-There's dozens of calculations for decay rates scrawled on in the Doctor's shitty handwriting-
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?{Nothing can. Everything has it's time.}
-He finally finds something legible-
Cellular rejuvenation through nanogene medium. May correct genetic decay. Nanogenes most suitable vector thus far. If I can't sav
...Denzel...
...
-Smooths it out as best he can and starts writing on the back, wracking his brain for memories long since muddied by endless all-nighters, alcohol, energy drinks, and a combination of the three-
{But... how soon? Everyone is all gone. Everyone leaves...}
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon Alchemist{I can see futures, but not decide the future.}
edited 3rd Feb '14 9:24:21 PM by SR3NORMANDY
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?-Fills the paper with everything he can remember from his notes on the stigma, about how the body can't handle its own energy tearing it apart and the virus's corruption at once, lists of symptoms, survival rates-
{Will I ever get old with someone? Will I have a home again? Will Aven like me again? Will anyone —}
...
{...If I can't leave, someone needs to stay. But nobody stays...}
...
-Stares at the paper, covered in blocky, barely legible writing from someone not used to handling something as fine as a pen, and realises that due to his incredible incompetence, and, eventually, cowardice, he never actually found a cure like he promised-
...
-Crumples it again and tosses it on the floor-
-Sits there-
{Do I deserve this? Is this punishment for ruining everything all the time and being stupid? For Meteor? For Zack? I tried but it never gets any better doesn't stop hurting i'm afraid}
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon Alchemist{We don't always do the right thing. Tragedy is always there. But regret drives us forward. The bad things define us as much as the good. After everything that had happened, you still want to help. You're stronger than you think. I can see it. You will too.}
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?-Is just sitting there, his eyes looking a bit wet- {I want them to like me. Why don't they like me? What am I doing wrong? I try so hard and that just makes them angrier, I want them to know how much they matter, and I know I ruin things, and I try hard not to be stupid, and everything I do just makes things worse and then no one wants to even look at me...}
{That man that offered me food. He's dead now. If he wasn't, would he have left after I said something stupid? Sabé gave me food... she didn't know me, I was just some stranger with stupid extra limbs, and she smiled at me, and she asked my name, and bought me food.}
...
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon Alchemist{There were 843 people you brought inside me. They were strangers to you when you saved them.}
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?{They didn't know who I was. If they knew, like Aven, or Zack...}
...
{I don't even know what I want anymore. Everything I thought I knew was wrong, or stupid, or it doesn't matter now.}
{I do things to help. Because it matters. Because every family is the most important thing in the world to themselves, and if it was you that lost your family... that's why I do it. Because it's right.}
{...But it just doesn't feel like it means anything now.}
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon Alchemist{It means everything.}
edited 3rd Feb '14 10:44:37 PM by SR3NORMANDY
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?

It's a fuckin' laser knife, all my childhood dreams came true.