Wow, this is some poetic, existentialist stuff. I think you're being a little melodramatic. If you don't want to write, don't write. If you want to write, write. If you feel like writing is all you've got, go get something else: find a new hobby, meet some new people, whatever. It really is that simple even if you think it's more complicated. If you've lost your drive, go find it; read something new or the thing that initial inspired you to write or write something that you wouldn't normally write. Look for some inspiration.
I've been in a writer's block lately but now I'm thinking of writing a story about an artist whose lost his artistic drive and must rediscover it.