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7	* Episode 6, when Index discovers from Touma's doctor that Touma's memories are destroyed but although Touma doesn't remember her, lies playing a joke to her to ease her.
8	%%* Touma's YouShallNotPass moment with Mikoto.
9	* Episode 17, Touma trying desperately to save his father from getting killed, only to get his ass handed to him. Then, Touma begging Motoharu not to sacrifice himself, before Motoharu explodes in a geyser of blood.
10	* Episode 20, Accelerator regretting he is unable to save anybody and redeem himself.
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20	* Volume 14, Mikoto finally finding out about Touma's amnesia.
21	* In Volume 16, Itsuwa trying so hard to save a dying Touma after his battle with [[MadeOfIron Acqua of the Back]]. You can't help but feel her pain as his Imagine Breaker keeps involuntarily negating her healing spells.
22	* Volume 20 has the scenes with Accelerator, Last Order and Misaka WORST. Seeing Accelerator [[DespairEventHorizon fall into despair]] after being forced into a SadisticChoice -- letting Last Order die in the hands of Misaka WORST or hurting another clone after promising to himself that he'll never do so again -- is absolutely heartbreaking.
23	* Even earlier in the volume we get the scenes in the train, with [[http://www.baka-tsuki.org/project/index.php?title=File:Index_v20_037.jpg Last Order exhausted, barely able to speak and move, and Accelerator breaking inside because there's nothing he can do to ease her pain.]] His despair and anger about the unfairness of the situation is just heart rending.
24	* Volume 22 light novel: Touma stops the Star of Bethlehem and crashes it into an Angel that was (accidentally) bringing ruin to the world, but might be [[OurHeroIsDead dead]]. If that is not enough Mikoto, who had originally come to Russia for the express purpose of saving Touma, goes through the wreckage looking for him after he outright refused to be saved by her because he still needed to defeat the Angel. All she can find is a phone strap they got together when she dragged him off on a punishment game "date" a month before.
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30	* New Testament Volume 7:
31	** Touma and Motoharu hear a report that Maika was murdered. Fortunately, it turned out to be a false alarm, but the two were pretty much broken before they learned that.
32	** Shiage comes up with a plan to defeat Rensa, but because Umidori wasn't able to trust him, it fails. Umidori bursts into tears when she realizes her mistake.
33	* New Testament Volume 9:
34	** World Alpha: Touma finds himself in a world where he is Public Enemy #1. Everybody hates him and tries to kill him, blaming him for some unrevealed incident. He figures that his parents will be targeted as well and tries to find and rescue them... only to learn they want to kill him too. Then he gets stabbed in the back by ''Komoe-sensei''.
35	** World Omega:
36	*** Touma sees Index running in his direction and happily tries to greet her, only for her to run past him, as she doesn't remember him.
37	*** Touma's incredibly long rant where he admits that Othinus is better than him in every way. Then he admits that he should be grateful that she created a world where everybody is alive and perfectly happy, but he isn't. He had never cared about being thanked or rewarded for his good deeds before, but he still '''hates''' her for making a world that doesn't need him; for making his life meaningless. Not helping is that he's speaking to the Will of the Misaka Network, the same HiveMind based of Misaka Mikoto, the one person who often gets on his nerves from time to time.
38	----> '''Touma''': "Of course it bothers me. Of course it bothers me!! What was I doing all that time? I didn’t want some huge sum of money and I didn’t want to make my own kingdom with a ridiculous amount of power. I just wanted to wake up in my dorm, make food for Index, go to school, and hang out with my friends after school. I just wanted that normal life back. So why do I have to be treated like an absolute evil!? That’s ridiculous. Othinus saved every last one of the six billion people on earth to make me suffer. There’s something seriously wrong with her sense of scale! Why the hell do I have to go through all this? What was I calling misfortune!? I had always managed to slip past all that and used every trick I had to reach a compromise. I had managed to strike a nice balance! But she destroyed it all. Of course it bothers me! Even if it’s meaningless and no one else cares who it is as long as they’re saved, it still bothers me!! I coughed up blood and shed tears to somehow make my way along that path, but Othinus easily did it like it was just a game! She stole everything from me!! She stole everything I had – even the path I walked down – and she did it so skillfully that I feel stupid complaining about it!! What the hell was that? If she could do that, why didn’t she save everyone in the first place!? If that was an option, why didn’t she use it more seriously!? And I doubt it will even last that long. Once Othinus gets bored, she’ll just destroy this world too. If you can easily create something, you have no problem with destroying it. But I can’t create anything better than this. It doesn’t matter what complaints I make when she can give everyone a smile with a wave of that lance. And this isn’t someone else deciding that it doesn’t matter. It’s me! Me!! She showed me it doesn’t matter if I oppose her!! It’s all a deception created to corner me, but it doesn’t matter to me if it’s all fake!! It’s almost like a game to her, but the smiles she’s given Index and the others are something I could never give them even after a century of hard work. I couldn’t do it without inventing a time machine, but she did it without even trying. Am I supposed to stand up to that!? Why did someone like her have to appear in front of me!? If she was going to do this, couldn’t she do it on the other side of the planet? No, why couldn’t she create this paradise on the moon or Mars and be happy there!? She could leave all the people here alone and create a new human race on a desert planet she made livable!! …I don’t want to fight anymore. I don’t want to oppose a monster like that. I was never fighting because I wanted to. It’s just that I always saw someone holding back tears in some horribly painful situation. Even if they cried and cried, no one would have complained, but they put up with it anyway. …And I couldn’t allow it to go on. I clenched my fist like an idiot, charged in, and somehow resolved the incident. I didn’t do it to be thanked. I didn’t do it because I wanted anything in return. But overcoming those things increased the number of people around me. I began to think those connections with people had some kind of meaning!! And this is where it got me. I had everything taken from me. As you said, someone might rush over for my sake if they knew. They might cast everything aside and join me even if it meant making an enemy of this entire world run by Othinus. But! That doesn’t matter!! It never mattered. That tiny illusion is not worth abandoning this miraculous situation where lost lives have returned. I wanted to have fun with everyone some more. I never bothered to realize how comfortable my position was. If nothing had happened yet and Othinus suggested bringing back all those lost lives, I would probably have rejected it based on some random ideal or another. I would say their deaths had meaning or that you can’t toy with people’s lives so easily! But she’s already done it. To ‘return things to normal’ now would be no different from killing those unknowing and smiling people with my own hand!! No matter how many excuses you make, that fact does not change. A decision that I make would kill every last one of them!! There’s…there’s nothing I can do. What good is it to take away this world without crime, debt, or broken hearts!? Even if I defeated Othinus, returned everything to normal, and justly slaughtered everyone who shouldn’t be alive, would I really return to the world I picture in my head? How would I ever face the people who are living their normal lives, ignorant of what had happened? Could I really just smile? Could I really smile like an ignorant fool when I really knew the truth!! Like hell I could!! Nothing would remain for me either way. Whether I defeat Othinus or not and whether I live or die, I can’t return to ‘normal’!! No matter what happens and no matter how this ends, there is no way for me to succeed. Even if I don’t ‘fail’ in whatever I choose to do, I will still have complaints and it will all fall apart in the end. In that case, there’s no reason to fight!! Why should I destroy this miraculous situation!? If every path leads to destruction, why not just accept Othinus’s victory? Why not let the number of people saved decide it!? Who saved more people, me or Othinus? The answer is obviously Othinus!! I knew from the beginning I couldn’t hold a candle to what she did!! What else can I do? After…after everything she’s done, there’s nowhere left for me to go!!!"
39	%%** New Testament Volume 9 is basically pure tearjerkers and heartwarming made to text.
40	* New Testament Volume 11:
41	** The backstory of Mitsuari Ayu. She was a normal girl who was friends with Touma. She discovered Academy City had decided to focus money and effort into levelling up Misaki instead of her because they have the same power. She tried to commit suicide, making one last attempt to get Touma's help, who couldn't answer because he had lost his phone when he crashed into Misaki. Ayu not only discovered Misaki was the reason she had not been saved, she saw Misaki "take her place" after being saved by Touma. She's consumed by envy and a desire of revenge towards Misaki and is fully aware of how twisted she has become, which is the real reason why she wears the Five Over OS, she doesn't want Touma to see what she had become.
42	** Even if Touma wasn't ObliviousToLove, it's ''impossible'' for him and Misaki to have a relationship. Due to brain damage he got a year before the series started, he cannot retain memories of her for more than a few minutes. The day after he rescues her from Mitsuari, he remembers fighting the attacker, but not her. She kisses him on the forehead and sadly remarks, "[[AmnesiacLover Ah ha ha. Don't worry. You'll forget all about it soon enough.]]"
43	* New Testament Volume 12
44	** Touma did not leave the events of New Testament Volume 09 unscathed. It shows in the worst way possible for him when he first meets the elderly looking man in a tailcoat who claims to be a Magic God. In stark contrast to a couple of parts earlier where he casually waves off someone who claimed to be the 6th Level 5, Touma becomes incredibly cautious. However, when the Magic God started his assault by sending an innumerable number of spikes at him through large holes created in the unaware bystanders, his memories of the events of New Testament Volume 09 resurface and cause him to, after a long train of thought in which he compares fighting a Magic God to traversing a desert while clinging to the futile hope for an oasis, tell himself that there is no chance for victory. When the assault spontaneously stops, Touma drops any optimism and fears that a new phase may have been created and that he may have to go through the endless labyrinth of phases again. After the Magic God leaves, Touma is found by Index and Othinus. At this point he breaks down screaming and tearfully asks Othinus whether he is still in the same phase Othinus returned them to at the end of New Testament Volume 09.
45	** Touma and Shiage enter Frenda's hideout in the Dianoid:It doesn't contain a new type of bomb. Frenda was the person in ITEM with most connections, claiming to know thousands of people both inside and outside AC's darkness. She had used the hideout to store all the birthday gifts she had meticulously researched and prepared for her numerous friends, including Mugino. The hideout was the only place where she could be herself and not a contracted killer or Fremea's older sister.
46	* New Testament Volume 22 Reverse:
47	** Misaki gets hit really hard in this volume, where her past relationship with Touma is exploited to the point she risks tearing apart her friendship with Misaka and sparking a conflict with the UK because a ''thing'' wearing Touma's face basically manipulated her emotions. By the end of the volume, she's left bleeding to near-death from the crossfire of A.A.A and John's Pen Mode Index, both of which she was responsible for, and can only apologize to the real Touma.
48	---> '''Misaki:''' “I really did know it from the beginning. I knew that was the real you. That’s why I blew the whistle to call for someone else even though he was right in front of me. I’m so stupid. If I wanted to ignore reality and have a nice, convenient dream ability, I might as well have pressed the remote to my own head. And I’m the one who said in the very beginning that would be meaningless… But I just wanted to hear you say my name one last time… no matter what form it took.”
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