...I'll go back to that room. I'll watch everyone come and go again. Maybe I'll go to Sagi's world, but from what he said about people there, how every secret you had is paraded around in your wings, I'd be just as much of an outcast, if not more so. My family's dead by now...
I could find a new one, I guess, but how many times? How many times to I have to have everything taken from me, just to get it back, then lose it over and over again? I can't keep doing this...
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon AlchemistCloud is in the lobby.
Well, I wanted to join Soldier when I was younger. -Snorts-
...I just wanted to settle down. Have a family. One that won't die again... Tifa didn't want to have kids just yet, so we agreed to wait... we still had Denzel, though... Marlene would come to visit, and we'd all go somewhere nice, and then we'd close the bar, and the rest of the kids from the streets... we'd get a big bowl of fruit, and we'd all sit and tell stories. Most kids would leave in the morning. Some of them stayed for a few weeks or more. Denzel, he moved in. He had a friend that we were sure would move in, too... it would be a bit more expensive, but I didn't mind. She was a sweet kid...
I want what I already had before. But that's not going to happen...
edited 30th Jan '13 3:35:05 PM by GameSpazzer
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon Alchemist-Aven sighs and has a seat next to Cloud-
Look...
...
....I can't tell you how to live your life...and I've learned that motivational talk can only get so far....so I'm not going to preach to you anymore. This isn't really something I can decide for you, nobody can. Nobody but you. So no more "living for your friends," no more "abandoning the ones who care about you," none of that. It's your life, and it's your decision.
So...if you're planning on trying to off yourself again after this is all over...well, I'm just going to assume that I can't stop you. Doesn't mean I won't try, but I'm sure it's a long shot.
Just...let me try now, one more time, and ask that you don't, that you live on. If not for us, then for yourself. If not for the future...then for now. You know how I feel about destiny by now: life isn't some prearranged bullshit. You aren't just gonna have it good the whole time, and sometimes it can definitely feel like you never will. Most people can't just sit in a corner and wait for karma to waltz in like some shining savior and hand them the life they deserve, and maybe the reason you can't think of what you want to do right now is because you haven't found it, yet. Don't be paralyzed by despair, and just sit in place. If you can't find happiness, then look for it elsewhere. Don't be some tool to be used by others, make your own fate.
Life may not be heaven if you want it to be...-shrugs-..but can certainly be an adventure if you let it be.
...And that's all I have to say about that. Believe what you want to believe, I've said my piece.
edited 30th Jan '13 4:11:25 PM by MacDuffy

Not really what I meant... yes, but it was too expensive, and the delivery service was nice enough... the only reason I even made my swords was because I was dying, and it wouldn't matter.
MY SOUL IS DARK BUT MY HAIR IS COLORFUL — Brahian Pokémon Alchemist