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16	->''"What am I doing? Why do I wanna hurt you so bad? I'm supposed to be a friend. I just wanna be a friend..."''
17	-->-- '''Spinel''', ''WesternAnimation/StevenUniverseTheMovie''
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19	TheMadHatter doesn't suffer from insanity, they ''enjoy every minute of it''. If only the Reluctant Psycho were so well-off. They may or may not understand the details, but they are well aware that ''something'' is wrong with their own psychology and they are [[HeroicWillpower fighting it to the best of their ability]], possibly with the help of medication. Success will vary; perhaps they ''do'' manage to present a normal façade, but they are fighting a constant inner battle to maintain it. Or maybe they have found an outlet to channel their issues productively, or, in the most tragic cases, they are constantly fighting a losing battle and may only realise they have given in again once it is too late. Whatever the details, they both ''know that they are mentally unwell'', and ''desire to cancel or curtail the effects of their illness''.
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21	If they are fortunate, they may have the support of a FriendToPsychos. If they are terribly unfortunate, the plot will conspire to make their already-difficult struggle even harder for them; it may even become necessary for them to [[PowerBornOfMadness give in to get out]].
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23	This is a very particular SubTrope of the TragicFlaw; examples that are about temptations and tendencies that are not actually insanity go there.
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25	TruthInTelevision for many people with mental illnesses, by the way. However, despite the scary-sounding trope name, most RealLife people in this situation would not be dangerous to anyone, except maybe themselves, if they lost control of their illness. Being AxCrazy is a lot more common in fiction than reality, after all, despite the occasional RealLife urge. There is also the fact that if you are aware enough to be ashamed of it, you are probably doing something (such as psychotherapy or medication) to mediate the symptoms.
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27	Contrast TheMadHatter, which is about the cartoonish kind of insanity, GollumMadeMeDoIt, which is a similar trope in which an evil SplitPersonality is the specific form of insanity in question, and FightingFromTheInside, in which they are not only trying to keep control but to take it back from [[DemonicPossession someone else]].
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33	[[folder:Anime & Manga]]
34	* ''Franchise/{{Digimon}}'': [[SuperpoweredEvilSide Dark Digivolutions]] happen mostly involuntarily and causes the Digimon who undergoes it to go berserk and lose control of themselves. In ''Anime/DigimonAdventure'', Koromon specifically states that he was unable to stop himself from hurting his friend when he rampaged as [=SkullGreymon=] and was fully aware what he was doing at that time. In ''Anime/DigimonFrontier'', Takuya evolving into Vritramon for the first time ended in a disaster, as the Beast Spirit's bestial instincts took control of him and made him see everyone as an enemy from his point of view. In ''Anime/DigimonGhostGame'', a Ryudamon digivolves into the [[SpidersAreScary malevolent spider mon]] Gyuukimon and fights a losing battle against its new violent impulses.
35	* Ken Hidaka in later parts of ''Anime/KnightHunters''. Once he realizes that he has started to enjoy killing people, he tries to ride it out, but it just gets worse. He ends up going to prison voluntarily, to have "time to think," until he can get his head on straight and go back to killing people ''responsibly.''
36	* ''Manga/{{Monster}}'': Johan Liebert who, despite being committed to [[ForTheEvulz carrying out evil acts]] and appearing to enjoy every moment of his wicked trajectory, seems to find his evil hopelessly banal on some level, to the point that [[spoiler:when he re-reads a children's book that disturbingly reminds him of his past, his goals began to markedly shift from world annihilation to self-annihilation]]. Not that he isn't still an OmnicidalManiac caught in a hungry ghost cycle, though...
37	* ''Manga/SakamotoDays'': Apart is a SerialKiller who cuts people to pieces because he's so ''insecure'' about being "normal", he needs to reaffirm how he and others are all the same [[LiteralMetaphor "on the inside"]].
38	* ''Manga/SoulEater'': Dr. Franken Stein is an unhinged genius with a violent edge to him that loves dissection and even enjoys his own craziness. However, he doesn't want to let it get too far or let himself get too bad, so he basically worships the Shinigami for giving him stability and purpose.
39	* ''Manga/ZanuffTheButcher'' is a SerialKiller who is painfully aware that he's a monster but is unable to stop his murderous impulse from surging forth. The best he can do is to struggle and curb it on a daily basis. The main conflict of the story is his bonding with a little girl, Alice, while desperately trying to fight off his urge to make her his next victim.
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43	* Azula, fresh out of the asylum in ''ComicBook/AvatarTheLastAirbenderTheSearch'' is aware that she has lost control of her mind, and she is not happy about it. [[spoiler:Her goal is to silence the voice in her head that is causing her so much pain and doubt, but the only way she thinks that will happen is to kill her mother, which Zuko will not let happen for very obvious reasons.]]
44	* ''ComicBook/{{Batman}}'':
45	** Batman himself, and other members of the Bat-family, are sometimes implied to worry about their own mental health. In an issue of ''ComicBook/Robin1993'', the titular boy wonder says that he is afraid that Batman might be going crazy. His girlfriend, also a masked vigilante, just laughs and says, "Well, look at us."
46	** Harvey Dent is one of the only inmates in Arkham who is actually trying to rehabilitate himself, rather than treating Arkham as a second home. Unfortunately, Two-Face is not open to rehabilitation since he knows it will "kill" him. Harvey's efforts always end in failure and tears.
47	** Likewise, the common modern portrayal of the Mad Hatter is as a legitimately insane man who ''really'' doesn't want to kidnap, entrance or murder, but who is assaulted by irresistible compulsions and delusions that break his sense of reality and always ultimately control him no matter how hard he fights.
48	** The Joker revels in his madness most of the time, but since one symptom of his insanity is his shifting characterization, this isn't always the case. At the end of ''ComicBook/TheKillingJoke'', he almost considers Batman's offer to rehabilitate him before regretfully saying that it is too late for him to try. In ''ComicBook/EmperorJoker'', he decides to use his new cosmic powers to destroy the universe, because any universe that would allow someone like him to exist must be fundamentally broken.
49	** In ''[[ComicBook/TheBatmanAdventures Batman: Gotham Adventures]]'' #11, the Riddler tries to circumvent his obsession with leaving clues that lead Batman right to him by instead leaving clues that lead to ''other'' criminals. This works out fine until Batman pieces together hidden riddles in each of the clues that lead him to the Riddler anyway. When the Riddler realizes that he has done this, he is heartbroken.
50	--->'''Riddler:''' You don't understand. .. I really didn't want to leave you any clues. I really planned never to go back to Arkham Asylum. But I left you a clue anyway. So I... I have to go back there. Because I might need help. I... I might actually be crazy.
51	* ''ComicBook/TheBoys'': [[spoiler:The Homelander]], to paraphrase Billy, became a psychopath by accident. He's repeatedly seen committing disgusting atrocities (like eating babies) and others happen offscreen (like raping Billy's wife), and visual evidence of his indulging himself as well. [[spoiler:Many of them are actually committed by his clone, including the rape, who deliberately records himself and sends the pictures to the Homelander to gaslight him into thinking he really is insane and can't remember it.]] This leads [[spoiler:the Homelander]] to embrace evil and outright rebellion, giving Vought-American no choice but to unleash their contingency plan in case he got out of control: [[spoiler:Black Noir]]. How do they know he can do it? Because [[spoiler:Black Noir ''is'' Homelander's clone]], and in fact set the whole thing up because [[spoiler:his sole purpose in life was to take out the Homelander]], which wasn't an option as long as he was content with low-level hedonism.
52	* ''ComicBook/CaptainAmerica'': Jack Monroe, the man who became TheFifties [[Characters/CaptainAmericaSupportingCharacters Bucky]], started to go insane during the last year of his life, as the [[SuperSerum supersoldier serum]] in him started to deteriorate. He was well aware that his mind was falling apart, and considered his last bouts as a superhero his way of staying sane. With the twist that they were not, because he had already become delusional. He was beating up random civilians, thinking that they were gangsters and drug dealers.
53	* Superboy-Prime was like this at the beginning of ''ComicBook/InfiniteCrisis'', being horrified at how he inadvertently dismembered many of the superheroes trying to fight him, but after his time trapped in the Speedforce he fully crossed the [[MoralEventHorizon moral event horizon]].
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57	* ''Fanfic/AbraxasHrodvitnon'':
58	** ZigZagged by Sergeant Travis. He doesn't turn ''AxCrazy'' from extensive exposure to Ghidorah's severed head, but it becomes clear something's wrong inside his noggin as a result of continued exposure to Ghidorah's BrownNote, and he's torturously aware of it; clawing his temples open with his fingernails and pleading that he just wants to feel like himself again, [[spoiler:before he's reduced to a TroubledFetalPosition where he mutters in near-catatonia]].
59	** As shown by ''Fanfic/AbraxasEmptyFullness'', [[Characters/AbraxasHrodvitnonKingGhidorah Ghidorah]] was once this in the {{Backstory}}. [[spoiler:Ghidorah's three brains had a painful TerribleTicking forcibly hardwired into them through indicated alien brain surgery, which consciously and unconsciously tormented them ceaselessly and drove them to try again and again without success to make the ceaseless ticking stop by doing what it said for them to do. The author suggests these words probably faded to something like tinnitus later in Ghidorah's life]], but by then, TheDarkSideWillMakeYouForget had come into ''full'' effect on Ghidorah. What did the TerribleTicking say for Ghidorah to do?
60	--->'''Kill Them All.'''
61	* Featured as a running theme in ''FanFic/{{Bird}}'', and played for horror and tragedy from many angles. The stand-out example might be Mimi, whose power [[PowerIncontinence messes with her brain chemistry and causes sharp mood swings]]. Extremely dangerous for someone with [[PlayingWithFire Pyrokinesis]].
62	* The protagonist of the ''Franchise/DragonAge'' fic ''Fanfic/MiddleOfNowhere'' posits insanity as a reason he's in Thedas. His method of dealing with the insanity is to accept it and just run with the situation while still acknowledging the crazy.
63	* In [[https://www.fimfiction.net/story/445006/innocent-until-proven-cozy this]] ''WesternAnimation/MyLittlePonyFriendshipIsMagic'' fic, the EQG version of Cozy Glow is portrayed as this, believing Sunset to be a creation of her psychosis due to a half dose of her morning medicine. She later writes a letter to her pony self, advising similar treatment.
64	* In ''Fanfic/PointOfSuccession'', while talking with Beyond Birthday, [[CriticalPsychoanalysisFailure Light seems to realize that there might be something fundamentally flawed with his own psychology]]:
65	-->'''Light:''' You knew this was a temporary arrangement. It's not like we could talk forever.\
66	'''Beyond:''' [[HannibalLecture I think we could]]. [[FlawExploitation And never get bored]]. You aren't a boring individual [[spoiler:[[TermsOfEndangerment Sweetie Jam]]]], [[StepfordSmiler despite what you try so hard to show the world]]. And me, [[AxCrazy I know I'm not boring]].\
67	'''Light:''' Don't be too sure hun, the killing people thing gets old real fast.\
68	'''Beyond:''' How would you know?\
69	'''Light:''' We all have fantasies. Some are just bloodier than others.
70	* In ''Fanfic/RagnarokSkeptikitten'', Light's father Soichiro catches onto his son's growing mental problems early enough to retrain him out of his BlackAndWhiteInsanity to follow ALighterShadeOfGray. Light constantly struggles with thinking of the criminals he pursues as a detective as "Evil", and has to remind himself [[GreyAndGrayMorality "Shades of gray, Light. The world exists in shades of gray."]]
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74	* ''Film/TwelveMonkeys'': Cole's generally relatively calm, if confused, but he has some violent outbursts that suggest that he might be a prisoner for good reason.
75	* John Nash is in this position in ''Film/ABeautifulMind'', once he figures out that he actually is schizophrenic. By the end of the film [[spoiler:he's able to manage his condition with medication and by constantly checking to make sure other people can see new people he meets]].
76	* In ''Film/TheDeadCenter'', this is what psychiatrist Dr. Forrester ''thinks'' is going on with the mysterious John Doe who's been brought into the psych ward. [[spoiler:John Doe is being driven insane and taken over via DemonicPossession.]]
77	* ''Film/GrossePointeBlank'':
78	-->'''Dr. Oatman:''' You didn't tell me [[ProfessionalKiller what you did for a living]] for ''four'' sessions. ''Then'' you told me. And I said, "I don't want to work with you anymore." And yet, you come back each week at the same time. That's a difficulty for me. On top of that, if you've committed a crime or you're thinking about committing a crime, I have to tell the authorities.\
79	'''Martin:''' I know the law, okay? But I don't want to be withholding; I'm very serious about this process. ''[{{beat}}]'' And I know where you live.
80	* In ''Film/TheGuilty'', Iben unwittingly kills her infant son Oliver during a psychotic episode under the belief that she's letting snakes out of his abdomen. However, she displays no aggressive tendencies and is horrified when she realizes what she has done.
81	* In ''Film/{{M}}'', the eponymous murderer of children insists that he is this. He uses this to contrast himself against the mob after him. While he may be a child-murderer, he has no control over it and didn't choose it; the criminals who are after him though chose to be criminals.
82	-->'''Hans:''' But I, I can't help myself! I have no control over this! This evil thing inside me, the fire, the voices, the torment!... It's there all the time, driving me out to wander the streets, following me, silently, but I can feel it there. It's me, pursuing myself. I want to escape, to escape from myself. But it's impossible. I can't escape. I have to obey it. I have to run endless streets. I want to escape, to get away. And I'm pursued by ghosts. Ghosts of mothers. And of those children. They never leave me. They are there, always there. Always, except when I do it. When I... Then I can't remember anything.
83	* Francis Dollarhyde in ''Film/{{Manhunter}}'' struggles with his murderous impulses, trying (and failing) to live an emotionally normal life through his brief relationship with Reba.
84	* ''Film/TheManFromColorado'': At least initially, Owen knows that what he is doing wrong but cannot stop himself. Following the massacre, he writes in his diary that he just killed 100 men and that he did not want to do it but could not stop himself.
85	* In the ''Film/{{Psycho}}'' series, Norman Bates really doesn't enjoy being crazy and rightly considers it a mental sickness. He is terrified when he thinks he's relapsing in ''Film/PsychoII'' since he's unaware that he's the target of a {{gaslighting}} campaign.
86	* Eddie Miller in ''Film/TheSniper'' knows that what he is doing is wrong but cannot stop himself. The night before he commits his first murder, he [[SelfHarm deliberately burns his hand]] on a hotplate in an attempt to have himself committed to a psych ward. This almost succeeds, but a wave of patients from a major accident causes the doctor to forget about Eddie. After his murder, Eddie sends an anonymous note to the police begging them to catch him before he kills again.
87	* In ''Film/SpiderManNoWayHome'', [[Characters/MarvelComicsNormanOsborn Norman Osborn]] was shown to have come to feel this way about his darker half, the Green Goblin. In [[Film/SpiderMan1 his home universe]], he was more open to the Goblin's influence, [[GollumMadeMeDoIt attributing many of the acts he had committed then to him]]. Here, however, he wants nothing to do with the Goblin, smashing his mask in an alleyway, and, [[spoiler:upon being cured of him, all Osborn could do is sit and reflect with horror over what he had been forced to do by the Goblin]].
88	* ''Film/SuicideSquad2016'' has a LeaveYourQuestTest that the Enchantress uses against the titular squad, inducing a fantasy sequence of them achieving their heart's desire should they side with her. Harley Quinn's dream is to live a normal life with the Joker, where neither is violent or psychotic and lead a mundane family life with 2 children in the suburbs. Harley saves the world and the squad by realizing it is very much a TragicDream and that Enchantress was in no position to grant it, even with her godlike powers. By the time of the sequel, she takes the concrete step of realizing she's less healthy remaining in the toxic relationship she had been with the Joker.
89	* ''Film/TalkRadio'': One of Barry's callers, John, is a serial rapist deeply tormented by his urges to rape women and his inability to resist them.
90	* At one point in ''Film/{{Targets}}'', murderer-to-be Bobby Thompson fumblingly tries to alert his wife that something is going horribly wrong with his brain, but she brushes off the discussion and goes to sleep.
91	* Backstory for ''Film/Thir13enGhosts'' reveals this was the case for the Jackal. He was a serial killer and rapist who targeted stray women and prostitutes, but he was also aware that what he was doing was wrong. Eventually he committed himself to an asylum in hopes of correcting his insanity, but this proved impossible. When the asylum caught fire, the Jackal chose to remain in his cell and burn to death rather than return to his old ways.
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95	* ''Literature/TwentySixSixtySix'': Amalfitano knows he's going crazy and occasionally mentions the possibility of being committed to an asylum.
96	* Patrick Bateman in ''Literature/AmericanPsycho'' fantasizes about killing people and often takes drugs to suppress his urges. However he gets worse, and finds himself killing people regularly just for the thrill of it. He mentions this to other people as a cry for help, but they don't even notice it. Because of this, it can be interpreted that nobody seems to mind (after all, Patrick is part of a rich [[UsefulNotes/ATouchOfClassEthnicityAndReligion social class]] who could buy themselves out of prison), that no one is actually listening to anything he says (the novel is a parody of the TheEighties yuppie culture) or that he is deluded and he has either never killed anyone or mentioned it to anyone.
97	* Rachel from ''Literature/{{Animorphs}}''. While she starts out as simply a bold, enthusiastic fighter, she slowly comes to realize that her enjoyment of combat and carnage is getting out of hand. It's made worse by the fact that her friends have come to rely on her to do the dirty work. In her final book before the finale, she admits that they need her to be the bad guy, and she needs them to be the good guys, because if they're not the good guys, and she's doing all this brutal killing, well...
98	* The titular character of ''Literature/{{Blaze}}'' suffers from hallucinations of his deceased partner George Rackley who constantly encourages Blaze's worst impulses, even when Blaze himself is horrified by what George is suggesting. Blaze generally goes along with whatever George tells him, but flat-out refuses at certain points, most notably when George tries to talk him into killing a baby.
99	* Deanna Madden, the title character of ''Literature/TheGirlIn6E'', wishes she ''did not'' have almost constant homicidal fantasies and ideation. But she does, and she has had enough close calls that she finally gave up and locked herself in apartment [[TitleDrop 6E]], which she has not left in three years.
100	* ''Literature/GoToSleepAJeffTheKillerRewrite'': Implied, Jeff is in tears as [[SiblingMurder he's about to kill Liu]], saying he doesn't want to kill him yet feels he has no choice. He urges Liu not to struggle since he's trying to make it painless, wishing for him to be in a better place with their parents, [[SelfMadeOrphan who he also just murdered]].
101	* John Wayne Cleaver in ''Literature/IAmNotASerialKiller'' is not, but he is acutely aware of how likely he is to become one. He is not technically a sociopath, but only because [[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conduct_disorder until he turns 18 the relevant diagnosis is Conduct Disorder]]. He has [[HeroicWillpower a strict list of rules to adhere to keep himself functional]], barely managing to pass himself off as normal most of the time... [[UrbanFantasy and then events conspire to give him every good reason]] to [[FromBadToWorse start breaking his rules to protect himself and his family]].
102	* Zane, in the ''Literature/{{Mistborn}}'' trilogy, is fully aware that he is insane (he understands that [[spoiler:hearing the voice of "God" which tells you to kill everyone you meet, obviously isn't normal]]), but he feels that it isn't an excuse for irrational behaviour and that it is merely a flaw he must overcome. [[spoiler:In the end, it turns out that while Zane is an unstable psychopath, the voice he was hearing in his head was quite real- it was the series' Big Bad, and while it wasn't quite God, it was the next step down. So even though he was crazy, he wasn't as crazy as he thought he was, if that makes sense.]]
103	* Francis Dolarhyde in ''Literature/RedDragon'' tries and fails to conquer his perverted and murderous impulses. In one scene, he even destroys (and eats) Creator/WilliamBlake's ''Red Dragon and the Woman Clothed By the Sun'' painting with the hope that this will destroy the personification of his evil impulses.
104	* ''Literature/ASongOfIceAndFire'': Serial pedophile-murderer Septon Utt is always remorseful after his crimes, though he's unable to stop himself from doing it again.
105	* In ''Literature/{{The Stormlight Archive}}'':
106	** Nan Balat tortures insects and small animals to relax. He maintains the habit because he is afraid that if he stops, he will start torturing people instead of animals.
107	** Szeth is very well aware that sanity is slipping away from him, and doesn't like this one bit, but he feels like going with the flow is the only option left to him.
108	** Nale suffers from a particularly homicidal form of BlackAndWhiteInsanity; he's almost incapable of feeling emotions, and prevents himself from being a threat to others by rigidly following the laws of wherever he happens to be. While he acknowledges that he's insane, he doesn't always seem to care; upon realizing he no longer feels guilt, he actually seems somewhat pleased. When Lift manages to bring him to lucidity for a while, he sadly acknowledges that he's getting worse, and is no longer even capable of feeling what he calls "useful emotions."
109	* Although Dickarus [=McChink=], protagonist of ''Literature/TalesOfTheSpaceSouth'', begins the story going on nightly rape/murder sprees, he is victim to the endogenous drugs that force him to go on psychotic rampages.
110	* ''Literature/{{Worm}}'' has Regent, resident TokenEvilTeammate of the Undersiders due to his [[LackOfEmpathy high-functioning sociopathy]]...and doesn't actually like it all, since said sociopathy was a defense mechanism against [[AbusiveParents Heartbreaker's]] MindRape EmotionBomb powers. He really does want to experience unselfish love and a full emotional spectrum, but he himself admits he's so dead inside he can't even work up enough emotion to be truly upset by the way he acts.
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114	* ''Series/CriminalMinds'':
115	** The [=UnSub=] in "[[Recap/CriminalMindsS6E19WithFriendsLikeThese With Friends Like These...]]" is said to be suffering from paranoid schizophrenia and insomnia. Once his medications stop working, his hallucinations taunt him into murder since the only way he can sleep is after the adrenaline rush from the kills. Throughout the episode, he begs his "friends" to just go away because he doesn't want to kill and just wants to sleep.
116	** In another episode, Reid meets a young man struggling with violent urges that he's so far managed to resist. At the end of the episode, he's alone in a room with a prostitute and a knife, [[spoiler:but instead of attacking her, he [[DrivenToSuicide tries to kill himself]]]].
117	* ''Series/{{Dexter}}'' is an excellent example of the Reluctant Psycho who uses a productive or at least acceptable outlet to relieve his issues -- through [[SerialKillerKiller vigilante justice]], in his case.
118	-->'''Dexter:''' [[MadnessMantra I will not kill my sister, I will not kill my sister]], [[SugarWiki/FunnyMoments I will not kill my sister...]]
119	* Amos Burton from ''Series/TheExpanse''. He's a sociopath, but relies on Naomi and other trusted friends so that he'll remain mostly moral. He also seems to hate what he is to an extent; when interrogating a man who had his sense of empathy surgically erased, Amos asks if there's a process that can do the opposite - and is visibly disappointed that there isn't.
120	* ''Series/{{Firefly}}'': [[TheOphelia River Tam]] initially appears to be simply insane, but as the series progresses it becomes clearer and clearer that she can understand what's happening and recognizes how very screwed up she's become. Creator/JossWhedon pulls no punches in showing just how much this hurts her.
121	* Through the entire first season of ''Series/{{Heroes}}'', this is the struggle for Nikki Sanders.
122	* ''Series/HillStreetBlues'': One episode had a plotline about a murder at a homeless shelter, where the only witness was a man who turned out to have Multiple Personality Disorder... and eventually, he put the pieces together and realised that one of his personalities was the killer, and ended up [[DrivenToSuicide taking a dive off an apartment building]] to make sure it could never happen again.
123	* The main suspect/witness in the ''Series/LieToMe'' episode "The Core of It" is a young woman suffering from Dissociative Personality Disorder. When they get around to talking to the original personality, she's a wreck because she has no control over the other personalities (a law student and a prostitute). She is trying to fight it, just failing.
124	* A sort of odd example in Druitt from ''Series/Sanctuary2007''. He's an abnormal whose power is to teleport, but each time he teleports he becomes susceptible to an energy being who eventually takes up residence in him. This drives him to becoming UsefulNotes/JackTheRipper, but once he's not a villain in the series he's struggling to make sure he doesn't go mad again and takes medication to make sure. It's ''not a possession'' -- the presence of the being ''just'' makes him mentally unbalanced in the form of bloodlust and rage, not actually forces him to do anything.
125	* ''Series/{{Sherlock}}'': Holmes is typically perfectly willing to embrace his [[SociopathicHero sociopathic tendencies]], but occasionally shows hints of inner turmoil over whether they are actually more of a strength or a weakness. (John is helping him deal with the aspects that cause him problems; Mycroft is not nearly so conflicted.) In "[[Recap/SherlockS02E03TheReichenbachFall The Reichenbach Fall]]", [[spoiler:he consciously becomes a full Reluctant Psycho after the police department's perception of him, heavy on the 'psycho' and light on the 'reluctant', [[FromBadToWorse goes wrong in the worst possible way]]]].
126	-->'''Sherlock:''' Look at them. They all ''care'' so much. Do you ever wonder if there's something wrong with us?\
127	'''Mycroft:''' All lives end. All hearts are broken. Caring is not an advantage, Sherlock.
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131	* ''Franchise/FateSeries'':
132	** [[spoiler:Kirei Kotomine]] of ''VisualNovel/FateStayNight'' is an especially interesting example, in that he acknowledged intellectually that his particular brand of sociopathy ([[EvilFeelsGood only taking joy in other people's suffering]]) was both harmful and immoral--without being told, and without anyone noticing. He then spent twenty years trying to correct himself, establishing himself as a heroic figure within his organization, without anyone ever suspecting his true nature. He only [[BeingGoodSucks gave up trying]] after [[spoiler:his wife, whom he had married as a last-ditch effort to teach himself to love others, committed suicide in front of him in order to prove that Kotomine COULD care about others. Unfortunately, Kotomine instead realized that his only emotion afterwards was regretting that he didn't kill her himself.]] His later philosophical defense of [[spoiler:[[MadeOfEvil Angra Mainyu]]]] is simultaneously [[PsychologicalProjection an overt attempt to justify his own existence]]. There is also his interest in [[spoiler:[[TheHero Shirou Emiya]], the adopted son of his enemy from [[Literature/FateZero the 4th Grail War]], Kiritsugu Emiya. Shirou, unlike Kiritsugu (who was Kotomine's {{Foil}} in every respect), isn't so different from Kotomine]].
133	** In ''VideoGame/FateGrandOrder'', the Saber version of Gilles de Rais does have Madness Enhancement EX, but is clearly using his emotional dependency on Jeanne d'Arc (and at higher bond levels, on the Master) to repress it. His Bond 5 line is to beg that [[PsychicAssistedSuicide you mercy-kill him with your Command Seals]] if he becomes [[WouldHurtAChild what he's]] [[Literature/FateZero most famous for]].
134	--->'''Gilles de Rais:''' ''[upon third Ascension]'' Jeanne, forgive me! I truly hate... everything! And everyone!
135	** Brynhildr from ''Anime/FatePrototype'' doesn't want to be a {{Yandere}}, but she was cursed by Odin to easily fall in love, while also being cursed with the fate of always killing the target of her affection. The more she loves someone, the more her urge to kill them increases. In ''Grand Order'', it's an outright ''game mechanic''; there are Servants with the trait Brynhildr's Beloved, those with the qualifications to be Brynhildr's [[HasAType ideal lover]], and they take extra damage from her Noble Phantasm, a spear that grows bigger and heavier against those she loves. The only silver lining is that her actual lover is pretty much too hard for her to kill when she meets him again.
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139	* Dark Angel's "The Death of Innocence" is about a self-loathing pedophile who knows that he is a menace who destroys lives. He desperately begs for someone to kill him, before he re-offends.
140	* Music/{{Dismember}}'s song "Bleed For Me" describes a psycho putting someone through ColdBloodedTorture. The very last lyric is a plea of "please make me stop".
141	* {{Music/Skillet}}'s ''Monster''. According to frontman John Cooper:
142	-->''In a theological sense, the song is about original sin. You are born into the human race, you're guilty or sinful, no matter what you hope to be. 'Monster' is about the fact that there is somebody we know we don't want to be. Some people call it the old man or the old self. That guy wants to creep out when you're driving and somebody cuts you off. You wonder as a Christian, how do I keep it at bay? I liken it to the idea of a '50s horror film of this beast inside you coming alive.''
143	* Music/ThreeDaysGrace has the song ''Animal I Have Become'', from the Reluctant Psycho's perspective.
144	* Music/{{Eminem}}:
145	** Eminem's Slim Shady [[KayfabeMusic character]] is a paranoid, anxious, angry and violent lunatic, too dispossessed and disaffected to live in normal society and constantly seeking relief through doctors, self-medication, therapy, art and even prayer. However, it's PlayedForLaughs almost entirely, because Slim is a HeroicComedicSociopath EscapistCharacter representing knowing your failings [[TheMadHatter and owning them]].
146	** Due to the lines between Eminem's characters and himself being blurry, this also applies to Eminem, who writes frankly in his songs about his own experiences of mental illness and neurodivergence. A common conceit of his writing is that the [[VulgarHumor horrible shock content]] and [[BattleRapping beef]] in his lyrics is because he's tormented by awful thoughts that [[MadArtist compel him to put them in rhyme]], and he can't help it. (Like with Shady above, this is also PlayedForLaughs a lot of the time -- a common joke template is for Shady to say something awful, then the Eminem persona will interject to [[MetaGuy apologise for writing it]].)
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149	[[folder:Professional Wrestling]]
150	* Wrestling/SamiCallihan during the later stages of his EVOLVE career, though it started when he was suspended for attacking [[Wrestling/SamiZayn ElGenerico]]. He was still obsessive and AxCrazy but was trying to settle down and focus on wrestling.
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153	[[folder:Tabletop Games]]
154	* Members of the Wayward creed in ''TabletopGame/HunterTheReckoning'' have a vision for the world's supernaturals: their complete destruction by any means necessary, no matter who gets in the Waywards' way. Whatever creates Waywards rewrites their minds, makes it so that they see planning and committing mass murder and destruction as the best way of dealing with supernaturals -- but while most Waywards accept this, not all do. Some struggle with their newfound genocidal urges, try to restrain themselves for a while, lead normal lives, but the urges never go away, not permanently.
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157	[[folder:Video Games]]
158	* ''VideoGame/AmericanMcGeesAlice'', especially in ''Madness Returns'' when she's consciously aware that she's been in an insane asylum.
159	* Subject 16/[[spoiler:Clay Kaczmarek]] from the ''Franchise/AssassinsCreed'' series is fully aware of the fact that his psyche is irreparably shattered, but [[HeroicWillpower desperately fights through it]] to get his message across to Desmond.
160	* ''Franchise/BaldursGate'':
161	** Subverted with [[spoiler:Imoen]], once she's revealed as a Bhaalspawn and has her soul stolen in close succession in ''VideoGame/BaldursGateII''. She loves hinting at the Dark Whispers of the Bhaalspawn Blood before revealing that she was kidding and her Sinister Temptation was stealing a bag of cookies or something. [[spoiler:It [[StepfordSmiler is in part an act]], and she isn't doing ''amazingly'', but she seems to have it pretty under control despite everything she's been through.]]
162	** The entire point of a heroic Dark Urge playthrough in ''VideoGame/BaldursGateIII'' is that you are frantically trying to resist the urge to kill and maim that wells up in you [[spoiler:thanks to your unique creation from Bhaal's own blood and flesh]]. How successful you are...well, that depends on your playthrough, and possibly some important dice rolls. [[spoiler:At least one innocent ''will'' die by your hand, though.]]
163	* ''Franchise/BatmanArkhamSeries'': The Mad Hatter. Ironic, since TheMadHatter is characterized by enjoying his own madness. However, he doesn't respond poorly to being called mad.
164	-->'''Tetch:''' As a hat. Yes, as a hat.
165	* ''VideoGame/{{Borderlands}}'':
166	** ''VideoGame/Borderlands2'' has Krieg, one of the DLC player characters. His background is left intentionally vague, and the only real fleshing out he gets in a [[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6chxuovrbCI promotional video]] that shows how he met Maya, as he fights a losing battle with his own psyche to avoid killing an innocent person. While most of his spoken lines are [[TalkativeLoon incoherent word salads screamed at the top of his lungs]], occasionally you can hear a much calmer voice that says things like "That's right, help 'em. Just like old times," when reviving a teammate in co-op.
167	** The "Fantastic Fustercluck" DLC of ''VideoGame/Borderlands3'' expands on this. Krieg's sane side and mad side are sick of each other, and Sane Krieg even hopes there's a way for him to escape to a separate body so he can finally know peace. However, events of the story show that even his mad side isn't actually ''evil'', and cares about him, and the two halves eventually accept that they need each other.
168	* The player character of ''[[VideoGame/CubeEscape Cube Escape: Seasons]]'' is clearly aware that they're [[InsaneEqualsViolent dangerously mentally ill]]. They take Prozac daily, went to Rusty Lake because it was advertised as a place for patients, and one of the notes they leave on their bulletin board is "I'm afraid I will do something terrible." Additionally, when it looks like they really ''did'' do something terrible ([[spoiler:murdering a woman who turns out to be ''[[DrivenToSuicide themselves]]'' -- it's [[MindScrew that kind of game]]]]), they seek to [[SetRightWhatOnceWentWrong change the past]] to prevent this from happening. They also double as a TragicMonster after you learn in ''The Mill'' [[TheCorruption how they came to be what they are]].
169	* ''VideoGame/DragonAgeII'': Kelder Vanard ''knows'' it's horrible to kill elven children because they're "too perfect", but he can't stop the "demons" [[note]]He isn't actually possessed, though he insists he is[[/note]] from making him do it. His greatest wish is for someone to stop him, but his father covers up his serial killing out of misguided parental feelings, a desire to cover up scandals or both. And since the medieval fantasy world of Thedas has no way to diagnose or treat schizophrenia, the only reasonable recourse is for Hawke to MercyKill him with his own blessing.
170	* Muggy from ''VideoGame/FalloutNewVegas'' is a miniature Securitron designed to be crazily [[MeaningfulName obsessed with coffee mugs]], all part of his creator Dr. 0's mocking jealousy towards robotics baron Mr. House. The worst part is that Muggy is ''aware'' of all this, and bitterly hates his creator for it even as he compulsively stockpiles coffee mugs.
171	-->'''Muggy:''' Of course I'm obsessed, they ''made'' me this way. You think I don't '''KNOW''' how crazy I sound!? Of course I do! '''''[[SuddenlyShouting THEY PROGRAMMED ME TO KNOW THAT TOO!]]'''''
172	* ''VideoGame/GodOfWarPS4'': After the events of ''VideoGame/GodOfWarIII'', a ReformedButNotTamed Kratos prefers to give stern warnings to any threats to him and Atreus. He'll only be violent when he needs [[PapaWolf to protect his son]] or himself. But when [[OneManArmy he]] gets violent, he gets ''[[PersonOfMassDestruction very violent indeed]]''.
173	* ''VideoGame/HotlineMiami'' and its sequel, ''VideoGame/HotlineMiami2WrongNumber'', have Jacket and [[spoiler:Richter]], respectively.
174	** Although Jacket is extremely violent and brutal towards the enemies that he encounters, he does have several moments of apparent lucidity which clearly show that he doesn't enjoy committing these horrific acts as much as it seems. The most notable instance of this is at the end of the first mission, where he rips his mask off his face and [[VomitIndiscretionShot pukes his guts out]] after murdering a random homeless man who caught him disposing of evidence.
175	** [[spoiler:The second game shows that the only reason that Richter attacked TheMafiya and became a hitman for 50 Blessings was because the latter were using his sickly mother as a bargaining chip for his services.]]
176	* [[spoiler:Kuon Ichinose, the creator of EMMA and Sophia]] in ''VideoGame/Persona5Strikers'', is a near-EmptyShell, who refers to herself as an "emotionless doll", and almost completely lacks the ability to express emotions or genuinely connect to people. Reminding her of this or asking her about the human heart (which she claims she doesn't really have) is one of the only things that is guaranteed to get an emotional reaction -- specifically, it makes her upset and angry she can't feel emotions normally.
177	* ''VideoGame/{{Undertale}}'': Flowey's monologue in the No Mercy run brings up that he's genuinely upset over his inability to feel love and compassion along with the ensuing insanity, but doesn't think about a better life than toying with the people of the Underground along with his new human "playmate".
178	* ''VideoGame/WorldOfHorror'': One of the unlockable characters is Mimi, a medical student with a MadScientist streak; she has lower maximum [[SanityMeter Reason]] thanks to starting with the unique affliction "Mimi's Obsession", several of her personal events show she's [[NightmareFetishist obsessed with studying the horrifying goings-on in Shiokawa]], and her Challenge path, "Mimi's Little Project", involves ''[[ProfessorGuineaPig performing bizarre medical procedures on herself]]''. She also shows signs of struggling against her obsessions and darker impulses.
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181	[[folder:Visual Novels]]
182	* In ''VisualNovel/DokiDokiLiteratureClub'', in the second act, Yuri starts acting increasingly disturbingly [[spoiler:thanks to someone tampering with her mind from the outside]], reacting to the PlayerCharacter with rather excessive excitement and feeling urges to do some things of a sort you wouldn't tell others about, except eventually she starts doing that too. She will repeatedly catch herself at it, however, and be as disturbed as anyone. This is especially painful next to her normal personality, which is reserved, intellectual, and trying hard to be dignified although often clumsy and anxious.
183	* ''Euphoria'': Keisuke has [[{{Sadist}} extremely warped and unhealthy views]] when it comes to sex -- and he's completely aware that these views are unhealthy and would've tried to keep them secret to the grave. Unfortunately, he ends up in the middle of a DeadlyGame that requires him to subject at least one person around him to unspeakable abuse in order for everyone to survive. [[MultipleEndings Things may get better, or much worse]].
184	* The Beast/[[spoiler:The Swordsman/Yukimasa]] from ''VisualNovel/TheHouseInFataMorgana'' is extremely violent and cruel but is brought back to sanity by The White Haired Girl and tries to restrain his violent urges while with her.
185	* ''VisualNovel/MysticMessenger'': [[spoiler:Before Rika completely spiraled into delusional disorder, she told V that she felt herself growing more and more mentally unstable; anxiety, depression, paranoia, panic attacks, and suicidal thoughts plagued her every day, and she feared that she would soon completely lose touch with reality and become someone else. V insisted that his love was all she needed and that her fear and self-loathing was beautiful, choosing to not tell anyone in the RFA that she was struggling and later accepting her refusal to keep going to therapy. Meanwhile, her best friend Mika encouraged her impulses and used them to groom her into becoming the leader of Mint Eye. When you get to actually interact with her personally during Another Story, even while she's in the throes of her messiah delusion, she acknowledges that she's suffering, and it makes the instances when she [[MyGodWhatHaveIDone snaps out of it and realizes what's going on]] even harder to watch.]]
186	* [[TheHero Shiki]] of ''VisualNovel/{{Tsukihime}}''. The story starts with him expertly murdering a [[OurVampiresAreDifferent woman]] he happens to meet; overcome by guilt, he [[StoryBranching either]] [[HeroicBSOD goes into denial]] or [[MyGodWhatHaveIDone attempts suicide.]] [[UrbanFantasy She doesn't stay dead]], but Shiki's attempts to [[ThroughTheEyesOfMadness understand]] and [[HeroicWillpower control]] his problem in the face of supernatural evil make up a large part of the story.
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189	[[folder:Webcomics]]
190	* ''Webcomic/{{Freefall}}'': Dr. [[spoiler:Bowman]] is not best pleased that he was created to be a weapon, by people who left a lot of the nastiest instincts of a furious chimp in place, or even exaggerated them; he can't handle crowds (he barely has the energy to handle one person for more than a few minutes), he HatesBeingTouched, he has anger issues that would make Norse berserkers take a breath and step back, he has serious trouble with concepts such as asking permission, he instinctively treats eye contact from a human as a threat, and so on. His entire life could be described as a sequence of attempts to 1) control his own issues, 2) develop ways to work ''around'' them, and 3) ensure that the next generation of artificial intelligences, both robotic and biological, do not have to deal with the same shit he did from their brains. As a result, he does things like issue other people with activators for his shock collar so that if he goes within five feet, he gets shocked into unconsciousness.
191	-->''At some point, I'm going to throw the datapad. I don't have control over this. If my arm goes back, get out of the way.''
192	* In ''Webcomic/GiftsOfWanderingIce'', it takes a sociopathic personality type to control the psi-profiles (which were originally developed as BrainUploading meets GrandTheftMe, and so carry all high-security passwords and such necessary to keep the place running). As such, the leadership of the tribes are all descended from specially engineered sociopathic soldiers, and given extensive therapy/training to develop their cognitive empathy to the point that they can be regular members of society despite lacking affective empathy.
193	* Julian in ''Webcomic/TheGuideToAHealthyRelationship'' suffers from hallucinations and paranoia, among other things, but constantly keeps themselves in check, reminding themselves that nobody's pursuing them, that there are no bugs crawling under their skin, and snarking wryly at their hallucinations when they tell Julian that they're worthless and should just go kill themselves.
194	* Calvin [=McMurray=] of ''Webcomic/{{Lackadaisy}}'' is normally quiet, shy, and subdued to the extreme, but when faced with the threat of or the opportunity for violence goes utterly AxeCrazy and LaughingMad. He was thrown out of the police academy for being too "enthusiastic" during firearms training, and is very depressed about failing to achieve his dream of becoming an officer... His cousin Rocky, wanting to help him recover and find work, drags him into being a bodyguard/enforcer for the Lackadaisy speakeasy and doesn't quite understand why Calvin gets so distraught after a job well done.
195	* ''Webcomic/AMiracleOfScience'' -- A known issue for those recovering from ScienceRelatedMemeticDisorder.
196	-->'''Djaya Sumatera:''' When you're a recovering mad scientist, you're always afraid you'll lose control and wake up some morning with a half-built time machine in the living room and a plan to go back in time to pants Hitler.
197	* Jack Delitt from ''Webcomic/{{Newheimburg}}'' has a major problem controlling his paranoia.
198	* [[{{Webcomic/Homestuck}} Vriska Serket]], to oversimplify grossly, cycles between 'I know exactly what I'm doing, and anyone who [[VerbalTic 8urns themselves on all the irons I've got in the fire]] totally deserved it 8ecause I'm JUST [=TH8=] AWESOME!!!!!!!!' and 'I'm a horri8le person, what the hell is wrong with me, why doesn't everyone h8 me????????' which then tends to lead back into the former by way of 'You SHOULD h8 me! I'll MAKE SURE that you h8 me!'. She starts out in a fairly low-key phase two, but the phases intensify and she spends increasingly more time in the first category as the series progresses since SGRUB is tailored to feeding her megalomania.
199	** Mituna Captor has significant brain damage, and tends to constantly alternate between screaming awful things at people and [[ApologizesALot saying "1M 50RRY" immediately afterward]].
200	* Belkar from ''WebComic/TheOrderOfTheStick'' doesn't seem like one of these for most of the story. But [[http://www.giantitp.com/comics/oots0881.html here]], he freely admits that his kill-happy tendencies nearly screwed him over badly since he didn't have Roy to keep him on a leash at the time. His last line in this strip hints that he is starting to hate what he is. The line itself isn't that different from things he's said before, but previously he would look smugly satisfied about it. Belkar always realized he's a bad person, but this is the first time he seems to wish he wasn't.
201	-->'''Belkar:''' Isn't that why you losers keep me around? Hurting people is the only thing I'm good at.
202	* ''Webcomic/SpringtrapAndDeliah'': It becomes clear throughout the story that Springtrap just wants to be the cute bunny Deliah sees him as, but his more psychopathic and clingy tendencies make it hard for him to even keep that up. A core conflict is Springtrap's fear of losing Deliah as a result of his condition and past, in [[PleaseDontLeaveMe some form]] or [[MurderIsTheBestSolution another]]. [[spoiler:This fear is realized in both endings]].
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205	[[folder:Web Originals]]
206	* ''Website/ChannelAwesome'':
207	** WebVideo/TheNostalgiaCritic. He regrets his psychotic episodes, doesn't want them to happen and tries to tell people that he's down to earth and logical instead.
208	** Inverted with [[WebVideo/AskThatGuyWithTheGlasses that Guy with the Glasses]]; he's creepy, undeniably psychotic, perverted, obsessed with human sacrifices (and [[ArsonMurderAndJaywalking onions]])... Then, in one episode, his medicine ''wears off''. Turns out in his lucid moments, he's actually completely aware that he's being drugged into being so awful, and now's his chance to escape and -- nope, gets drugged again and it's business as usual.
209	* The AI protagonist of ''Literature/TheLastAngel'' is a weird hybrid of this and TheMadHatter. Nemesis is fully aware she isn't mentally stable, but she only cares because it interferes with her ability to perform her self-appointed mission: revenge on the alien empire that enslaved humanity despite her best efforts. She absolutely loves playing up her madness to terrorize her enemies and exploit their fear of AI.
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212	[[folder:Western Animation]]
213	* ''WesternAnimation/AdventureTime'':
214	** Ice King (AKA Simon Petrikov) knows that something is wrong with him, but doesn't know what. His last video log before being driven completely insane has him hoping that one day he might find his way back to sanity. In later episodes, it is mentioned that he knew that he wanted to stop using [[ArtifactOfDoom the crown]] because he knew what it was doing to him, but he needed its power to be able [[ParentalSubstitute to save Marceline.]]
215	** When Lemongrab's not busy being an ass, he is a very sad man who is confused as to why he doesn't understand people, and why other people don't understand him. He is a failed experiment and is all too aware of his abnormality.
216	* ''WesternAnimation/CourageTheCowardlyDog'' gives us "Freaky" Fred, Muriel's barber nephew with a borderline-fetishistic obsession with shaving people bald. The narration of the episode is provided by Fred himself, and we see, outside of his compulsion, he's an eccentric, but harmless and even fairly friendly young man. He knows that what he does is "naughty" of him and that it ruins his relationships and his career, but he simply cannot stop himself.
217	* Implied with T.K.O. in ''WesternAnimation/OKKOLetsBeHeroes'' during "TKO Rules!" when we see a BlinkAndYouMissIt still featuring [[https://66.media.tumblr.com/eacb0f97d223bba0e43bc1cc1a944ac7/d1373e13af12cc4e-68/s640x960/dfa35eadbb6bdb9a9c0d5be0b02b21ecacfa9c4b.jpg a drawing]] by T.K.O. It's understandable considering he's the physical manifestation of K.O.'s rage and self-doubt, while K.O. himself is an extremely kindhearted individual who would despise doing anything T.K.O. does.
218	* Leatherhead in ''WesternAnimation/TeenageMutantNinjaTurtles2012'' is a violent, bitter, antisocial mutant with a HairTriggerTemper, and he's fully aware of this and is NOT happy about it. This is primarily why he keeps his distance from anyone and everyone for their own safety. Because the Kraang experimented on him for so long he cannot keep his rage in check, especially if they're mentioned within earshot of him.
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