Hi there! I'm Halo Blues (no, not a reference to the video game), otherwise known as Cole. I'm a Scottish guy (he/him) born in '99 and from a — very — small town. I've technically been around on an old account for over a decade, making scattered edits for about 8 years, but I decided to start fresh when I committed to actually using the site more in-depth and properly throwing myself into troping. Back then, I was really only here to read and didn't know much about the customs here.
I don't have access to my laptop for a couple of weeks, so things may be spotty, but my P Ms are open to any missteps I make while learning and I look forward to contributing.
- I was born in Germany, but I've lived in Scotland for so long I barely remember anything else — I'm fluent in English, but very rusty with my native German, though I do want to relearn it properly someday. I also briefly lived in Thailand when my father married my Thai stepmother.
- I have an adopted Maltese terrier named Elf, who spends 99% of his time sleeping, tearing up my floors, and pooping in my house. I love him dearly, even if he does end up making me go grey in my 20s. In the past, I've had cats, fish, hamsters, guinea pigs, and rabbits — and, very briefly, a hedgehog and pigeon I rescued.
- I have several siblings — older, younger, brothers, sisters — but am closest with my older sister. After we lost our mother in April '24, we moved into houses opposite each other and tend to just turn up to root through one another's kitchen cupboards if we have free time.
- I was apparently born determined to be different; my family is blue-eyed while my eyes are green, they're right-handed while I'm left-handed, and they're generally all naturally fair-haired while I spawned in brunette and with patches of ginger in my facial hair. Apparently, I have extended relatives to thank for that. I also physically take after my father, while all of my siblings look like my mother.
- My favourite colour is black, followed by dark red. I'm also fond of gold, especially in combination with black.
- My favourite animals are capybaras, rabbits, dogs, horses, and fruit bats.
- I like 'alt' fashion — black, skinny jeans, chains, platform boots, black nails, and so on.
- I enjoy reading, writing, gaming, and listening to music (and curating my far too sizeable amount of themed playlists). My favourite book (and movie) genres are non-fiction, fantasy, and horror, particularly psychological horror, while my favourite video game genres are RP Gs and choice-based/interactive narratives — basically, anything character- and relationship-focused. When it comes to music, I like almost everything; I'm not a big fan of jazz or lofi, but I can find at least something I vibe with in most other genres.
- I'm... gay? No label feels quite right thus far. The long version is I can be romantically attracted to any gender, but I heavily prefer being with men, and am only sexually attracted to men. 'Gay' describes my preferences better, but I have been with (and currently am with) women, so it still feels misleading. I tend to just call myself MLM.
- I'm also polyamorous, and in a happy long-term relationship with my fiancee and boyfriend.
- I've been medically dead twice, as in on two separate occasions. I guess you can't keep me down!
- I did horseback riding for a decade and a half, including participating in (and winning) showjumping competitions, but unfortunately had to quit due to my health. I also attended an acting academy and took part in a few plays as a teen.
- Speaking of my health, I will mention a couple of things here that have the potential to affect how I interact on here, though I prefer to keep the majority of my health information private. I am autistic, as I gather many people here are, which for me means I struggle to decipher (and convey) tone accurately and would appreciate if people were clear with instructions and upfront with what is wanted from me. I also have AVPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder), which is... think social anxiety but on steroids. Because of this, I struggle heavily with initiating conversation and talking to people, but I've been working on this for years and am always looking to improve. Most significantly, I am diagnosed with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder). I don't often talk about this, as I'm very aware of the perception of it online and am not interested in people applying their miconceptions around it to me, but it is something I and the people I love IRL have to deal with. I am very careful not to let it affect TVT — I have the site password-locked — but as a result I may disappear sporadically or for extended periods, and for that I deeply apologise.
- Alice in Wonderland (2010)
- Barbie (2023)
- Daniel Isn't Real (admittedly, mainly because a friend of mine is the lead)
- Final Destination
- Heathers
- Hereditary
- Host
- Hot Fuzz
- Howl's Moving Castle
- Pirates of the Caribbean
- Princess Mononoke
- The Rocky Horror Picture Show
- Scooby-Doo
- Scott Pilgrim vs. The World
- Scream
- Shaun of the Dead
- Skyfall
- Spirited Away
- Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street
- Talk to Me
- The Force Awakens
- Thor: Ragnarok
- Train to Busan
- What We Do in the Shadows
- X-Men: First Class
- Alice: Madness Returns
- Among Us
- Animal Crossing: Wild World
- Animal Crossing: New Leaf
- Baldur's Gate III
- Batman: The Telltale Series
- Borderlands
- Catherine
- Corpse Party
- Danganronpa
- Detroit: Become Human
- Devil May Cry 5
- Dragon Age
- Fable
- Fallen Hero (Hosted Games)
- Far Cry 4
- Final Fantasy (mostly VII, XII, XIII, and XIII-2)
- Fire Emblem: Three Houses
- Genshin Impact
- Heroes Rise
- Honkai: Star Rail
- Ib
- Keeper of the Sun and Moon
- L.A. Noire
- Little Nightmares
- Mario Party 8
- Minecraft
- Mystic Messenger
- Pokémon
- Red Dead Redemption
- Resident Evil (mostly 2, 4, 7, and 8)
- Saints Row
- SOMA
- Stardew Valley
- Subnautica
- Tales from the Borderlands
- The Arcana
- The Cat Lady
- The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim
- The Quarry
- The Walking Dead (Telltale)
- The Wayhaven Chronicles
- The Wolf Among Us
- Alcoholic Mom: Grew up with one of these, which has affected me heavily.
- Because You Were Nice to Me: I find it very hard to hold grudges against or dislike people once they've shown me any kind of small kindness, even if I really, really should. The fastest way to earn my loyalty is just to be nice to me.
- Blind Without Them: I am utterly unable to function without my contact lenses in. Both my long- and short-distance vision are terrible, and I can't see anything at all.
- Covered with Scars: I've long since lost count of how many I have, though none of them come with any interesting stories.
- Dad the Veteran: My father was a sergeant major in the military before I was born, and our household was very strict as a result.
- Dark and Troubled Past: Not something I'll delve into for obvious reasons, but the multiple trauma-rooted disorders didn't appear for no reason.
- Deadpan Snarker: My favourite brand of humour is a good, dry one-liner that catches you off-guard and is delivered with no change in expression. As a result, it's the kind of humour I'm partial to dishing out as well. It has the draw-back of it not always being clear when I'm joking.
- Freaky Fashion, Mild Mind: My physical appearance would probably suggest I'm intimidating or unapproachable, with lots of black, chains, and spikes. In reality, though, I'm very friendly and shy.
- Guyliner: I'm fond of wearing it, though I'm incredibly squeamish about things near my eyes, so I don't do it as often as I'd prefer.
- Hates Small Talk: I struggle a lot with it due to being autistic — I don't often see the point in it, and I much prefer to skip the "hello, how's your day been" part and get to what we actually want to say.
- Headphones Equal Isolation: I wear headphones virtually all day, every day, and I much prefer to keep to myself and avoid attention. That said, it's primarily to assist with my autism, as noise-cancelling headphones help to muffle background noise that can be overwhelming for me.
- Homeschooled Kids: I left high school at 14 years old for health reasons, and was homeschooled afterwards.
- I Miss Mom: Despite my complicated feelings on her while she was alive, losing my mother very suddenly in April '24 has been incredibly hard on me, and I would do virtually anything to have one last conversation with her.
- Inopportune Voice Cracking: Happens annoyingly often, and seemingly only in moments I'm trying to sound put-together.
- Like Father, Like Son: At our core, we're quite different (thankfully), but I do have a lot of traits in common with him such as our introversion, difficulty being vulnerable, dry humour, propensity for solitude, and hatred of clutter.
- Like Parent, Like Spouse: My fiancee has a lot in common with my mother, and I have a lot in common with her father. We make jokes about this often.
- Liquid Courage: I use this on occasion to deal with my anxiety. I wouldn't say I'm overly reliant on it, but I'll turn to it sometimes before a difficult conversation or doing something I'm scared of.
- Literal-Minded: Not as much of an issue for me as it is for many other autistics, but I do have my moments.
- Mellow Fellow: I'm very easy-going and it takes a lot to make me angry. My sister recently described me as "so laid-back, he's basically on the floor".
- My Beloved Smother: What my mother was while she was alive.
- Near-Death Experience: I've had several, not including the two times I've actually died.
- Nice Guy: Much as I loathe having that phrasing associated with me, kindness is the trait I value and prioritise most in both myself and other people. Everything else — intelligence, humour, creativity — is a nice bonus that comes secondary to just being a decent person.
- Past Experience Nightmare: Part and parcel of c-PTSD.
- Quizzical Tilt: I do this a lot when I'm confused.
- Raven Hair, Ivory Skin: My hair is black, and I'm pale enough that people very often comment on it.
- Self-Deprecation: Something I'm very prone to.
- Shared Family Quirks: Picked up my father's habit of rubbing his ankles together whenever he's lying down.
- Spiders Are Scary: One of my biggest fears, even with full knowledge it's irrational.
- Strong Family Resemblance: I've been told more than a few times that I resemble my father. When I was a kid, someone apparently acquainted with him came to give a talk at my school, looked directly at me, and said: "Y'know, if you chopped all your hair off, you'd look just like your dad."
- The Load: Something I'm unfortunately aware of being all too often; I struggle with a lot of tasks others find easy, and often depend on people to help me.
- The Mentally Disturbed: I have a frankly absurd amount of diagnoses, and struggle heavily because of it.
- Tragic Keepsake: I'm never not wearing a bracelet that my mother gave me before she died.
- Tranquil Fury: I'm very, very rarely angry, but when I am it's generally this, where I'll get cold and quiet.
- "Well Done, Son" Guy: Unfortunately, I deeply crave validation and praise from my father, who is... not one for giving those.
- Wide-Eyed Idealist: Some call it naivete, but I'm proud of my idealism and ability to see the good in people and the world, in spite of everything I've experienced. I'm determined not to let any of my pain change me for the worse.
- Affably Evil
- Alternative Character Interpretation
- Awful Truth
- Ambiguously Bi
- Ambiguously Gay
- Bookends
- Criminal Found Family
- Deadpan Snarker
- Deconstructed Character Archetype
- Establishing Character Moment
- Even Evil Has Standards
- Family of Choice
- Fatal Flaw
- Faux Affably Evil
- Fire-Forged Friends
- Foil
- Foreshadowing
- He Who Fights Monsters
- Hidden Depths
- Leitmotif
- O.O.C. Is Serious Business
- Paranoia Fuel
- Ragtag Bunch of Misfits
- Realism-Induced Horror
- Slasher Smile
- The Comically Serious
- The Reveal
- Token Evil Teammate
- Tomato in the Mirror
- Traitor Shot
- True Companions
- Undying Loyalty
- Villainous Friendship
- Villain Protagonist
- Villainous Valour
- Wham Line
- Wham Shot
