History TearJerker / Berserk

** As Guts is training near a waterfall, he accidentally loses his grip on the [[{{BFS}} Dragonslayer]]. What makes this sad is this is the first time he has ever slipped up. Astonished, he throws a throwing knife at a hanging fruit... and misses. All his years of monster-slaying, all the foes he faced, [[DentedIron all that physical and mental strain is beginning to catch up with him]]. When he looks at the Dragondlayer, Guts realizes that the more he uses the cursed armor, the more dependent he becomes on it.

** [[spoiler: The Demon Child reverting back to Griffith. Instead of attacking, he faces Guts and Casca sincerely, almost as a former friend, for the first time in years.]]
*** [[spoiler:And Griffith's last words in the chapter and the tear down his face illuminates his ultimate tragedy - he got the kingdom he dreamed for, power beyond comprehension, and yet ''he cannot enjoy any of it'' because his DealWithTheDevil has robbed him of his ability to feel ''anything''. The only way that he can feel happiness is vicariously through the Demon Child, and even then that's only temporary, and he might not even be able to remember those feelings afterwards.]]
--> [[spoiler: '''Griffith:''' I had a dream. Under the full moon, I was a child embraced by warmth. But when I wake from the dream, only a vague sense of longing remains... That, too, will soon disappear... with a single tear like morning dew.]]

** As Guts is training near a waterfall, he accidentally loses grip of the DragonSlayer. What makes this sad is this is the first time he has ever slipped up. Astonished, he throws a throwing knife at a hanging fruit... and misses. All his years of monster-slaying, all the foes he faced, [[DentedIron all that physical and mental strain is beginning to catch up with him]]. When he looks at the DragonSlayer, Guts realizes that the more he uses the cursed armor, the more dependent he becomes.

*** [[spoiler:And Griffith's last words in the chapter and the tear down his face illuminates his ultimate tragedy - he got the kingdom he dreamed for, power beyond comprehension, and yet ''he cannot enjoy any of it'' because his DealWithTheDevil has robbed him of his ability to feel ''anything''. The only way he can feel happiness is vicariously through the Demon Child, and even then that's only temporary, and he might not even be able to remember those feelings afterwards.]]

*** [[spoiler:And Griffith's last words in the chapter and the tear down his face illuminates his ultimate tragedy - he got the kingdom he dreamed for, power beyond comprehension, and yet ''he cannot enjoy any of it'' because of his DealWithTheDevil robbed him his ability to feel ''anything''. The only way he can feel happiness is vicariously through the Demon Child, and even then that's only temporary, and he might not even be able to remember those feelings afterwards.]]
--> [[spoiler: '''Griffith:''' I had a dream. Under the full moon, I was a child embraced by warmth. But when I wake from the dream, only a vague sense of longing remains... That, too, will soon disappear... with a singe tear like morning dew.]]

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--> '''[[spoiler: Griffith:]]'''[[I had a dream. Under the full moon, I was a child embraced by warmth. But when I wake from the dream, only a vague sense of longing remains... That, too, will soon disappear... with a singe tear like morning dew.]]

** [[spoiler:The Demon Child reverting back to Griffith. Instead of attacking, he faces Guts and Casca sincerely, almost as a former friend, for the first time in years.]]

** After mock-swordfighting with the {{MoonChild}}, Guts sees the others searching for the boy. He dismisses the kid to go join Casca and the rest without him. [[IronWoobie He himself is unable to even be near his past lover, and must suffer in silence]].
** [[spoiler:The {{MoonChild}} is revealed to be Griffith all along, but instead of attacking, he faces Guts and Casca sincerely, almost as a former friend, for the first time in years.]]

** After mock-swordfighting with the MoonChild, Guts sees the others searching for the boy. He dismisses the kid to go join Casca and the rest without him. [[IronWoobie He himself is unable to even be near his past lover, and must suffer in silence]].
** [[spoiler:The MoonChild is revealed to be Griffith all along, but instead of attacking, he faces Guts and Casca sincerely, almost as a former friend, for the first time in years.]]

** As Guts is training near a waterfall, he accidentally loses grip of the DragonSlayer. What makes this sad is this is the first time he has ever slipped up. All his years of monster-slaying, all the foes he faced, [[DentedIron all that physical and mental strain is beginning to catch up with him]]. When he looks at the DragonSlayer, Guts realizes that the more he uses the cursed armor, the more dependent he becomes.
** After mock-swordfighting with the MoonChild, Guts tells the kid to go join Casca and the rest. He himself is unable to even be near his past lover, and must suffer in silence.

** [[spoiler:Griffith shedding tears at the end, facing Guts, almost as a former friends for the first time in years.]]

** As Guts is training near a waterfall, he accidentally loses grip of the DragonSlayer. What makes this sad is this is the first time he has ever slipped up. All his years of monster-slaying, all the foes he faced, [[DentedIron: all that physical and mental strain is beginning to catch up with him]]. When he looks at the DragonSlayer, Guts realizes that the more he uses the cursed armor, the more dependent he becomes.

** [[Griffith shedding tears at the end, facing Guts, almost as a former friends for the first time in years.]]

!Meta
* The very thing that the fans had begun to fear would happen for years, did indeed come to pass. On May 6, 2021, Kentaro Miura passed away due to a ruptured aorta, leaving ''Berserk'' unfinished and its fate uncertain.
** The stated cause of death being a condition often caused by stress and high blood pressure makes the manga's history of [[ScheduleSlip delays]] and hiatuses even HarsherInHindsight.

* The very thing that the fan had begun to fear would happen for years, did indeed come to pass. On May 6, 2021, Kentaro Miura passed away due to a ruptured aorta, leaving ''Berserk'' unfinished and its fate uncertain.

** This scene is even more tragic because of the contrast with one of the earliest scenes in the manga; the bit where Puck rescues Guts from a prison cell. Just look at how gentle and kind the younger Guts was when he met an elf that was even more of a MotorMouth SmallAnnoyingCreature than Puck, and compare that with the way Guts treats Puck at the start. It also provides a possible reason for Guts being so cold towards Puck, if he didn't want a repeat of what happened to Chitch.

*** After Judeau dies and she's surrounded by apostles, Casca gives one last shot at trying to defend herself by picking up Judeau's sword and charging at the apostles [[BerserkerTears in rage and tears]]. [[SugarWiki/MomentOfAwesome Though she goes against them pretty valiantly considering the situation]], Casca is still no match for the apostles as they break the sword and then start discussing [[FateWorseThanDeath what they intend to do with her.]] All Casca can do is stand there [[OhCrap utterly petrified]], let the tears fall, and say one name: "''Guts...''"]] You know what happens next....

*** After Judeau dies and she's surrounded by apostles, Casca gives one last shot at trying to defend herself by picking up Judeau's sword and charging at the apostles [[BerserkerTears in rage and tears. [[SugarWiki/MomentOfAwesome Though she goes against them pretty valiantly considering the situation,]] Casca is still no match for the apostles as they break the sword and then start discussing [[FateWorseThanDeath what they intend to do with her.]] All Casca can do is stand there [[OhCrap utterly petrified]], let the tears fall, and say one name: "''Guts...''"]] You know what happens next....

* Casca is recovering after seeing Guts, but even the slightest idea of what she had suffered through is enough to send her back into a panic episode. This means that despite everything Guts went through and all the sacrifices he had to endure to finally cure Casa... he's still not allowed to be with her.
* Guts is out on the cliff side after all has been settled, wondering what the hell he is supposed to do now. Skull Knight and tells him, "You bear witness to the end of your journey. [[BittersweetEnding It is not always a happy thing]]."

* Casca is recovering after seeing Guts, but even the slightest idea of what she had suffered through is enough to send her into an episode. Which means...after all of Guts' hard earned wins and his will to protect and help Casca has finally paid off. Except, of course, there's a chance she can never see him again without triggering an attack.
* Guts is out on the cliff side, after it's all been settled and wonders what the hell is he suppose to do now. To which Skullknight replies, 'You bear witness to the end of your journey. [[BittersweetEnding It is not always a happy thing]].'

* [[spoiler:The Count's death]] itself may not be that sad, depending on whether the reader feels he has [[RedemptionEqualsDeath redeemed himself somewhat]], but [[spoiler:Theresia's]] reaction is heartbreaking, being the final event in a TraumaCongaLine that has managed to be fully completed ''within a few hours!'' Just for added tragic irony, don't forget that she told Puck that [[spoiler:her father had imprisoned her in her room, supposedly to protect her from the horrors of the world, and that she wanted to leave it.]] BeCarefulWhatYouWishFor hit her ''really'' hard, emphasised by her [[MadnessMantra "Just take me back to my room. Just take me back to my room. Just take me back to my room!"]]

* The King of Midland's relationship with his daughter Charlotte is quite tragic, since she serves as a reminder of her mother. He takes Griffith having sex with Charlotte very personally and [[spoiler:when he fails in trying to rape her, she disowns him and he regrets what he did]].

* Poor Griffith after [[spoiler:his year of torture. When Guts finally rescued him and they saw each other for the first time in a year, Griffith raised his hand to Guts' neck. Guts was too stricken with grief to notice that Griffith hated him now, and he just cried over his disfigured body.]] At this point, stuff like this happened regularly, such as [[spoiler:Griffith learning of Guts and Casca's relationship,]] and [[spoiler:his pathetic attempts at suicide.]] Despite all the stuff he's done after, sometimes one can still feel sympathy for the poor sucker.

*** The capacity for Griffith to be interpreted as a [[DracoInLeatherPants misunderstood bad boy]] is a TearJerker in itself: whether because you don't want to believe he could really do that, or because you just want it to go back to the way it was, or because knowing what we do now [[spoiler:about the Idea of Evil and causality]] calls his free will and his actions before the Eclipse into question... and it just doesn't matter. What's done is done, unless ''something'' happens to make it right again. Is it any wonder that ''even the readers wish it would just go away?''

** A heartbreaking moment is the long and detailed combination of BreakingSpeech and TheReasonYouSuckSpeech that [[spoiler:the Godhand]] gives to Griffith, essentially revealing to him that, for all his charisma, all his accomplishments, Griffith was never more than a child, stacking the corpses of the ones around him atop one another, trying to reach a distant, unreachable castle. Getting thrown in his face the fact that, for all his manipulations and machinations, were not only for nothing, but in pursuit of a childish dream, is more or less what sends him cartwheeling over the MoralEventHorizon. The kicker? The last thing he says before making his choice? He looks at Guts and says "You are the only man who ever made me forget my dream." Casca and the rest of the Band of the Hawk? They meant nothing to him. But Guts? Griffith genuinely, honestly cared about him.
** A good one is at the very moment [[spoiler:Griffith accepts the sacrifice. And you see Guts desperately trying to free him from the cocoon where he's turning into Femto, crying as he kept saying "I'll free you! I'll free you!" while the rest of the God Hand taunts him about how he had already made his choice. Guts finally gives up, [[UnstoppableRage goes mad with rage]] and then starts going after a group of Apostles that are trying to kill him.]]
** [[spoiler:Pippin]]'s HeroicSacrifice, made all the sadder because it only bought Casca a few minutes at most. Even worse, it's also the last time he ever speaks or opens his eyes in the series. Casca can only watch helplessly as [[spoiler:Pippin]] is slowly but surely overwhelmed by Apostles. To add insult to injury, [[spoiler:the Count plays with Pippin's ''hollowed out corpse'' just to torment Guts]]. Guts' cruelty towards [[spoiler:the Count]] when they meet again becomes a lot more understandable.

** [[spoiler:Judeau's]] death, while declaring his love for [[spoiler:Casca]].
*** And this was just after he had [[spoiler:[[TakingTheBullet thrown himself on top of Casca to protect her from the whiplike tentacles of an Apostle out to eat them both and taken two of them straight through his body for her]]--and because he's right on top of her, Casca can see every look of pain on Judeau's face as the monster is attacking him--just before using his last throwing knife to put out its eye, setting it up for Casca to finish the monster off]].

*** [[spoiler:"''Thats it? Those are my last words?''"]]
*** [[spoiler:"''And you only thought of me as someone useful...''"]]
** Gaston's death was pretty sad too when you look back on it. He was Guts' second in command and Gaston looked up to Guts, and Guts clearly cared for Gaston as a friend, [[DiedInYourArmsTonight since he held Gaston as he lay dying.]] We forget that Gaston was also the last of the Hawks to die - [[YourHeadASplode and in such a gruesome way!]]
*** After [[spoiler:Judeau dies and she's surrounded by apostles, Casca gives one last shot at trying to defend herself by picking up Judeau's sword and charging at the apostles [[BerserkerTears in rage and tears.]] [[SugarWiki/MomentOfAwesome Though she goes against them pretty valiantly considering the situation,]] Casca is still no match for the apostles as they break the sword and then start discussing [[FateWorseThanDeath what they intend to do with her.]] All Casca can do is stand there [[OhCrap utterly petrified]], let the tears fall, and say one name: "''Guts...''"]] You know what happens next....
** ... Because at this point, [[spoiler:Casca's assault and rape begins.]] Now it's time for the ''real'' waterworks to begin. Get your tissue as well as your [[BrainBleach palate cleanser]] or SecurityBlanket ready.
*** Particularly heartbreaking is [[spoiler:Casca's last sane moments, where she's begging Guts [[DontLookAtMe not to watch]] as Femto is raping her. Which Guts can't do because he's being ForcedToWatch by the demons that have him pinned down after he chiseled off part of his own left arm in a last effort to save her, and is ''still trying to get to her''. That moment was also the [[EyeScream last one of]] [[EyeRemember his right eye]] [[MyGreatestFailure and he will NEVER forget that moment even if he could]].]]
*** It makes your eyes water even more when you truly start to grasp what Guts is feeling during those horrific moments: [[spoiler:Having to watch a woman that he finally gave his heart being horrifically raped by a man that he considered a friend. You can just see it written all over Guts' face as he's crying tears and blood that he's asking Griffith, "why are you doing this? ''Why?''" and all Griffith does is answer with a smug smile while he's very thoroughly enjoying Guts' suffering as he's forcing him to watch as he treats Casca like a toy. Given the circumstances of his first traumatic experience (in essence, being betrayed by a man that he trusted and then being left utterly defenseless because of that betrayal) you could dare to say that it's as if Guts is getting raped for a SECOND TIME, though on a more [[MindRape psychological level]].]]
*** And after [[spoiler:Femto is done raping Casca and lets her fall to the ground and Guts passes out after [[TheScream screaming in agony]] at the last sight of his broken lover]] you see an aerial of the scene where the two are lying on the ground. They were only feet apart during the whole ordeal [[spoiler:another cruel twist that Femto played on Guts, what with him [[HopeSpot allowing Guts to get just close enough to him and Casca before stopping him right in his tracks,]] just an arm's reach away]] and yet, [[StarCrossedLovers that was when they were split apart.]]

*** Also, the events on the hill where [[spoiler:Casca miscarries her and Guts' child. Guts at first is not sure if the fetus is just a hellspawn that Femto implanted in Casca when he raped her, but finds out that it was indeed his child that was corrupted by evil. [[ThatThingIsNotMyChild Even though he still detested the child]] [[OffingTheOffspring and tried to kill him]], Casca, through her madness, still showed that maternal instinct to protect it, and when the Child disappears by the morning light and Casca screams in pain, Guts can't help but to cry as well, mainly due to her pain]].

*** Lastly, during Guts' last night in the elf mine with Casca. The two have been physically recovering for weeks, but there has been no psychological change in Casca's behavior, in which she is showing very extreme signs of [[spoiler:rape trauma syndrome.]] While they're eating, Casca spills some hot soup on herself, and Guts tries to get her shift off of her but she struggles. Guts ends up accidentally ripping her shift open, exposing her breasts. In a moment of emotional vulnerability, Guts leans in and tries to kiss Casca and then... However, Casca freaks out, pushing Guts off of her and runs to the mine's gate screaming and crying. Guts is so ashamed at what he has done that he hangs his head in shame, but the saddest part of it all was that it was pretty much a final slap in Guts' face that things between he and Casca would never be the same, not as they were during their first night together or ever.

* The grimly, inevitable death of [[spoiler:Rosine]] in the Chapter of Lost Children is heart-wrenching to look at, even more so once the reader finally gets a complete view of her miserable backstory. Here was an imaginative little girl who ran away from her abusive father, sought out the fairies she'd always dreamed of, eventually sold her soul in a despairing attempt to find happiness... only to meet her end in a bloody, most brutal fashion. What makes it worse is that her killer is [[spoiler:none other than Guts himself, who, despite wrestling with his own conscience, ultimately chooses to brush aside whatever [[WhatMeasureIsANonHuman level of sympathy he may have had for her]] in his desire to eradicate all demons and Apostles from existence.]] And the ''real'' kicker? Thinking back to the first few volumes and remembering that [[spoiler:selling one's soul to the Godhand is a guaranteed ticket to Hell upon that person's death.]]
** The especially heartbreaking part about [[spoiler:Rosine's death]] was [[spoiler:her thoughts during her final flight, particularly ''"I'd better get home quick... My parents... They'll be worried about me..."'' And then you remember how ''horrible'' her home life was before she became an Apostle...]]

** Guts then makes a declaration to defend Casca from harm and reclaim what he had lost in her before it's too late--and his journey takes him to the Tower of Conviction. Demonic spirits are swarming the place, devouring everything in their path in a vicious mock-Eclipse designed to [[spoiler:reincarnate Griffith into the mortal realm]]. Guts is reminded of his failure to save Casca and his friends from the original Eclipse over and over again, but he's trying his best to fight on and save his lady love. The poor citizens at the foot of the tower fear for their lives, the aforementioned spirits hunting for their flesh, and so they prepare to burn Casca ay the stake under the belief that she's a witch responsible for summoning the spirits to them. Guts, of course, makes every attempt to rescue her--but then he sees a silhouette of Void, from the Godhand, forming from the spirits welling up from behind him. [[BerserkButton And Guts flips out]], brandishing his blade and giving out a massive SlasherSmile, slashing the silhouette with all his might--but of course. Since it's a mock-Eclipse, the silhouettes of the Godhand appearing before him are just that. Silhouettes. And then Guts remembers Casca, remembers that he has to save her, remembers his priorities and it's all hammered home how despite his love and care for Casca, his desire for revenge is ''still'' overwhelming enough to make him [[TheDarkSideWillMakeYouForget forget her]]. You can feel the agony in his voice and how disgusted he is with himself when he shouts a great big "'''MOOOOVE!'''" as he cleaves through the spirits swarming him.
* [[spoiler:Griffith has come back. The Incarnation Ceremony has been completed. A new world is dawning. But when Guts sees his old friend, now bitter enemy, he gives a violent roar and charges at him, ready to cleave him in two for all the pain he has wrought. And then he hears Casca mewling out some small noises, and he's brought back to his senses. It is at this point that the conflict of the series has changed. No longer is Guts on some quest of vengeance anymore--now, he's on a quest of protection. And with Casca at his side and Griffith right in front of him, it is at this point he realizes that he has to choose between killing the man he despises or protecting the woman he loves, in a struggle that can only be defined as "heroic."]] [[spoiler:[[SugarWiki/HeartwarmingMoments He chooses the latter]].]]

* Guts meets [[spoiler:Griffith]] again, and [[spoiler:Griffith]] said that he met Guts to see if he'd feel anything, but realized that nothing would sway his heart, and Guts yells [[spoiler:"''Nothing?! All that you did?! Everyone you betrayed?! And you don't feel one thing?!''"]] What makes this even worse is the whole scene takes place at [[spoiler:the graveyard of the Band of the Hawk, the people that Griffith betrayed and killed]]. OUCH.
** Not to mention poor Rickert would have brought [[spoiler:Griffith]] up there having no clue what he had done and was overjoyed to tears at his return only to have to watch as Guts appears and tries to kill [[spoiler:Griffith]] in confusion and try to stop the fight only to be told of the fate of the Hawks by Guts afterward.
** Additionally, that's not actually the first time they met [[spoiler:after the Eclipse]]. It's pretty easy to forget, since for just about everyone the story only really starts with the several-volumes-long flashback to Guts' youth, but if you go back to the very beginning of the story, you'll remember that Guts met the entire God Hand again after he nearly killed the Count. It's not as jarring as it could be at first, since at that point you're not entirely aware of who exactly they are and what the relationship between Femto and Guts is, but if you go ahead and re-read the series, seeing the way Femto speaks to and of Guts is quite sad; this is, chronologically speaking, the first time we hear [[spoiler:Griffith ''speaking'' as Femto; you didn't really need to hear him open his mouth to know he was a monster, since his actions during the Eclipse cement that beyond reasonable doubt; hearing him talk so haughty, arrogant, callous, and dismissively of someone he malignantly betrayed and tortured (partly for his own amusement) is just the nail in the coffin)]].

* Serpico's backstory, to elaborate [[spoiler:he spends his childhood in poverty with a terribly sick mother whose mental health is growing worse. He is repeatedly beaten by the other street urchins. Eventually he is found by Farnese and is taken in as her personal servant, where he is put through all kinds of abuse that terrified her previous servants. Years later his mother's mental health has worsened to the point that she no longer recognizes Serpico as her son, due to her mental state she is accused of being a witch. When Serpico sees his mother on a stake he is noticeably broken, but to prove that he is not a heretic as well Farnese forces him to burn his own mother.]]

* Then there's the Neo Band of the Hawk's surprise attack on the mansion, culminating in [[spoiler:Flora's HeroicSacrifice, whose last words to Schierke are to remind her that death is nothing to fear for witches like them. The young witch's]] tearful reply of "But...I'll be...lonely" comes off as one of the most ''honest'' reactions to the death of a loved one to occur within this series. And [[spoiler:Schierke]] being such a {{Moe}} ShrinkingViolet with NoSocialSkills at the best of times only makes it worse, as she's just lost the only person she was ever truly comfortable with, and (at the time) sees little hope of having that sort of companionship ever again.
*** Not to mention the fact that her next thoughts are of how [[spoiler:the beautiful, tranquil house in the woods where she spent so many happy days]] has burnt up.

* Chapter 347 mostly has a bit of light heartedness to it and even a good spark of hope when it's revealed that yes Danann can heal Casca of her broken mind. Just a simple romp through dream land right? [[spoiler:Except that they need to be the unaltered memories. From before her current state.... which means THE ECLIPSE. Poor Casca has to relive that horrifying moment once more.]]

* Chapter 348 shows Casca's dream: [[spoiler:Guts is a wounded dog carrying her coffin, suffering as he attempts to protect her from harm. The coffin itself holds a broken doll of what used to be Casca with a tiny version of her present, insane self spinning around. She doesn't have a great opinion of herself.]]

* After years and years of Casca being in her mind-broken state, she's finally brought to Elf Island, where she's "repaired"... [[spoiler: and it ''works''. Casca is mostly back to normal again, speaking and talking to Farnese and Schierke, and has been healed from the events of the Eclipse. Seeing one of the most important characters of the manga back to her old self is nothing short of a miracle... Which makes the fact that her reaction to Guts, her OneTrueLove, is '''absolute terror''' because of [[MindRape what his appearance as the Black Swordsman represents from her perspective]] is tragic, and undeniably one of the worst [[GutPunch Gut Punches]] in Manga history. Not only that, but those big two-page spreads of Guts with the Eclipse behind him and Griffith's tortured state pre-Eclipse pretty much spell out that she is going to remember ''everything'' that happened to her during the Eclipse.]]
* Chapter 359 expands a bit more on what is mentioned above. [[spoiler:Casca seems to be doing just fine after her recovery. She’s changed her appearance, is getting along with the party, and she can still use a sword. But despite all of that -- [[{{Trigger}} she still can’t get too close to Guts without her memories of the Eclipse flooding back]]. Even though Casca ''wants'' to communicate with him, Guts won’t even ''face'' her. And then there’s Casca’s breakdown when she remembers Judeau...]]

* Toward the end, after a major Boss fight, we get a major tearjerker between Guts and Casca: [[spoiler:After Guts defeats a huge mandragora monster that was possessing her, she regains her memory for a brief moment, since the mandragora makes sane people insane and vice versa in Casca's state. The two can only share a fragment of a moment with each other before the possession wears off and Casca reverts back to her insane state, leaving Guts in utter despair once again.]]

* The one that rounds out the "Guardians of Desire" story is when Theresia is screaming IllKillYou at Guts, and he wishes her luck with that as he turns away. Puck is about to berate him more for being so heartless towards her, but when he draws close he realizes that Guts is '''''crying''''' and trying to hide it. If you are reading from the start of the manga for the first time, and haven't picked up on the subtle moments up to this point hinting at Guts' JerkassFacade, this is full-blown WhamShot. Everything Puck thought he knew, and everything ''you'' thought you knew about Guts, is wrong. All that time, he was being cruel to people like Vargas and Theresia because he saw his own tragic past in them, and didn't want to cause their deaths or let his own soft-heartedness get in the way of his revenge. He probably felt [[TearsOfRemorse remorse]] for ruining Theresia's life and might have wished there was something he could do for her, but he felt his only choice was to make her hate him so that she wouldn't kill herself. Once he gets over his shock, Puck's expression turns to pity and he sadly mutters,

* Chapter 359 expands a bit more on what is mentioned above. [[spoiler:Casca seems to be doing just fine after her recovery. She’s changed her appearance, is getting along with the party, and she can still use a sword. But despite all of that -- she still can’t get too close to Guts without her memories of the Eclipse flooding back. Even though Casca ''wants'' to communicate with him, Guts won’t even ''face'' her. And then there’s Casca’s breakdown when she remembers Judeau...]]