I know, most people probably would.
It's not like I want Gracia gone or anything - that'd be crazy. She's my friend, and I care about her a lot. But this is makin' me feel things that I really don't like.
I have a really hard time dealing with my emotions. Sometimes I just want to smash something. Maybe a tree, or a monster in the forest - something. Maybe - um - maybe this doesn't make much sense, cause I'm not like a violent person or anything. But I always have to be really careful around people all the time because of my strength. Like, what if I shake someone's hand and dislocate their arm, or I hug them and crush every bone in their body? I've gotten really, really good about avoiding that, but... when I'm angry, I want a situation where I don't have to hold back at all, and I can just... I don't know, punch a mountain in half or something.
...Ok, that got weird at the end, but.. um, yeah.
…
...I know...
(Sighs deeply.)
...To feel this way is... human. But my own compulsion, its intensity supercedes even this. I feel I will—... dissolve, or something equally stupid and melodramatic if I don't return and at least look upon them again, at least just spend a last moment in their presence before—... before I die...
make it through this year if it kills you yet | 2001-2019

-Feels bad-
...I'm sorry. I this isn't really- what you want to hear right now.