Mm.
I can't have kids, normally. I... have a condition. It means I'm sterile. We were fine with adopting, but... I don't know. I guess I've always wanted to —
...
I don't really know, honestly. It was probably just pride, to prove I could. It was stupid.
I found a workaround, with this place. Long story. Involves Old Gods. And I had one.
I did something that was completely impossible and at odds with anything that should've happened in my universe. That's what set everything off. And then I just kept doing more things I shouldn't have been able to do. It ruined everything, and the world just kind of collapsed in on itself the further I went.
Wasn't really worth it. He didn't even make it to his second birthday. A waste.
Really ought to have learned my damn lesson by now, considering what happened the first time I "needed" to have a biological child.
-He doesn't even sound that sad anymore. Mostly just tired-

Sea Cucumber, use your tranquilizer pistol!
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