You can only up the dosage if the psychiatrist thinks it's necessary.
That being said.
The fact that you're already doing something is a good sign. Languishing and not acting is the the worst thing you can do for yourself.
It may not mean much, but I've been exactly where you are and I empathize with those sorts of feelings.
@Lunar:You should do something to relax. Watch some Disney stuff.
@Mega:If you want my serious opinion on it though, I think Black and white should go back to being one Homura but without the split personality thing. Because by now Homura's gotten to the point where she realizes her obession with Madoka is causing her more problems than its worth(At least that's what I'm gettinf from her wanting Black dead.), and she can actually start to confront her own feelings on the whole situation.
PM box is Closed, Indefinitely Friend Code: 3368-4181-6850It's the same way with me. I know what that feels like, and how horrible it can get. The part about not feeling in control, too; I've felt exactly the same way.
And yeah, it's hard. It's real hard. But the thing is, you've got to keep trying. Saying that you wish it'll end someday is a valid wish, and it's one that conveys a sense of "I can't stop this myself." And in some ways, that's true, I'll concede. You can't go it alone; that's why you have people to help you through it, as frustrating as it'll get.
But it will end someday. As long as you keep doing something to work at it, it'll improve. Not everything will work, but eventually, something will, and then it'll be worth it.
Hang in there, alright? That's all you've got to do. Everything else comes later.
edited 20th Nov '15 2:07:49 PM by ramuf
Maybe you could try to figure out when the episodes are going to happen?
Like when you start feeling like you don't care and are gonna hit the depression episode you would crawl into the soft warm bed hole and watch some disney or do anything that always makes you happy no matter what mood your in until it goes away?
And when your in the positive mood write some notes on why you are an amazing person and look at them when that starts to go away for the other episode?
edited 20th Nov '15 3:05:01 PM by Lilqueendaisy
LOVE IS STORED IN THE AXOLOTL!

Hey, you guys mind if I ask for input about what to do with the Homuras?
The damned queen and the relentless knight.