I feel good. Scratch that. I feel happy
. And useful. I feel like I have done a good thing.
A couple of hours ago I received a mail from Annarti (or Narti), the guy who wrote Black Albino
. "What?", you ask? Well I have commented the story a couple of times in the chatroom already so as to not be verbose tl;dr: it's the one
Nidoran fanfic of the early 2000s, and the one that inspired me to continue liking those cute critters.
Guy had just authorized me to use his characters for the We Are All Pokémon Trainers
roleplay, which I eventually did and credited for*
. But he added an attachment to his mail — an outline for the fic he had written already some 10 years ago.
The important thing about it, in what concerns this thread, was not that it was a pretty interesting and well planned outline of what ended up being a nice, solid, if dead, fanfic, but instead the extra at the end of the document where he wrote a pretty complete for the time (circa 2002, that is Gen II), analysis on the Nidoran line. I'm gonna call it Nidoran Article version 0
and you'll see why.
It had everything that we'd expected to be there in one of our articles: basic description and analysis of the line, physiology, evolution, social structure, predation hazards, a breeding section that unlike mine made sense
, plus some bonuses like (micro)habitat, lifespan, habits and scientific name, and the guy even had answered by then the question posited at PEFE's start page of "What kind of nests do Nidoran build?
", which, granted, I myself haven't worded out the answer for yet. By 2002. This made me feel strongly. Being quoted, linked to and recommended by Aqua Bunny is one thing, and it is a great thing mind, but this guy here? I see it now: he formed me
as a PEFE researcher.
Back by early 2000s I was at that point where GabuEx's article
mentions the crossroad of "aren't you getting too old for that?". Not just for Pokémon, but for a lot of things, kinda finally giving up the last Hope Spot
of idealism on the so-called scale if you want. But this fic was one of two or three things that, reminiscing those times, prevented me from taking the plunge*
. Black Albino
was not just a good Pokémon fic #38468253252 where random Trainer #4899757 had a random Nidoran #1634278. It was a good. Nidoran. fanfic
. And it helped me skim thru a stage of life by preserving something that I liked. It provided me with questions that I'd have to find the way to answer when I re-awakened to my "have fun" side years later.
I "recovered", duh, and I started enjoying asking myself those questions. That eventually ended up with me here, somehow, and you guys know how that turned out. I first came here
sheepishly, knowing me good enough to write research for myself, but never having submitted it to peer review. Then a relatively basic, by my terms, Nidoran article
dibs call, and working on more entries and reviews from there, always keeping the Nidoran entry by the side, always feeding it and nursing it. Heck, it's the only entry (so far) with official version numbering
But I look at it today and I realize, many of those questions that danced around my head when I wrote the article, they were already
solved, about ten years in advance. Someone else liked them Nidoran enough to tackle on the challenge, and did a damn fine job. Then that person put some of those answers on write in the form of fanfic, not as literal answers or questions, but as a narration of a world. A narration that planted the seeds in my head to ask the same questions, and develop ideas to reach similar similarly solid answers. It took the heck of five years, and some really weird six-degrees-of-separation routing, but the answers are now here.
Perhaps the only thing that pains me a little bit is that, for what it seems, the Nidoran
article is the best thing I will have ever written on the internet, and I can't really be happy for that back at real-life home*
. But right now I don't care about that. Perhaps there was a call
somewhere that I answered, if pretty late
. Today I've got a really weird confirmation that I've done something good. It has taken a lot of effort and required quite some commentary, and in my own terms I will insist, it still
is half-done, but I feel it's on its way from good to great. No matter if the "real world" doesn't see it as something financially productive, career-building or what the heck; I personally think the ones that had to judge this
have already cast their vote.
But I'm not stopping
. Not after this. I already called Dibs on revision number 4 of the Nidoran article
. Yes, that's as many as four ones. There's a lot of work that has to be done. The breeding still makes no sense. The article still needs a nice artwork, ideally something spruce with the Royal Evolutions. The Darker and Edgier
parts have to be toned down to happy-but-realist. The paragraphs on early description don't have the same conciseness as other articles's do, there are inconcluse parts on their habitat and social structure sections, the "in popular culture" section could use some normalizing, I really
want to bring down a non-dark, non-grim reference to Watership Down
, and there's one more pack of ideas to bring in to discussion, one more person to credit... as in the end, this will really be the fifth version of the article. As a programmer, I count from zero, I should have figured something like this ought to happen... Annarti's outline is pretty solid, considering that it doesn't have the tremendous blunders that mine does, and I think with the adequate care and debate, this information can be integrated into the article, it's not like his soul isn't there in the wiki article already.
I have time. I'm not rushing this. My help is required for the Totodile
article too, whose next revision I also want to inspect closely. And anyone else developing or revising entries knows they can count with me, so long as I have the time and am not sleepy. But as I debate, propose and promote, ideas are being added, mixed, spiced up to this entry that is always by my side, in a special folder that is never sent to archiving or saved to a shelf. Here, and in many places, it's part of my identity. Every time I answer your questions, I'm also wondering "does this work for Nidoran, somehow?". So drafts will make an appearance eventually. Your
help will be required or requested, too.
All this information will be subjected to peer review to maintain a high standard of quality that ensures this entry is worth of what it has already earned. And people who love Nidoran will know they are not alone in the world as once I thought I was.
I'm not just a Nidoran fan. Being a fan is fine, it's just too simple.
I'm a Nidoran researcher
. Just like, somehow, my teacher also was. Thanks, Annarti.
And no, I don't care that this post is long. it wouldn't be me, this
me if it wasn't. Pompous and smug of my part as it might seem, for today I think the world deserves it.
edited 5th Aug '11 7:04:52 AM by SilentReverence