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7	->'''Sansa:''' We just have to make it to Castle Black. Once we're with Jon, Ramsay won't be able to touch us.\
8	'''Theon:''' Jon would have me killed the moment I stepped through the gate.\
9	'''Sansa:''' I won't let him. I'll tell him the truth about Bran and Rickon.\
10	'''Theon:''' And the truth about the farm boys I killed in their place? And the truth about Sir Rodrick who I beheaded? And the truth about Robb who I betrayed?\
11	'''Sansa:''' When you take the Black, all your crimes are forgiven.\
12	'''Theon:''' I don't want to be forgiven. I can't even make amends to your family for the things I've done.
13	-->-- ''Series/GameOfThrones''
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15	Roughly translated: "I don't deserve your praise."
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17	This trope refers to that state of mind in a hero, an AntiHero, or possibly a villain, in which they reflect on how they are not worthy of the [[FamedInStory adulation]] or acclaim or status they have received. This isn't necessarily others denouncing them, or giving them inverted praise, as in Mark Antony over Caesar's body. This is where they either think or overtly say something like, "I am not worthy" or "I've done terrible things [to get here]." They may not regret the actions themselves, but typically they regret having to take the action. [[DirtyBusiness The idea is that they have been forced, through circumstances or personal weakness, to do terrible things]]. If they do regret their misdeeds and consider them unnecessary, then they might be TheAtoner.
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19	Compare NoPlaceForMeThere and TheAtoner. See also HeroicSelfDeprecation, IHatePastMe, ThatManIsDead, and WartsAndAll. Contrast IveComeTooFar, when the character [[RedemptionRejection never even redeems themselves]] because of this belief.
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22	!!Examples:
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27	* In ''Anime/CodeGeass'', [[Characters/CodeGeassSuzakuKururugi Suzaku Kururugi]] almost constantly, because he has an enormous GuiltComplex. [[spoiler: [[Characters/CodeGeassLelouchLamperouge Lelouch Lamperouge]] also later on, as he does more and more morally dubious things for his cause]].
28	* Beelzemon from ''Anime/DigimonTamers'' initially refuses to do a HeelFaceTurn, not because he doesn't want to, but because he sold his soul for power, went on a murderous rampage, and [[spoiler:killed one of the heroes]]. Even after the Tamers forgive him and reassure him that he's one of them, he never, ''ever'' forgets what he did.
29	* In ''Manga/FullmetalAlchemist'', Roy Mustang hates that he's treated like a war hero for participating in a genocide, and wants to overthrow the existing military dictatorship in favour of one that will actually hold him accountable for the harm he's done. [[spoiler:He gets the "overthrow" part, but per WordOfGod, he's acquitted on the grounds that he helped save the world.]]
30	* ''Manga/{{Monster}}'':
31	** When Grimmer calls him a doctor, Tenma goes on an angsty tirade about how he is not worth the title because he killed someone. [[spoiler:He doesn't know at the time that the person he ''thought'' he killed is still very much alive]].
32	** Eva also goes through a period of this when she realizes how badly she has been treating Martin (and how much worse she had been to Tenma).
33	* At the end of ''Manga/OnePiece'''s Dressrosa arc, we see this with secondary character Kyros. He tries to disassociate himself from his daughter Rebecca in the belief that he's protecting her from the stigma of being the child of an ill-bred criminal. As part of this, he writes Rebecca a letter detailing his sordid past to make her understand his reasons. Their subplot ends with Rebecca deciding she doesn't care about that and declaring she's the daughter of Kyros.
34	* ''Literature/RebuildWorld'': Akira ends up saving Elena and Sara from bandits [[BerserkButton out of hatred]] for what the bandits were doing ([[TraumaButton being traumatized from]] having been stolen from in the past), and because [[MoralPragmatist he figured that he'll be]] their next target. Being told IOweYouMyLife and thanks from the two of them makes Akira feel guilty instead of happy, knowing his impure reasoning. He decides he MustMakeAmends by saving them for real in the future, which leads to him doing things like irrationally answering a DistressCall in their general area despite the protests of his VirtualSidekick saying it's suicidal.
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38	* In ''Realm of Kings: Son of Hulk'', Arcturus Rann of the ComicBook/{{Micronauts\|MarvelComics}} reveals that he visited Jarella's homeworld K'ai more than a thousand years ago [[spoiler: and in a moment of extreme prejudice, massacred most of the civilization due to a perceived threat to Homeworld]]. This also creates a big PlotHole and ContinuitySnarl since Rann's Microverse originally existed in a separate one from Jarella's. It wasn't till recently that they merged, postdating Rann's visit by 1,000 years.
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42	%% Administrivia/ZeroContextExample * ''FanFic/ABridgeOnceBroken'', a ''Film/TheAvengers2012 / WesternAnimation/{{Wakfu}}'' {{crossover}} gives Loki a bit of DracoInLeatherPants treatment, complete with ''copious'' amounts of this trope.
43	* In ''Fanfic/ChildOfTheStorm'', at a ReformedButNotTamed Loki's own insistence, the "RoguesGallery" exhibit at New York's Natural History Museum contains a replica of him as he was during the Chitauri invasion.
44	* Takara Tsukuda of ''Fanfic/DespairsLastResort'' takes no pride in solving the murders that take place in the resort. Considering that someone is executed every time she does so, it's not hard to see why.
45	* [[VideoGame/MegaManZero Leviathan]] in ''Fanfic/ManehattansLoneGuardian'' comes clean to the city via the newspaper, making it clear that she has blood[[note]]technically coolant[[/note]] on her hands due to her time serving Copy X. When asked why she's doing this when it would be easier to keep it to herself, she states that she has no desire to lie to the populace and tell them that the alien robot in their midst was harmless. For better or for worse she wants them all to have a complete picture of who she is, a notion that Buried Lede agrees with.
46	* [[Literature/HighSchoolDXD Yuma Amano]], after [[SparedByTheAdaptation being spared]] and [[AdaptationalHeroism performing a]] HeelFaceTurn in ''Fanfic/MarriageOfHeavenAndHell,'' still feels guilty for the actions she had previously done to Makoto and considers herself unworthy of being forgiven.
47	* In the ''Fanfic/PonyPOVSeries'', [[spoiler:Fluttershy actually ended up doing a lot of good as [[BigBad Princess Gaia/Nightmare Whisper]], despite all the bad she also did. When given a celebration for the good she did (and that she was able to have the self-control to at least TRY to do good when given the power of a goddess), she outright says there's a lot of things she did she'll never forgive herself for and she doesn't blame the ponies who won't forgive her for what she's done. She accepts those that will, but she'll never forget what she's done]].
48	* Sunset Shimmer in ''[[https://www.fimfiction.net/story/291812/sunset-reset Sunset Reset]]'' is a deconstruction. After being [[PeggySue send back in time to before she left for the human world]] and ascending to alicornhood in the process, Sunset fixes her broken relationship with her mother Celestia, gets into a romantic relationship with [[{{Polyamory}} Cadance and Shining Armor]], makes friends with several ponies her age, and becomes a mentor of sorts to a young Twilight Sparkle. Through it all she is constantly beating herself up over what she did in the original timeline, and plans to set things back on track by leaving for the human world again, spending years alone and miserable without magic in a world she doesn't belong in as atonement. Cadance eventually calls her out on being willing to break the hearts of her mother, her boyfriend and girlfriend, her friends, and the little girl who looks up to her more than anyone else just to satisfy her own guilt complex.
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52	* ''WesternAnimation/{{Beowulf\|2007}}'':
53	** Beowulf says as much before he leaves to confront Grendel's mother and the dragon, and try to end the [[CycleOfRevenge cycle]] once and for all.
54	--->'''Beowulf:''' Keep a memory of me, not as a king or a hero; but as a man: fallible and flawed.
55	** He tries to do the same to [[TheLancer Wiglaf]], but he will not hear it. After [[spoiler:Beowulf dies fighting the dragon, Wiglaf comments that Beowulf will be remembered as a great hero]].
56	* ''WesternAnimation/MyLittlePonyEquestriaGirls'':
57	** Sunset Shimmer, the AlphaBitch BigBad of [[WesternAnimation/MyLittlePonyEquestriaGirls1 the first movie]], pulls a HeelFaceTurn at the end and becomes good. The sequels show her to have a knack for HeroicSelfDeprecation and a rather dark sense of humor about her past. She doesn't speak up much in ''[[WesternAnimation/MyLittlePonyEquestriaGirlsRainbowRocks Rainbow Rocks]]'' due to feeling like it isn't her place to say anything after what she'd done. Granted, it's not like [[ReformedButRejected anyone else will let her forget]].
58	** Human Twilight Sparkle goes through much the same as Sunset Shimmer, kicking herself for [[WesternAnimation/MyLittlePonyEquestriaGirlsFriendshipGames almost destroying Canterlot High School]] because of her recklessness with magic. When magic starts popping up again in ''[[WesternAnimation/MyLittlePonyEquestriaGirlsLegendOfEverfree Legend of Everfree]]'', Twilight's first response is desperate denial.
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62	* ''Film/NoEscape1994'': When Robbins expresses respect for Dysart and the Father in two separate instances and wonders why they don't want to escape themselves, they respond in this manner.
63	-->'''The Father:''' I know what they think. It doesn't matter. [[spoiler:My wife's death was no suicide]].\
64	'''Dysart''': No, Mr. Robbins, I won't be leaving. Thirty years ago I used my God-given talents to make a bomb...a very powerful bomb...for money. I didn't believe in the cause. Didn't even understand it. I just wanted the money. Fifty people died. Now, I'm right where I belong.
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68	* In ''Literature/TheAliceNetwork'', Eve refuses military honors [[spoiler: (war medals, among them the Order of the British Empire)]], because she feels that, having [[spoiler: betrayed Lili]], she is not worthy of them. [[spoiler: When Charlie reveals to her that she did not in fact betray Lili, she accepts the medals — in fact, she wears them to Charlie’s baby’s christening.]]
69	* The novel ''All My Sins Remembered'' by Creator/JoeHaldeman. The hero is a spy/operative for the galactic government. The novel is a series of debriefings where he tells what he had to do in the line of duty, and how those memories are gnawing on his conscience. The true horror of it is [[spoiler: that in each case, his actions ''should'' have served to make the universe a better place, but his sacrifices were screwed over in the name of {{Realpolitik}}, and his "debriefings" are in fact part of memory-erasure "therapy" that is reducing him to a drooling vegetable]].
70	* The ''Literature/CiaphasCain'' (HERO OF THE IMPERIUM) novels are presented as the [=titular=] {{commissar}}'s unofficial memoirs, in which he confesses that despite being hailed as a legendary [[FakeUltimateHero hero of the Imperium]], he was really a DirtyCoward whose feats were done by accident while trying to flee for his life, or only performed to uphold his reputation. The {{TabletopGame/inquisitor}} [[ATrueStoryInMyUniverse editing Cain's memoirs]], however, counters that Cain [[AlternateCharacterInterpretation isn't giving himself enough credit]] and that true heroism is fighting on in spite of fear (which would make Cain a great hero indeed). It's further muddled by the fact that his account frequently mentions deliberately invoking the HumbleHero trope to manipulate people.
71	* A major, major theme in Fyodor Dostoevsky's ''Literature/CrimeAndPunishment''. After [[spoiler: committing cold-blooded murder and getting away with it]], the protagonist finds that the love and companionship of his friends and family suddenly feel torturous to him, causing him to go to great lengths to reject their kindness and drive them away.
72	* In ''Literature/DarknessAtNoon'', Rubashov is made to condemn himself this way over imaginary crimes as a last service to the Party, which insists on BlackAndWhiteMorality.
73	* [[spoiler: Evan Walker]] in ''Literature/TheFifthWave'' by Rick Yancey.
74	-->'''[[spoiler:Evan]]:''' [[spoiler:I am a shark, Cassie. A shark who dreamed he was a man.]]
75	* In ''Literature/ItCantHappenHere'', Doremus blames his own passivity (and that of others like him) for the ascendancy of totalitarianism in America. He expresses this sentiment in a scathing column criticizing Windrip:
76	-->"The tyranny of this dictatorship isn't primarily the fault of Big Business, nor of the demagogues who do their dirty work. It's the fault of Doremus Jessop! Of all the contentious, respectable, lazy-minded Doremus Jessops who have let the demagogues wriggle in, without fierce enough protest ... I can blame no Aras Dilley, no Shad Ledue, no Buzz Windrip, but only my own timid soul and drowsy mind. Forgive, O Lord!"
77	* The BookEnds to ''Literature/LukeSkywalkerAndTheShadowsOfMindor'', which take place after the story that elapses between them, make Luke into this. He actually hires an investigator to look over events and build a case against him. The investigator writes a holothriller script instead.
78	* In ''Literature/ShadowOfTheConqueror,'' [[TheAtoner Daylen]] is the first person to say that he's the least worthy person to be acclaimed as a hero, receive [[FunctionalMagic Lightbinding]], or [[DeathSeeker even to live]]. Not that this stops him from also struggling with his {{Pride}}.
79	* ''Literature/SkulduggeryPleasant'' has some moments in here too, yet never goes ''too'' dark about it. [[spoiler:..Until Book 6, where he reveals ''he'' was [[TheDreaded Lord Vile]].]]
80	* ''Literature/TheStormlightArchive'' has several examples.
81	** Dalinar readily admits that he was a warmonger and a tyrant in his youth, though it's rather hard to believe until we actually get flashbacks of him being the single most terrifying warrior on any given battlefield.
82	** Most of the Heralds are this to some extent, since they ended the Desolations by abandoning one of their own to eternal torture, simply because they were too scared to share the torture with him. Their unique madnesses induced by their millennia-long lives tend to affect this: Nalan seems to have rationalized away the guilt (it helps that he's become TheSociopath), Ishar is utterly delusional and probably doesn't even remember what he did, and Jezrien is fairly incoherent (he remarks at one point that "it is ''our fault''," but it's not even clear what he's talking about).
83	*** Shalash in particular is so consumed by guilt that she's in a permanent state of RageAgainstTheReflection. When Talenel finally returns, she fully expects him to hate her, and even wants it.
84	--> '''Taln''': Four thousand years? Ash…\
85	'''Ash''': We couldn’t continue– I… we thought…\
86	'''Taln:''' Ash. [[spoiler: What a ''wonderful'' thing.]]\
87	'''Ash''': [[spoiler: Wonderful? We ''left'' you, Taln.]]\
88	'''Taln:''' [[spoiler: What a gift you gave them! Time to recover, for once, between Desolations. Time to progress. They never had a chance before. But this time…yes, maybe they do.]]\
89	'''Ash''': [[spoiler: Taln. You can't be like this.]]\
90	'''Taln''': [[spoiler: A truly wonderful thing, Ash.]]\
91	'''Ash''': [[spoiler: You can't be like this. You have to hate me! Hate me, ''please.'']]
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95	* ''Series/{{Angel}}'': Angel struggles with this a lot in the early seasons, denying that he's a hero when people try to praise him for what he does because he's still wracked with guilt for centuries of evil deeds as a soulless vampire and doesn't believe he can actually ever be redeemed. Eventually he gets more comfortable with being looked at and treated like a hero, mainly because he realizes that (even if he doesn't believe he deserves admiration) part of the role he's undertaken as a "Champion" for the forces of good is inspiring hope and giving others someone and something to believe in.
96	* ''Series/BabylonFive'':
97	** Londo Mollari toward the end of the series. In fact, [[spoiler:in the twilight hours of his life, he tells two children and their nurse his pivotal but silent role in the Earth-Mimbari War and the actions he committed which had stopped a major chance for peace between the races]].
98	** Along the same trajectory as his sworn rival, G'kar's transformation from conniving diplomat to [[spoiler: the major religious figure of his race]] by the end of the series. [[spoiler: So much so that he exiles himself to deep space to get away from the unwanted adulation of his followers]].
99	** Brother Edward from "[[Recap/BabylonFiveS03E04PassingThroughGethsemane Passing Through Gethsemane]]", [[spoiler:a monk who discovers he was a serial killer before his death of personality. He ends up resigning himself to his death at the hands of his victims' angry relatives in contrition]]. His critique of the future justice system boils down to: How can they make me a holy man, yet not let me remember the sins I need to cleanse from my soul? His superior has a more optimistic view; even if ''he'' does not know what he did, God does, and his earnest and heartfelt penitence is enough that even forgotten sins are forgiven. [[spoiler:He takes this belief so seriously that when Brother Edward's murderer is mind-wiped and given over to his order as a novitiate, he does not shun the man he knows is a murderer, but welcomes him and helps him work towards his own redemption for his forgotten sins.]]
100	* ''Series/BeingHumanUK'': Mitchell actually wants his sins forgotten, because for the vampires they're a source of inspiration. Still, the spirit remains - he doesn't want acclaim and admiration when he's primarily focusing on his all-consuming guilt.
101	* ''Series/StarTrekDeepSpaceNine'': In the controversial and stunning episode "[[Recap/StarTrekDeepSpaceNineS06E19InThePaleMoonlight In the Pale Moonlight]]", Captain Benjamin Sisko -- the hero of the Dominion War, survivor of Wolf 359, designer of the Defiant, winner of the Christopher Pike Medal of Valor, and a revered religious figure for the Bajoran people -- narrates a log entry [[spoiler:in which he describes the details of how he deceived and manipulated the Romulans into switching sides in the war against the Dominion and the Cardassians and the various crimes and violations of his principles it took to accomplish it. These including lying, cheating, bribery to conceal the crimes of others, forging evidence, becoming an accessory to murder, and covering it all up. What he considers most damning of all is that he would do it all again if he had to because his guilty conscience (and the lives lost) are a small price to pay for the safety of the entire Alpha Quadrant even if a Star Fleet Officer is supposed to be better than even thinking like that]]. (You'd never see Kirk or Picard doing that!) The trope is subverted when, at the end of the episode, [[spoiler:Sisko erases the log entry]].
102	* Captain Archer at the start of Season 4 of ''Series/StarTrekEnterprise''. After a year's worth of DirtyBusiness in the name of saving Earth, he comes home to a hero's welcome that, in his mind, he ''really'' doesn't deserve. When he takes a break to go mountain climbing and is joined by an old flame who's newly been promoted to captain, he says that she reminds him of what ''he'' was at the start of his mission.
103	* ''Series/StargateAtlantis'': In an episode titled "[[Recap/StargateAtlantisS04E11BeAllMySinsRemembered Be All My Sins Remembered]]", the humans team up with their mortal enemies, the Wraith, to attack their mutual enemy, the Asurans, also known as the Pegasus Replicators. In order to do so, they create their own humanoid Replicator, whose purpose is to act as a Trojan horse of sorts, and infect them with a computer virus that causes the complete destruction of her own kind. No one on the Atlantis Expedition is particularly ''pleased'' with this outcome: they had to make a DealWithTheDevil, and they completely eradicated a species by essentially using a TykeBomb. The fall of the Asurans and their complete ''genocide'' is met with depressed relief, rather than adulation.
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107	* Music/DepecheMode's "[[Music/SongsOfFaithAndDevotion Walking In My Shoes]]" has the narrator admitting that he doesn't believe that he deserves a chance at repentance or "peace of mind", and instead urges his audience to "try walking [[InAnotherMansShoes in [his] shoes]]".
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111	* This is a major theme of ''Podcast/{{Malevolent}}''; [[spoiler:Arthur is saved at least twice as a result of his direct refusal to forget that he was responsible for his daughter's death.]]
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115	* The trope namer, from ''Theatre/{{Hamlet}}'' ''"Soft you now! The fair Ophelia! -- Nymph, in thy orisons be all my sins remember'd."'' (Act III, Scene I), said as Hamlet watches Ophelia pray while he contemplates his revenge on his father's murderer.
116	* Again, inverted in Mark Antony's speech over Caesar's body, in the play ''Theatre/{{Julius Caesar}}'' (Act III, Scene 2). Antony says he is not there to praise Caesar but clearly, that is exactly his intent as he recounts and condemns the seemingly self-serving and evil (but actually charitable and heroic) deeds of Caesar.
117	* In ''Theatre/{{Othello}}'', the title character's closing lines (Act V, scene 2): "I pray you, in your letters, When you shall these unlucky deeds relate, Speak of me as I am; nothing extenuate, Nor set down aught in malice. Then must you speak of one that lov'd not wisely but too well; Of one not easily jealous, but being wrought, Perplex'd in the extreme."
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121	* A major character beat for [[PlayerCharacter Booker DeWitt]] in ''VideoGame/BioShockInfinite''. His past is remarkably sordid -- he participated in the Wounded Knee Massacre of 1890 (decorated as a "WarHero" for burning Native Americans alive in their teepees), was ousted from [[PinkertonDetective the Pinkertons]] for [[EvenEvilHasStandards methods even they thought were extreme]], and destroyed himself with [[TheAlcoholic alcoholism]] and [[TheGamblingAddict gambling debts]] so deeply that [[spoiler:he resorted to selling his own infant daughter]]. Even when he's offered a deal to rescue [[DamselInDistress Elizabeth]] and wipe away the debt, he firmly believes he's BeyondRedemption, and that [[TheAtoner all he can do with his sorry life is make penance]]. As the game develops, this turns out to be ''very'' important as [[spoiler:it's the difference between him and [[BigBad Comstock]], who was [[MirrorSelf an evil, alternate self]]. Comstock has the same baggage, but he chose to become born-again in a way that went beyond merely relinquishing himself of his atrocities, instead [[NeverMyFault justifying]] and ''[[HistoricalHeroUpgrade glorifying]]'' them, spiraling him into becoming the megalomaniacal, uber-[[TheFundamentalist fundamentalist]] KnightTemplar that creates all the problems in the story. The split is even delineated with a literal baptism -- Comstock is the result of having gone through with it, while Booker balked at the last minute and chose to live his life of penance for his sins on his own.]]
122	* In the Androids arc of ''VideoGame/{{Dragon Ball FighterZ}}'', [[spoiler:while nobody really blames the good side of Android 21 for the situation, she feels responsible for everything her SuperpoweredEvilSide has done, even though Evil 21 is now an EnemyWithout. Good 21 feels it especially hard because she killed Android 16, who was modeled after her son.]]
123	* Joshua Graham of ''VideoGame/FalloutNewVegas'' has this mentality in the ''Honest Hearts'' DLC. When you're the co-founder of [[TheHorde Caesar's Legion]] and responsible for atrocities such as rape, slavery, and torture amongst other things, you honestly do have a lot to answer for.
124	* ''Franchise/FinalFantasy'':
125	** Cecil, the protagonist of ''VideoGame/FinalFantasyIV'', believes himself to be a coward for [[MyMasterRightOrWrong blindly following orders that he knew were wrong]]. Being forced to confront his sins head-on is what sparks his CharacterDevelopment [[ToBeLawfulOrGood to avert his]] {{Lawful Stupid}}ity.
126	** In ''VideoGame/FinalFantasyTactics'', [[spoiler:Delita Hyral ends up murdering or manipulating almost everyone he ever knew, to become king. The final scene of the game involves him lamenting over Ovelia, his dead wife and queen, wondering if it was all worth it.]]
127	** In ''VideoGame/DissidiaFinalFantasy'', it's [[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R-Zm8swSnVE implied]] that Golbez ([[ItWasHisSled Cecil's brother]] and counterpart in the conflict between Cosmos' and Chaos' forces, due to his tenure as a villain in [[VideoGame/FinalFantasyIV their source game]]) was once on Cosmos' side. Since he was among those to retain his memories between cycles of the conflict, he considers the fact that he was selected by Chaos at all to be a damning indictment of his past actions. In a bid to [[TheAtoner redeem himself]], he spends the game acting as a TheMole of sorts for Cosmos' side; [[WarriorTherapist guiding Cecil and his comrades under the guise of combat]] and stepping aside when satisfied that they're ready to proceed, [[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6Xgk6ooX0Q turning down Cecil's pleas to join them until such a time that he's granted a chance at redemption.]]
128	--->'''Cecil:''' Where will you--\
129	'''Golbez:''' I was summoned by Chaos. That alone is a sign of my heart's weakness. I've no right to be near you.
130	* In ''VideoGame/HorizonZeroDawn'', General Aaron Herres described himself as the absolute worst mass murderer in the history of history for initiating Operation Enduring Victory. But he decided to leave behind [[https://horizon.fandom.com/wiki/Herres_Testimonial a testimonial]], so that what he had done will never be forgotten, and let the future generation judge his actions 'with clear vision'.
131	* In ''VideoGame/KingdomHeartsCoded'', the digital Sora in Jiminy's Journal is told of how Namine helped put the original's memory back together. He's all set to thank the digital Namine for this, but she insists she's unworthy of thanks because she's also the one who took them apart in the first place. Sora thanks her anyway.
132	* An option in ''VideoGame/MassEffect3''. When Liara asks how she should describe Shepard in an information package for potential future species, one possible answer is that she should simply tell the truth, both the good and the bad. Considering even the most Paragon hero has done terrible things, and the most Renegade badass has saved countless people, there's quite a bit of both to tell.
133	* Solid Snake from ''VideoGame/MetalGearSolid''. He doesn't like to be called a hero. He feels he's just a killer. Summed up in this line from ''[[VideoGame/MetalGearSolid4GunsOfThePatriots MGS4]]'':
134	-->'''Snake:''' [[ImNotAHeroIm I'm no hero.]] Never was. Never will be. I'm just an old killer, hired to do some wetwork.
135	* In ''VideoGame/{{Undertale}}'', at the end of a run where the Genocide/No Mercy route is aborted by not clearing out Hotland, Alphys becomes the ruler of the Underground because she spent all her time hiding and protecting as many monsters as she could in the True Lab. This resulted in them learning the truth behind her Determination experiments and the Amalgamates. Even though the remaining monsters hail her as a hero, she personally cannot reconcile that what she did with her experiments was any better than the atrocities committed by the Human Child.
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139	* When the protagonist of ''VisualNovel/DoubleHomework'' finally chooses one girl out of the four in his summer school class, he finally admits to this girl that he and Tamara [[spoiler:caused the avalanche]].
140	* This is one the ''the'' defining character traits of Kageaki Minato from ''VisualNovel/FullMetalDaemonMuramasa''. He will constantly reinforce the point that he is not worthy of any praise and should only ever be remembered as a murderer. In fact, praising him as a hero is actually a huge TraumaButton for him, prone to setting off a nasty breakdown in him due to his massive GuiltComplex.
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144	* ''Webcomic/TheOrderOfTheStick'', [[http://www.giantitp.com/comics/oots0671.html "Also, She Needs Her Clothes Back Now"]]:
145	-->'''O-Chul:''' Thank you once more for [[BigDamnHeroes all that you have done]].\
146	'''Vaarsuvius:''' Please, do not remind me of [[DealWithTheDevil all that I have done]].
147	* ''Webcomic/ElfAndWarrior'': Played With. Hector outright refuses to let Basri forgive him after admitting that [[spoiler: he was just as responsible for Ajax and Safony's deaths as Rilien was.]]
148	-->'''Basri''': It wasn't your fault, Uncle Hector.\
149	'''Hector''': Stop. Don't say another damn word. This is exactly why I didn't tell you sooner. I knew you'd do this. I knew you'd try to forgive me, like I didn't ruin your entire goddamn life. '''I don't want your forgiveness, a'right?''' You're supposed to hate me. '''Well, now you know the truth, so be normal for once and hate me!'''
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153	* [[spoiler:Kado]] from ''Literature/TokyoDemons'' faces tremendous guilt for everything he's done, including [[spoiler:becoming a tool for Touya. Half his dialogue includes apologies]]. Whether or not it's justified guilt is another matter.
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157	* Dinobot, the [[HeelFaceTurn villain turned heroic]] BloodKnight of ''WesternAnimation/BeastWars'', says something like this on his deathbed, following a HeroicSacrifice where he saves the human race, despite the fact that their annihilation would guarantee his ancestors the victory in the great war. He knows he's done some questionable things and has to answer for them. He tells his Maximal comrades that he should not be regarded as a hero, but that history should judge him.
158	-->'''Dinobot:''' Tell my tale to those who ask. Tell it truly, the ill deeds along with the good, and let me be judged accordingly. [[{{Theatre/Hamlet}} The rest... is silence.]]
159	* ''WesternAnimation/MyLittlePonyFriendshipIsMagic''
160	** In the episode "Do Princesses Dream of Magic Sheep?" [[Characters/FriendshipIsMagicPrincessLuna Princess Luna]] reveals that she had created a dream entity called [[NightmareWeaver the Tantabus]] to [[ThePenance punish herself night after night]] "to make sure I never forgave myself for how much Equestria suffered because of me."
161	** After [[HeelFaceTurn turning good]], [[Characters/FriendshipIsMagicStarlightGlimmer Starlight Glimmer]] developed a very self-deprecating personality quirk with her past, also making her reject or dismiss the praise she does get. This gets explored in the sixth season finale "To Where and Back Again", where just being in her old village causes Starlight to shove everyone away and [[TroubledFetalPosition lie down while covering her face]], despite the fact the townspeople seem to be willing to forgive her and move on. She gets over it eventually.
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