Neon Genesis Evangelion

Are you implying I read yaoi doujinshi?

No, just that you can tell whether or not the doujinshi it's from is yaoi.

I have a...rather unhealthy interest in Eva douijnshi, of the pre-Rebuild variety. I've managed to collect some interesting books over the years, like this mega anthology doujin that even Yoshiyuki Sadamoto was a part of. Sadly, Weebly screwed me over so I can't put the scans on Hellabunna anymore.

I do not support Kaworu x Kaworu x Kaworu because Manga and Anime Kaworu would not get along.

... Whoever said it's about the three Kaworus getting it on with each other?

....oh my. Poor(?) Shinji.

No, poor(?) Shinjis.

edited 31st Dec '15 3:40:35 PM by MarqFJA

Reminder Third Impact will begin any moment now.

Shall we sing?

I KNOW, I KNOW I'VE LET YOU DOWN

TUMBLING DOWN TUMBLING DOWN TUMBLING DOOOOOWWWWWN...

HAPPY NEW YE—

-sploosh-

edited 31st Dec '15 6:11:29 PM by MrMallard

Free hugs!

I WISH, THAT I COULD TURN BACK TIME

BUT NOW THE GUILT IS ALL MINE

SO WITH SADNESS IN MY HEART

I wanna turn into orange juice

Yeuck, I'm currently covered in orange juice right now, having just rematerialized after that whole Impact business. This'll take days to wash out of my clothes.

Though I must say, that one blue haired girl I saw before returning. She was rather beautiful.

I just finished up with End. As much as I empathised with Shinji, I really noticed some unhealthy habits that resonate with me too much to be comfortable with.

I don't think it's unfair to point out that Shinji exhibits selfish desires. As much as people wrongly throw him under the bus for not being manly enough, he still shows in End that he has some resentful and angry thoughts about the women in his life - his ranting about women "pretending to care but keeping things ambiguous", an emphasis on his own personal pain while ignoring that of Misato when confronted with the side of her that engages in relationships. Focusing on your individual pain isn't inherently bad, and I can understand Shinji's disappointment at Misato having lied about her "grown-up kiss", but it just feels so much like the sort of tirade a "friendzoned" guy would go on and it was uncomfortable.

Though even seeing it in that light, Shinji still made some good points. Asuka berating him for not knowing how to make her happy, expecting him to know what she wanted out of him without telling him was especially close. But I feel like her saying "anyone will do" wasn't without merit either. I can't entirely back this up, I think I'm imprinting too much tbh, but I think I finally came to grips with Shinji rejecting reality and hiding in his SDAT player to create a more comfortable personal space. It's analogous to shutting yourself in your room and focusing on the most positive, comfortable things in the world while shutting out the worst stuff, the things that make you realize that your life sucks and the world is going in a direction that you hate.

The show itself feels like it's about overcoming that gap and coming back to the uncomfortable reality that sucks so much, and being strong enough to shoulder that weight and creating a positive life for yourself and those around you despite the garbage. And that doesn't make Shinji's inaction or depression invalid - he had his reasons, he had a fantastic burden to carry. But the show ends with him finding the will to move on and finding his niche in life to keep experiencing the happy moments he had with everyone.

The movie ends with him choking Asuka, because even after choosing to stomach the hate and pain of the real world to experience the happiest moments of life, seeing a figure he feels so fucked-up about sucks. He's still going to be a selfish, escapist asshole, and he's going to do awful things because of how he feels. But even then, he feels like there's enough merit in living life as a segregated introverted guy who has trouble connecting with people. It doesn't instantly make him a better person, and he may always be a fuck-up in a lot of ways. But I think by choosing life in both the TV and End versions of the end, Shinji's choosing to make a positive change and deal with garbage to experience the good in life.

And it's a decision I can't even bring myself to make.

YMMV, this is the latest in a long line of interpretations from when I began seriously watching and analyzing things at 15/16 - it took four years after my initial viewing to see the rest of the series and rewatch the movie. Also, I feel now more than ever before that I'm seriously wiping out Shinji's own personality and feelings to use him as a vessel for my own.

You know, I've been thinking about The Reveal at the end of EOE that Gendou's douchebag behavior to Shinji was because he was convinced that he would only cause him pain if they were together, and so he keeps his distance and does nothing.

... How do we know that this isn't Gendou deluding himself about the reason why he behaved so callously towards his son, for the sake of making himself feel better about ignoring what Yui would have wanted him to do in favor of his purely selfish desire to have her by his side again?

That is something that I had never considered, Gendo could be trying to convince himself that he did because he is afraid of Shinji but I think he is more afraid of himself.

Could also be a partial truth. In the sense that he is afraid not just of Shinji but that his presence might have made him his Morality Chain.

Any news on the Godzilla project Anno is working on? To have an idea of when he could return to Rebuild.

Godzilla Ressurgence will be out in July. we have plenty of info on it, including a PV and a few leaked pictures of the suit design.

it should be pretty interesting at least.

edited 12th Jan '16 10:03:25 AM by wehrmacht

Anno needs to go back to his "bizarre & Mind Screw-y but surprisingly intellectual and deep'' days. Not this "spectacle divorced from human emotion" George Lucas crap he does now.

edited 12th Jan '16 12:16:31 PM by YasminPerry