...Good question, hehhh! No two mental cases manifest in quite the same way, really, it... it, um, varies greatly, how one becomes a raving, frothing lunatic, fit only for heavy medication and a prolonged stay in a straightjacket, eheheh...
(Smirks tiredly and pushes a hand through his bangs.)
...I am having... compulsions, essentially, wrong and selfish and irrational and incorrect compulsions the likes of which I have not known in my entire life, and it's... it's... troubling. On a deep level. Deeply troubling...
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(Sighs, very quietly and looks down a little.)
...Heh. It's difficult even to articulate this, that's how insipid it is. I... I have—had an obligation, before I came here, and as one would expect, the coming here part rather complicated that, and I wished to return and see to it that my obligation was fulfilled, right?
make it through this year if it kills you yet | 2001-2019...Nothing, heh. Nothing at all. This is rational behavior.
...But I learned, quite recently, that my—... I learned that I was effectively absolved of this obligation, that all was swimmingly well on that front, and all of my concerns about it were instantly allayed. Immensely fortunate news, perhaps the most fortunate news I had received since I learned Frederik Lindström's Värsta språket was renewed for a second season... Heh! So no reason for me to even... even vaguely wish to return to that front, none that made even a shred of rational sense, someone more than likely now holds my self-same obligation and more than likely does it better by several measures...
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(Seems to realize just how much he spewed just then and goes very quiet.)
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He- oh.
-Pointedly flat-