah, mutual (female) friend going around liking a few of the girl's facebook photos. Some very enticing stuff coming up on screen here.

I don't have a chance here, do i?

Ah well. Ain't over 'till it's over.

Congrats to Nova and my condolensces to Hopey and Ellowen. I hope things turn out okay for the pair of you.

@Odd: Have fun

Great.

Girl I like is totally down for ice cream but would have to bring her fam and both of us are on the fense there.

IDK if I should keep trying.

David Bowie 1947-2016

Always another day if that's the case.

Replied to one of those photos that was dredged up yesterday, with no response back. Granted, the record for response time vis-a-vis Her is 12 days so far, so nothing to worry about in 16 hours :-/

I have good news, friends. Well, good-ish.

I remembered that I saved the phone number of Hibiscus's home in her contact card in the People app on my PC (but not on my phone, weirdly).

In order to make my call untraceable, I decided to use my Skype Minutes to call her house (the call would come up on the Caller ID as PRIVATE NUMBER).

I was so fucking nervous. I called once, and I immediately hung up in fear as soon as her mum picked up the phone.

I paced around my bedroom for about twenty minutes. I swallowed my anxiety and I called the phone again. Her mother picked up, again. I was still terrified.

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"Hello?" she said.

"Hi-hi... I'm... I'm Hibiscus's boyfriend," I reply.

I can hear her shuffling on the other hand, getting a seat.

"Hi, Hopey. Why are you calling?"

"Please. Don't. Break us up. Please listen to what I have to say, miss. Please don't call the cops. Please... just listen to what I have to say."

"Okay. I'm listening. I shouldn't, but I will."

"I love her. I love her so much. I don't know if you know how much I do, but its a lot. She is my whole world, miss. My whole life. I'm sorry we went behind your back. I'm really sorry. We should have told you sooner, but those are excuses. You know now. I... I'm not a bad guy miss. I'm not a threat to her. I'm just some naïve kid who fell in love with her. That's all I am, miss. I love her because she is like nobody I've ever dated before. I love her, truly, irrevocably, sincerely. She understands me at a level I can't explain to you. When I think of a joke; she laughs before I tell it. When she asks a question, I have a response before she's even thought of it. When I fumble with my words, she always gets the meaning. She understands me, miss... at a deep, raw level. I really... really... care about her. Please don't do this. Please... I... I... I love her."

"Okay. I see. I don't have any problem with you being with her, I mean... But I am concerned about all the secrecy and the length of time you've been together."

"Please... j-just give me a chance. Please let me prove myself to you. I want... I want to be with her. I love her miss."

"Okay. I will talk to my husband about this. I'll have to think about it."

"I'll do anything miss, if you want me to come down I will. I just want to show... show y-you that I am legitimate, miss."

"Okay. Like I said, I'll think about it."

"Really...? Thank you... thank you so much..."

"I have to go now. I understand it must have taken a lot of courage for you to call me, so thank you for that. Goodbye, Hopey."

END CALL

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So, yeah. Now I am nervous. I don't know what to really think, here. I really... hope it goes my way. I really hope Mr Dad says yes. I hope Hibiscus says yes.

I'm scared. I'm really scared. I don't think I have been this scared before. I am so close to victory... so close, but I am scared that my chance at victory will disappear before my very eyes. This is my only chance. I hope it worked. I hope things will improve.

But I am so scared.

I am scared.

edited 22nd Dec '14 8:19:25 AM by inhopelessguy

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For fucks sake.

That's stalker behaviour there.

ಠ_ಠ

What?

Hibiscus knows I have her house phone number. And her mother didn't really have any qualms about me having it either (I mentioned it at a point, and she said that it wasn't a problem). Don't worry yourself, bro.

No, it's not. Hopey did not acted like a creep, he talked with her mother, not her, and explained everything they had done.

Hopey, what you did takes a lot of balls. I congratulate you. I understand your fears, but the worst has passed.

Well, hopefully you get another chance.