Depressed tropers, UNITE!:

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Nihilist Hippie
This thread in OTC inspired me to start this thread.

So I've noticed there's an abundance of depressed tropers. Why not join together in an official group?

I have little hope for this thread though... Still starting just for the heck of it.

"Had Mother Nature been a real parent, she would have been in jail for child abuse and murder." -Nick Bostrom
bitchy queen
Well hey, I'm new to this thread. I've talked about my depression a few times, but not too much. I currently see a therapist every week in addition to the drugs I have to take.

While I have felt better since getting out of High School...I'm still not cheery at all. This is most likely due to still living with my verbally abusive mom. I threatened to kill myself the other day after she told me she hated me.

That's about it, I think.

edited 22nd Jun '11 10:15:47 PM by snailbait

"Without a fairy, you're not even a real man!" ~ Mido from Ocarina of Time

Dimensional tourist
Hi, I have been diagnosed and taking medication for Major Depressive Disorder for nearly 3 years now. And was also recently diagnosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder.
While you make pretty speeches, I'm being cut to shreds.
4 Icarael29th Jun 2011 07:53:53 AM from the Diliman Sprawl , Relationship Status: [TOP SECRET]
King of Wrong Style
I'm officially diagnosed with depression. Most of the time, I just ascribe it to being too pessimistic for my own good.
Compromise is the death bed of conviction.
In Riastrad
I'm Bipolar, though I don't know if that counts. My periods of depression are less "sadness" and more "not giving enough of a fuck to do anything".
My name is Cu Chulainn.
Beside the raging sea I am left to moan.
Sorrow I am, for I brought down my only son.

Misanthropic Wiccan Nerd
I'm not diagnosed with depression or any other mental problem... though that's because I refuse to see a therapist of any kind. I'm a depressed, apathetic and misanthropic person. Not sure if I belong here.
7 ShadowBender22nd Jul 2011 12:14:02 PM from a world of my own.
A Sadist RP-er
Hi, I've been depressed for about 2 years. It became more pronounced last year.

Official Diagnosis: Long Term Depression, Avoidant Personality Disorder, possible schizophrenia, OCD.

Unofficial Diagnosis: Schizophrenia, Manic-Depressive Disorder.

Refused help until recently (against my will). Also don't give a fuck about anything.
Sanity? Why would I need a useless thing like that?

Now posting as Motor-Runner.

Misanthropic Wiccan Nerd
K then. Nice to meet you.
I guess you could say I'm depressed, although it's dialed back a bit over the course of the last year. Right now, it's more of a feeling of wanting something more, you know? I feel unfulfilled in life.
10 jlauzon31st Jul 2011 06:04:50 AM from Loft of the Ponyville Concert Hall and Theatre , Relationship Status: The Skitty to my Wailord
Well, you're not wrong.
Me depressed. Me like thread. Me speak like caveman for no reason. *grunt*
On a serious note, I'm Bipolar and have Asperger's... It's Like the Mall cop of autism.
Newswriter, The Daily Oat
Twitter: @Rocktavia0
I'm Bipolar, though I don't know if that counts. My periods of depression are less "sadness" and more "not giving enough of a fuck to do anything".
I, too have Bipolar and get apathetic style depression rather than sad style depression. Not been so bad this year, though I have been noticeably less energetic through winter (which it currently is, here in the southern hemisphere. Even if the weather isn't sure what its supposed to be doing...).

And if anyone reading this thinks they may be depressed, I highly encourage the seeking of the professional helpfulness. Because it really can help.
I'd like to say that symptoms of depression aren't specifically sadness, and can include apathy or rage.
13 Sharysa10th Sep 2011 09:41:48 AM from Alameda, CA , Relationship Status: Dancing with Captain Jack Harkness
The local bard
There are two states of depression, yeah—agitation (which is more like stress/irritability/anxiety) and lethargy (sadness and/or apathy, what most people think when they say "depression.")

I can't believe I had to look up my own TV Tropes page to remember that.

...Oh, hai guyz. Another on/off depressed troper here.

edited 10th Sep '11 9:42:31 AM by Sharysa

I'm sad/worried right now.
Misanthropic Wiccan Nerd
^ same here.
16 hermioneganja4th Oct 2011 12:29:24 AM from a van down by the river
Major depression disorder patient here. I've been receiving treatment for something like five years now, but in hindsight, the symptoms have been present all my life. Hospitalized twice, one suicide attempt. Been on more medications than I can remember, but I've been on 120 mg of Cymbalta for a while now and it keeps me relatively stable.
Hey. Present for the uniting, I guess.
Been depressed since I was a child.
19 TheHeroHartmut6th Oct 2011 11:38:28 AM from a cave, according to my father , Relationship Status: I'm in love with my car
You know what really expands my dong?
I can't remember the last time I actually believed in myself, to be honest.
Another day passes.
20 Aniventerie9th Oct 2011 05:28:24 PM from Imagination World
Detective Extroadinaire
Hello. I have not officially been diagnosed with depression, but intermittently suffer from it nonetheless.

The background was this: I was born to a family filled to the brim with mental illness, addiction, and turbulence. Occasionally genius as well. And I'm no exception: Obsessive-compulsive (but not germophobic) antisocial, hyperactive, anxious, and having a 140+ IQ.

My parents, though terrific in their rearing of me, are absolutely toxic to each other. I can't remember a significant event in my childhood that didn't involve at least one fight. My siblings weren't any better. In short, I lived in a house of poison and fire.

I became afraid of people. Seriously afraid. Being asked to speak directly to a waiter or neighbor was like the death sentence. I was afraid of their hatred and stupidity and judgement, traits I assigned to everyone I wasn't confortable with, which was most of everyone.

This got worse as I became older. My mind worked in different ways then other children, and that dichotomy sent my previous anxiety and fear into spiralling phobia. Meanwhile, my family tried to push me to socialize: cut my hair, put me in nice clothes, tell me what not to say to people, force me into social situations. All they succeeded in doing in the end was surpressing my individuality, which I both hated for the friction it caused and fully embraced in order to seek refuge in audacity. My antisociality and obscenely "different" behavior led people to believe I was socially inept, including myself.

So here I am, 15 years old, afraid of people but dying of loneliness, suffocating from my family's expectation but starving for belief in myself, and trying to be myself while trying to understand what that is. My mother has been studying cosmotology, and said that she wanted to fix my hair. It has a beveled cut, she says, that's for girls. I won't take any length off, I promise. I know you like to grow it out.

She chopped off about three inches. I cried uncontrollably.

edited 9th Oct '11 5:49:48 PM by Aniventerie

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21 feotakahari12th Oct 2011 09:49:26 PM from Looking out at the city
Fuzzy Orange Doomsayer
I've been on antidepressants, but I'm not currently on them. I'm not sure whether or not I should be—when several things go wrong in quick succession (which happens at least once a month), I quickly descend into despair, but it never lasts longer than a day.
That's Feo . . . He's a disgusting, mysoginistic, paedophilic asshat who moonlights as a shitty writer—Something Awful
Hooray for Wellbutrin XL. It's nice to want to kill myself only some of the time as opposed to all of the time—even that emotional vacuum that happens sometimes is an improvement. I started seeing a psychiatrist a month back, and he was astute enough to prescribe some antidepressants on the first meeting, and he wants to help me change my thought patterns without resorting to "because Jesus" or guilt, so I think I like this guy.

Now if only I could find a way to turn down the anxiety and obsessiveness a few notches...
Misanthropic Wiccan Nerd
Sounds like you found a good therapist. How expensive is it?
24 Sharysa21st Oct 2011 03:01:52 PM from Alameda, CA , Relationship Status: Dancing with Captain Jack Harkness
The local bard
I'm most likely coming into or already in a low phase. I'm listening to sad songs over and over, one-off mistakes that I normally shake off are starting to reassure that nagging voice in the back of my head, and I once more feel the urge to sleep until everything goes away.
Misanthropic Wiccan Nerd
Oh please. You're fine, comparatively. I've been contemplating suicide and mass murder every day or two for the last few weeks, I'm in physical pain from how intense my anger is, I struggle to form complete sentences, I'm making typing errors, I'm lashing out at people, I feel severely incompetent and I can't fricking stop thinking about it. I'm on the verge of a breakdown. You just need someone to come cheer you up, and you actually have the resources to get that. Go find someone.

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