-Shuts down again at the mention of white rooms and needles-
...
-Wonders if Ryoji would be mad at him-
-Maybe he could have gone to the beach with Ryoji-
-And Elisa-
-Just like he promised to take Aeris on the Highwind-
-Wonders if Aeris would be mad at him-
-Decides she definitely would be, since Zack already hates him-
-Tifa and Denzel probably died hating him for abandoning them again-
-But it was for the best, because at least they wouldn't have to live with him-
-Tries to think of things to talk about since Aven and Haseo want him to-
-Draws a blank-
-Thinks about the family he could have had if he had betrayed the others and worked for Dio, who said he was useful-
-Figures he'd ruin their lives, too, considering he tends to break everything he touches-
-Wonders if the shopkeeper Marlene would be mad at him-
-Decides she wouldn't be because he isn't walking around naked-
-Pulls his knees up to his chest and folds his wings and imagines himself talking to her and Alice and "Mister Guard" from the city in the dead world about stupid, boring, everyday things-
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon AlchemistMEANWHILE IN KARKAT'S THOUGHT ZONES
("GOD, WHEN THE FUCK ARE WE EVER GOING TO GET SOME GODDAMN MOVEMENT OVER HERE. IT'S ONLY BEEN A FEW MINUTES, I KNOW, BUT IT FEELS LIKE IT'S BEEN TWO WEEKS THAT I'VE JUST BEEN STANDING HERE LISTENING TO THEM ALL GAWK. WHEN THE HELL DID AVEN LEAVE? WHY THE FUCK DID I NEVER NOTICE? THIS IS THE SORT OF THING I KEEP DULY NOTED. HOLY HELL, WHAT'S IT GONNA TAKE FOR SOME BEAM FROM THE SKY TO TAKE THEM ALREADY AND THE OTHERS TO ENGAGE IN SOME RITUALISTIC SUMMONING BULLSHITTERY SO WE CAN SEE VASHNU OR SOMETHING.")
-appears to be spacing out a bit-
mario is red, i am green, i try my best, but everyone's mean-Tries to stay in his happy place-
-But then he shows up-
-And he kills them-
-And Cloud doesn't know what to do because he wouldn't. But he just did-
-Tries to go back to imagining Zack like he used to, but Zack just glares at him and tells him how useless he is the whole time-
-So does Aven-
-Tries Nana and York-
-That seems to work okay-
-Until he shows up and kills them, too-
-Remains curled up and motionless, staring at a wall-
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon AlchemistDon't mind me, I'm just waiting around for a flash bang or some shit to assemble the for sure fighters up in Thor's Thunder Dome or something. That's the myth associated with Thor, right? A Thunder Dome? I don't fucking know.
-continues to wait for important things to happen again-
mario is red, i am green, i try my best, but everyone's meanCalm? I'm all about calm! I'm fucking zen as shit over here. Met my goddamn inner peace. Have you seen how quiet I've been? Pretty sure this is the most quiet I've been in a good damn long while. I'm as calm as the rolling tumbling waves crashing down on the cold shore of the night. I am the dead silence that rolls along your stumbling path down back to your hive after procuring your lusus from their kill. If you looked in an Alternian dictionary and looked up calm, you'd see a picture of me zenned the hell out and in a state of inner fucking peace.
I am so goddamn calm right now, you don't even know.
edited 17th Apr '13 9:41:23 PM by Rivux
mario is red, i am green, i try my best, but everyone's mean-Pseudo-prose mode, activate!-
-Doesn't know what to do anymore because all his sanctuaries and defenses are falling apart around his ears-
-He can barely even manage a mask properly right now-
-Wonders if Hojo would be proud of him-
-Decides he would, because he's a success now, after all those years. Perhaps he'd be given a number now-
-Wonders if Hojo would take him back and decide he's worth having around-
-He would-
-It would be nice, he supposed, to not be alone and have a home, and that if he got to go back to Hojo, or any doctor at all, he'd be around them forever in the lab, even if it meant not seeing the sky or having a name, or being in pain. Pain was tolerable. Being alone — dying alone — were not-
-Zack had died alone. And Zack had left him to die alone in the process-
-He supposed Zack would be mad at him for going back and undoing what he fought and died for. Perhaps he didn't deserve a family. He had certainly been given more chances than anyone else, and he had botched it up each time. Estelle had said for him to be a little selfish... but she had not been very clear on what she had meant. Maybe it was selfish to fight for his name and his self all this time, without regard for his family. Or maybe it was selfish to have a family, what he had wanted for so long, and he was meant to be looking after himself. Many people had died so he could have either. But never both. He didn't suppose he'd ever be allowed to have both-
-Is in too much of a daze to undo the bandage covering his tattoo-
-Considers Dio's offer-
-Doesn't react to the poke-
edited 17th Apr '13 9:40:38 PM by GameSpazzer
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon Alchemist

{Are you ignoring me on purpose? Don't make me start singing again, 'cause I will.}