History Music / ToshimitsuDeyama

* StockholmSyndrome: According to him, his holding onto the marriage with Kaori and staying in Home Of Heart was partially a form of this.

As of 2014, he is collaborating with other Visual Kei artists again in his solo career (among them Music/{{Shinya}} of Music/DirEnGrey and the guitarist from Merry), and he has released a book entitled "Brainwash" about his experience in the Masaya sect and leaving it.

* RuleOfDrama: A great example why all rockstars who don't want to end up in worse trouble than their SexDrugsAndRockAndRoll counterparts, instead seeking life's answers via religion, need to practice safe ''[[IncrediblyLamePun sects]]''.

* SurprisinglyGoodEnglish

* JustForFun/OneOfUs: The English-speaking fandom of figure skater Creator/YuzuruHanyu often joke that no matter how much of a [[FanCommunityNickname fanyu]] you are, you can't be more of a fanyu than [=ToshI=]. He collaborated with Hanyu for two of the skaters' programs during Fantasy on Ice - ''Crystal Memories'' and ''[[Theatre/ThePhantomOfTheOpera Masquerade.]]'' He stayed up the night before the event to make a bedazzled Franchise/WinnieThePooh shirt (Hanyu's GoodLuckCharm) and tweeted often about Hanyu's competitions. He coined the nickname "Yuzu-numa" (Yuzu swamp) because once you get into the fandom, you can't get out.

* {{Angst}}
* AmbiguouslyBi / AmbiguouslyGay: A hotly debated topic. He definitely participates in male/male {{fanservice}} and was one of the people who did it before it became a popular stage trick in VisualKei (two examples from the 1990 Rose and Blood tour footage alone included his dry-humping Pata from behind during ''Stab Me In The Back'' and his embrace with Taiji during ''X''), and his affinity for {{Samurai}} aesthetic. On the other hand he was married for 11 years - with 10 of those lived away from his wife while she lived with their cult leader. There's been rumors of him being seen with women/getting married again - there's also been rumors of him being seen with other men. No one really knows, and both sides have enough ammunition to keep the debate going until/if he directly comes out. That said, this is a ''huge'' influence on his work - which is why the trope is listed here - in that much of his onstage performance and a large amount of his lyrics, especially in the early days of X Japan and after his departure from the Masaya sect, seem to reference attraction to men.

* BrainwashedAndCrazy: Toshi, again according to himself, on his blogs until 2009. He would regularly lash out at the perceived enemies and opponents of Home Of Heart, as the organization allegedly enslaved him.

* CorporalPunishment: In his book, he claims that Home Of Heart uses this on all members - adults and children, and that he was himself a victim.

* CrisisOfFaith: Late 2009, when he was unable to deny any longer that Home of Heart had ruined him and literally posed a hazard to his life. He handled it by leaving and slowly beginning to rebuild his life without the sect, which he appears to have done to some success.

* DoubleEntendre: From his 2011 song "Hoshizora no Neptune," which is a love song for the all-important context: "I foresaw in a dream engraved beyond the hours of [[UranusIsShowing Uranus]]..."

* DysfunctionalFamily: Closer to dysfunctional couple since no kids were thankfully involved, but a marriage that consisted of one year of living together - if that - before Kaori left to live with Masaya and yet kept the LongDistanceRelationship with Toshi for the next 10 years, a relationship that consisted of making sure he was making music and money, taking said music and money, and working as Masaya's representative, making him stay in the religion out of first convincing him of its truth, then, as the years went on past 2006, extortion and blackmail and threats.

* KnightInShiningArmor: the 2011 charity concerts tour to raise money for earthquake and tsunami victims.

* LargeHam: The result of an everyday normal young man trying to be a larger than life TheEighties rockstar like his BFF and his bandmates. Ironically? It WORKED. Administrivia/TropesAreNotBad, not even this one.

* MelismaticVocals: He can do this...''and'' combine it with the MetalScream, which creates the LastNoteNightmare on ''Jade'' for Music/XJapan.
* MindRape: What he describes the process of Home of Heart membership and its results for him as.

* JustForFun/OneOfUs: The English-speaking fandom of figure skater Creator/YuzuruHanyu often joke that no matter how much of a [[FanCommunityNickname fanyu]] you are, you can't be more of a fanyu than [=ToshI=]. He collaborated with Hanyu for two of the skaters' programs during Fantasy on Ice - ''Crystal Memories'' and ''[[Theatre/ThePhantomOfTheOpera Masquerade.]]'' He stayed up the night before the event to make a bedazzled Franchise/WinnieThePooh shirt (Hanyu's GoodLuckCharm), tweeted often about Hanyu's competitions, and even cosplayed Hanyu's [[Music/RobbieWilliams Let Me Entertain You]] program.

* Music/VioletUK: He's covered "Unnamed Song" and "I'll Be Your Love" so far.
* VisualKei: One of the TropeMakers in TheEighties and TheNineties. He entirely dropped the style and the scene, denouncing it as evil, around 1996 when he became more involved with Masaya's sect. As of 2008, he adopted the style again for performances, but more in a more "wealthy Western rockstar" look than a return to Visual Shock, though around 2013 and onward, he's thrown himself back into the style completely and is one of its most notable figures, often organizing jam band shows and appearing with other visual artists.

* Music/XJapan: He's the vocalist.

* JustForFun/OneOfUs: The English-speaking fandom of figure skater Creator/YuzuruHanyu often joke that no matter how much of a [[FanCommunityNickname fanyu]] you are, you can't be more of a fanyu than ToshI. He collaborated with Hanyu for two of the skaters' programs during Fantasy on Ice - ''Crystal Memories'' and ''[[Theatre/ThePhantomOfTheOpera Masquerade.]]'' He stayed up the night before the event to make a bedazzled Franchise/WinnieThePooh shirt (Hanyu's GoodLuckCharm), tweeted often about Hanyu's competitions, and even cosplayed Hanyu's [[Music/RobbieWilliams Let Me Entertain You]] program.

* HeterosexualLifePartners: With Yoshiki. For pretty much their whole lives.

* TooMuchInformation: Also undoubtedly the 09/25/10 Wiltern show MC to some (although not to [[YaoiFangirl others]]), either as a result of his performing a BlindIdiotTranslation on his own remarks or his [[BiTheWay coming out of the closet]] onstage.

* LargeHam: The result of an everyday normal young man trying to be a larger than life TheEighties rockstar like his BFF and his bandmates. Ironically? It WORKED. TropesAreNotBad, not even this one.

In 1997, Toshi decided to leave Music/XJapan, which led to the dissolution of the band [[InternetBackdraft and let's just leave it at that]], and [[ConvertingForLove devote himself to "healing music"]] with his then-wife Kaori Moritani ([[MeaningfulName "Wanku"]]) and their religious leader Masaya. This did not end well.

As of 2011, he completed bankruptcy, restarted his solo career free of Masaya as solo projects and as Toshi featuring Yoshiki, his voice is once again at top form, and he seems to be well on his way to one of [[CrowningMomentOfHeartwarming the best, most inspiring comebacks]] in the VisualKei scene. Ironically, his may be the least tragic of stories related to Music/XJapan - while he still has some ongoing problems, he seems to be doing well...and he is one of only three surviving members of the 1987-1992 band, along with Yoshiki and Pata.

* MeanCharacterNiceActor: In his early days and the early days of the band, his role was "cartoon monster" + aggressive dominant leather daddy + Music/{{Kiss}}-style demon, to yell at the audience and get them worked up (sometimes even by ''directly insulting'' them), while singing dark lyrics about sex, murder, drugs, and whatever else Yoshiki could put into a song to make it shocking and angsty enough. Offstage, he was and is actually relatively quiet, even more truly shy than Yoshiki (as seen in the interviews where Yoshiki does all the talking or most of it, and what with Yoshiki being the FaceOfTheBand post 2008, and with a comparison of how many posts he makes to his Website/{{Facebook}} -and his avoiding other social media entirely until he opened his Instagram account - as compared to Yoshiki's far more prolific posting and network presence) and seemingly an all around NiceGuy.

Toshimitsu Deyama (better known as Toshi or [=ToshI=]) is the vocalist and co-creator of Music/XJapan. In the [[TheEighties 80s]] and early [[TheNineties 90s]], his incredible vocal abilities and his one-of-a-kind hairstyle designed by then-bassist [[Music/TaijiSawada Taiji]] made him one of the most distinctly recognizable metal vocalists out of Japan. He, along with [[Music/YoshikiHayashi Yoshiki]] and [[Music/HidetoMatsumoto hide]] are the most well-known members of Music/XJapan.

* {{Trigger}}: Yoshiki's dark and depressing lyrics were this for him, enough to worsen his depression and sense of social disconnection, which made him easy pickings for Home of Heart when Kaori promised it would heal his mind and make him a better person.

Toshimitsu Deyama (better known as Toshi or [=ToshI=]) is the vocalist and co-creator of Music/XJapan. In the [[TheEighties 80s]] and early [[TheNineties 90s]], his incredible vocal abilities and his one-of-a-kind hairstyle designed by then-bassist [[Music/TaijiSawada Taiji]] made him one of the most distinctly recognizable metal vocalists out of Japan. He, along with [[Music/YoshikiHayashi Yoshiki]] and [[Music/HidetoMatsumoto hide]] are the most well-known members of XJapan.

In 1997, Toshi decided to leave XJapan, which led to the dissolution of the band [[InternetBackdraft and let's just leave it at that]], and [[ConvertingForLove devote himself to "healing music"]] with his then-wife Kaori Moritani ([[MeaningfulName "Wanku"]]) and their religious leader Masaya. This did not end well.

Over 2006-2007, Toshi decided that he was going to help Yoshiki reunite XJapan, performing with the reunited band for the first time in 2007. He continued to perform with XJapan, while beginning the eco-rock band called "T-Earth" under Masaya's auspices, as well as releasing nearly a single a month, doing duets with other Home of Heart members and Kaori, [[BrainwashedAndCrazy lashing out at the sect's opponents]], and working himself into a breakdown. Fans were [[BrokenBase decidedly split]] about his career choices and their opinions of T-Earth and the other Masaya work.

He was hospitalized, suffering from "intercostal neuralgia" and mutism as side effects from what he would later reveal to be repeated beatings, psychiatric injury, and injury to his larynx and chest muscles from physical overwork. He physically couldn't sing, all activities were put on hold until he arrived in LA for the filming of XJapan's PV ''Jade'', where he was only supposed to move his lips from not being able to sing...

For the last 12 years, according to Toshi, he was allegedly being forced into more work and more projects by Masaya, as the leader of Home of Heart [[FinancialAbuse allegedly took all of the proceeds]] from both his work with XJapan and the a-single-a-month pace of Toshi's solo/duet/T-Earth career. This led to his alleged need to depend on friends and whatever he could scrounge for almost everything including food, his allegedly being a target of surveillance in a tiny Tokyo apartment while Kaori and Masaya lived in a mansion, and his eventual mental and physical breakdown.

As of 2011, he completed bankruptcy, restarted his solo career free of Masaya as solo projects and as Toshi featuring Yoshiki, his voice is once again at top form, and he seems to be well on his way to one of [[CrowningMomentOfHeartwarming the best, most inspiring comebacks]] in the VisualKei scene. Ironically, his may be the least tragic of stories related to XJapan - while he still has some ongoing problems, he seems to be doing well...and he is one of only three surviving members of the 1987-1992 band, along with Yoshiki and Pata.

* AudienceParticipationSong: Toshi is a vocalist who definitely likes to engage the audience. He (and therefore XJapan) are rather well known for Audience Participation Songs.

* PrecisionFStrike: The lyrics to "Desperate Angel," his XJapan song co-written with [[Music/TaijiSawada Taiji]]. Some versions of ''Born to be Free," specifically live concerts and the studio single version. (In TV lives, he does a LastSecondWordSwap for "sucker" or "falcon.")

* VisualKei: One of the TropeMakers in TheEighties and TheNineties. He entirely dropped the style and the scene, denouncing it as evil, around 1996 when he became more involved with Masaya's sect. As of 2008, he adopted the style again for performances, but more in a more "wealthy Western rockstar" look than a return to Visual Shock.

* PrecisionFStrike: The lyrics to "Desperate Angel," his XJapan song co-written with [[Music/TaijiSawada Taiji]].

* PrecisionFStrike: The lyrics to "Desperate Angel," his XJapan song co-written with [[TaijiSawada Taiji]].

* MeanCharacterNiceActor: In his early days and the early days of the band, his role was "cartoon monster" + aggressive dominant leather daddy + Music/{{Kiss}}-style demon, to yell at the audience and get them worked up (sometimes even by ''directly insulting'' them), while singing dark lyrics about sex, murder, drugs, and whatever else Yoshiki could put into a song to make it shocking and angsty enough. Offstage, he was and is actually relatively quiet, even more truly shy than Yoshiki (as seen in the interviews where Yoshiki does all the talking or most of it, and what with Yoshiki being the FaceOfTheBand post 2008, and with a comparison of how many posts he makes to his FaceBook -and his avoiding other social media entirely until he opened his Instagram account - as compared to Yoshiki's far more prolific posting and network presence) and seemingly an all around NiceGuy.

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Toshimitsu Deyama (better known as Toshi or ToshI) is the vocalist and co-creator of Music/XJapan. In the [[TheEighties 80s]] and early [[TheNineties 90s]], his incredible vocal abilities and his one-of-a-kind hairstyle designed by then-bassist [[Music/TaijiSawada Taiji]] made him one of the most distinctly recognizable metal vocalists out of Japan. He, along with [[Music/YoshikiHayashi Yoshiki]] and [[Music/HidetoMatsumoto hide]] are the most well-known members of XJapan.