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* When the Operative says the exact words of the trope title to Mal in ''Film/{{Serenity}}'', that is not an example of the trope. But when River tells Simon after the brawl on Beaumonde that she should just put a bullet in her brainpan that is.

-->'''Mal:''' ''[to River, who has him at gunpoint]'' I've staked my crew's life on the theory you're a person. Actual and whole. And if I'm wrong, [[KillMeNowOrForeverStayYourHand you'd best shoot me now]].\\

-->'''Frollo:''' _[singing]_ Out there, they'll revile you as a monster
-->'''Quasimodo:''' _[also singing]_ I am a monster

* Blackarachnia of ''WesternAnimation/TransformersAnimated'' believes herself to be a freak and a monster due to her partially organic robot form (the result of using her powers while damaged by a giant alien spider's venom -- really), and subsequently joins the Decepticons and reinvents herself as a FemmeFatale. However, a lot of it [[CursedWithAwesome seems to be in her head]], as she now possesses a number of spider-related powers in addition to her original abilities, and most of the non-Decepticon Transformers she encounters seem to find her [[EvilIsSexy smokin']] [[FreakyIsCool hot]].

* Alucard of ''Manga/{{Hellsing}}'' has been a vampire for a very, ''very'' long time, and he dearly misses being a part of humanity, so he admires Seras for being able to cling on to her human side while still embracing her new-found vampiric state. [[BerserkButton People who casually toss aside theirs tend to really get his goat]]. Although [[PlayingWithATrope Played With]] in that sometimes, he seems to enjoy being a monster, especially when he takes pleasure in dicking with lesser vampires and monsters, [[HorrifyingTheHorror running a chill down their spines and showing the wannabes what a real scary monster looks like]]. He also seems to think [[DeathSeeker he really should be killed]], but will ''only'' accept a WorthyOpponent killing him. And that only a human, never a fellow monster, can be worthy. [[spoiler:When [[BadassPriest Alexander Anderson]] uses Helena's Nail and becomes the Monster of God, Alucard is ''heartbroken'' that Anderson, the most worthy opponent he's had since [[Characters/{{Dracula}} Abraham Van Helsing]] himself, has thrown away his humanity instead of killing him as a human.]]

** [[ChildhoodFriend Akira]] ''very much'' thinks herself a monster in the present due to encouraging Sakura to confess in the first place, not realizing at the time that [[LovingAShadow Yamori's honors student persona that Sakura developed a crush on]] was just [[BeneathTheMask a mask]]. [[MyGodWhatHaveIDone Akira blamed herself for the whole mess]] and desperately wanted to apologize to Yamori, but because he stopped going to school she wasn't able to. It's implied that this left her with depression and [[TheInsomniac insomnia]].

* Used for DeliberateValuesDissonance in ''WesternAnimation/BlueEyeSamurai'' where the protagonist regards herself as a monster having been subject to HalfBreedDiscrimination all her life.

* The Literature/GoblinSlayer describes himself as one while he and the Priestess are laying siege to a goblin hideout using [[CombatPragmatist guerilla tactics]]: in much the same way that goblins get stronger and more dangerous with time and experience, so too has the Goblin Slayer become a more efficient slayer of goblins with his years of experience exterminating them, making him a monster in the eyes of his prey.

Compare HeelRealization. See YouMonster for when other characters consider the subject evil or an abomination.

* "[[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1mjlM_RnsVE Monster]]" by Music/{{Skillet}} is so fitting one could easily take a character from this page and make a music video with it.
* The Music/ImagineDragons song "Monster," heard in the third ''VideoGame/InfinityBlade'' game, has this in spades.
* Music/TheMountainGoats' song [[https://youtu.be/8TgJusN8xJU "Neon Orange Glimmer Song"]] evokes this trope about a NoodleIncident with a side order of MyGodWhatHaveIDone

-->"The word you're looking for is 'unnatural', meaning 'Not from nature'. 'Freak' or 'Monster' would also be acceptible.

** Mei becomes ashamed of her Panda form and calls herself a monster after she nearly maims Tyler in a fit of rage.

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* Alucard of ''Manga/{{Hellsing}}'' has been a vampire for a very, ''very'' long time, and he dearly misses being a part of humanity, so he admires Seras for being able to cling on to her human side while still embracing her new-found vampiric state. [[BerserkButton People who casually toss aside theirs tend to really get his goat]]. Although [[PlayingWithATrope Played With]] in that sometimes, he seems to enjoy being a monster, especially when he takes pleasure in dicking with lesser vampires and monsters, [[HorrifyingTheHorror running a chill down their spines and showing the wannabes what a real scary monster looks like]]. He also seems to think [[DeathSeeker he really should be killed]], but will ''only'' accept a WorthyOpponent killing him. And that only a human, never a fellow monster, can be worthy. [[spoiler:When [[BadassPriest Alexander Anderson]] uses Helena's Nail and becomes the Monster of God, Alucard is ''heartbroken'' that Anderson, the most worthy opponent he's had since [[Characters/DraculaLiterature Abraham Van Helsing]] himself, has thrown away his humanity instead of killing him as a human.]]

** Vash feels directly responsible for [[EvilCounterpart Knives's]] crimes and it is strongly hinted that he believes that independent plants are monsters who pose a direct threat to mankind. In the manga, he is terrified of their potential uses of plant power and is shown struggling with the ethical implications of his existence and Knives's. He even thinks at least twice that they shouldn't exist: at the end of the [[spoiler: Jenora Rock incident]], he thinks that Knives and him [[spoiler: shouldn't have been born]]. At the end of the manga, he also tells Knives of [[spoiler: his decision that they should both die together because they are too powerful and have no place in the future of Gunsmoke]]. (Ironically, though, Vash and Knives are [[EveryoneIsJesusInPurgatory strongly implied to be (fallen) angels come to pass judgement on mankind]]--which is what Wolfwood seems to believe)

** Wolfwood has a little bit of this himself, when he's feeling particularly down. Anime Wolfwood in purely moral terms; manga Wolfwood, who is a much more dyed-in-the-wool utilitarian and cynic[[note]][[YoungerThanTheyLook who goes from around fifteen to no more than eighteen over the course of the series]][[/note]], about the combination of moral issues and [[StrappedToAnOperatingTable his fucked-up body]]. ''He has nightmares about going back to visit the kids at the orphanage where he grew up and drowning in the blood on his hands.''

** And manga Wolfwood, while he may think 'angels,' is also pretty much totally in agreement with Vash about the monster plant thing, and for a while intermixes [[HeterosexualLifePartners heartwarming defense of Vash to outside parties]] with [[ParanoiaFuel moments where he thinks things like]] "he's got his back to me, and I could probably put a bullet in his skull right now and get ''one'' of them out of the way."
*** And Vash is ''completely aware'' of this. Vash is so fucked up.
* ''Manga/VermeilInGold'': After the incident with Obsidian forcing her to transform into her full demon form, along with briefly killing Alto, Vermeil starts to believe herself nothing but an ugly, evil demon of a woman who shouldn't be around Alto more than she already has to be. [[spoiler:Then her DarkAndTroubledPast is revealed, and rurns out she's felt this way for a very long time, following the destructive aftermath of her killing the ones who murdered her family. It eventually led to her voluntarily having herself sealed in the book for the next 300 years before it found its way to Alto]].

* ''Literature/{{Twilight}}'': Edward is very firmly in this camp, telling Bella that "THIS IS THE SKIN OF A KILLER!" when she calls him beautiful.

* [[VampireMonarch Princess]] [[FriendlyNeighborhoodVampire Mina]] [[TheWomanWearingTheQueenlyMask Tepes]] from ''Manga/DanceInTheVampireBund'' occasionally invokes this. One of the more showy examples involved her ripping another vampire's throat with her teeth then gutting him like a trout with her bare hand before the horrified eyes of a woman who had been sheltering her from a rival faction she had escaped; then telling her, "''This'' is what you have been trying to protect with your puny human life! Now go, and forget that you ever saw me." The effect was undercut when she promptly extracted a solemn oath from the head of the retrieval squad to leave the woman and her young daughter unharmed[[note]](The guy she mauled to death? An admitted child pornographer who made it very clear he would be back for the child no matter what.)[[/note]] before submitting to being shackled and led back into her enemy's clutches.

* Wrestling/{{Kane}} reminded us of this many times after he removed his mask on Wrestling/{{WWE}} Monday Night Raw. "Look at me [[Wrestling/JimRoss JR]]! IAMAMONSTER..." (he said something else then lit JR on fire)

* The Riddle in ''TabletopGame/VampireTheMasquerade'': "A Beast I am, lest a Beast I become". Since you're now a vampire, you're going to have to assault people for blood. You can do it secretly as part of seduction, or you can do it in a flat-out ambush, but odds are, they never asked for it. But if you ''don't'' drink blood, you'll find the choice taken out of your hands [[UnstoppableRage as your instincts take over]], and doing that a lot will throw you off the slippery slope very quickly. It's one part IAmAMonster, one part IDidWhatIHadToDo.

* The Manga/GoblinSlayer describes himself as one while he and the Priestess are laying siege to a goblin hideout using [[CombatPragmatism guerilla tactics]]: in much the same way that goblins get stronger and more dangerous with time and experience, so too has the Goblin Slayer become a more efficient slayer of goblins with his years of experience exterminating them, making him a monster in the eyes of his prey.

* Both Shizuo and [[spoiler:Anri]] from ''LightNovel/{{Durarara}}'' have issues concerning this -- Shizuo because of his combination of SuperStrength and UnstoppableRage and [[spoiler:Anri because she's the host for the EvilWeapon Saika]].
* Sousuke from ''LightNovel/FullMetalPanic'', especially in the novels, has instances where he thinks that others must think he's a monster for [[TheStoic killing so many people and not feeling anything]]. In the novels, Kaname [[spoiler:actually starts thinking he is, reacting by flinching away from him and telling him he scares her]].
* After he accidentally injured his half-brothers with magic when protecting some baby birds, Keith in ''LightNovel/MyNextLifeAsAVillainessAllRoutesLeadToDoom'' was called a monster and feared by his family until the Claes family took him in. He came to believe it himself, which came to a head when he accidentally injured his new sister Katarina after she made him show off his earth magic. He went and hid himself in his room until she chopped through his door with an axe to apologize, convincing him she really wasn't afraid of him and allowing him to relax.

** Homura displays this in a more subtle manner. Whenever someone calls her out for her cold affect and callous actions [[spoiler:she responds by pointing out her inhumanity, rather than consider how [[GroundhogDayLoop spending the better part of a subjective decade]] dealing with all manner of trauma may [[ShellShockedVeteran affect a human]].]]

** [[http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/470766 * wink!* ]]