I have a YouTube channel
. Some of the things I've uploaded to it:
Tropes that I think describe me:
- Ambiguous Disorder: My mom used to think I had Asperger syndrome. No counsellor I've talked to thinks that's the case, but I can see why she'd think that. I'm definitely off just in a way that apparently doesn't have a name.
- Ambiguously Brown: People ask about my background fairly often. I've been asked by more than one person if I'm Hispanic. Brown people ask me if I'm brown, and Portuguese people ask me if I'm Portuguese. Once, a Middle Eastern girl serving me at a Tim Hortons asked me what country I'm fromnote , and seemed surprised when I said "Canada"note . Alas, I'm 3/4 white, 1/4 black, and I was born and raised in Canada, as were both my parents, my maternal (white) grandparents, and their parents, etc., as far back as I'm aware of. I guess I look somewhat Hispanic, though, and it doesn't help that my first name IRL is of Spanish origin.
- Attention Deficit Creator Disorder
- Better Than It Sounds: A lot of the stories I'm working on. At least I hope so.
- Big "YES!": What I did when I saw the third panel of this Prequel update. I even put the title in as "YES!!!" when bookmarking it.
- Brilliant, but Lazy: Definitely lazy, possibly brilliant? I'm not really the best one to judge that.
- Buffy Speak
- Canada: My hoooooome.
- Foreign Culture Fetish: For Japan. But minus the "uncritical" admiration I don't only love the The Theme Park Version. I'm aware of its flaws. There are plenty of things I don't like about Japan. There are things I hate about Japan. But I love it anyway.
- A less pronounced version for many European countries, like France, Spain, Germany, Austria, Portugal, etc.
- Friendless Background: At some points in my life.
- Most Fanfic Writers Are Girls: ...Hi.
- Motor Mouth
- Not a Morning Person
- Proud to Be a Geek
- Toronto: Where I was born.
- TV Tropes Will Enhance Your Life
- TV Tropes Will Ruin Your Life
- Half-Life: World Line: A Half-Life franchisenote fan fiction. It fits into several categories, depending on which "arc" you're looking at: Fix Fic, Elsewhere Fic, Adaptation, Continuation, etc. The genres are Original Flavor (in the sense that part of it is just a retelling of the canon but with more Realism and extra dialogue), Something Completely Different (in the sense of "taking an idea or concept in the series proper and averting, subverting, inverting or just plain fucking with it"), and Romance. The style is Earn Your Happy Ending. Now Gordon and Chell both talk (I never have understood why so many fan fic authors feel the need to keep Gordon and Chell silent by having them be somehow incapable of speech). Characters have family members (both dead and alive) and detailed backstories. Extras have been ascended. And Chell has a last name. (And most of the characters even have middle names!) My focus right now is on what happens in the days/months/years before Half-Life, what happens between Half-Life and Half-Life 2, and what happens after Episode Two (and what happens after "the end" since it won't really be the end until ALL the Combine forces are gone, which will probably take years). Therefore there are a lot of ascended extras and original characters (though many of the latter aren't really characters, but simply by-products of the main characters' backstories). Writing this is a lot of fun so much that I haven't really worked on my favourite story, Qualia, in a while.
- Qualia: A Magic Realism story set in the city where I grew up. The premise bears an uncanny resemblance to H. P. Lovecraft's "The Outsider" (much to my chagrin when I found out), and therefore might also bring Amnesia to mind. However, it was actually inspired by the first episode of Tsukuyomi: Moon Phase (I don't watch the show, but in 2006 I went to a Halloween-themed "Anime Night" at a comic store in my city, and they showed the first or second episode of it. I came up with the idea over the next couple of days). The protagonist is hiking in the woods when he finds a big, black castle. He thinks he's hallucinating until he finds a teenage girl inside a feral child who was raised by the castle in a very abusive, terrifying way. The protagonist decides to take her home and see what he can do for her. This is my favourite story so far, as it doesn't suffer from many of the weaknesses of my earlier ones.
- Intended medium: Manga/anime
- Bad Dreams: The heroine has Flashback Nightmares all the time.
- Batman in My Basement: The protagonist lives alone and the heroine doesn't need to Save The World or anything like that; but taking care of her without people knowing is essentially just as difficult, since it's a full-time job (at first), meaning he can't have people over and can't go out, which is suspicious in itself.
- Bigger on the Inside: The Castle can be this if it wants to, due to being an Eldritch Location and a Mobile Maze.
- By the Eyes of the Blind: See Invisible to Normals below.
- Children Raise You: The protagonist basically ends up "raising" the heroine, and while he's actually pretty good at it, it's still insanely difficult and he learns a lot from it.
- Closed Circle: For anyone other than the heroine, the Castle has a big wide open door at the front, and many wide open windows. For the heroine, these were not possible to exit from, and often just plain weren't there. It was literally impossible for her to leave.
- Cute and Psycho: The heroine is this at first, for obvious reasons. Over time she becomes less psycho and more cute.
- Eldritch Location: The Castle.
- Fake Kill Scare: The Castle does this a lot.
- First Time in the Sun: The heroine has this experience, except it's at the beginning of the story rather than the end.
- Genius Loci: The Castle.
- Go Mad from the Isolation: One of the many ways in which being raised by a Genius Loci has scarred the heroine.
- Invisible to Normals: The Castle is normally invisible and intangible to all people except: The one who made the castle, the one who operates the castle, and the one who is imprisoned in the castle. "Normal" people can perceive it upon fulfilling a certain condition, which I will not disclose because it's a spoiler.
- Lightning Bruiser: Being raised inside a Mobile Maze that often chased/attacked her with horrible creatures and machines, has made the heroine very fast and strong (for her age, gender, and size), and able to physically withstand a lot of abuse (whether she can withstand it mentally depends on her state of mind at the time). This usually isn't very relevant, except for two occasions when she runs away, and one occasion where she punches the protagonist hard enough in the head that he is briefly knocked out and suffers a concussion.
- Magitek: The Castle has a lot of it.
- Mind Rape: One of many ways the Castle used to torture the heroine.
- Mobile Maze: The Castle can become this if it wants to, just to screw with the heroine.
- Mysterious Waif: The heroine.
- Ordinary High-School Student: Sort of. The protagonist just finished high school.
- Primal Fear: The Castle preys on these.
- Psychological Torment Zone: The Castle is designed to be this.
- Wild Child: The heroine, so much.
- Homestay: A story set in Itabashi, Japan, about a Canadian girl who is obsessed with Japan and goes there on a homestay.
- Intended medium: Manga/anime
- Zarmina's World: A Science Fiction story about aliens who come to Earth from Gliese 581 g, an extrasolar planet which may or may not exist in real life, and which is currently considered the most likely candidate for alien life. One of the scientists who discovered it nicknamed it "Zarmina's World" (often shortened to "Zarmina").
- Intended medium: Novel, film
- SarA.I. Project: A Science Fiction story about an artificially intelligent android named Sarai Chino (知能・再来 Chino Sarai). Yes, it's a Meaningful Name. You can figure it out yourself, though.
- Plaything: A surrealist story about a children's blanket on a quest to find her family after they accidentally move away without her. Don't be fooled by the premise it's actually intended for young adults. It is very serious and sometimes dark, and deals with themes not at all suitable for children (such as drug abuse, teenage pregnancy, abandonment, child abuse, death, post-traumatic stress disorder, and mental illness). Better Than It Sounds.
- Str.Rh.P.w/P.B.: A surrealist Constructed World with...interesting physics. Just as an example: How much an object weighs depends on whether the person holding it owns it or not, and the "percent ownership" you have of an object depends on how long you've been holding it for, etc. I actually have written an equation that explains it all. And since you can't own a sentient being, scientists don't need to have philosophical debates about whether their latest and greatest AI is sentient or not they just have to put it on a scale and see whether it changes weight after somebody holds it for long enough. Another example: Information is physical matter, kind of like air or light, that floats around in the atmosphere and can be absorbed by osmosis. That is to say, if you have a higher concentration of info in your brain than there is in the atmosphere, info will leave your brain, and vice versa. For this reason, people have to wear protective membranes that prevent info from leaving or entering the brain when they don't want it to. Of course, this makes learning things very complicated. It also makes privacy complicated. And communication. I actually only just realized that... Anyway, if you're not wearing your protective membrane and you wander into an area with a really, really low concentration of information, that's really dangerous information will start leaving your brain at an alarming rate, causing you to lose consciousness. Unless someone finds you, you're going to lie there with all the info leaking out of your brain until you die. I love to create these crazy laws of physics and explore the implications of them. Final note: The Word Puree Title actually does mean something. I challenge you to figure out what.
Tropes that are present in a lot of my works:
- Author Appeal: I can't resist having these somewhere in a work, even if it's just an Easter egg, a bilingual bonus, or an obscure Shout Out.
- Author Avatar: Many of my stories were begun two or more years ago, before I realized this was a bad idea. I've tried, with varying degrees of success, to downplay it in most of my stories. Currently the worst offender is Homestay, whose protagonist is like me not only in appearance but in personal interests (though not in personality she's a lot nicer, clumsier, and more sociable/lovable than I am). The others are not like me in personality at all only in appearance (and even this I've changed enough that I don't consider them to really resemble me anymore). Interestingly, Qualia, my favourite story, is so far the only one where the protagonist is a) male, and b) not like me at all. Hmm...
- Bilingual Bonus: Such fun! These are especially prevalent in a Science Fantasy story I haven't listed here.
- Bilingual Dialogue: Most of my stories have at least one instance of this, since there's almost always a character who speaks another language. Particularly prevalent in Homestay and the Innsbruck arc of World Line.
- Good Parents: Almost all the parents in my stories. Many of my main characters have enough problems as it is without also having bad parents so unless their parents are a source of conflict in the plot or a subplot, they will probably be good parents (sometimes unrealistically so). I think I have some kind of unwritten rule, like Law of Conservation of Angst, or something.
- Happily Married: Almost all my married couples. See Good Parents above.
- Loads and Loads of Characters: World Line and my unlisted science fantasy story are particularly egregious examples.
- Meaningful Name: I love these. Some are rather more clever/subtle than others. The obvious ones are usually lampshaded, since they're meant to be a joke. Some of them have an in-universe explanation.
- Nominal Importance: Averted. Everyone gets a name. In my Half-Life fan fiction, almost everyone even gets a middle name (interestingly, this is the only story where I've really bothered with middle names yet I guess because I have a lot of my work cut out for me, so adding extraneous details is "fun" rather than "work").
- No Periods, Period: Averted, especially in Qualia. (It's about a young adult taking care of a feral teenage girl what do you expect???)
- Seinfeldian Conversation: What other kind is there? ;)
- Separated by a Common Language: I exploit the hell out of this whenever the opportunity presents itself, because there's endless potential for hilarity.
- Shout Out: How my Author Appeal tendencies usually manifest themselves.
- Shown Their Work: I like everything to look and feel authentic, so I do a lot of research for my stories, even for relatively minor details. I guess I'm a show-off at heart because I can't help but insert evidence of my hard work into the stories somehow. XD
- Sliding Scale of Idealism Versus Cynicism: I tend to be quite idealistic in my fiction. If someone needs therapy, they will probably get it, and they'll probably continue to get it until they no longer need it and if they need it again, they'll get it again. If someone has a mental illness, they will recover. If someone is dying, they will probably survive unless its an invariably fatal disease. (I can't stand killing major characters unless there's a good reason.) Rousseau Was Right. If there is an item around that could really, really help the characters, they will find it. Authority figures are reasonable. Bosses are benevolent. Parents know what they're doing. Couples are happy. If an innocent/good person stands trial, they'll be acquitted, and if a guilty/bad person stands trial, they'll be convicted, and their punishment will be proportionate to their crime. However, I try not to let idealism get in the way of realistic conflict just because a character gets therapy doesn't mean it will be easy, and just because it works doesn't mean it will work right away, or that there won't be setbacks. (You should see Doug Rattmann's recovery from his first schizophrenic psychotic episode in World Line.) The destination may be ideal, but the journey often isn't. People still have to Earn Their Happy Endings. And I don't shy away from cynicism when it's A Million is a Statistic, which it often is in World Line. (I consider writing World Line to be a good exercise in cynicism, due to the constraints the Half-Life franchise places on idealism by its very nature.)
- There Are No Therapists: Usually averted, one obvious exception being World Line (but even that averts it, just not as much as my other works).
- Writers Cannot Do Math: I avert this like the plague. I'm not good at math, but I'm good at internet and calculator.
Works I've been introduced to via TV Tropes:
My favourite works: