-nods- Indeed I am.
And me, personally- I prefer to study qualities themselves rather than any specific theatrics.
-smirks a little-
Yeah, it's unfortunate.
If I die, I become as real as the tooth fairy.
... Y'know- assuming the tooth fairy isn't real in your world.
But- I come back, at the age I was when I was cursed. Which was 25.
That's how people get consistently amazed.
1.5 imperial gallons of tea were consumed during the writing of this post-nods- Indeed. Magic is a very complex study. Especially when it comes to the higher forms of magic.
The larger, and more monumental something is... the harder to understand it becomes.
I may start- with a simple thing. Say... -picks a single blade of grass- this one piece of grass. It's flimsy. Probably won't cut through anything. -his hand glows around it, as he mutters something in a language you can't quite place- But now- it will, because I have given it a sharp quality- to its' greatest potential. -he then cuts a small branch off a tree using the blade of grass-
But then... if I wanted to say- make it rain. I am dealing with tens, maybe hundreds, of different qualities.
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How can I help if I don't know what it is.
I live in a constant state of fear and misery.