i was given feelings that were never felt before.
I just read this, and wow okay. I got lightheaded from hyperventilating at least three times. First, every part made me happy and I were absolutely dying from laughter at first and then I was happy (still) and awwing from friendships and relationships and then I was sobbing and horrified and going "NO WHY" and I just. It was so good and dammnit it's not finished but legit, this was ridiculously good. But it was rip your heart out and sew back the pieces only to tear it up again halfway through healing.