I'm simply stunned, seriously.
I'm more amazed by all that than upset, really, I'm still having trouble believing all that, wow, I was completely fooled by that.
But really, even if you were tricking everyone, it's nice to see that you wanted to help Sixth out like that, I really respect that, and it was a pretty good act too, it could've gone for years and I wouldn't even notice, like I said, I'm more amazed than anything, though I guess it does explain some things.
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You pretty much covered my thoughts on the matter there, Full Moon. I'm impressed, Eskay. You're a really good writer.
Also, responding to those who responded to my post here earlier, don't worry, if I do leave the RP, I'll definitly stay in touch. (I kind of wish I could say I've made up my mind for sure about leaving, but like I said, I did have things I wanted to do, so... I'll think about it, I guess?)
Does anyone else have anything big that they'd care to admit right now?
Hugging a Vanillite will give you frostbite.So...due to issues in RL that were caused by my brother, I'm going to be significantly less active for an indefinite time, possibly permanently. I'm not sure whether or not I should quit or just put my characters on a bus. This is because there is a very real possibility I might be forced to leave for good.
If things get any better, you'll see me around as often as I usually am, but if not, you know what happened at least.
....
....Would it kill you guys....
To, Oh, I dunno,
CALM THE FUCK DOWN FOR ONCE!?
Seriously I....
Look, I have a lot of patience. I understand that a lot of us have massive issues. So many that we could easily alt-title this thing "ITT: We All Have Issues." I'm probably one of the least messed up people in this RP.
But really? Is it that hard to CALM THE FUCK DOWN, AND MAYBE WATCH WHAT YOU SAY TO PEOPLE?
We had to talk someone down from a suicide attempt last night!
But seriously? If we could just watch what we say to people, and not freak out at the slightest little provocation, things would be a lot easier.
Sixth, I understand you're feeling kinda betrayed. Eskay is already punishing himself for what happened.
Take a break, and just chill out a bit.

Before you react to any part of this, read the entire post.
I have a confession that is likely to hurt several people... and I know "sorry" simply won't excuse it, but I'm sorry nonetheless...
The troper known as Bittersweet N Sour... was a complete lie... A hoax... An entire person who was really me behind a mask...
You're probably wondering why I would do something like that, something so deceptive... I have reasons, but I understand they don't justify my actions...
While the "test" proved successful, I was stuck with a lie which formed the basis of a thousand other lies... Yet I kept the ruse up. Why?
This is the part where I excessively apologize to Sixth. I doubled my lie to help him out, to give him someone to talk to, to relate to... The half of "Bittersweet" known as "Sarah Calder". It helped me bring him to his senses during several of his breakdowns. It even saved my life, by making him delay a plan for suicide by giving him a reason to shout at me before he went... And it hurt, lying to my best friend...
Although there was another purpose to this, which didn't even occur until recently. "Sarah" became a conscience for me, a second point of view on what I do... And it even brought me to my senses last weekend, when I stopped caring about absolutely everything... A slap to wake me up. And like all slaps, it hurt. But it also gave me the only part of this hoax I don't regret...
I have a feeling you can guess just how lonely I really was yesterday...
Again, I'm really, truly sorry I deceived everyone... I hope you all forgive me, but I understand if you don't... And I'll leave if people want me to... I made a mistake, and I'll accept the punishment...