Every now and again on the retweets I see, there's occasionally one or two people of the hardcore activist variety who say things like, and I quote:
"@theferocity I'm no longer interested in helping straight people cope with the reality of queer bodies. We're here, we're queer, we'll shank you"
Tweets like this make me very nervous to say anything about an issue online, because Twitter profiles such as these imply that some of the LGBT community have given up being allies of even the well meaning straight people who haven't figured out how to help in any particular sense of able to solve a problem.
When I see retweets of things like "@Lorata Sometimes when I see nerds being all misogynistic and self congratulatory I picture Mr. Rogers giving them a sad, disappointed look #nolie" I become rather anxious about how people like myself who barely leave their homes considering they're isolated enough from society that not only is publicly persecuting women, ethnic groups and the LGBT community offline incredibly difficult enough that creating things in our bedrooms is one of the few respites society offers us to stop us going crazy, but in addition to this people like myself have very little to gain from being intentional bigots since a lot of people like me who are anxiety ridden and terrified enough of their personal demons that keep them from thriving they turn to online communication as a surrogate for real people who often forget to help them in real life...
I'm left nervous about going on Twitter at all sometimes because I'm terrified people like the above Tweeters will jump on a statement I make and make me out to be some kind of inhuman monster when the reality is closer to me being only as threatening as the Disney version of the Hunchback of Notre Dame who's just as isolated in his little tower but not really wanting society to revile him more than it does considering years of crippling self esteem and lack of social connections lead him to a life of making artistic shit in his attic as a consolation prize for having very few reliable friends in life.
I love Twitter's ability to share short statements around, but when people can't see the whole life story that tells people where you're coming from in 140 characters it's frustrating when you feel your fumbling social skills trying to reach out to people could just make people's perceptions of you even worse.
I haven't had a particularly fun three months in this year of my life, and I don't imagine a lot of people on Twitter can see the potential nervous breakdown stressors going on in the background that make me so twitchy when I'm trying to find any real way to respond to things that appear in my Twitter timeline like the above.
Twitter can get pretty intense sometimes, and when a lot of the time your online companions are your only solace in an isolated part of the world where nobody flesh and blood deigns to talk to you often, the stakes are a bit higher for people like me over this crap than normal people who make friends super easy in far more populated countries than Australia might imagine.
Could somebody tell me if all the internet is intense and ragey about stuff I have no idea or experience in how to solve in a meaningful way, I don't want to be a monster, and I certainly don't want to be a Judge Frollo when I'm finding it tough being an internet era Quasimodo without the ugliness as it is. Surely not all of Twitter, or the internet's like this, right?