[[caption-width-right:350:Toshi singing for Music/XJapan at Madison Square Garden, 2014]]

Toshimitsu Deyama (better known as Toshi or [=ToshI=], born October 10, 1965) is the vocalist and co-creator of Music/XJapan. In the [[TheEighties 80s]] and early [[TheNineties 90s]], his incredible vocal abilities and his one-of-a-kind hairstyle designed by then-bassist [[Music/TaijiSawada Taiji]] made him one of the most distinctly recognizable metal vocalists out of Japan. He, along with [[Music/YoshikiHayashi Yoshiki]] and [[Music/HidetoMatsumoto hide]] are the most well-known members of Music/XJapan.

In 1997, Toshi decided to leave Music/XJapan, which led to the dissolution of the band [[InternetBackdraft and let's just leave it at that]], and [[ConvertingForLove devote himself to "healing music"]] with his then-wife Kaori Moritani ([[MeaningfulName "Wanku"]]) and their religious leader Masaya. This did not end well.

His career outside of X had consisted of various collaborations/solo performances up until 1997. From his joining the Masaya sect in 1997 to his departure from it in December 2009, his solo career was solely healing music with Home of Heart, and "eco-rock" with the Masaya project T-Earth (members Toshi [v], Riku [d], Ryo [g], Kain [b].) from 2008 to 2009. It disbanded for a reason you can probably guess by this point.

Over 2006-2007, Toshi decided that he was going to help Yoshiki reunite Music/XJapan, performing with the reunited band for the first time in 2007. He continued to perform with Music/XJapan, while beginning the eco-rock band called "T-Earth" under Masaya's auspices, as well as releasing nearly a single a month, doing duets with other Home of Heart members and Kaori, [[BrainwashedAndCrazy lashing out at the sect's opponents]], and working himself into a breakdown. Fans were [[BrokenBase decidedly split]] about his career choices and their opinions of T-Earth and the other Masaya work.

He was hospitalized, suffering from "intercostal neuralgia" and mutism as side effects from what he would later reveal to be repeated beatings, psychiatric injury, and injury to his larynx and chest muscles from physical overwork. He physically couldn't sing, all activities were put on hold until he arrived in LA for the filming of Music/XJapan's PV ''Jade'', where he was only supposed to move his lips from not being able to sing...

Then came the DramaBomb and TheReveal. Originally in the form of a small, seemingly out of nowhere news report about Toshi and Kaori seeking a divorce, which was originally dismissed as rumor....until Toshi made a blog post on his Mixi (which was the only site under his control at the time) and then had a press conference, claiming that he had been misled and virtually MadeASlave by the sect, along with others. You can see video of the press conference uploaded [[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fMgoGTbEopY here]] for first part, rest is in related videos.

For the last 12 years, according to Toshi, he was allegedly being forced into more work and more projects by Masaya, as the leader of Home of Heart [[FinancialAbuse allegedly took all of the proceeds]] from both his work with Music/XJapan and the a-single-a-month pace of Toshi's solo/duet/T-Earth career. This led to his alleged need to depend on friends and whatever he could scrounge for almost everything including food, his allegedly being a target of surveillance in a tiny Tokyo apartment while Kaori and Masaya lived in a mansion, and his eventual mental and physical breakdown.

At the beginning of 2010, he began to sing again as his body and mind began to recover from his bad experiences, and performed doing one solo concert and with X Japan.

As of 2011, he completed bankruptcy, restarted his solo career free of Masaya as solo projects and as Toshi featuring Yoshiki, his voice is once again at top form, and he seems to be well on his way to one of [[CrowningMomentOfHeartwarming the best, most inspiring comebacks]] in the VisualKei scene. Ironically, his may be the least tragic of stories related to Music/XJapan - while he still has some ongoing problems, he seems to be doing well...and he is one of only three surviving members of the 1987-1992 band, along with Yoshiki and Pata.

As of 2014, he is collaborating with other Visual Kei artists again in his solo career (among them Music/{{Shinya}} of Music/DirEnGrey and the guitarist from Merry), and he has released a book entitled "Brainwash" about his experience in the Masaya sect and leaving it.

!!Provides Examples of:
* AbominationAccusationAttack: Twice.
** First, allegedly used ''by'' Masaya, according to him, to get him to leave his career and friends and join the sect - Masaya accused him of being evil and tainted due to his life as a rock musician.
** The second is a PaedoHunt rumor that pops up every now and then on 2ch Tanuki, that either accuses him of molesting children within the sect and/or of having "involvements" with young boys or young girls or both. It's almost certainly false, but it seems to endure.
* AppleOfDiscord: Kaori and Masaya, when they convinced him to leave his career as a visual rock musician for their religion.
* {{Angst}}
* AmbiguouslyBi / AmbiguouslyGay: A hotly debated topic. He definitely participates in male/male {{fanservice}} and was one of the people who did it before it became a popular stage trick in VisualKei (two examples from the 1990 Rose and Blood tour footage alone included his dry-humping Pata from behind during ''Stab Me In The Back'' and his embrace with Taiji during ''X''), and his affinity for {{Samurai}} aesthetic. On the other hand he was married for 11 years - with 10 of those lived away from his wife while she lived with their cult leader. There's been rumors of him being seen with women/getting married again - there's also been rumors of him being seen with other men. No one really knows, and both sides have enough ammunition to keep the debate going until/if he directly comes out. That said, this is a ''huge'' influence on his work - which is why the trope is listed here - in that much of his onstage performance and a large amount of his lyrics, especially in the early days of X Japan and after his departure from the Masaya sect, seem to reference attraction to men.
* AwfulWeddedLife: 10 years as a LongDistanceRelationship with a wife who was living with her religious leader.
* AudienceParticipationSong: Toshi is a vocalist who definitely likes to engage the audience. He (and therefore Music/XJapan) are rather well known for Audience Participation Songs.
* BadSamaritan: [[GoldDigger Kaori]] and [[ConMan Masaya]] both. Toshi himself became [[BrainwashedAndCrazy one for others]] while acting on behalf of Home of Heart, something he says he regrets quite much.
* {{Blackmail}}: He alleges that he was threatened with this as a last-ditch effort to keep him from leaving the sect.
* BlessedWithSuck: See CantHoldHisLiquor below. Being unable to drink much before falling asleep actually likely stopped him from succumbing to the almost universal [[TheAlcoholic alcoholism]] and alcohol abuse in Music/XJapan, possibly saving his life or at the very least keeping him from developing an addiction to alcohol and its additional struggle.
* {{Brainwashed}}: Kaori and Toshi both until 2009, allegedly. Arguably, anyone in the Masaya organization. [[InvokedTrope Toshi has entitled his book describing his years in the sect "Brainwashed."]]
* BrainwashedAndCrazy: Toshi, again according to himself, on his blogs until 2009. He would regularly lash out at the perceived enemies and opponents of Home Of Heart, as the organization allegedly enslaved him.
* BreakThemByTalking: ''One'' of the things he claims Masaya and Kaori did to him, along with physical abuse.
* CannotSpitItOut: Selective mutism as a result of likely PTSD and subsequent to physical injury to his vocal cords and chest for the last few months of 2009, only gaining his voice back in January 2010.
* CantHoldHisLiquor: Toshi mentioned in a 2013 interview that he likes beer but falls asleep after two. This actually was good for him in at least one way - see BlessedWithSuck above.
* CarefulWithThatAxe: Not often in studio albums and singles but more often live.
* CherryBlossoms: He has a 2013 solo album and title track for that album called "Cherry Blossom."
* ClusterFBomb: The 9/25/10 Wiltern show patter breaks.
* ConvertingForLove: A good example why this is not always the best of ideas. Especially if the conversion is a condition of the "love."
* CorporalPunishment: In his book, he claims that Home Of Heart uses this on all members - adults and children, and that he was himself a victim.
* CoverVersion: Toshi covered more than a few songs in his early career up until around 1995, and has began to do covers again, including one of Music/BillyJoel.
* CrisisOfFaith: Late 2009, when he was unable to deny any longer that Home of Heart had ruined him and literally posed a hazard to his life. He handled it by leaving and slowly beginning to rebuild his life without the sect, which he appears to have done to some success.
* CrucifiedHeroShot: One of his most common stage poses.
* ColdBloodedTorture: He alleges that Masaya and Kaori repeatedly inflicted intense beatings and other violent physical assaults, combined with intense emotional and verbal abuse. It falls under this trope because of its repeated nature and use as a tactic to break him down and keep him a compliant member of the sect.
* DeniedFoodAsPunishment: He claims Home of Heart did this via its intense FinancialAbuse - as in, he had no money to buy food and often had to beg it from friends or others.
* DoubleEntendre: From his 2011 song "Hoshizora no Neptune," which is a love song for the all-important context: "I foresaw in a dream engraved beyond the hours of [[UranusIsShowing Uranus]]..."
** The title of "Hotel D' Amour" = LoveHotel.
* DysfunctionalFamily: Closer to dysfunctional couple since no kids were thankfully involved, but a marriage that consisted of one year of living together - if that - before Kaori left to live with Masaya and yet kept the LongDistanceRelationship with Toshi for the next 10 years, a relationship that consisted of making sure he was making music and money, taking said music and money, and working as Masaya's representative, making him stay in the religion out of first convincing him of its truth, then, as the years went on past 2006, extortion and blackmail and threats.
* EasilyForgiven: His years raising money for a dangerous religious cult and his likely being involved in some way with emotional or even physical child abuse during that era are often written off. The most given rationale for this is that he was, himself, just as much of a victim as everyone else in the sect.
* FinancialAbuse: He was victimized by his ex-wife and their religious leader.
* FluffyFashionFeathers: One prominent part of his TheNewTens Visual style along with...
** GemEncrusted: Swarovski crystals ''everywhere'' are another part...
** HellBentForLeather: The final component of his TheNewTens Visual style.
* FinancialAbuse: He has alleged in his autobiography of his life in the Masaya sect that he was a victim of severe financial abuse inflicted by the group, to the degree of being MadeASlave.
* ForHalloweenIAmGoingAsMyself: Once he came to a local look-alike show as "rookie impersonator Toshiro" to perform "Forever Love" impersonating the 90s version of himself
* {{Gaslighting}}: One of ''many'' means of abuse he has claimed Masaya/Home of Heart engaged in with him and others.
* HappyMarriageCharade: He mentioned this in his press conference and elsewhere. According to him, his marriage to Kaori had become this shortly after 1998 until late 2009, when he filed for divorce.
* HeterosexualLifePartners: With Yoshiki. For pretty much their whole lives.
* HeyLetsPutOnAShow: The "solo sayonara" concert held on February 24, 2010.
* IncompatibleOrientation: If he is gay or prefers men, his marriage to Kaori was this along with all the other dysfunctionality of it.
* IncrediblyLongNote: One of the masters of this in Visual Kei, and can still accomplish it on the level of much younger singers despite being in his late 40s.
* InJoke: ASS IN THE DARK!!!! (His pronunciation of "Earth In The Dark," one of the songs Masaya wrote for him.)
* KnightInShiningArmor: the 2011 charity concerts tour to raise money for earthquake and tsunami victims.
** Also horrifically inverted earlier on: he thought he was this as he fell deeper into Home of Heart and as his devotion to the sect destroyed his family relationships and friendships as well as the band.
* LargeHam: The result of an everyday normal young man trying to be a larger than life TheEighties rockstar like his BFF and his bandmates. Ironically? It WORKED. TropesAreNotBad, not even this one.
* LeonineContract: Twice.
** His years in Music/XJapan from 1982-1997, although it was one he agreed to out of his love for his childhood best friend and their mutual desire to make the band succeed at almost any cost to him (or to all the others).
** Masaya/Home of Heart was even ''more'' of one, as there, he signed over ''all proceeds'' from his X Japan royalties to any money that was known he was making ''at all'' to money he didn't even have with his identity documents - all to Masaya to use as he and Kaori pleased, with ''zero'' concern for whether he even ate or lived.
* LivingEmotionalCrutch: For Yoshiki.
* LoveMakesYouCrazy: Sadly played very straight, if he actually loved Kaori, or subverted if he was threatened with outing as gay and blackmailed into the marriage.
* MadeASlave: He claims that this was and is Home of Heart's ''modus operandi'' toward its members, including himself. According to him, members are enslaved by the group, including intense physical, emotional, and financial abuse in said enslavement.
* MaliciousSlander: See the second AbominationAccusationAttack above, which is almost certainly this.
* MeanCharacterNiceActor: In his early days and the early days of the band, his role was "cartoon monster" + aggressive dominant leather daddy + Music/{{Kiss}}-style demon, to yell at the audience and get them worked up (sometimes even by ''directly insulting'' them), while singing dark lyrics about sex, murder, drugs, and whatever else Yoshiki could put into a song to make it shocking and angsty enough. Offstage, he was and is actually relatively quiet, even more truly shy than Yoshiki (as seen in the interviews where Yoshiki does all the talking or most of it, and what with Yoshiki being the FaceOfTheBand post 2008, and with a comparison of how many posts he makes to his Website/{{Facebook}} -and his avoiding other social media entirely until he opened his Instagram account - as compared to Yoshiki's far more prolific posting and network presence) and seemingly an all around NiceGuy.
* MetalScream: One of the best {{Metal Scream}}ers out there when his voice is top form and he's live...
* MelismaticVocals: He can do this...''and'' combine it with the MetalScream, which creates the LastNoteNightmare on ''Jade'' for Music/XJapan.
* MindRape: What he describes the process of Home of Heart membership and its results for him as.
* MoreThanMindControl: As expressed in the title of his book and its content, he accuses Home of Heart of having done this to him personally, as well as to its other members - it is how they accomplish the [[{{brainwashed}} brainwashing]].
* PaedoHunt: See AbominationAccusationAttack and MaliciousSlander. A repeated (yet almost certainly false) rumor on 2ch Tanuki involves accusations that Toshi molested/molests children.
* PaintedOnPants: Usually [[HellBentForLeather leather ones]], as well.
* PintSizedPowerhouse: He's likely one of the shortest active vocalists in the world aside from Music/DirEnGrey's Music/{{Kyo}}, barely above 5"5 outside of platform boots and without the assistance of the HitlerCam and similar tricks. He is also one of the best power vocalists currently in HardRock / HeavyMetal.
* PrecisionFStrike: The lyrics to "Desperate Angel," his Music/XJapan song co-written with [[Music/TaijiSawada Taiji]]. Some versions of ''Born to be Free," specifically live concerts and the studio single version. (In TV lives, he does a LastSecondWordSwap for "sucker" or "falcon.")
* PunishmentBox: He claims (and this was proven in other news media investigations and the like) that Home of Heart uses these. [[WouldHurtAChild On children.]]
* OdeToSobriety: One that rode the borderline between the first and second types in "Say I Love You" from 2011. It was written for an anti-methamphetamine campaign by the Metropolitan Tokyo Police, which would put it firmly as a type two of that trope - except two of his late bandmates had been rumored to have abused the drug at points, which would make it closer to a sad type one.
* ReligionRantSong: ''Airport,'' which is the third kind, albeit symbolically, about his feelings regarding leaving Home of Heart and beginning anew in his mid-forties.
* RuleOfDrama: A great example why all rockstars who don't want to end up in worse trouble than their SexDrugsAndRockAndRoll counterparts, instead seeking life's answers via religion, need to practice safe ''[[IncrediblyLamePun sects]]''.
* {{Samurai}}: The theme of his last "solo" concert and farewell to his solo career (before he restarted it with the money no longer going to Masaya), and one of his songs for it.
* ScamReligion: InvokedTrope: He accuses Home of Heart/Masaya of being ''exactly this'' in his book, and his song ''Airport,'' mentioned above, is about leaving it.
* StockholmSyndrome: According to him, his holding onto the marriage with Kaori and staying in Home Of Heart was partially a form of this.
* SunglassesAtNight: Toshi is almost always wearing dark sunglasses post 1997.
* SurprisinglyGoodEnglish
* TooMuchInformation: Also undoubtedly the 09/25/10 Wiltern show MC to some (although not to [[YaoiFangirl others]]), either as a result of his performing a BlindIdiotTranslation on his own remarks or his [[BiTheWay coming out of the closet]] onstage.
* TraumaButton: Yoshiki's dark and depressing lyrics were this for him, enough to worsen his depression and sense of social disconnection, which made him easy pickings for Home of Heart when Kaori promised it would heal his mind and make him a better person.
* UranusIsShowing: "Hoshizora No Neptune"/"Neptune of the Starlit Sky," a [[SillyLoveSongs Silly Love Song]] with the following:
-->I send to you from my heart as a diamond's glare\\
The everlasting glow of the planet is the Neptune of the star lit sky\\
I foresaw in a dream engraved beyond the hours of Uranus\\
my one and only prayer held within my heart\\

* Music/VioletUK: He's covered "Unnamed Song" and "I'll Be Your Love" so far.
* VisualKei: One of the TropeMakers in TheEighties and TheNineties. He entirely dropped the style and the scene, denouncing it as evil, around 1996 when he became more involved with Masaya's sect. As of 2008, he adopted the style again for performances, but more in a more "wealthy Western rockstar" look than a return to Visual Shock, though around 2013 and onward, he's thrown himself back into the style completely and is one of its most notable figures, often organizing jam band shows and appearing with other visual artists.
* VocalRangeExceeded: Not often (because he has one of the widest ranges for active vocalists), but sometimes does happen to him. One of the saddest examples was 1997 Last Live for X Japan, where he was often crying too much to sing properly, and a more recent example was when he was slightly off-form at X Japan's A-Nation performance of ''Born To Be Free.''
** Also occasionally happens 2008 and onward when he tries for the MetalScream and hasn't prepared himself properly (due to falling out of practice for so many years and due to being a smoker) - the result sounds like a chicken or parrot screeching, as opposed to what he's going for.
* Music/XJapan: He's the vocalist.