...No. You are merely experiencing emotions. Any human being in your position would feel similarly.
(Pushes a hand through his bangs.)
...Just remember this. You're not any good to your cause dead. You cannot come back. If you make some rash decision in the heat of it, and you're gone... Your Servant will just be free of your influence, free to run off and make another contract with some ignorant sap and do every terrible thing he wanted to do.
make it through this year if it kills you yet | 2001-2019(Fully unfazed by any of this.)
...Just not to die. You may take whatever measures you deem necessary. You may be as reckless as you wish. Just don't go into it with the intent that it will be a suicide mission, because that helps no one, especially not your friends you mentioned.
(Same bored, sleepy monotone he always uses.)
make it through this year if it kills you yet | 2001-2019...Human beings are capable of seemingly impossible things when they truly believe they can do them. It's bizarre, I have no idea how they do it, but... They can. It's just something in the human will, or... whatever you call it. Confidence, trifling and intangible and irrational and flighty as it may be, can make all the difference.
make it through this year if it kills you yet | 2001-2019

Yeah, I know that. I fight with a crossbow. But not that that's gonna make a difference against a Heroic Spirit, especially when about a dozen people who are all a hundred times stronger than me are also gunning for them, right?