I want it to be.
...I got a treat for my birthday, a couple weeks ago. It wasn't — they didn't know it was my birthday, but I figured I could pretend it was. It... it was pretty good. You know, all that stuff, it — it tastes better like this, y'know? It's no wonder that dogs...
...
I want to forget. If anyone can help me do that, it's you. I don't want to know I was anything ever than this.
edited 31st Aug '16 11:29:07 PM by WonderSquid
I have nothing left anymore but this. Not Tifa, not my job, not anything I used to enjoy doing. Whatever Cloud is now, his life is over. None of that's ever coming back. Zack, Aeris, millions of people, died for this.
It's all I can think about and that's why I'm still not happy. But if I don't know how much I lost, then I have things pretty good, right? I have a good owner, and I'm fed sausages sometimes, and people pet me and tell me I'm a good dog. And I am a good dog. It's the best thing I've ever been — it's the only good thing I've ever been, really. I know by now I make for one lousy person.
I think you just...have a knack for getting into bad situations.
I don't think you're a lousy person. I mean I'll be honest we haven't always agreed on everything to put it lightly.
....
Me and him. We didn't.
But you...I dunno. You're still Cloud. And to me Cloud is a person that always finds some kind of way. He gets knocked down a lot but he always gets back up not matter who's bullying him. He was a person that could always be counted on to at least try his best, and to have your back, and to be there to check you when you're acting like an idiot.
...You don't remember anything of me and that's fine. The Cloud I knew is long gone, I'm okay with that now. But I thought maybe you and me could be friends, that's just me being selfish. Its your choice. You want this done?
PM box is Closed, Indefinitely Friend Code: 3368-4181-6850I remember you. Not... not everything, but parts.
I know why everyone wants him back. But it isn't fair — I did everything right, the way it was supposed to happen. Was... was this supposed to happen? To the world, and to me, and everything, it — this is the best it gets. The best it's allowed to get, and it's this. It's me. I'm the "best Cloud".
...If I was smart I'd just off myself or something, but that — it hurt too much. -He sounds almost embarassed- You wouldn't think I'd care about something like a few bad burns, after... after all that stuff, but it just hurt too much, and I had to stop.
I want it to be over. It all hurts too much.
Do you really want me? Or do you want to pretend he didn't leave?
-Gracia is watching from a short distance away-
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?...
For a long time I wanted you to be him. To pretend like he had just come back again. But that's not right.
I got into a similar situation with my friend Ges. He left and another one came around, but he wasn't the same and we all started to pretend he was Ges' replacement, and he hated that.
I only realized it after talking with Roger. You're not the Cloud I grew up with, you're different and I should have given you a chance to just...be you.
=is sort of looking away from him now-
This is may fault. I agreed to bite you. I thought you were the same, he was better than me at controlling it.
PM box is Closed, Indefinitely Friend Code: 3368-4181-6850-Is hiding behind a tree since he buried his modesty blanket in the front yard-
-If Gracia is on the wrong side of the tree she will hopefully note that every last bit of joy has clearly been sucked right out of his face weeks ago before panicking over the dongers-
No, it's not. It was getting worse, but that trial set it off all at once. It... they caught one of the guys that... from Nibelheim. Seeing him made me remember a lot of things I've been trying to forget, and it all kinda —
Just — it's better for everyone if I just... went away. But I can't, because I'm too afraid to. So... so it's this, instead.
edited 1st Sep '16 12:16:21 AM by WonderSquid
No more hurting.
-Gracia has gotten closer-
-She is keeping her eyes on the ground, partly out of the emotional upheaval, mostly cuz dongers-
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?...If there's one thing I know.
Waiting never really fixes anything. They just stay the same. So what'll probably happen is you'll live like this for a while, until you either can't or get tired of it. And then you'll try something different to avoid what's bugging you.
If Reeve were around he would have understood. He would have talked to everyone, and convinced them you weren't a monster because you're not. You could have gone home.
PM box is Closed, Indefinitely Friend Code: 3368-4181-6850I can't, though. I can't go home. Nobody wants me anywhere anymore. My first owners, when they found out I wasn't a real dog, they didn't want me either.
Please tell me it's gonna be okay. And, if you can't do that, I don't want to be Cloud anymore. I don't want to be anyone.
-Gracia will note he's started very quietly crying, doing his best to stifle it-
edited 1st Sep '16 1:00:00 AM by WonderSquid
-She takes his hand-
-How'd she get so close so suddenly-
You don't have to be Cloud. But you can still be my friend. My best friend. Please.
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?

....Guess its not my place to question.
-sits next to him and gives him a head rub-
You ever find Reeve?
PM box is Closed, Indefinitely Friend Code: 3368-4181-6850