Korg: I feel always like I offended someone by speaking of my opinion of my weight or self. So I need to apologize. I have no idea if that makes sense. BDD? Maybe. Might be brought on by years of being made fun of in school or the years of eating ...issues... I've had and have been trying as hard as fuck to get over. Recently, I've almost given up though. sigh
Like I said, intellectually, I grasp exactly how thin I am and how I look. It just doesn't translate to me right. And I'm also naturally small.(Yes, the photos are accurate. I take them, I put them on photobucket, I post them. Right then. My sister's thinner though. And without any thing like me. She wants to gain.) My natural weight is only about 10 pounds higher than recent. (I've been lower. I've been higher.) That is one of the reasons that I'm going to the mental health people today.
Also, I do know how ridiculous it sounds. I almost erase each post with it in it. But I fucking need to get it out. And I'm sorry, because I know that it's stupid, that it's ridiculous and immature.
Dove: Join a club? I'm doing that today. I don't know. I'm bad at suggesting stuff like this, as I'm simply useless right now.(Haven't really made any new friends not in university classes or Waffle House peeps since 08.)
edited 1st Sep '10 5:54:44 AM by SenatorAwesomePants