We Are All Pokemon Trainers Discussion

-pats-

I'm sure I'll manage. The longest I had Writer's Block for was a week, but that's very rare.

-hugs-

Okay, guys. I was finally starting to feel happy and enjoying R Ping again, but now I'm once again feeling bitter and hateful towards the RP. Just like every other time I found a glimmer of hope, it got yanked away from me. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being an Unwitting Instigator of Doom that just makes everything worse, and having to deal with these stupid, pointless things.

The RP is a hobby, and a hobby is not worth all this. I don't know if I want anything more to do with this RP. I had many, many things I wanted to do, but at this point I don't even know if it's worth it.

Anyways, I'm going out for a while, so if you have any good reasons as to why I should stay, speak up here. I'll read whatever comments you guys may have on it when I get back.

DS, while I don't want to see you go, I don't know if there's anything I can say that I haven't already said to try and convince you to stay. But if you do end up leaving in the end, could you maybe still stay in contact with some of us?

edited 19th Aug '12 10:14:04 AM by strawberryflavored

If you go, I'll miss you. I don't really have very many friends, and I don't want to lose another one.

-sigh- I don't want to see you leave, but I can't make you stay.

DS: Unwitting Instigator of Doom is really not how I think of you, nor is it how you should think of yourself. (Even were it true, it's an accident by definition, not something to be ashamed of.)

Bad things happen, bad moods arise. Difficulties are a fact of life; maturity does not mean bad things stop happening to you, only that you are able to deal with them.

I like seeing your development, and hope you can get past these rapids.

DS, I think you're a good influence on the community (in my opinion, you're one of the nicest and most levelheaded people here), and if you really can't stand to RP in WAAPT anymore, I hope you at least stick around in the social chat.

Well, I know I've said this so many times before that the words have lost all meaning, but whatever. I might actually really mean it this time because I've pushed to the limit: I'm leaving this RP.

In case you're wondering why this time, it's partly because of the accumulated rubbish that I've had to put up with, but mostly because I've spent the past four months essentially doing nothing.

It's quite sobering to realize that I could have gotten to the same point I'm at now had I simply not gotten involved in the arc and continued with what I had been doing at the time. To have spent four months making so little progress...

I didn't even want to be in PMD-R. The main reason I got involved in the first place was because everyone else was doing it and I didn't want to be alone. But even then, I found myself spending most of the arc trying to come up with stuff to keep me occupied.

And in the times that I did get to spend with the people I wanted to interact with, they spent most of it doing things that I wasn't interested in. Things that I wasn't with them for...

Not to mention the one time I did try to get some of my other mons involved in someone else's subplot. It turned out to be a complete and utter disaster. Both times.

So now I find myself here, four months later, having accomplished nothing, and with everyone about to become bust with real life because it's nearly the end of the summer. So I can't even do anything with them now that I've moved back to OU.

This is only the latest in a long long line of absolutely awful things I have had to put up with while being in this RP. The sheer abuse some of you put a franchise so dear to my heart through absolutely sickens me. The glitches. The AU. The Mindscapes. The End of Hoenn. Absolutely disgusting.

And I've put up with all this because I've had no other alternatives. There have been no other Pokémon R Ps that let me do the things I want to do, so I haven't had any choice but to put up with all this. And you know what?

It isn't worth it.

It's not like I have anything to look forward to, anyway. As I've said before, the people I want to do things with are going to be busy. Some of them are even leaving, so I've pretty much missed my chance to do anything significant with them ever again. So why bother? Why even bother?

So I'm not going to.

Oh, and one more thing if I end up meaning it this time: If you so much as even think about maiming, killing off, or doing whatever else to my characters, so help me, I will Make. YOU. PAY.

Oh, and if you do still want to talk to me, use Pidgin if you have it. Or PM if you don't.

edited 19th Aug '12 11:00:08 AM by Luke924

I'm sorry to hear that, Luke. Truly, I am. I hope that you reconsider.

And I guarantee you that no one thinks so little of you that we would harm your characters if you left. If they did, there would be serious consequences.

I've been trying to tell myself it'll get better.

It hasn't.

Let's cut back to four months ago. When I joined. I clicked a link to the trope page of the RP. It sounded fun, so I decided to try and join.

One of the first responses to a simple newbie mistake was "Get rid of him."

I'm serious. Rather than "Oh, sorry, we forgot the main page doesn't tell people to post in Discussion before joining", I got "Get rid of him." I should have realized back then this would turn out to be a constantly-hostile environment.

About a month later, I was dragged into my first chatroom argument. Since then, it's been argument. After argument. After argument. Consistently. I doubt there's been a full week since then when we haven't had an argument. And it's making me consider following Luke's lead and leaving as well.

So I'll try to stick with it for the next week, but it's not exactly looking promising.

Okay, people, I'm going to ask this once.

Please don't leave. Jumping ship and running away is not the answer when there are problems. There has to be a way we can make this work.

(And Eskay, I'm very sorry that was your welcome. We've had problems in the past with both one-shot trolls, and new people bringing in big ideas and then abruptly leaving. It's not fair to you, but I think it's made us distrustful. I would like to extend my sincerest apologies, and thank you for alerting us, albeit indirectly, to a big flaw in our joining procedure.)

Yeah, that's what I meant way back when.

Like I said, I'm going to try to stick with it for this next week. But if it doesn't improve, I will follow through with my word.

…today just isn't a good day is it? -sigh- I wish I could say something, anything, to help, but I can't. I just make angry outbursts and make things worse. I'm sorry…

Yeah, bad days happen. But I am HEAVILY seconding Wolf's assertion that jumping ship is not the answer.

Group hug?

Gladly. -hugs everyone.-

-joins hug-

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-also hugs-

edited 19th Aug '12 11:42:49 AM by stargirl93

*Joins hugs*

I needed that...

edited 19th Aug '12 11:53:31 AM by Eskay64

In an attempt to try to explain myself (While I resist the urge to bust my head open on my desk for poor choices of words.) I didn't mean "get rid of you" get rid of you. While unfortunately I don't quite remember my exact thoughts at the time, I think that I meant more along the lines of saying that you had to wait.(Obviously my poor choice of words suggests otherwise.)

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- Joins the group hug -

-is hugging everyone-