Tropers / Arilou La Lee Lay

Hey there! I am the one whom you may refer to as ArilouLaLeeLay, or simply just Arilou. The name comes from Star Control, which was essentially the first video game I ever played. This is my troper page, and....uhh..well, since you are here, and all, you probably want to check out what kind of a person I am.

I am a female human who has been doing absolutely nothing noteworthy for the last 18 years that I have existed on this Insignificant Little Blue Planet. Aside from getting familiar with a large amount of media, having become decently skilled on the matters of biology, survivalism, basketball, marks(wo)manship with a crossbow, repurposing various items for questionable uses, and staying up late at night for no logical reason, and having fully figured out my issues with sexuality and gender identity at the age of 15. Oh, and before you start insulting me over that latest part, since (unless you are an actually decent person) you will without doubt do just that... well, I've Seen It All when it comes to petty insults from people like you. Now, if you did think of insulting me, just don't waste your time.

After that's been settled, we can continue on. My personality as a whole is.....weirdly overly complex. I probably should mention that I'm frequently depressed thanks to a combo of dysphoria (a nasty thing trans people get, essentially the feeling that you're physically the wrong gender. It can drive people to suicide, FYI.), Desperately Looking for a Purpose in Life, and the fact that I spend most of my time on escapism to avoid thinking the former two. Yeah, that.

Anyway, that should really be about it. I feel bad already, for being so selfish as to ramble on about myself for so long, but that was necessary for this page to fulfill its purpose, which is to provide Exposition about me.

     Tropes that (probably) apply to me, in a not-entirely alphabetical order, because screw that 
  • Asperger's Syndrome: Yes, I've been diagnosed with it. And I'm not happy with that, considering that the diagnosis has so far been nothing but a massive hindrance to my attempts at trying to live a life of my own.

  • Beware the Nice Ones: I'm quite compassionate and polite towards others, or at least try my best to be. However, when frustrated or angry, I can be quite....cruel with my words.

  • Blue and Orange Morality: I like claiming that I have this, but in reality, it's probably not the case. Regardless, psychologists have said that my psyche significantly differs from that of your average person. Then again, they're psychologists from my homeland.

  • Catch Phrase: "Hiya!"
    • Numerous variations of "I'm going to sleep now".

  • The Collector: I tend to keep EVERYTHING I come to possess, especially unusual items. The things I've deliberately collected include standard school-issue pens (permanently loaned ones), now-defunct money from other countries, keychains featuring animals, maps of fictional settings, full series of books, self-made spears (which I'm surprisingly quite proficient with, thanks to survivalist training), wooden snakes and metallic puzzles.

  • Desperately Looking for a Purpose in Life: Well, it's a lot more complex than that, but this trope could be used as a description of my current life situation.

  • Nightmare Fetishist: One of my main aspirations in life is to research genuine supernatural events and entities, and I probably wouldn't mind living in a Cosmic Horror setting. I also find depictions of gruesome combat and large-scale conflicts incredibly fascinating.
  • Myers-Briggs: Personality type INFP-T.

  • Pardon My Klingon: I use fictional swearwords (along with select picks from a dead language) while swearing. If you ever catch me dropping a Precision F-Strike, something is seriously wrong.

  • Token Religious Teammate: To my family, and to almost every circle of friends I've had. Then again, my homeland is filled with atheists and Christians, and somebody who worships the Sun and the Ocean, along with personifications of concepts such as love, creativity or change, definitely sticks out.

  • True Neutral: Apparently my alignment, according to numerous online tests. Though I feel like Chaotic Good fits me better.

  • Wangst: I often feel like I'm doing this. Then I remember that in my case it's called being seriously depressed and that I'm trying to fight it off by almost any means necessary. By now, I'm mostly done with depression, but life has yet to get any better...

  • You Are Not Alone: Is one of my favourite tropes, for good reason. If you're sad, frustrated, or outright depressed, you can count on me to listen to your worries and give you a hug, even if I can't offer you any help or good advice otherwise. I know what it feels like to be hurt, and I don't want for you to have to deal with it by yourself like I had to.