jason: i broke my collar bone and can barely type

some of u know that i wanted to finish my boook by new years day,well i broke my left collar bone in a bicycle wreck and now type 10 words a min....

i wanted draft 3.5 to be the first draft ever done from begining to end but i mght not now. taking more than a yearr will kill my moral (right word?) and i cant even write in hand as im left handed too!

it will take 6 weaks to heal and that would leave only two weeks to write!

i hate myself it was stupid taht a wrecked by messing with my mp3 and not standing on the pedals so i could turn at that speed i have had near misses with that ditch on that hill before and now my writting suffers! i shouldnt of knelt down with my face at handle bar height i lost most turning ability so stupid! i flipped and bounced off my shoulder and scraped myself up and cried to the gods for it to stop... and then i realized i broke mo collar bone. i hit where a drive way ended the ditch and flew into the aie and then flew off the bike at the greatest height as my grip lost

how am i going to finish my book in time with a 10-15 wpm rate with one hand?! it will ache and be akward if i try to bring the laptop close enough for my left hand to home row and i wont be able to do it long. thankfully this kind of break only needs a sling, fractured on one side and still intact, on pain drugs too.

please give advice and encouragement took 5/6 minutes to type this. i want to still reach my goal!

edited 2nd Nov '11 5:17:53 PM by jasonwill2

Do you have a friend willing to transcribe?

Oh man, that sucks.

Some writers dictate their novel into a voice recorder, which they later transcribe. You could try that!

no, i live alone. only for tonight am i really staying with someone

i would mumble too much and not think right i cant get in the mind for that ive tried that before, all wondering thoughts and odd puases would fill it with my family in the background they are loud. staying w/ them reminds me how much yelling is part of their (lil bro, sis and mom's) life.

though apparently i can play xbox still for 20 mins before my back hurts from sitting up in a way to let my working left hand naturaly be on the controler but it oddly has the controler to the left of my center,

i might just try bringing home row asdf to my hand and figure out a not painful way to type.

think with roughly 55k words left i can do it in slightly less than two months like this with practice?

edit: test test test this works better to change row i just move my torso for my left side of the keyboard if i need to do so, or lean forward for the top two rows but my shoulder moves some and i feel like no pain but that could be the the pain meds, when i change row when leaning over the laptop for the top two rows it moves the collar a bit, but this might work.

quick, someone add Determinator to my troper page, i think i might be able to do it if the bone doctor tommorow a-okay's it despite that im starting to feel some minor pain now. dumb sling lol, its holding it in place but i can still let up a tiny bit on resting my arm to give some movement to type when the top two rows (home row and qwerty row) are not the ones on the left side I am using.

wpm moved back up to my lazy speed of 30-40 wpm, but i hurt now some.

Should i truck on through with my work inspite of the pain? or would it interfear with the healing possibly my collar moving like this slightly as i change rows occassionally when forgetting to move my torso?

edited 2nd Nov '11 7:40:46 PM by jasonwill2

Earn that trope! Persist! 30 WPM, go!

i just realized that wheni get home tommorow if i can not mumble or make werid changes in pace i could trasncribe there but i woudlnt be able to keep track of word count though

time to take some pain meds again/ stupid bike, stupid fast hill and stupid ditch

Its good to have set goals in mind, but those goals ought to be flexible. If it takes six weeks or so for your collarbone to fully heal, why not just extend your deadline to February? Was there a particular reason that you wanted to finish by December, like a deadline, or was it just a goal you set for yourself? Things happen, you've got to know how to roll with the punches instead of beating yourself up over random accidents leading to delays.

cause it is too convenient...a year was more than enough time to research, replot, and write it and all that. im afriad that if i put it off now ill set in the same old pattern again. i had rhe year goal firmly entrenched in my mind.

my mom offered to 'scrub/wash my hair for me'. i said no i find that "degrading" and she says "no its not its nursing, i scrub naked ppl all the time" (shes a nurse at a physical rehabilitation center for injured and sick people) i told her that i can do it myself and that it IS degrading to me. apparently i cant be trusted to not wash my own fucking hair single handedly. I broke my collar bone im not a fucking cripple ffs, im a proud man that will [analogy about fighting tooth and nail even in my state to prove that the physical state means little to me in terms of how I see myself removed for sounding a bit crazy].

but this is teh jewel of her bitchyness

she has me staying in her room in her spare bed askd 'where r u going? in anger as i went to take teh pain meds after another 6 hours [i made that last post right before going to do that]. I said "im going to the bathroom and to take the pain meds like im supposed to" when i came back she was like " I need my sleep" and i was like " i had to go to get a drink for the meds, if it was a problem you shouldnt of invited [insisited i stay] me over.

im 20 ffs sake not a child. then earlier she complained about how it was hard on her to have me over " I need to work in the morning" and I responded "hey, i'm the one with the broken bone, its not like your the only one suffering"

and then that bitch said "its not like your going anywhere, if i broke mine i would still go to work"

where does this bitch get off on insisting I stay with her for the night then treat me like a fucking burden? this is the story of my life with this woman, im always a burden.

anyway, might be able to write, ill just have to ask the bone doc when i can see him.id trying writing right now but the keystrokes would be too loud and she'd yell at me so i cant type too much, its past 1 AM right now

edited 2nd Nov '11 10:37:05 PM by jasonwill2

Come now, she's your mom, its her prerogative to be judgmental and clingy

As far as the deadline thing goes, if you miss it by one month, its not the end of the universe. Relax. These things happen when you are young and live an active lifestyle, but you ARE young, so you can afford to waste some time. If you let yourself get too worked up and emotional over this, its going to mess up your writing anyway, so accept what happened, make the necessary adjustments to your schedule, and get on with it. Life's just better when you learn to let the nuisances go instead of dwelling on them and assuming that the universe wants to punish you for some reason.

good point, but as far as the Universe punishing me.. i actually thought it was me just making a dumb mistake on my bike. I never broke a bone before.

I had a really fuzzy premonition that "your going to wreck and break a bone possibly" actually when i barely went down teh hill at first.. and days before I joked about that if i had another ER visit it might count as that 2nd proof of residence that the DMV needs. edit: since "WV Public assistance" with my address listed is considered a proof, end edit.

guess i was right, hell I dont know if my deity was warning me a bit too late, or the fact that I was thinking about the Korean exchange kid at my school that broke his collar bone in tag football as i was riding my bike, or the fact that I knew moments before the crash that is wasnt going to end pretty that contributed to my "Premonition". I did try to hit my dead brakes and move the best away from it as possible but it didn't work obviously. i went into the ditch and when i hit the end of it i went flying and flipped as i flew off my bike in mid air.

maybe if i didnt hang on as tight it wouldnt of been so bad and i would of just skid myself up.

anyway, maybe messing with my headphones helped too. i think really it was mostly my fault, and that my god tried to warn me but was too late.. I just hope for all of this the DMV takes it, that State ID card is the last thing between me and my GED, other than the actual G Ed test of course. I think i have all the proper stuff now for the ID after this.

I just hope it won't affect my writing too much i seem to be able to write like this on my laptop lying down with no pain and two hands as my collar is resting right with almost no movement at all, so that may work this way.

zi guess many distractions caused the wreck more than anything

edited 3rd Nov '11 1:04:20 AM by jasonwill2

Dang. All I can say, really. My sympathies.

I think this is a valid reason to take a break from your writing requirements. (Annoying as not writing may be.)