Your Old Shames.

On the topic of old writing shame, I used to be really into incest. It disturbed a lot of beta-readers and rightfully so.

Similar case with the above post, I was projecting too much of myself into the character.

I wrote a Rin Matsuoka x reader Lemon. It was not good, not the least reason for that being that the insert character was male, as per the request of the transmasculine friend I wrote it for, so the content was rather step-by-step and unrealistic. Many lines were also overwrought. Altogether, you would think a 12-year-old wrote it, but this was only last year.

I used to browse "bad art" blogs... not even sure why, but now I really regret doing so and taking part in this type of "cringe culture" (a bit before it was usually referred to as that, but yeah)

Same here, I thought bad oc accounts were a hoot, and I watched weeaboo and furry cringe compilations too. Of course I’m ashamed of it now

My old shame is... myself! Yes, you read that right. I am ashamed of myself (and even this post, if I do one single mistake or thing that could make me feel bad and ashamed). Plus some other things (like liking someone in the past, but ultimately rejected me, being an idiot in some times, some rants of mine...)

Oh god, me too. They had rather the opposite of the intended effect and normalized the odd but harmless fetishes that they often showcased.

I used to be a godawful writer. I'm better nowadays due to maturing and learning what's actually shit, but... yeah. And that's writing in general, Handwriting is still uh... a problem.

Also I didn't know how to tie my shoes until I was... 15?

I attend a film-making summer camp. Despite being for early high-schoolers, I was expecting to make a full length movie instead of something just five minutes.

I believed in the Ancient Aliens theory at the time so basically re-told a Bible story where aliens played a role. It was cringe-worthy and I like to pretend I never even wrote or filmed it.

It also made no since sense the props were limited and it was hard to hear what everyone was saying.

My dad and sister found the disk it was on and watched it after I begged them not to. I mean, at least ask first.

My dad didn't seem to really care and complemented me on a part I played in someone else's short film since it was basically an anthology of all of our projects, but still.

Oh yes. When I was around 7th grade-ish, I used to watch "cringe comps" too. I REALLY regret this a LOT because cringe culture is one of THE most toxic things ever, though looking back my younger self didn't really understand the malice in the videos. That's what sad - these videos get thrown into the algorithm of young kids who don't know how toxic "cringe comps" are, they click and watch, then the toxicity spreads to younger kids.

One of the worst things about these sorts of things is some people would use... words that REALLY should never be used as insults... as insults... and one of those words in particular refers to a group of people which I am part of, and things like "cringe culture" are why I am too scared to say that I am part of said group of people and I have to vaguely reference it like I am doing right now.

EDIT: Whew boy! Divine Flame from the future of 2022 here! I self-thumped this post because, reading back, I went into too much detail about my personal life back in 2019 and shoehorned my Discord drama in here. I deeply apologize for bring that up.

Edited by DivineFlame100 on Feb 12th 2022 at 12:30:17 PM

*hugs*

I used to be a chat killer. I never knew what caused it until it was pointed out to me that I kept derailing convos by not staying on topic. I also was only interested in talking about what I wanted to talk, which drove a lot of people away from me.

I'm getting better at overcoming this. But I'm still not sure if it's ok to just insert myself in conversations in fear of derailing them.

Just about everything I did on the WebkinzInsider forums ~2008-2010. I would chew out Commonwealthers over using British spellings^note If I was on TV Tropes back then, I would've been banned for that super quick (and also for being under 13), post KinzChat Plus loopholes (most notably state of origin^note I'm from Was Cone Son!), being vehemently anti-swearing, post the world's most pointless topics... how the fuck I didn't get banned, I'll never know. More weird shit went down than I'd like to forget.

Also, to anyone who manages to recognize me from the WebkinzInsider forums... I'm sorry, I was a stupid kid. I'm now a much-smarter adult who wants to beat her younger self with a lead pipe.

Edited by CustardAndPie on Nov 8th 2019 at 8:29:34 AM

I used to frequently post here constantly up until about 9 years ago when I finally banned. I made this new account and was going to start posting again (making a single introduction post in 2015) but decided against it until I randomly got curious and revisited, finding this thread.

My old post history, behavior, profile page, neckbeardism, all of it. I want God to strike it from the internet, but the internet is forever. When I got banned from tvtropes and some related forums I even pm'd a massive several paragraph diatribe about manipulating people and world domination.

Neat that the forum is still around though, I wonder if any of the old faces are still here.

Edited by SunKisses on Nov 14th 2019 at 12:28:43 PM

I wrote some fics that were horrible, and I cannot erase them. It’s the heart what matters in the erase part.

And Mary Sues. A lot of my stuff eventually includes Mary Sues, and it hurts.

Recently, I written a fan-made DEATH BATTLE! called Emma Millstein VS Lulua Frixell on the Death Battle Fanon Wiki, which you can view here. However, despite all my effort and investment into the project and even some help from some people, the match-up failed to gain any interest from my friends, who only upstaged me by finding a better fitting opponent for Emma named Y'shtola Rhul. Not only did this kill any motivation I had for the project, but it also made me realize I just make bad match-ups in general, which made me mad at myself. Now I can't look back at it without reminding myself how much of a fool I was for investing so much time into it, so I feel ashamed.

From that point on, I decided to quit VS debates altogether, as I'm not really qualified for this sort of thing to begin with.

Holy fuck. I went back and reread the "Boys' Love" "fantasy" "novel" (well, half of one; I decided to retcon something in the middle of writing and my creative process just crashed) I crapped out my first and thus far only attempt at NaNoWriMo. It is actually worse than The Eye of Argon. I don't know how my brain could have actually produced such a tumor on the English language. At least Jim Theis had a plot and didn't write in first person present tense.

Edited by Katdo on Apr 16th 2020 at 5:58:52 AM

I wish I could un-write a sizable chunk of my first year and a half or so of RPing. I revisited some of my early stuff recently and a lot of it made me cringe because of how poorly-written and awkward a significant amount of it was in retrospect.

Edited by kablammin45 on Apr 16th 2020 at 2:47:45 PM

When I was a teen, AOL Instant Messenger was the main way you'd communicate online, and everyone in my group of friends had each other's AIM handle and would sometimes start a group chat. For some reason I decided to create an alternate handle and try to creep out/troll my friends with cryptic messages but I was really bad at it - the main issue is that you couldn't sign in on two accounts on the same computer at the same time, and I didn't think to spread it out, so people would always see me sign on immediately after they got my alt account's creepy message. Nonetheless, the topic of group chats would turn to these mysterious messages, and no one seemed to be able to figure it out. Until one day I was invited to a group chat where everyone had a new handle that was some variation on the one I'd been using.

Another thing is that I catfished someone on a chatroom for a while - sent and received flirty messages and got pretty close to them while claiming to be a woman and sending pictures of some random stranger I found online. Eventually I owned up and I think they even wanted to stay friends, but I felt too embarrassed and just faded away from the server afterwards. This came to mind because the show Catfish recently became a guilty pleasure and I realized I could have been on it.

Edited by MikeK on Aug 24th 2020 at 1:15:54 AM

Too much anime to list...

I don't like writing Fanfics anymore seeing how bad they seemed to be in certain parts of the internet.

Simply me in 2012-2015.

The majority of the earlier gamefaqs post I made, especially when I never realized I could either block annoying posters or hide topics.

Looking down on Kuromi cause shippers keep ruining her character, she's straight as ever for multiple boys and doesn't really like Melody or just treats her as a rival(this is probably one of the dumbest ships/meme I've ever seen).

Just letting fans ruining anything for me in the past was stupid.

Edited by MkayRose on Jun 29th 2020 at 7:26:36 AM

In my early teens, I was really, really conservative. And I was not afraid to share my viewpoints. I bought into all the arguments: that gay people, abortion, etc. were ruining society, that transgender people were misled, mentally ill, and/or sex predators, that we were in for a Fall of Rome-style disaster, and that the Second Coming would be a response to all this. In fact, when my parents decided to send me to a public high school, I begged them not to because I was convinced it would be a den of iniquity where lesbians would try to seduce me. (It's almost funny that I was so worried about lesbians, since I turned out to be one. Also that I managed to out-conservative my Conspiracy Theorist mom.)

All this about cringe culture. I used to visit Fundies Say The Darndest Things because I was too smug to watch Reality TV but still wanted my fix of laughing at strangers. Never mind that I could have been one of the "fundies" a few years before.

Edited by Madison14 on Jun 24th 2020 at 8:25:00 AM