Regret is the domain of those who have earned the right to look back on the past. All I have is shame.
Long is the way, and hard, that out of Hell leads up to Light
Do you think I am unaffected by what I did? That I don't hear them screaming every time I close my eyes? It would be so much simpler if I was just one thing, wouldn't it? The mad scientist who made that killing machine or the physician who dedicated his life serving this town. The fact that I am both bewilders you. The Doctor:
Oh I know exactly what you are. And I see this reformation for what it truly is. You commited an atrocity and chose this as your punishment. Don't get me wrong, good choice — Civilized hours, lots of adulation, nice weather but, but
justice doesn't work like that! You don't get to decide when and how your debt is paid! Note...
It's irrelevant now. I don't have any responsibility for you. I don't need to warn you where your need for forgiveness will take you.
(Flings Karl into a brick wall)
Atonement is at best a journey of uncertain length and destination. But so is Revenge
, of course. We both embrace our own destruction.
Falling from heaven is not as painful as surviving the impact.
The Good Incarnation:
(...) If you spoke to these others that were here, know that a fraction of the evil of their lives is but a drop of water compared to the evil of mine. That life, that one life, even without
the thousands of others, has given us a seat in the Lower Planes for eternity. The Nameless One:
But you seem so much... calmer. More well-intentioned. The Good Incarnation:
I became that way, yes. Because for me... It is regret that may change the nature of a man
. But it was too late. I was already damned.
Teal'c: One day others may try to convince you they have forgiven you. That is more about them than you. For them, imparting forgiveness is a blessing.
Tomin: How do you go on?
It is simple. You will never forgive yourself. Accept it. You hurt others many others. That cannot be undone. You will never find personal retribution. But your life does not have to end. That which is right, just, and true can still prevail. If you do not fight for what you believe in, all may be lost for everyone else. But do not fight for yourself. Fight for others, others that may be saved through your effort. That is the least you can do.
Bekhesh: A lifetime of killing and extortion takes its toll.
Yes... but also on myself. During a hostage raid we captured a priest - a disciple of the Writ of Taru. He refused to eat or sleep: all he would do, day and night, was preach, whether anyone was listening or not. I executed him... but I kept his writ. I don't know why. One day I started reading; they were words of peace, but they made me feel... better.
Then one day I took off my gauntlet
and I threw it away.
I'm not one to despise people for their sins. I haven't found one yet, that I didn't say inside myself, "I've done worse than this."
I have done terrible things, things which I can never undo. I've walked a very dark path. All I can do is to fight to stop the evil ideas for which I once fought. If I can do that, then I can earn redemption in my own heart.
At that instant the scales fell from my eyes, and I joined the service of the same God whose name I once cursed.
I've got red on my ledger. I'd like to wipe it out.
My children... listen to me. I have lived regretting the past. And I have faced those regrets. If only I could do things over again...
, what you and I were involved with... the things we helped do... I'll be honest - I don't know if we can ever get all the way back to good. But, I think that we have a chance to do better. And if we wake up every day and try to make things better, eventually, we might find that better is good enough.
Thank you for my life. I'll try not to make such a mess of it this time.
Iím sorry. I wonít say Iíll make amends, because thereís no way I can even come close. I donít know what to say, except that Iím sorry. No excuses. But Iím going to do what I can to make things better, and maybe I get a hundredth of the way, in the end.
i am only just sixteen
and i have made a mistake
that i will never make one again
Punishment is not the answer. Punishment is easy. It's lazy. Redemption is hard. Redemption makes you work.
You know you screwed up, and you want to make it right. I've been told that trying counts for a lot. You may never balance the scales. You may never make it up to the one who dies on your watch. But giving up on fixing it is like killing them all over again.