One moment you're gleefully shredding the throat of an inattentive saleswoman. The next, you're lost in thought, with a mouthful of neck and a noseful of cheap perfume. Your feet are planted firmly on the floor, your fangs secure in the vein—but your mind is a million miles away.
It should be an enjoyable moment, but for some reason it isn't. The only thing you can focus on is the sound of your own voice, echoing inside your head as you wonder, Who am I? What kind of wretch lives like this? Must I truly go on this way forever? and, worst of all, What sort of monster have I become?
—The New Vampire's Handbook
By the gods, what have I become?
—Kratos, God of War
You people are mistaken if you think that I'm awake and celebrating anything that I've become.
—AWOLNATION, Run
"It's this kid, Kenny. I thought I could take him under my wing. Be the mentor I wish I had when I was younger. But when I saw him today, it, uh... It's like looking in a mirror. And I realized I screwed everything up. I had all this hate inside of me. For you and for Miguel. And I thought I could use Cobra Kai to control that. But it just made things worse and now it's never gonna get better."
— Robby Keene to his father Johnny Lawrence, Cobra Kai
I'm a gross red monster!
—Mei, Turning Red
"What? Oh... oh, God. Oh, Stick Boy. What's happening to me? All this mindless stupidity is filling me with so much rage, that... I'm turning... into what I hate. This doesn't end. I'm not gonna be hosting this show. I'll be the show! Stick Boy... help me."
— Nash after a rage-induced breakdown, What the Fuck Is Wrong with You?, "Regret at Leisure"
Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become?
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become?
—Breaking Benjamin, "The Diary of Jane"
