I missed it as well. I missed the sky.
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?You're not infective any more. Not like you were. You can swim now.
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?I... I can but... you, you tell me to come here and spill everything and... I can't even do that because you just keep saying "I did this" or... "I did that". Stop, please. Please.
-long pause, she's staring to shake a little and her breathing's picking up- I just don't want to think about anything anymore, I want it to go back to the way it used to be. Before I was here, before I knew anyone here. It, it was so simple and easy back then. I didn't wake up just feeling like the world was against me and just wants me to suffer. I had protection, I had my Dad to hug and tell me it was alright! H-he might be an awful person but at least he actually tried to care! They both did!! They're absolutely terrible people but they tried to give a shit...
-she balls up her fists- ...but they can't do anything right! They fucked me up, Silver! They fucked me up bad and I try look back on those times and just beg and plead for the good to come back because it was the only time in my life where I felt safe but now, now I can't do that anymore! I just think about all the bad times now and it won't stop! I know that everything in my life up to this point is one big, fat, fucking joke! Nothing good lasts for me! What's the point anymore?! I can't have a family, I can't have friends, I cant have anything because someone is just gonna take it away from me!!
-She's just yelling at this point- Why does everyone else to have a family and friends, and and people that love them and I don't?! What the fuck did I do to deserve this?! Am I being punished for something?! I just want answers and I can't fucking get them! The universe is laughing in my face and I can't do anything to fight it! I'm... I'm just... I'm so tired and I just want it all to end... maybe I'll find the answers I want then...
What happens to her if ya' off ya'self?
edited 17th May '16 7:34:38 PM by ChrissieMcNapkins
I live in a constant state of fear and misery.I'm glad everyone is okay, then. I was worried bad things were happening while I was away.
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?Cloud will take me home, soon. And I will have a place to live, and a family to be with.
What if there’s no better word than just not saying anything?

...You don't really care, do you?
Do ya' have any friends?
I live in a constant state of fear and misery.