-Sitting on the ground, thinking-
-He's coming for you, no doubt about it now-
-He's coming for you like he came for Ryoji, and he's stronger than you and there's nothing you can do-
-He's disgusted with you, probably. He has to be-
-But it doesn't explain why-
-He didn't have to do it, but he did. You know why, but you don't know why why-
-The second why doesn't matter though. What matters was that that was probably the reason, which is why it's probably gonna be the same for you-
-...Maybe nobody has to find out. What difference does it make, if they do?-
-None, that's what-
...
-Right?-
-They don't know. They don't really know. You're just someone with wings to them, they don't know anything-
-And they especially don't know about him-
-He was... maybe your age. Maybe even younger. He was afraid. He was afraid and you did it anyway, because you could. Because it was right and good and it felt amazing and for the first time you were really a w a k e -
-Nobody deserves to die that way. Not even him-
-...But they want you to. It's okay, right? But if they knew— -
-When they thought you were just a smart animal it was easier. An animal doesn't know any better. It doesn't get put down for doing horrible, vicious things it was meant to do. It's kept around and praised for following orders-
-But you spent all this time convincing them you were a human because you're a fucking idiot in denial of everything you are and were and might be-
-So they don't have to know. It won't change anything, and as long as you don't know why, it'll probably never come up. And you can't see how it fits into anything anyway-
-It'll be nice to see him one last time-

I want to go home. Living on th — on my own was better than this shit.
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